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SENSE AND SENSIBILITY

by Jane Austen

(1811)

CHAPTER 1

The family of Dashwood had long been settled in Sussex.

Their estate was large, and their residence was at Norland Park,

in the centre of their property, where, for many generations,

they had lived in so respectable a manner as to engage

the general good opinion of their surrounding acquaintance.

The late owner of this estate was a single man, who lived

to a very advanced age, and who for many years of his life,

had a constant companion and housekeeper in his sister.

But her death, which happened ten years before his own,

produced a great alteration in his home; for to supply

her loss, he invited and received into his house the family

of his nephew Mr. Henry Dashwood, the legal inheritor

of the Norland estate, and the person to whom he intended

to bequeath it. In the society of his nephew and niece,

and their children, the old Gentleman's days were

comfortably spent. His attachment to them all increased.

The constant attention of Mr. and Mrs. Henry Dashwood

to his wishes, which proceeded not merely from interest,

but from goodness of heart, gave him every degree of solid

comfort which his age could receive; and the cheerfulness

of the children added a relish to his existence.

By a former marriage, Mr. Henry Dashwood had one

son: by his present lady, three daughters. The son,

a steady respectable young man, was amply provided

for by the fortune of his mother, which had been large,

and half of which devolved on him on his coming of age.

By his own marriage, likewise, which happened soon afterwards,

he added to his wealth. To him therefore the succession

to the Norland estate was not so really important as to

his sisters; for their fortune, independent of what might

arise to them from their father's inheriting that property,

could be but small. Their mother had nothing, and their

father only seven thousand pounds in his own disposal;

for the remaining moiety of his first wife's fortune was

also secured to her child, and he had only a life-interest

in it.

The old gentleman died: his will was read, and

like almost every other will, gave as much disappointment

as pleasure. He was neither so unjust, nor so ungrateful,

as to leave his estate from his nephew;--but he left it to him

on such terms as destroyed half the value of the bequest.

Mr. Dashwood had wished for it more for the sake of his

wife and daughters than for himself or his son;--but to

his son, and his son's son, a child of four years old,

it was secured, in such a way, as to leave to himself

no power of providing for those who were most dear

to him, and who most needed a provision by any charge

on the estate, or by any sale of its valuable woods.

The whole was tied up for the benefit of this child, who,

in occasional visits with his father and mother at Norland,

had so far gained on the affections of his uncle,

by such attractions as are by no means unusual in children

of two or three years old; an imperfect articulation,

an earnest desire of having his own way, many cunning tricks,

and a great deal of noise, as to outweigh all the value

of all the attention which, for years, he had received

from his niece and her daughters. He meant not to

be unkind, however, and, as a mark of his affection

for the three girls, he left them a thousand pounds a-piece.

Mr. Dashwood's disappointment was, at first, severe;

but his temper was cheerful and sanguine; and he might

reasonably hope to live many years, and by living economically,

lay by a considerable sum from the produce of an estate

already large, and capable of almost immediate improvement.

But the fortune, which had been so tardy in coming, was his

only one twelvemonth. He survived his uncle no longer;

and ten thousand pounds, including the late legacies,

was all that remained for his widow and daughters.

His son was sent for as soon as his danger was known,

and to him Mr. Dashwood recommended, with all the strength

and urgency which illness could command, the interest

of his mother-in-law and sisters.

Mr. John Dashwood had not the strong feelings of the

rest of the family; but he was affected by a recommendation

of such a nature at such a time, and he promised to do

every thing in his power to make them comfortable.

His father was rendered easy by such an assurance,

and Mr. John Dashwood had then leisure to consider how

much there might prudently be in his power to do for them.

He was not an ill-disposed young man, unless to

be rather cold hearted and rather selfish is to be

ill-disposed: but he was, in general, well respected;

for he conducted himself with propriety in the discharge

of his ordinary duties. Had he married a more amiable woman,

he might have been made still more respectable than he

was:--he might even have been made amiable himself; for he

was very young when he married, and very fond of his wife.

But Mrs. John Dashwood was a strong caricature of himself;--

more narrow-minded and selfish.

When he gave his promise to his father, he meditated

within himself to increase the fortunes of his sisters

by the present of a thousand pounds a-piece. He then

really thought himself equal to it. The prospect of four

thousand a-year, in addition to his present income,

besides the remaining half of his own mother's fortune,

warmed his heart, and made him feel capable of generosity.--

"Yes, he would give them three thousand pounds: it would

be liberal and handsome! It would be enough to make

them completely easy. Three thousand pounds! he could

spare so considerable a sum with little inconvenience."--

He thought of it all day long, and for many days successively,

and he did not repent.

No sooner was his father's funeral over, than Mrs. John

Dashwood, without sending any notice of her intention to her

mother-in-law, arrived with her child and their attendants.

No one could dispute her right to come; the house was

her husband's from the moment of his father's decease;

but the indelicacy of her conduct was so much the greater,

and to a woman in Mrs. Dashwood's situation, with only

common feelings, must have been highly unpleasing;--

but in HER mind there was a sense of honor so keen,

a generosity so romantic, that any offence of the kind,

by whomsoever given or received, was to her a source

of immoveable disgust. Mrs. John Dashwood had never

been a favourite with any of her husband's family;

but she had had no opportunity, till the present,

of shewing them with how little attention to the comfort

of other people she could act when occasion required it.

So acutely did Mrs. Dashwood feel this ungracious

behaviour, and so earnestly did she despise her

daughter-in-law for it, that, on the arrival of the latter,

she would have quitted the house for ever, had not the

entreaty of her eldest girl induced her first to reflect

on the propriety of going, and her own tender love for all

her three children determined her afterwards to stay,

and for their sakes avoid a breach with their brother.

Elinor, this eldest daughter, whose advice was

so effectual, possessed a strength of understanding,

and coolness of judgment, which qualified her,

though only nineteen, to be the counsellor of her mother,

and enabled her frequently to counteract, to the advantage

of them all, that eagerness of mind in Mrs. Dashwood

which must generally have led to imprudence. She had

an excellent heart;--her disposition was affectionate,

and her feelings were strong; but she knew how to govern

them: it was a knowledge which her mother had yet to learn;

and which one of her sisters had resolved never to be taught.

Marianne's abilities were, in many respects,

quite equal to Elinor's. She was sensible and clever;

but eager in everything: her sorrows, her joys, could have

no moderation. She was generous, amiable, interesting: she

was everything but prudent. The resemblance between

her and her mother was strikingly great.

Elinor saw, with concern, the excess of her

sister's sensibility; but by Mrs. Dashwood it was valued

and cherished. They encouraged each other now in the

violence of their affliction. The agony of grief

which overpowered them at first, was voluntarily renewed,

was sought for, was created again and again. They gave

themselves up wholly to their sorrow, seeking increase

of wretchedness in every reflection that could afford it,

and resolved against ever admitting consolation

in future. Elinor, too, was deeply afflicted; but still

she could struggle, she could exert herself. She could

consult with her brother, could receive her sister-in-law

on her arrival, and treat her with proper attention;

and could strive to rouse her mother to similar exertion,

and encourage her to similar forbearance.

Margaret, the other sister, was a good-humored,

well-disposed girl; but as she had already imbibed

a good deal of Marianne's romance, without having

much of her sense, she did not, at thirteen, bid fair

to equal her sisters at a more advanced period of life.

CHAPTER 2

Mrs. John Dashwood now installed herself mistress

of Norland; and her mother and sisters-in-law were degraded

to the condition of visitors. As such, however, they were

treated by her with quiet civility; and by her husband

with as much kindness as he could feel towards anybody

beyond himself, his wife, and their child. He really

pressed them, with some earnestness, to consider Norland

as their home; and, as no plan appeared so eligible

to Mrs. Dashwood as remaining there till she could

accommodate herself with a house in the neighbourhood,

his invitation was accepted.

A continuance in a place where everything reminded

her of former delight, was exactly what suited her mind.

In seasons of cheerfulness, no temper could be more cheerful

than hers, or possess, in a greater degree, that sanguine

expectation of happiness which is happiness itself.

But in sorrow she must be equally carried away by her fancy,

and as far beyond consolation as in pleasure she was

beyond alloy.

Mrs. John Dashwood did not at all approve of what her

husband intended to do for his sisters. To take three

thousand pounds from the fortune of their dear little boy

would be impoverishing him to the most dreadful degree.

She begged him to think again on the subject. How could

he answer it to himself to rob his child, and his only

child too, of so large a sum? And what possible claim

could the Miss Dashwoods, who were related to him only by

half blood, which she considered as no relationship at all,

have on his generosity to so large an amount. It was very

well known that no affection was ever supposed to exist

between the children of any man by different marriages;

and why was he to ruin himself, and their poor little Harry,

by giving away all his money to his half sisters?

"It was my father's last request to me," replied

her husband, "that I should assist his widow and daughters."

"He did not know what he was talking of, I dare say;

ten to one but he was light-headed at the time.

Had he been in his right senses, he could not have thought

of such a thing as begging you to give away half your

fortune from your own child."

"He did not stipulate for any particular sum,

my dear Fanny; he only requested me, in general terms,

to assist them, and make their situation more comfortable

than it was in his power to do. Perhaps it would

have been as well if he had left it wholly to myself.

He could hardly suppose I should neglect them.

But as he required the promise, I could not do less

than give it; at least I thought so at the time.

The promise, therefore, was given, and must be performed.

Something must be done for them whenever they leave Norland

and settle in a new home."

"Well, then, LET something be done for them;

but THAT something need not be three thousand pounds.

Consider," she added, "that when the money is once

parted with, it never can return. Your sisters will marry,

and it will be gone for ever. If, indeed, it could

be restored to our poor little boy--"

"Why, to be sure," said her husband, very gravely,

"that would make great difference. The time may come when

Harry will regret that so large a sum was parted with.

If he should have a numerous family, for instance, it would

be a very convenient addition."

"To be sure it would."

"Perhaps, then, it would be better for all parties,

if the sum were diminished one half.--Five hundred pounds

would be a prodigious increase to their fortunes!"

"Oh! beyond anything great! What brother on earth

would do half so much for his sisters, even if REALLY

his sisters! And as it is--only half blood!--But you

have such a generous spirit!"

"I would not wish to do any thing mean," he replied.

"One had rather, on such occasions, do too much than

too little. No one, at least, can think I have not

done enough for them: even themselves, they can hardly

expect more."

"There is no knowing what THEY may expect,"

said the lady, "but we are not to think of their

expectations: the question is, what you can afford to do."

"Certainly--and I think I may afford to give them five

hundred pounds a-piece. As it is, without any addition

of mine, they will each have about three thousand pounds

on their mother's death--a very comfortable fortune

for any young woman."

"To be sure it is; and, indeed, it strikes me that

they can want no addition at all. They will have ten

thousand pounds divided amongst them. If they marry,

they will be sure of doing well, and if they do not,

they may all live very comfortably together on the interest

of ten thousand pounds."

"That is very true, and, therefore, I do not know whether,

upon the whole, it would not be more advisable to do

something for their mother while she lives, rather than

for them--something of the annuity kind I mean.--My sisters

would feel the good effects of it as well as herself.

A hundred a year would make them all perfectly comfortable."

His wife hesitated a little, however, in giving

her consent to this plan.

"To be sure," said she, "it is better than parting with

fifteen hundred pounds at once. But, then, if Mrs. Dashwood

should live fifteen years we shall be completely taken in."

"Fifteen years! my dear Fanny; her life cannot

be worth half that purchase."

"Certainly not; but if you observe, people always

live for ever when there is an annuity to be paid them;

and she is very stout and healthy, and hardly forty.

An annuity is a very serious business; it comes over

and over every year, and there is no getting rid

of it. You are not aware of what you are doing.

I have known a great deal of the trouble of annuities;

for my mother was clogged with the payment of three

to old superannuated servants by my father's will,

and it is amazing how disagreeable she found it.

Twice every year these annuities were to be paid; and then

there was the trouble of getting it to them; and then one

of them was said to have died, and afterwards it turned

out to be no such thing. My mother was quite sick of it.

Her income was not her own, she said, with such perpetual

claims on it; and it was the more unkind in my father,

because, otherwise, the money would have been entirely at

my mother's disposal, without any restriction whatever.

It has given me such an abhorrence of annuities, that I am

sure I would not pin myself down to the payment of one for

all the world."

"It is certainly an unpleasant thing," replied Mr. Dashwood,

"to have those kind of yearly drains on one's income.

One's fortune, as your mother justly says, is NOT one's own.

To be tied down to the regular payment of such a sum,

on every rent day, is by no means desirable: it takes away

one's independence."

"Undoubtedly; and after all you have no thanks for it.

They think themselves secure, you do no more than what

is expected, and it raises no gratitude at all. If I were you,

whatever I did should be done at my own discretion entirely.

I would not bind myself to allow them any thing yearly.

It may be very inconvenient some years to spare a hundred,

or even fifty pounds from our own expenses."

"I believe you are right, my love; it will be better

that there should by no annuity in the case; whatever I

may give them occasionally will be of far greater assistance

than a yearly allowance, because they would only enlarge

their style of living if they felt sure of a larger income,

and would not be sixpence the richer for it at the end

of the year. It will certainly be much the best way.

A present of fifty pounds, now and then, will prevent

their ever being distressed for money, and will, I think,

be amply discharging my promise to my father."

"To be sure it will. Indeed, to say the truth,

I am convinced within myself that your father had no idea

of your giving them any money at all. The assistance

he thought of, I dare say, was only such as might be

reasonably expected of you; for instance, such as looking

out for a comfortable small house for them, helping them

to move their things, and sending them presents of fish

and game, and so forth, whenever they are in season.

I'll lay my life that he meant nothing farther; indeed,

it would be very strange and unreasonable if he did.

Do but consider, my dear Mr. Dashwood, how excessively

comfortable your mother-in-law and her daughters may live

on the interest of seven thousand pounds, besides the

thousand pounds belonging to each of the girls, which brings

them in fifty pounds a year a-piece, and, of course,

they will pay their mother for their board out of it.

Altogether, they will have five hundred a-year amongst them,

and what on earth can four women want for more than

that?--They will live so cheap! Their housekeeping will

be nothing at all. They will have no carriage, no horses,

and hardly any servants; they will keep no company,

and can have no expenses of any kind! Only conceive

how comfortable they will be! Five hundred a year! I am

sure I cannot imagine how they will spend half of it;

and as to your giving them more, it is quite absurd to think

of it. They will be much more able to give YOU something."

"Upon my word," said Mr. Dashwood, "I believe you

are perfectly right. My father certainly could mean

nothing more by his request to me than what you say.

I clearly understand it now, and I will strictly fulfil

my engagement by such acts of assistance and kindness

to them as you have described. When my mother removes

into another house my services shall be readily given

to accommodate her as far as I can. Some little present

of furniture too may be acceptable then."

"Certainly," returned Mrs. John Dashwood. "But, however,

ONE thing must be considered. When your father and mother

moved to Norland, though the furniture of Stanhill

was sold, all the china, plate, and linen was saved,

and is now left to your mother. Her house will therefore

be almost completely fitted up as soon as she takes it."

"That is a material consideration undoubtedly.

A valuable legacy indeed! And yet some of the plate would

have been a very pleasant addition to our own stock here."

"Yes; and the set of breakfast china is twice

as handsome as what belongs to this house. A great

deal too handsome, in my opinion, for any place THEY

can ever afford to live in. But, however, so it is.

Your father thought only of THEM. And I must say this:

that you owe no particular gratitude to him, nor attention

to his wishes; for we very well know that if he could,

he would have left almost everything in the world to THEM."

This argument was irresistible. It gave to his

intentions whatever of decision was wanting before; and he

finally resolved, that it would be absolutely unnecessary,

if not highly indecorous, to do more for the widow

and children of his father, than such kind of neighbourly

acts as his own wife pointed out.

CHAPTER 3

Mrs. Dashwood remained at Norland several months;

not from any disinclination to move when the sight of every

well known spot ceased to raise the violent emotion which it

produced for a while; for when her spirits began to revive,

and her mind became capable of some other exertion than that

of heightening its affliction by melancholy remembrances,

she was impatient to be gone, and indefatigable in her inquiries

for a suitable dwelling in the neighbourhood of Norland;

for to remove far from that beloved spot was impossible.

But she could hear of no situation that at once answered

her notions of comfort and ease, and suited the prudence

of her eldest daughter, whose steadier judgment rejected

several houses as too large for their income, which her

mother would have approved.

Mrs. Dashwood had been informed by her husband of the

solemn promise on the part of his son in their favour,

which gave comfort to his last earthly reflections.

She doubted the sincerity of this assurance no more than he

had doubted it himself, and she thought of it for her daughters'

sake with satisfaction, though as for herself she was

persuaded that a much smaller provision than 7000L would

support her in affluence. For their brother's sake, too,

for the sake of his own heart, she rejoiced; and she

reproached herself for being unjust to his merit before,

in believing him incapable of generosity. His attentive

behaviour to herself and his sisters convinced her that

their welfare was dear to him, and, for a long time,

she firmly relied on the liberality of his intentions.

The contempt which she had, very early in their acquaintance,

felt for her daughter-in-law, was very much increased

by the farther knowledge of her character, which half

a year's residence in her family afforded; and perhaps

in spite of every consideration of politeness or maternal

affection on the side of the former, the two ladies might

have found it impossible to have lived together so long,

had not a particular circumstance occurred to give

still greater eligibility, according to the opinions

of Mrs. Dashwood, to her daughters' continuance at Norland.

This circumstance was a growing attachment between

her eldest girl and the brother of Mrs. John Dashwood,

a gentleman-like and pleasing young man, who was introduced

to their acquaintance soon after his sister's establishment

at Norland, and who had since spent the greatest part

of his time there.

Some mothers might have encouraged the intimacy from

motives of interest, for Edward Ferrars was the eldest son

of a man who had died very rich; and some might have repressed

it from motives of prudence, for, except a trifling sum,

the whole of his fortune depended on the will of his mother.

But Mrs. Dashwood was alike uninfluenced by either consideration.

It was enough for her that he appeared to be amiable,

that he loved her daughter, and that Elinor returned

the partiality. It was contrary to every doctrine of

her's that difference of fortune should keep any couple

asunder who were attracted by resemblance of disposition;

and that Elinor's merit should not be acknowledged

by every one who knew her, was to her comprehension impossible.

Edward Ferrars was not recommended to their good

opinion by any peculiar graces of person or address.

He was not handsome, and his manners required intimacy

to make them pleasing. He was too diffident to do justice

to himself; but when his natural shyness was overcome,

his behaviour gave every indication of an open,

affectionate heart. His understanding was good,

and his education had given it solid improvement.

But he was neither fitted by abilities nor disposition

to answer the wishes of his mother and sister, who longed

to see him distinguished--as--they hardly knew what.

They wanted him to make a fine figure in the world in some

manner or other. His mother wished to interest him in

political concerns, to get him into parliament, or to see

him connected with some of the great men of the day.

Mrs. John Dashwood wished it likewise; but in the mean while,

till one of these superior blessings could be attained, it would

have quieted her ambition to see him driving a barouche.

But Edward had no turn for great men or barouches.

All his wishes centered in domestic comfort and the quiet

of private life. Fortunately he had a younger brother

who was more promising.

Edward had been staying several weeks in the house

before he engaged much of Mrs. Dashwood's attention;

for she was, at that time, in such affliction as rendered

her careless of surrounding objects. She saw only that he

was quiet and unobtrusive, and she liked him for it.

He did not disturb the wretchedness of her mind by

ill-timed conversation. She was first called to observe

and approve him farther, by a reflection which Elinor

chanced one day to make on the difference between him

and his sister. It was a contrast which recommended him

most forcibly to her mother.

"It is enough," said she; "to say that he is unlike

Fanny is enough. It implies everything amiable.

I love him already."

"I think you will like him," said Elinor, "when you

know more of him."

"Like him!" replied her mother with a smile.

"I feel no sentiment of approbation inferior to love."

"You may esteem him."

"I have never yet known what it was to separate

esteem and love."

Mrs. Dashwood now took pains to get acquainted with him.

Her manners were attaching, and soon banished his reserve.

She speedily comprehended all his merits; the persuasion

of his regard for Elinor perhaps assisted her penetration;

but she really felt assured of his worth: and even that

quietness of manner, which militated against all her

established ideas of what a young man's address ought to be,

was no longer uninteresting when she knew his heart to be

warm and his temper affectionate.

No sooner did she perceive any symptom of love

in his behaviour to Elinor, than she considered their

serious attachment as certain, and looked forward

to their marriage as rapidly approaching.

"In a few months, my dear Marianne." said she,

"Elinor will, in all probability be settled for life.

We shall miss her; but SHE will be happy."

"Oh! Mamma, how shall we do without her?"

"My love, it will be scarcely a separation.

We shall live within a few miles of each other, and shall

meet every day of our lives. You will gain a brother,

a real, affectionate brother. I have the highest opinion

in the world of Edward's heart. But you look grave,

Marianne; do you disapprove your sister's choice?"

"Perhaps," said Marianne, "I may consider it

with some surprise. Edward is very amiable, and I love

him tenderly. But yet--he is not the kind of young

man--there is something wanting--his figure is not striking;

it has none of that grace which I should expect

in the man who could seriously attach my sister.

His eyes want all that spirit, that fire, which at once

announce virtue and intelligence. And besides all this,

I am afraid, Mamma, he has no real taste. Music seems

scarcely to attract him, and though he admires Elinor's

drawings very much, it is not the admiration of a person

who can understand their worth. It is evident, in spite of

his frequent attention to her while she draws, that in fact

he knows nothing of the matter. He admires as a lover,

not as a connoisseur. To satisfy me, those characters

must be united. I could not be happy with a man whose

taste did not in every point coincide with my own.

He must enter into all my feelings; the same books,

the same music must charm us both. Oh! mama, how spiritless,

how tame was Edward's manner in reading to us last night!

I felt for my sister most severely. Yet she bore it

with so much composure, she seemed scarcely to notice it.

I could hardly keep my seat. To hear those beautiful lines

which have frequently almost driven me wild, pronounced

with such impenetrable calmness, such dreadful indifference!"--

"He would certainly have done more justice to

simple and elegant prose. I thought so at the time;

but you WOULD give him Cowper."

"Nay, Mamma, if he is not to be animated by Cowper!--

but we must allow for difference of taste. Elinor has

not my feelings, and therefore she may overlook it, and

be happy with him. But it would have broke MY heart,

had I loved him, to hear him read with so little sensibility.

Mama, the more I know of the world, the more am I convinced

that I shall never see a man whom I can really love.

I require so much! He must have all Edward's virtues,

and his person and manners must ornament his goodness

with every possible charm."

"Remember, my love, that you are not seventeen.

It is yet too early in life to despair of such a happiness.

Why should you be less fortunate than your mother? In

one circumstance only, my Marianne, may your destiny be

different from her's!"

CHAPTER 4

"What a pity it is, Elinor," said Marianne,

"that Edward should have no taste for drawing."

"No taste for drawing!" replied Elinor, "why should

you think so? He does not draw himself, indeed, but he has

great pleasure in seeing the performances of other people,

and I assure you he is by no means deficient in natural taste,

though he has not had opportunities of improving it.

Had he ever been in the way of learning, I think he would

have drawn very well. He distrusts his own judgment

in such matters so much, that he is always unwilling

to give his opinion on any picture; but he has an innate

propriety and simplicity of taste, which in general

direct him perfectly right."

Marianne was afraid of offending, and said no more

on the subject; but the kind of approbation which Elinor

described as excited in him by the drawings of other

people, was very far from that rapturous delight, which,

in her opinion, could alone be called taste. Yet, though

smiling within herself at the mistake, she honoured

her sister for that blind partiality to Edward which produced it.

"I hope, Marianne," continued Elinor, "you do not

consider him as deficient in general taste. Indeed, I think

I may say that you cannot, for your behaviour to him

is perfectly cordial, and if THAT were your opinion,

I am sure you could never be civil to him."

Marianne hardly knew what to say. She would

not wound the feelings of her sister on any account,

and yet to say what she did not believe was impossible.

At length she replied:

"Do not be offended, Elinor, if my praise of him

is not in every thing equal to your sense of his merits.

I have not had so many opportunities of estimating the minuter

propensities of his mind, his inclinations and tastes,

as you have; but I have the highest opinion in the world

of his goodness and sense. I think him every thing that is

worthy and amiable."

"I am sure," replied Elinor, with a smile,

"that his dearest friends could not be dissatisfied

with such commendation as that. I do not perceive

how you could express yourself more warmly."

Marianne was rejoiced to find her sister so easily pleased.

"Of his sense and his goodness," continued Elinor,

"no one can, I think, be in doubt, who has seen him

often enough to engage him in unreserved conversation.

The excellence of his understanding and his principles

can be concealed only by that shyness which too often

keeps him silent. You know enough of him to do justice

to his solid worth. But of his minuter propensities,

as you call them you have from peculiar circumstances

been kept more ignorant than myself. He and I have

been at times thrown a good deal together, while you

have been wholly engrossed on the most affectionate

principle by my mother. I have seen a great deal of him,

have studied his sentiments and heard his opinion on

subjects of literature and taste; and, upon the whole,

I venture to pronounce that his mind is well-informed,

enjoyment of books exceedingly great, his imagination lively,

his observation just and correct, and his taste delicate

and pure. His abilities in every respect improve

as much upon acquaintance as his manners and person.

At first sight, his address is certainly not striking;

and his person can hardly be called handsome, till the

expression of his eyes, which are uncommonly good,

and the general sweetness of his countenance, is perceived.

At present, I know him so well, that I think him

really handsome; or at least, almost so. What say you,

Marianne?"

"I shall very soon think him handsome, Elinor, if I

do not now. When you tell me to love him as a brother,

I shall no more see imperfection in his face, than I now do

in his heart."

Elinor started at this declaration, and was sorry for

the warmth she had been betrayed into, in speaking of him.

She felt that Edward stood very high in her opinion.

She believed the regard to be mutual; but she required

greater certainty of it to make Marianne's conviction

of their attachment agreeable to her. She knew that

what Marianne and her mother conjectured one moment,

they believed the next--that with them, to wish was to hope,

and to hope was to expect. She tried to explain the real

state of the case to her sister.

"I do not attempt to deny," said she, "that I think

very highly of him--that I greatly esteem, that I like him."

Marianne here burst forth with indignation--

"Esteem him! Like him! Cold-hearted Elinor! Oh!

worse than cold-hearted! Ashamed of being otherwise.

Use those words again, and I will leave the room this moment."

Elinor could not help laughing. "Excuse me,"

said she; "and be assured that I meant no offence to you,

by speaking, in so quiet a way, of my own feelings.

Believe them to be stronger than I have declared;

believe them, in short, to be such as his merit, and the

suspicion--the hope of his affection for me may warrant,

without imprudence or folly. But farther than this you must

not believe. I am by no means assured of his regard for me.

There are moments when the extent of it seems doubtful;

and till his sentiments are fully known, you cannot wonder

at my wishing to avoid any encouragement of my own partiality,

by believing or calling it more than it is. In my heart

I feel little--scarcely any doubt of his preference.

But there are other points to be considered besides

his inclination. He is very far from being independent.

What his mother really is we cannot know; but, from Fanny's

occasional mention of her conduct and opinions, we have

never been disposed to think her amiable; and I am very

much mistaken if Edward is not himself aware that there

would be many difficulties in his way, if he were to wish

to marry a woman who had not either a great fortune or

high rank."

Marianne was astonished to find how much the imagination

of her mother and herself had outstripped the truth.

"And you really are not engaged to him!" said she.

"Yet it certainly soon will happen. But two advantages

will proceed from this delay. I shall not lose you so soon,

and Edward will have greater opportunity of improving

that natural taste for your favourite pursuit which must

be so indispensably necessary to your future felicity.

Oh! if he should be so far stimulated by your genius as to

learn to draw himself, how delightful it would be!"

Elinor had given her real opinion to her sister.

She could not consider her partiality for Edward

in so prosperous a state as Marianne had believed it.

There was, at times, a want of spirits about him which,

if it did not denote indifference, spoke of something almost

as unpromising. A doubt of her regard, supposing him

to feel it, need not give him more than inquietude.

It would not be likely to produce that dejection of mind

which frequently attended him. A more reasonable cause

might be found in the dependent situation which forbade

the indulgence of his affection. She knew that his mother

neither behaved to him so as to make his home comfortable

at present, nor to give him any assurance that he might form

a home for himself, without strictly attending to her views

for his aggrandizement. With such a knowledge as this,

it was impossible for Elinor to feel easy on the subject.

She was far from depending on that result of his preference

of her, which her mother and sister still considered

as certain. Nay, the longer they were together the more

doubtful seemed the nature of his regard; and sometimes,

for a few painful minutes, she believed it to be no more

than friendship.

But, whatever might really be its limits, it was enough,

when perceived by his sister, to make her uneasy,

and at the same time, (which was still more common,)

to make her uncivil. She took the first opportunity of

affronting her mother-in-law on the occasion, talking to

her so expressively of her brother's great expectations,

of Mrs. Ferrars's resolution that both her sons should

marry well, and of the danger attending any young woman

who attempted to DRAW HIM IN; that Mrs. Dashwood could

neither pretend to be unconscious, nor endeavor to be calm.

She gave her an answer which marked her contempt,

and instantly left the room, resolving that, whatever might

be the inconvenience or expense of so sudden a removal,

her beloved Elinor should not be exposed another week

to such insinuations.

In this state of her spirits, a letter was delivered

to her from the post, which contained a proposal

particularly well timed. It was the offer of a small house,

on very easy terms, belonging to a relation of her own,

a gentleman of consequence and property in Devonshire.

The letter was from this gentleman himself, and written

in the true spirit of friendly accommodation.

He understood that she was in need of a dwelling;

and though the house he now offered her was merely a cottage,

he assured her that everything should be done to it which

she might think necessary, if the situation pleased her.

He earnestly pressed her, after giving the particulars

of the house and garden, to come with her daughters to

Barton Park, the place of his own residence, from whence

she might judge, herself, whether Barton Cottage, for the

houses were in the same parish, could, by any alteration,

be made comfortable to her. He seemed really anxious to

accommodate them and the whole of his letter was written

in so friendly a style as could not fail of giving pleasure

to his cousin; more especially at a moment when she was

suffering under the cold and unfeeling behaviour of her

nearer connections. She needed no time for deliberation

or inquiry. Her resolution was formed as she read.

The situation of Barton, in a county so far distant from

Sussex as Devonshire, which, but a few hours before,

would have been a sufficient objection to outweigh every

possible advantage belonging to the place, was now its

first recommendation. To quit the neighbourhood of Norland

was no longer an evil; it was an object of desire;

it was a blessing, in comparison of the misery of continuing

her daughter-in-law's guest; and to remove for ever

from that beloved place would be less painful than to

inhabit or visit it while such a woman was its mistress.

She instantly wrote Sir John Middleton her acknowledgment

of his kindness, and her acceptance of his proposal;

and then hastened to shew both letters to her daughters,

that she might be secure of their approbation before her

answer were sent.

Elinor had always thought it would be more prudent

for them to settle at some distance from Norland,

than immediately amongst their present acquaintance.

On THAT head, therefore, it was not for her to oppose

her mother's intention of removing into Devonshire.

The house, too, as described by Sir John, was on so

simple a scale, and the rent so uncommonly moderate,

as to leave her no right of objection on either point;

and, therefore, though it was not a plan which brought

any charm to her fancy, though it was a removal from

the vicinity of Norland beyond her wishes, she made

no attempt to dissuade her mother from sending a letter

of acquiescence.

CHAPTER 5

No sooner was her answer dispatched, than Mrs. Dashwood

indulged herself in the pleasure of announcing to her

son-in-law and his wife that she was provided with a house,

and should incommode them no longer than till every thing were

ready for her inhabiting it. They heard her with surprise.

Mrs. John Dashwood said nothing; but her husband civilly

hoped that she would not be settled far from Norland.

She had great satisfaction in replying that she was going

into Devonshire.--Edward turned hastily towards her,

on hearing this, and, in a voice of surprise and concern,

which required no explanation to her, repeated,

"Devonshire! Are you, indeed, going there? So far from hence!

And to what part of it?" She explained the situation.

It was within four miles northward of Exeter.

"It is but a cottage," she continued, "but I hope

to see many of my friends in it. A room or two can

easily be added; and if my friends find no difficulty

in travelling so far to see me, I am sure I will find

none in accommodating them."

She concluded with a very kind invitation to

Mr. and Mrs. John Dashwood to visit her at Barton;

and to Edward she gave one with still greater affection.

Though her late conversation with her daughter-in-law had

made her resolve on remaining at Norland no longer than

was unavoidable, it had not produced the smallest effect

on her in that point to which it principally tended.

To separate Edward and Elinor was as far from being her

object as ever; and she wished to show Mrs. John Dashwood,

by this pointed invitation to her brother, how totally she

disregarded her disapprobation of the match.

Mr. John Dashwood told his mother again and again

how exceedingly sorry he was that she had taken a house at

such a distance from Norland as to prevent his being of any

service to her in removing her furniture. He really felt

conscientiously vexed on the occasion; for the very exertion

to which he had limited the performance of his promise to

his father was by this arrangement rendered impracticable.--

The furniture was all sent around by water. It chiefly

consisted of household linen, plate, china, and books,

with a handsome pianoforte of Marianne's. Mrs. John

Dashwood saw the packages depart with a sigh: she could

not help feeling it hard that as Mrs. Dashwood's income

would be so trifling in comparison with their own,

she should have any handsome article of furniture.

Mrs. Dashwood took the house for a twelvemonth; it was

ready furnished, and she might have immediate possession.

No difficulty arose on either side in the agreement; and she

waited only for the disposal of her effects at Norland,

and to determine her future household, before she set

off for the west; and this, as she was exceedingly rapid

in the performance of everything that interested her,

was soon done.--The horses which were left her by her husband

had been sold soon after his death, and an opportunity

now offering of disposing of her carriage, she agreed

to sell that likewise at the earnest advice of her

eldest daughter. For the comfort of her children, had she

consulted only her own wishes, she would have kept it;

but the discretion of Elinor prevailed. HER wisdom

too limited the number of their servants to three;

two maids and a man, with whom they were speedily provided

from amongst those who had formed their establishment

at Norland.

The man and one of the maids were sent off immediately

into Devonshire, to prepare the house for their mistress's

arrival; for as Lady Middleton was entirely unknown

to Mrs. Dashwood, she preferred going directly to the

cottage to being a visitor at Barton Park; and she relied

so undoubtingly on Sir John's description of the house,

as to feel no curiosity to examine it herself till she

entered it as her own. Her eagerness to be gone from Norland

was preserved from diminution by the evident satisfaction

of her daughter-in-law in the prospect of her removal;

a satisfaction which was but feebly attempted to be concealed

under a cold invitation to her to defer her departure.

Now was the time when her son-in-law's promise to his

father might with particular propriety be fulfilled.

Since he had neglected to do it on first coming to

the estate, their quitting his house might be looked

on as the most suitable period for its accomplishment.

But Mrs. Dashwood began shortly to give over every

hope of the kind, and to be convinced, from the general

drift of his discourse, that his assistance extended no

farther than their maintenance for six months at Norland.

He so frequently talked of the increasing expenses

of housekeeping, and of the perpetual demands upon his purse,

which a man of any consequence in the world was beyond

calculation exposed to, that he seemed rather to stand

in need of more money himself than to have any design of

giving money away.

In a very few weeks from the day which brought Sir

John Middleton's first letter to Norland, every thing was

so far settled in their future abode as to enable

Mrs. Dashwood and her daughters to begin their journey.

Many were the tears shed by them in their last

adieus to a place so much beloved. "Dear, dear Norland!"

said Marianne, as she wandered alone before the house,

on the last evening of their being there; "when shall I cease

to regret you!--when learn to feel a home elsewhere!--Oh!

happy house, could you know what I suffer in now viewing

you from this spot, from whence perhaps I may view

you no more!--And you, ye well-known trees!--but you

will continue the same.--No leaf will decay because we

are removed, nor any branch become motionless although we

can observe you no longer!--No; you will continue the same;

unconscious of the pleasure or the regret you occasion,

and insensible of any change in those who walk under your

shade!--But who will remain to enjoy you?"

CHAPTER 6

The first part of their journey was performed in too

melancholy a disposition to be otherwise than tedious

and unpleasant. But as they drew towards the end of it,

their interest in the appearance of a country which they

were to inhabit overcame their dejection, and a view of

Barton Valley as they entered it gave them cheerfulness.

It was a pleasant fertile spot, well wooded, and rich

in pasture. After winding along it for more than a mile,

they reached their own house. A small green court was

the whole of its demesne in front; and a neat wicket gate

admitted them into it.

As a house, Barton Cottage, though small, was comfortable

and compact; but as a cottage it was defective, for the

building was regular, the roof was tiled, the window

shutters were not painted green, nor were the walls covered

with honeysuckles. A narrow passage led directly through

the house into the garden behind. On each side of the

entrance was a sitting room, about sixteen feet square;

and beyond them were the offices and the stairs.

Four bed-rooms and two garrets formed the rest of the house.

It had not been built many years and was in good repair.

In comparison of Norland, it was poor and small indeed!--but

the tears which recollection called forth as they entered

the house were soon dried away. They were cheered

by the joy of the servants on their arrival, and each

for the sake of the others resolved to appear happy.

It was very early in September; the season was fine,

and from first seeing the place under the advantage

of good weather, they received an impression in its

favour which was of material service in recommending

it to their lasting approbation.

The situation of the house was good. High hills rose

immediately behind, and at no great distance on each side;

some of which were open downs, the others cultivated and woody.

The village of Barton was chiefly on one of these hills,

and formed a pleasant view from the cottage windows.

The prospect in front was more extensive; it commanded the

whole of the valley, and reached into the country beyond.

The hills which surrounded the cottage terminated

the valley in that direction; under another name,

and in another course, it branched out again between two

of the steepest of them.

With the size and furniture of the house Mrs. Dashwood

was upon the whole well satisfied; for though her former

style of life rendered many additions to the latter

indispensable, yet to add and improve was a delight to her;

and she had at this time ready money enough to supply all

that was wanted of greater elegance to the apartments.

"As for the house itself, to be sure," said she, "it is

too small for our family, but we will make ourselves

tolerably comfortable for the present, as it is too late

in the year for improvements. Perhaps in the spring,

if I have plenty of money, as I dare say I shall, we may

think about building. These parlors are both too small

for such parties of our friends as I hope to see often

collected here; and I have some thoughts of throwing the

passage into one of them with perhaps a part of the other,

and so leave the remainder of that other for an entrance;

this, with a new drawing room which may be easily added,

and a bed-chamber and garret above, will make it a very snug

little cottage. I could wish the stairs were handsome.

But one must not expect every thing; though I suppose it

would be no difficult matter to widen them. I shall see

how much I am before-hand with the world in the spring,

and we will plan our improvements accordingly."

In the mean time, till all these alterations could

be made from the savings of an income of five hundred

a-year by a woman who never saved in her life, they were

wise enough to be contented with the house as it was;

and each of them was busy in arranging their particular

concerns, and endeavoring, by placing around them books

and other possessions, to form themselves a home.

Marianne's pianoforte was unpacked and properly disposed of;

and Elinor's drawings were affixed to the walls of their

sitting room.

In such employments as these they were interrupted

soon after breakfast the next day by the entrance of

their landlord, who called to welcome them to Barton,

and to offer them every accommodation from his own house

and garden in which theirs might at present be deficient.

Sir John Middleton was a good looking man about forty.

He had formerly visited at Stanhill, but it was too long

for his young cousins to remember him. His countenance

was thoroughly good-humoured; and his manners were

as friendly as the style of his letter. Their arrival

seemed to afford him real satisfaction, and their comfort

to be an object of real solicitude to him. He said much

of his earnest desire of their living in the most sociable

terms with his family, and pressed them so cordially

to dine at Barton Park every day till they were better

settled at home, that, though his entreaties were carried

to a point of perseverance beyond civility, they could

not give offence. His kindness was not confined to words;

for within an hour after he left them, a large basket

full of garden stuff and fruit arrived from the park,

which was followed before the end of the day by a present

of game. He insisted, moreover, on conveying all their

letters to and from the post for them, and would not be

denied the satisfaction of sending them his newspaper

every day.

Lady Middleton had sent a very civil message by him,

denoting her intention of waiting on Mrs. Dashwood as soon as

she could be assured that her visit would be no inconvenience;

and as this message was answered by an invitation

equally polite, her ladyship was introduced to them the next day.

They were, of course, very anxious to see a person on

whom so much of their comfort at Barton must depend; and the

elegance of her appearance was favourable to their wishes.

Lady Middleton was not more than six or seven and twenty;

her face was handsome, her figure tall and striking,

and her address graceful. Her manners had all the elegance

which her husband's wanted. But they would have been

improved by some share of his frankness and warmth;

and her visit was long enough to detract something from

their first admiration, by shewing that, though perfectly

well-bred, she was reserved, cold, and had nothing to say

for herself beyond the most common-place inquiry or remark.

Conversation however was not wanted, for Sir John

was very chatty, and Lady Middleton had taken the wise

precaution of bringing with her their eldest child, a fine

little boy about six years old, by which means there was

one subject always to be recurred to by the ladies in case

of extremity, for they had to enquire his name and age,

admire his beauty, and ask him questions which his mother

answered for him, while he hung about her and held

down his head, to the great surprise of her ladyship,

who wondered at his being so shy before company, as he

could make noise enough at home. On every formal visit

a child ought to be of the party, by way of provision

for discourse. In the present case it took up ten minutes

to determine whether the boy were most like his father

or mother, and in what particular he resembled either,

for of course every body differed, and every body was

astonished at the opinion of the others.

An opportunity was soon to be given to the Dashwoods

of debating on the rest of the children, as Sir John

would not leave the house without securing their promise

of dining at the park the next day.

CHAPTER 7

Barton Park was about half a mile from the cottage.

The ladies had passed near it in their way along the valley,

but it was screened from their view at home by the

projection of a hill. The house was large and handsome;

and the Middletons lived in a style of equal hospitality

and elegance. The former was for Sir John's gratification,

the latter for that of his lady. They were scarcely

ever without some friends staying with them in the house,

and they kept more company of every kind than any other

family in the neighbourhood. It was necessary to the

happiness of both; for however dissimilar in temper

and outward behaviour, they strongly resembled each other

in that total want of talent and taste which confined

their employments, unconnected with such as society produced,

within a very narrow compass. Sir John was a sportsman,

Lady Middleton a mother. He hunted and shot, and she

humoured her children; and these were their only resources.

Lady Middleton had the advantage of being able to spoil her

children all the year round, while Sir John's independent

employments were in existence only half the time.

Continual engagements at home and abroad, however,

supplied all the deficiencies of nature and education;

supported the good spirits of Sir John, and gave exercise

to the good breeding of his wife.

Lady Middleton piqued herself upon the elegance

of her table, and of all her domestic arrangements;

and from this kind of vanity was her greatest enjoyment

in any of their parties. But Sir John's satisfaction

in society was much more real; he delighted in collecting

about him more young people than his house would hold,

and the noisier they were the better was he pleased.

He was a blessing to all the juvenile part of the neighbourhood,

for in summer he was for ever forming parties to eat cold

ham and chicken out of doors, and in winter his private

balls were numerous enough for any young lady who was not

suffering under the unsatiable appetite of fifteen.

The arrival of a new family in the country was always

a matter of joy to him, and in every point of view he was

charmed with the inhabitants he had now procured for his

cottage at Barton. The Miss Dashwoods were young, pretty,

and unaffected. It was enough to secure his good opinion;

for to be unaffected was all that a pretty girl could

want to make her mind as captivating as her person.

The friendliness of his disposition made him happy in

accommodating those, whose situation might be considered,

in comparison with the past, as unfortunate. In showing

kindness to his cousins therefore he had the real satisfaction

of a good heart; and in settling a family of females only

in his cottage, he had all the satisfaction of a sportsman;

for a sportsman, though he esteems only those of his sex who

are sportsmen likewise, is not often desirous of encouraging

their taste by admitting them to a residence within his own

manor.

Mrs. Dashwood and her daughters were met at the door

of the house by Sir John, who welcomed them to Barton

Park with unaffected sincerity; and as he attended them

to the drawing room repeated to the young ladies the concern

which the same subject had drawn from him the day before,

at being unable to get any smart young men to meet them.

They would see, he said, only one gentleman there

besides himself; a particular friend who was staying at

the park, but who was neither very young nor very gay.

He hoped they would all excuse the smallness of the party,

and could assure them it should never happen so again.

He had been to several families that morning in hopes

of procuring some addition to their number, but it

was moonlight and every body was full of engagements.

Luckily Lady Middleton's mother had arrived at Barton

within the last hour, and as she was a very cheerful

agreeable woman, he hoped the young ladies would not find

it so very dull as they might imagine. The young ladies,

as well as their mother, were perfectly satisfied with

having two entire strangers of the party, and wished for

no more.

Mrs. Jennings, Lady Middleton's mother, was a

good-humoured, merry, fat, elderly woman, who talked a

great deal, seemed very happy, and rather vulgar. She was full

of jokes and laughter, and before dinner was over had said

many witty things on the subject of lovers and husbands;

hoped they had not left their hearts behind them in Sussex,

and pretended to see them blush whether they did or not.

Marianne was vexed at it for her sister's sake, and turned

her eyes towards Elinor to see how she bore these attacks,

with an earnestness which gave Elinor far more pain than

could arise from such common-place raillery as Mrs. Jennings's.

Colonel Brandon, the friend of Sir John, seemed no

more adapted by resemblance of manner to be his friend,

than Lady Middleton was to be his wife, or Mrs. Jennings

to be Lady Middleton's mother. He was silent and grave.

His appearance however was not unpleasing, in spite

of his being in the opinion of Marianne and Margaret

an absolute old bachelor, for he was on the wrong side

of five and thirty; but though his face was not handsome,

his countenance was sensible, and his address was

particularly gentlemanlike.

There was nothing in any of the party which could

recommend them as companions to the Dashwoods; but the cold

insipidity of Lady Middleton was so particularly repulsive,

that in comparison of it the gravity of Colonel Brandon,

and even the boisterous mirth of Sir John and his

mother-in-law was interesting. Lady Middleton seemed

to be roused to enjoyment only by the entrance of her

four noisy children after dinner, who pulled her about,

tore her clothes, and put an end to every kind of discourse

except what related to themselves.

In the evening, as Marianne was discovered to be musical,

she was invited to play. The instrument was unlocked,

every body prepared to be charmed, and Marianne,

who sang very well, at their request went through the

chief of the songs which Lady Middleton had brought into

the family on her marriage, and which perhaps had lain

ever since in the same position on the pianoforte,

for her ladyship had celebrated that event by giving

up music, although by her mother's account, she had

played extremely well, and by her own was very fond of it.

Marianne's performance was highly applauded.

Sir John was loud in his admiration at the end of every song,

and as loud in his conversation with the others while every

song lasted. Lady Middleton frequently called him to order,

wondered how any one's attention could be diverted from music

for a moment, and asked Marianne to sing a particular song

which Marianne had just finished. Colonel Brandon alone,

of all the party, heard her without being in raptures.

He paid her only the compliment of attention; and she felt

a respect for him on the occasion, which the others had

reasonably forfeited by their shameless want of taste.

His pleasure in music, though it amounted not to that

ecstatic delight which alone could sympathize with her own,

was estimable when contrasted against the horrible

insensibility of the others; and she was reasonable enough

to allow that a man of five and thirty might well have

outlived all acuteness of feeling and every exquisite

power of enjoyment. She was perfectly disposed to make

every allowance for the colonel's advanced state of life

which humanity required.

CHAPTER 8

Mrs. Jennings was a widow with an ample jointure.

She had only two daughters, both of whom she had lived

to see respectably married, and she had now therefore

nothing to do but to marry all the rest of the world.

In the promotion of this object she was zealously active,

as far as her ability reached; and missed no opportunity

of projecting weddings among all the young people

of her acquaintance. She was remarkably quick in the

discovery of attachments, and had enjoyed the advantage

of raising the blushes and the vanity of many a young

lady by insinuations of her power over such a young man;

and this kind of discernment enabled her soon after her

arrival at Barton decisively to pronounce that Colonel

Brandon was very much in love with Marianne Dashwood.

She rather suspected it to be so, on the very first

evening of their being together, from his listening

so attentively while she sang to them; and when the visit

was returned by the Middletons' dining at the cottage,

the fact was ascertained by his listening to her again.

It must be so. She was perfectly convinced of it.

It would be an excellent match, for HE was rich, and SHE

was handsome. Mrs. Jennings had been anxious to see

Colonel Brandon well married, ever since her connection

with Sir John first brought him to her knowledge;

and she was always anxious to get a good husband for every

pretty girl.

The immediate advantage to herself was by no means

inconsiderable, for it supplied her with endless jokes

against them both. At the park she laughed at the colonel,

and in the cottage at Marianne. To the former her

raillery was probably, as far as it regarded only himself,

perfectly indifferent; but to the latter it was at

first incomprehensible; and when its object was understood,

she hardly knew whether most to laugh at its absurdity,

or censure its impertinence, for she considered it as an

unfeeling reflection on the colonel's advanced years,

and on his forlorn condition as an old bachelor.

Mrs. Dashwood, who could not think a man five years

younger than herself, so exceedingly ancient as he appeared

to the youthful fancy of her daughter, ventured to clear

Mrs. Jennings from the probability of wishing to throw

ridicule on his age.

"But at least, Mamma, you cannot deny the absurdity

of the accusation, though you may not think it intentionally

ill-natured. Colonel Brandon is certainly younger than

Mrs. Jennings, but he is old enough to be MY father;

and if he were ever animated enough to be in love,

must have long outlived every sensation of the kind.

It is too ridiculous! When is a man to be safe from such wit,

if age and infirmity will not protect him?"

"Infirmity!" said Elinor, "do you call Colonel Brandon

infirm? I can easily suppose that his age may appear much

greater to you than to my mother; but you can hardly

deceive yourself as to his having the use of his limbs!"

"Did not you hear him complain of the rheumatism?

and is not that the commonest infirmity of declining life?"

"My dearest child," said her mother, laughing,

"at this rate you must be in continual terror of MY decay;

and it must seem to you a miracle that my life has been

extended to the advanced age of forty."

"Mamma, you are not doing me justice. I know very well

that Colonel Brandon is not old enough to make his friends

yet apprehensive of losing him in the course of nature.

He may live twenty years longer. But thirty-five has

nothing to do with matrimony."

"Perhaps," said Elinor, "thirty-five and seventeen had

better not have any thing to do with matrimony together.

But if there should by any chance happen to be a woman

who is single at seven and twenty, I should not think

Colonel Brandon's being thirty-five any objection to his

marrying HER."

"A woman of seven and twenty," said Marianne,

after pausing a moment, "can never hope to feel or inspire

affection again, and if her home be uncomfortable,

or her fortune small, I can suppose that she might

bring herself to submit to the offices of a nurse,

for the sake of the provision and security of a wife.

In his marrying such a woman therefore there would be

nothing unsuitable. It would be a compact of convenience,

and the world would be satisfied. In my eyes it would

be no marriage at all, but that would be nothing.

To me it would seem only a commercial exchange, in which

each wished to be benefited at the expense of the other."

"It would be impossible, I know," replied Elinor,

"to convince you that a woman of seven and twenty could

feel for a man of thirty-five anything near enough

to love, to make him a desirable companion to her.

But I must object to your dooming Colonel Brandon and

his wife to the constant confinement of a sick chamber,

merely because he chanced to complain yesterday (a

very cold damp day) of a slight rheumatic feel in one

of his shoulders."

"But he talked of flannel waistcoats," said Marianne;

"and with me a flannel waistcoat is invariably connected

with aches, cramps, rheumatisms, and every species of

ailment that can afflict the old and the feeble."

"Had he been only in a violent fever, you would not

have despised him half so much. Confess, Marianne, is not

there something interesting to you in the flushed cheek,

hollow eye, and quick pulse of a fever?"

Soon after this, upon Elinor's leaving the room,

"Mamma," said Marianne, "I have an alarm on the subject

of illness which I cannot conceal from you. I am sure

Edward Ferrars is not well. We have now been here almost

a fortnight, and yet he does not come. Nothing but real

indisposition could occasion this extraordinary delay.

What else can detain him at Norland?"

"Had you any idea of his coming so soon?"

said Mrs. Dashwood. "I had none. On the contrary,

if I have felt any anxiety at all on the subject, it has

been in recollecting that he sometimes showed a want

of pleasure and readiness in accepting my invitation,

when I talked of his coming to Barton. Does Elinor

expect him already?"

"I have never mentioned it to her, but of course

she must."

"I rather think you are mistaken, for when I

was talking to her yesterday of getting a new grate

for the spare bedchamber, she observed that there

was no immediate hurry for it, as it was not likely

that the room would be wanted for some time."

"How strange this is! what can be the meaning of it!

But the whole of their behaviour to each other has been

unaccountable! How cold, how composed were their last

adieus! How languid their conversation the last evening

of their being together! In Edward's farewell there was no

distinction between Elinor and me: it was the good wishes

of an affectionate brother to both. Twice did I leave

them purposely together in the course of the last morning,

and each time did he most unaccountably follow me out

of the room. And Elinor, in quitting Norland and Edward,

cried not as I did. Even now her self-command is invariable.

When is she dejected or melancholy? When does she try

to avoid society, or appear restless and dissatisfied

in it?"

CHAPTER 9

The Dashwoods were now settled at Barton with tolerable

comfort to themselves. The house and the garden, with all

the objects surrounding them, were now become familiar,

and the ordinary pursuits which had given to Norland

half its charms were engaged in again with far greater

enjoyment than Norland had been able to afford, since the

loss of their father. Sir John Middleton, who called

on them every day for the first fortnight, and who was

not in the habit of seeing much occupation at home,

could not conceal his amazement on finding them always employed.

Their visitors, except those from Barton Park,

were not many; for, in spite of Sir John's urgent entreaties

that they would mix more in the neighbourhood, and repeated

assurances of his carriage being always at their service,

the independence of Mrs. Dashwood's spirit overcame the

wish of society for her children; and she was resolute

in declining to visit any family beyond the distance

of a walk. There were but few who could be so classed;

and it was not all of them that were attainable.

About a mile and a half from the cottage, along the narrow

winding valley of Allenham, which issued from that of Barton,

as formerly described, the girls had, in one of their

earliest walks, discovered an ancient respectable looking

mansion which, by reminding them a little of Norland,

interested their imagination and made them wish to be

better acquainted with it. But they learnt, on enquiry,

that its possessor, an elderly lady of very good character,

was unfortunately too infirm to mix with the world,

and never stirred from home.

The whole country about them abounded in beautiful walks.

The high downs which invited them from almost every window

of the cottage to seek the exquisite enjoyment of air

on their summits, were a happy alternative when the dirt

of the valleys beneath shut up their superior beauties;

and towards one of these hills did Marianne and Margaret

one memorable morning direct their steps, attracted by the

partial sunshine of a showery sky, and unable longer to bear

the confinement which the settled rain of the two preceding

days had occasioned. The weather was not tempting enough

to draw the two others from their pencil and their book,

in spite of Marianne's declaration that the day would

be lastingly fair, and that every threatening cloud would

be drawn off from their hills; and the two girls set off

together.

They gaily ascended the downs, rejoicing in their own

penetration at every glimpse of blue sky; and when they

caught in their faces the animating gales of a high

south-westerly wind, they pitied the fears which had prevented

their mother and Elinor from sharing such delightful sensations.

"Is there a felicity in the world," said Marianne,

"superior to this?--Margaret, we will walk here at least

two hours."

Margaret agreed, and they pursued their way against

the wind, resisting it with laughing delight for about

twenty minutes longer, when suddenly the clouds united over

their heads, and a driving rain set full in their face.--

Chagrined and surprised, they were obliged, though unwillingly,

to turn back, for no shelter was nearer than their own house.

One consolation however remained for them, to which the

exigence of the moment gave more than usual propriety;

it was that of running with all possible speed down the steep

side of the hill which led immediately to their garden gate.

They set off. Marianne had at first the advantage,

but a false step brought her suddenly to the ground;

and Margaret, unable to stop herself to assist her,

was involuntarily hurried along, and reached the bottom

in safety.

A gentleman carrying a gun, with two pointers

playing round him, was passing up the hill and within

a few yards of Marianne, when her accident happened.

He put down his gun and ran to her assistance. She had

raised herself from the ground, but her foot had been

twisted in her fall, and she was scarcely able to stand.

The gentleman offered his services; and perceiving that her

modesty declined what her situation rendered necessary,

took her up in his arms without farther delay, and carried

her down the hill. Then passing through the garden,

the gate of which had been left open by Margaret, he bore her

directly into the house, whither Margaret was just arrived,

and quitted not his hold till he had seated her in a chair

in the parlour.

Elinor and her mother rose up in amazement at

their entrance, and while the eyes of both were fixed

on him with an evident wonder and a secret admiration

which equally sprung from his appearance, he apologized

for his intrusion by relating its cause, in a manner

so frank and so graceful that his person, which was

uncommonly handsome, received additional charms from his voice

and expression. Had he been even old, ugly, and vulgar,

the gratitude and kindness of Mrs. Dashwood would

have been secured by any act of attention to her child;

but the influence of youth, beauty, and elegance,

gave an interest to the action which came home to her feelings.

She thanked him again and again; and, with a sweetness

of address which always attended her, invited him to

be seated. But this he declined, as he was dirty and wet.

Mrs. Dashwood then begged to know to whom she was obliged.

His name, he replied, was Willoughby, and his present

home was at Allenham, from whence he hoped she would

allow him the honour of calling tomorrow to enquire

after Miss Dashwood. The honour was readily granted,

and he then departed, to make himself still more interesting,

in the midst of a heavy rain.

His manly beauty and more than common gracefulness

were instantly the theme of general admiration,

and the laugh which his gallantry raised against Marianne

received particular spirit from his exterior attractions.--

Marianne herself had seen less of his person that the rest,

for the confusion which crimsoned over her face, on his

lifting her up, had robbed her of the power of regarding

him after their entering the house. But she had seen

enough of him to join in all the admiration of the others,

and with an energy which always adorned her praise.

His person and air were equal to what her fancy had ever

drawn for the hero of a favourite story; and in his carrying

her into the house with so little previous formality, there

was a rapidity of thought which particularly recommended

the action to her. Every circumstance belonging to him

was interesting. His name was good, his residence was in

their favourite village, and she soon found out that of all

manly dresses a shooting-jacket was the most becoming.

Her imagination was busy, her reflections were pleasant,

and the pain of a sprained ankle was disregarded.

Sir John called on them as soon as the next interval

of fair weather that morning allowed him to get out

of doors; and Marianne's accident being related to him,

he was eagerly asked whether he knew any gentleman

of the name of Willoughby at Allenham.

"Willoughby!" cried Sir John; "what, is HE

in the country? That is good news however; I will

ride over tomorrow, and ask him to dinner on Thursday."

"You know him then," said Mrs. Dashwood.

"Know him! to be sure I do. Why, he is down here

every year."

"And what sort of a young man is he?"

"As good a kind of fellow as ever lived, I assure you.

A very decent shot, and there is not a bolder rider

in England."

"And is that all you can say for him?" cried Marianne,

indignantly. "But what are his manners on more intimate

acquaintance? What his pursuits, his talents, and genius?"

Sir John was rather puzzled.

"Upon my soul," said he, "I do not know much about him

as to all THAT. But he is a pleasant, good humoured fellow,

and has got the nicest little black bitch of a pointer

I ever saw. Was she out with him today?"

But Marianne could no more satisfy him as to the

colour of Mr. Willoughby's pointer, than he could

describe to her the shades of his mind.

"But who is he?" said Elinor. "Where does he come

from? Has he a house at Allenham?"

On this point Sir John could give more certain intelligence;

and he told them that Mr. Willoughby had no property

of his own in the country; that he resided there only

while he was visiting the old lady at Allenham Court,

to whom he was related, and whose possessions he was

to inherit; adding, "Yes, yes, he is very well worth

catching I can tell you, Miss Dashwood; he has a pretty

little estate of his own in Somersetshire besides;

and if I were you, I would not give him up to my

younger sister, in spite of all this tumbling down hills.

Miss Marianne must not expect to have all the men to herself.

Brandon will be jealous, if she does not take care."

"I do not believe," said Mrs. Dashwood, with a

good humoured smile, "that Mr. Willoughby will be incommoded

by the attempts of either of MY daughters towards what

you call CATCHING him. It is not an employment to which

they have been brought up. Men are very safe with us,

let them be ever so rich. I am glad to find, however,

from what you say, that he is a respectable young man,

and one whose acquaintance will not be ineligible."

"He is as good a sort of fellow, I believe,

as ever lived," repeated Sir John. "I remember

last Christmas at a little hop at the park, he danced

from eight o'clock till four, without once sitting down."

"Did he indeed?" cried Marianne with sparkling eyes,

"and with elegance, with spirit?"

"Yes; and he was up again at eight to ride to covert."

"That is what I like; that is what a young man ought

to be. Whatever be his pursuits, his eagerness in them

should know no moderation, and leave him no sense of fatigue."

"Aye, aye, I see how it will be," said Sir John, "I see

how it will be. You will be setting your cap at him now,

and never think of poor Brandon."

"That is an expression, Sir John," said Marianne,

warmly, "which I particularly dislike. I abhor every

common-place phrase by which wit is intended; and 'setting

one's cap at a man,' or 'making a conquest,' are the most

odious of all. Their tendency is gross and illiberal;

and if their construction could ever be deemed clever,

time has long ago destroyed all its ingenuity."

Sir John did not much understand this reproof;

but he laughed as heartily as if he did, and then replied,

"Ay, you will make conquests enough, I dare say,

one way or other. Poor Brandon! he is quite smitten already,

and he is very well worth setting your cap at, I can

tell you, in spite of all this tumbling about and spraining

of ankles."

CHAPTER 10

Marianne's preserver, as Margaret, with more elegance

than precision, styled Willoughby, called at the cottage

early the next morning to make his personal enquiries.

He was received by Mrs. Dashwood with more than politeness;

with a kindness which Sir John's account of him and her own

gratitude prompted; and every thing that passed during

the visit tended to assure him of the sense, elegance,

mutual affection, and domestic comfort of the family

to whom accident had now introduced him. Of their

personal charms he had not required a second interview

to be convinced.

Miss Dashwood had a delicate complexion,

regular features, and a remarkably pretty figure.

Marianne was still handsomer. Her form, though not so

correct as her sister's, in having the advantage of height,

was more striking; and her face was so lovely, that when

in the common cant of praise, she was called a beautiful girl,

truth was less violently outraged than usually happens.

Her skin was very brown, but, from its transparency,

her complexion was uncommonly brilliant; her features

were all good; her smile was sweet and attractive;

and in her eyes, which were very dark, there was a life,

a spirit, an eagerness, which could hardily be seen

without delight. From Willoughby their expression was at

first held back, by the embarrassment which the remembrance

of his assistance created. But when this passed away,

when her spirits became collected, when she saw that to the

perfect good-breeding of the gentleman, he united frankness

and vivacity, and above all, when she heard him declare,

that of music and dancing he was passionately fond,

she gave him such a look of approbation as secured the

largest share of his discourse to herself for the rest

of his stay.

It was only necessary to mention any favourite

amusement to engage her to talk. She could not be

silent when such points were introduced, and she

had neither shyness nor reserve in their discussion.

They speedily discovered that their enjoyment of dancing

and music was mutual, and that it arose from a general

conformity of judgment in all that related to either.

Encouraged by this to a further examination of his opinions,

she proceeded to question him on the subject of books;

her favourite authors were brought forward and dwelt

upon with so rapturous a delight, that any young man of

five and twenty must have been insensible indeed, not to

become an immediate convert to the excellence of such works,

however disregarded before. Their taste was strikingly alike.

The same books, the same passages were idolized by each--

or if any difference appeared, any objection arose,

it lasted no longer than till the force of her arguments

and the brightness of her eyes could be displayed.

He acquiesced in all her decisions, caught all her enthusiasm;

and long before his visit concluded, they conversed

with the familiarity of a long-established acquaintance.

"Well, Marianne," said Elinor, as soon as he had left them,

"for ONE morning I think you have done pretty well.

You have already ascertained Mr. Willoughby's opinion in

almost every matter of importance. You know what he thinks

of Cowper and Scott; you are certain of his estimating

their beauties as he ought, and you have received every

assurance of his admiring Pope no more than is proper.

But how is your acquaintance to be long supported, under such

extraordinary despatch of every subject for discourse?

You will soon have exhausted each favourite topic.

Another meeting will suffice to explain his sentiments

on picturesque beauty, and second marriages, and then

you can have nothing farther to ask."--

"Elinor," cried Marianne, "is this fair? is this

just? are my ideas so scanty? But I see what you mean.

I have been too much at my ease, too happy, too frank.

I have erred against every common-place notion of decorum;

I have been open and sincere where I ought to have

been reserved, spiritless, dull, and deceitful--had

I talked only of the weather and the roads, and had I

spoken only once in ten minutes, this reproach would have

been spared."

"My love," said her mother, "you must not be offended

with Elinor--she was only in jest. I should scold

her myself, if she were capable of wishing to check

the delight of your conversation with our new friend."--

Marianne was softened in a moment.

Willoughby, on his side, gave every proof of his

pleasure in their acquaintance, which an evident wish

of improving it could offer. He came to them every day.

To enquire after Marianne was at first his excuse; but the

encouragement of his reception, to which every day gave

greater kindness, made such an excuse unnecessary before it

had ceased to be possible, by Marianne's perfect recovery.

She was confined for some days to the house; but never had

any confinement been less irksome. Willoughby was a young

man of good abilities, quick imagination, lively spirits,

and open, affectionate manners. He was exactly formed

to engage Marianne's heart, for with all this, he joined

not only a captivating person, but a natural ardour

of mind which was now roused and increased by the example

of her own, and which recommended him to her affection

beyond every thing else.

His society became gradually her most exquisite enjoyment.

They read, they talked, they sang together; his musical

talents were considerable; and he read with all the

sensibility and spirit which Edward had unfortunately wanted.

In Mrs. Dashwood's estimation he was as faultless

as in Marianne's; and Elinor saw nothing to censure in him

but a propensity, in which he strongly resembled and peculiarly

delighted her sister, of saying too much what he thought on

every occasion, without attention to persons or circumstances.

In hastily forming and giving his opinion of other people,

in sacrificing general politeness to the enjoyment

of undivided attention where his heart was engaged,

and in slighting too easily the forms of worldly propriety,

he displayed a want of caution which Elinor could not approve,

in spite of all that he and Marianne could say in its support.

Marianne began now to perceive that the desperation

which had seized her at sixteen and a half, of ever

seeing a man who could satisfy her ideas of perfection,

had been rash and unjustifiable. Willoughby was all

that her fancy had delineated in that unhappy hour

and in every brighter period, as capable of attaching her;

and his behaviour declared his wishes to be in that respect

as earnest, as his abilities were strong.

Her mother too, in whose mind not one speculative

thought of their marriage had been raised, by his prospect

of riches, was led before the end of a week to hope and

expect it; and secretly to congratulate herself on having

gained two such sons-in-law as Edward and Willoughby.

Colonel Brandon's partiality for Marianne, which had

so early been discovered by his friends, now first became

perceptible to Elinor, when it ceased to be noticed

by them. Their attention and wit were drawn off to his

more fortunate rival; and the raillery which the other

had incurred before any partiality arose, was removed

when his feelings began really to call for the ridicule

so justly annexed to sensibility. Elinor was obliged,

though unwillingly, to believe that the sentiments which

Mrs. Jennings had assigned him for her own satisfaction,

were now actually excited by her sister; and that however

a general resemblance of disposition between the parties

might forward the affection of Mr. Willoughby, an equally

striking opposition of character was no hindrance to the

regard of Colonel Brandon. She saw it with concern;

for what could a silent man of five and thirty hope,

when opposed to a very lively one of five and twenty? and as

she could not even wish him successful, she heartily wished

him indifferent. She liked him--in spite of his gravity

and reserve, she beheld in him an object of interest.

His manners, though serious, were mild; and his reserve

appeared rather the result of some oppression of spirits

than of any natural gloominess of temper. Sir John

had dropped hints of past injuries and disappointments,

which justified her belief of his being an unfortunate man,

and she regarded him with respect and compassion.

Perhaps she pitied and esteemed him the more

because he was slighted by Willoughby and Marianne,

who, prejudiced against him for being neither lively

nor young, seemed resolved to undervalue his merits.

"Brandon is just the kind of man," said Willoughby

one day, when they were talking of him together,

"whom every body speaks well of, and nobody cares about;

whom all are delighted to see, and nobody remembers

to talk to."

"That is exactly what I think of him," cried Marianne.

"Do not boast of it, however," said Elinor, "for it

is injustice in both of you. He is highly esteemed

by all the family at the park, and I never see him myself

without taking pains to converse with him."

"That he is patronised by YOU," replied Willoughby,

"is certainly in his favour; but as for the esteem

of the others, it is a reproach in itself. Who would

submit to the indignity of being approved by such a woman

as Lady Middleton and Mrs. Jennings, that could command

the indifference of any body else?"

"But perhaps the abuse of such people as yourself

and Marianne will make amends for the regard of Lady

Middleton and her mother. If their praise is censure,

your censure may be praise, for they are not more undiscerning,

than you are prejudiced and unjust."

"In defence of your protege you can even be saucy."

"My protege, as you call him, is a sensible man;

and sense will always have attractions for me.

Yes, Marianne, even in a man between thirty and forty.

He has seen a great deal of the world; has been abroad,

has read, and has a thinking mind. I have found him

capable of giving me much information on various subjects;

and he has always answered my inquiries with readiness of

good-breeding and good nature."

"That is to say," cried Marianne contemptuously,

"he has told you, that in the East Indies the climate is hot,

and the mosquitoes are troublesome."

"He WOULD have told me so, I doubt not, had I made

any such inquiries, but they happened to be points

on which I had been previously informed."

"Perhaps," said Willoughby, "his observations may

have extended to the existence of nabobs, gold mohrs,

and palanquins."

"I may venture to say that HIS observations

have stretched much further than your candour.

But why should you dislike him?"

"I do not dislike him. I consider him, on the contrary,

as a very respectable man, who has every body's good word,

and nobody's notice; who, has more money than he can spend,

more time than he knows how to employ, and two new coats

every year."

"Add to which," cried Marianne, "that he has

neither genius, taste, nor spirit. That his understanding

has no brilliancy, his feelings no ardour, and his voice

no expression."

"You decide on his imperfections so much in the mass,"

replied Elinor, "and so much on the strength of your

own imagination, that the commendation I am able to give

of him is comparatively cold and insipid. I can only

pronounce him to be a sensible man, well-bred, well-informed,

of gentle address, and, I believe, possessing an amiable heart."

"Miss Dashwood," cried Willoughby, "you are now using

me unkindly. You are endeavouring to disarm me by reason,

and to convince me against my will. But it will not do.

You shall find me as stubborn as you can be artful. I have

three unanswerable reasons for disliking Colonel Brandon;

he threatened me with rain when I wanted it to be fine;

he has found fault with the hanging of my curricle,

and I cannot persuade him to buy my brown mare. If it

will be any satisfaction to you, however, to be told,

that I believe his character to be in other respects

irreproachable, I am ready to confess it. And in return

for an acknowledgment, which must give me some pain,

you cannot deny me the privilege of disliking him as much

as ever."

CHAPTER 11

Little had Mrs. Dashwood or her daughters imagined

when they first came into Devonshire, that so many

engagements would arise to occupy their time as shortly

presented themselves, or that they should have such frequent

invitations and such constant visitors as to leave them little

leisure for serious employment. Yet such was the case.

When Marianne was recovered, the schemes of amusement at home

and abroad, which Sir John had been previously forming,

were put into execution. The private balls at the park

then began; and parties on the water were made and

accomplished as often as a showery October would allow.

In every meeting of the kind Willoughby was included;

and the ease and familiarity which naturally attended

these parties were exactly calculated to give increasing

intimacy to his acquaintance with the Dashwoods, to afford

him opportunity of witnessing the excellencies of Marianne,

of marking his animated admiration of her, and of receiving,

in her behaviour to himself, the most pointed assurance

of her affection.

Elinor could not be surprised at their attachment.

She only wished that it were less openly shewn; and once

or twice did venture to suggest the propriety of some

self-command to Marianne. But Marianne abhorred all

concealment where no real disgrace could attend unreserve;

and to aim at the restraint of sentiments which were not

in themselves illaudable, appeared to her not merely

an unnecessary effort, but a disgraceful subjection

of reason to common-place and mistaken notions.

Willoughby thought the same; and their behaviour at

all times, was an illustration of their opinions.

When he was present she had no eyes for any one else.

Every thing he did, was right. Every thing he said, was clever.

If their evenings at the park were concluded with cards,

he cheated himself and all the rest of the party to get

her a good hand. If dancing formed the amusement

of the night, they were partners for half the time;

and when obliged to separate for a couple of dances,

were careful to stand together and scarcely spoke a word

to any body else. Such conduct made them of course

most exceedingly laughed at; but ridicule could not shame,

and seemed hardly to provoke them.

Mrs. Dashwood entered into all their feelings with

a warmth which left her no inclination for checking this

excessive display of them. To her it was but the natural

consequence of a strong affection in a young and ardent mind.

This was the season of happiness to Marianne.

Her heart was devoted to Willoughby, and the fond attachment

to Norland, which she brought with her from Sussex,

was more likely to be softened than she had thought it

possible before, by the charms which his society bestowed

on her present home.

Elinor's happiness was not so great. Her heart was not

so much at ease, nor her satisfaction in their amusements

so pure. They afforded her no companion that could make

amends for what she had left behind, nor that could teach

her to think of Norland with less regret than ever.

Neither Lady Middleton nor Mrs. Jennings could supply

to her the conversation she missed; although the latter

was an everlasting talker, and from the first had regarded

her with a kindness which ensured her a large share of

her discourse. She had already repeated her own history

to Elinor three or four times; and had Elinor's memory been

equal to her means of improvement, she might have known

very early in their acquaintance all the particulars of

Mr. Jenning's last illness, and what he said to his wife

a few minutes before he died. Lady Middleton was more

agreeable than her mother only in being more silent.

Elinor needed little observation to perceive that her

reserve was a mere calmness of manner with which sense

had nothing to do. Towards her husband and mother she

was the same as to them; and intimacy was therefore

neither to be looked for nor desired. She had nothing

to say one day that she had not said the day before.

Her insipidity was invariable, for even her spirits were

always the same; and though she did not oppose the parties

arranged by her husband, provided every thing were conducted

in style and her two eldest children attended her,

she never appeared to receive more enjoyment from them

than she might have experienced in sitting at home;--

and so little did her presence add to the pleasure

of the others, by any share in their conversation,

that they were sometimes only reminded of her being

amongst them by her solicitude about her troublesome boys.

In Colonel Brandon alone, of all her new acquaintance,

did Elinor find a person who could in any degree claim the

respect of abilities, excite the interest of friendship,

or give pleasure as a companion. Willoughby was out

of the question. Her admiration and regard, even her

sisterly regard, was all his own; but he was a lover;

his attentions were wholly Marianne's, and a far less

agreeable man might have been more generally pleasing.

Colonel Brandon, unfortunately for himself, had no such

encouragement to think only of Marianne, and in conversing

with Elinor he found the greatest consolation for the

indifference of her sister.

Elinor's compassion for him increased, as she had reason

to suspect that the misery of disappointed love had already

been known to him. This suspicion was given by some words

which accidently dropped from him one evening at the park,

when they were sitting down together by mutual consent,

while the others were dancing. His eyes were fixed

on Marianne, and, after a silence of some minutes,

he said, with a faint smile, "Your sister, I understand,

does not approve of second attachments."

"No," replied Elinor, "her opinions are all romantic."

"Or rather, as I believe, she considers them

impossible to exist."

"I believe she does. But how she contrives it

without reflecting on the character of her own father,

who had himself two wives, I know not. A few years

however will settle her opinions on the reasonable basis

of common sense and observation; and then they may be

more easy to define and to justify than they now are,

by any body but herself."

"This will probably be the case," he replied;

"and yet there is something so amiable in the prejudices

of a young mind, that one is sorry to see them give way

to the reception of more general opinions."

"I cannot agree with you there," said Elinor.

"There are inconveniences attending such feelings

as Marianne's, which all the charms of enthusiasm and

ignorance of the world cannot atone for. Her systems have

all the unfortunate tendency of setting propriety at nought;

and a better acquaintance with the world is what I look

forward to as her greatest possible advantage."

After a short pause he resumed the conversation

by saying,--

"Does your sister make no distinction in her objections

against a second attachment? or is it equally criminal

in every body? Are those who have been disappointed

in their first choice, whether from the inconstancy

of its object, or the perverseness of circumstances,

to be equally indifferent during the rest of their lives?"

"Upon my word, I am not acquainted with the minutiae

of her principles. I only know that I never yet heard her

admit any instance of a second attachment's being pardonable."

"This," said he, "cannot hold; but a change,

a total change of sentiments--No, no, do not desire it;

for when the romantic refinements of a young mind

are obliged to give way, how frequently are they

succeeded by such opinions as are but too common, and too

dangerous! I speak from experience. I once knew a lady

who in temper and mind greatly resembled your sister,

who thought and judged like her, but who from an inforced

change--from a series of unfortunate circumstances"--

Here he stopt suddenly; appeared to think that he had said

too much, and by his countenance gave rise to conjectures,

which might not otherwise have entered Elinor's head.

The lady would probably have passed without suspicion,

had he not convinced Miss Dashwood that what concerned

her ought not to escape his lips. As it was,

it required but a slight effort of fancy to connect his

emotion with the tender recollection of past regard.

Elinor attempted no more. But Marianne, in her place,

would not have done so little. The whole story would

have been speedily formed under her active imagination;

and every thing established in the most melancholy order

of disastrous love.

CHAPTER 12

As Elinor and Marianne were walking together the

next morning the latter communicated a piece of news

to her sister, which in spite of all that she knew

before of Marianne's imprudence and want of thought,

surprised her by its extravagant testimony of both.

Marianne told her, with the greatest delight, that

Willoughby had given her a horse, one that he had bred

himself on his estate in Somersetshire, and which was

exactly calculated to carry a woman. Without considering

that it was not in her mother's plan to keep any horse,

that if she were to alter her resolution in favour of

this gift, she must buy another for the servant, and

keep a servant to ride it, and after all, build a stable

to receive them, she had accepted the present without

hesitation, and told her sister of it in raptures.

"He intends to send his groom into Somersetshire

immediately for it," she added, "and when it arrives we

will ride every day. You shall share its use with me.

Imagine to yourself, my dear Elinor, the delight of a gallop

on some of these downs."

Most unwilling was she to awaken from such a dream of

felicity to comprehend all the unhappy truths which attended

the affair; and for some time she refused to submit to them.

As to an additional servant, the expense would be a trifle;

Mamma she was sure would never object to it; and any horse

would do for HIM; he might always get one at the park;

as to a stable, the merest shed would be sufficient.

Elinor then ventured to doubt the propriety of her receiving

such a present from a man so little, or at least so lately

known to her. This was too much.

"You are mistaken, Elinor," said she warmly,

"in supposing I know very little of Willoughby.

I have not known him long indeed, but I am much better

acquainted with him, than I am with any other creature

in the world, except yourself and mama. It is not

time or opportunity that is to determine intimacy;--

it is disposition alone. Seven years would be insufficient

to make some people acquainted with each other, and seven

days are more than enough for others. I should hold

myself guilty of greater impropriety in accepting a horse

from my brother, than from Willoughby. Of John I know

very little, though we have lived together for years;

but of Willoughby my judgment has long been formed."

Elinor thought it wisest to touch that point no more.

She knew her sister's temper. Opposition on so tender a

subject would only attach her the more to her own opinion.

But by an appeal to her affection for her mother,

by representing the inconveniences which that indulgent

mother must draw on herself, if (as would probably be

the case) she consented to this increase of establishment,

Marianne was shortly subdued; and she promised not to

tempt her mother to such imprudent kindness by mentioning

the offer, and to tell Willoughby when she saw him next,

that it must be declined.

She was faithful to her word; and when Willoughby

called at the cottage, the same day, Elinor heard her

express her disappointment to him in a low voice, on

being obliged to forego the acceptance of his present.

The reasons for this alteration were at the same time related,

and they were such as to make further entreaty on his

side impossible. His concern however was very apparent;

and after expressing it with earnestness, he added,

in the same low voice,--"But, Marianne, the horse is

still yours, though you cannot use it now. I shall keep

it only till you can claim it. When you leave Barton

to form your own establishment in a more lasting home,

Queen Mab shall receive you."

This was all overheard by Miss Dashwood; and in the

whole of the sentence, in his manner of pronouncing it,

and in his addressing her sister by her Christian name alone,

she instantly saw an intimacy so decided, a meaning

so direct, as marked a perfect agreement between them.

From that moment she doubted not of their being engaged

to each other; and the belief of it created no other surprise

than that she, or any of their friends, should be left

by tempers so frank, to discover it by accident.

Margaret related something to her the next day,

which placed this matter in a still clearer light.

Willoughby had spent the preceding evening with them,

and Margaret, by being left some time in the parlour

with only him and Marianne, had had opportunity

for observations, which, with a most important face,

she communicated to her eldest sister, when they were

next by themselves.

"Oh, Elinor!" she cried, "I have such a secret to

tell you about Marianne. I am sure she will be married

to Mr. Willoughby very soon."

"You have said so," replied Elinor, "almost every

day since they first met on High-church Down; and they

had not known each other a week, I believe, before you

were certain that Marianne wore his picture round her neck;

but it turned out to be only the miniature of our great uncle."

"But indeed this is quite another thing. I am sure

they will be married very soon, for he has got a lock

of her hair."

"Take care, Margaret. It may be only the hair

of some great uncle of HIS."

"But, indeed, Elinor, it is Marianne's. I am almost

sure it is, for I saw him cut it off. Last night

after tea, when you and mama went out of the room,

they were whispering and talking together as fast as

could be, and he seemed to be begging something of her,

and presently he took up her scissors and cut off a long

lock of her hair, for it was all tumbled down her back;

and he kissed it, and folded it up in a piece of white paper;

and put it into his pocket-book."

For such particulars, stated on such authority,

Elinor could not withhold her credit; nor was she disposed

to it, for the circumstance was in perfect unison with

what she had heard and seen herself.

Margaret's sagacity was not always displayed in a

way so satisfactory to her sister. When Mrs. Jennings

attacked her one evening at the park, to give the name

of the young man who was Elinor's particular favourite,

which had been long a matter of great curiosity to her,

Margaret answered by looking at her sister, and saying,

"I must not tell, may I, Elinor?"

This of course made every body laugh; and Elinor

tried to laugh too. But the effort was painful.

She was convinced that Margaret had fixed on a person

whose name she could not bear with composure to become

a standing joke with Mrs. Jennings.

Marianne felt for her most sincerely; but she did

more harm than good to the cause, by turning very red

and saying in an angry manner to Margaret,

"Remember that whatever your conjectures may be,

you have no right to repeat them."

"I never had any conjectures about it," replied Margaret;

"it was you who told me of it yourself."

This increased the mirth of the company, and Margaret

was eagerly pressed to say something more.

"Oh! pray, Miss Margaret, let us know all about it,"

said Mrs. Jennings. "What is the gentleman's name?"

"I must not tell, ma'am. But I know very well what it is;

and I know where he is too."

"Yes, yes, we can guess where he is; at his own house

at Norland to be sure. He is the curate of the parish

I dare say."

"No, THAT he is not. He is of no profession at all."

"Margaret," said Marianne with great warmth,

"you know that all this is an invention of your own,

and that there is no such person in existence."

"Well, then, he is lately dead, Marianne, for I

am sure there was such a man once, and his name begins

with an F."

Most grateful did Elinor feel to Lady Middleton

for observing, at this moment, "that it rained very hard,"

though she believed the interruption to proceed less from

any attention to her, than from her ladyship's great dislike

of all such inelegant subjects of raillery as delighted

her husband and mother. The idea however started by her,

was immediately pursued by Colonel Brandon, who was

on every occasion mindful of the feelings of others;

and much was said on the subject of rain by both of them.

Willoughby opened the piano-forte, and asked Marianne

to sit down to it; and thus amidst the various endeavours

of different people to quit the topic, it fell to the ground.

But not so easily did Elinor recover from the alarm into

which it had thrown her.

A party was formed this evening for going on the

following day to see a very fine place about twelve miles

from Barton, belonging to a brother-in-law of Colonel Brandon,

without whose interest it could not be seen, as the proprietor,

who was then abroad, had left strict orders on that head.

The grounds were declared to be highly beautiful,

and Sir John, who was particularly warm in their praise,

might be allowed to be a tolerable judge, for he had

formed parties to visit them, at least, twice every summer

for the last ten years. They contained a noble piece

of water; a sail on which was to a form a great part of

the morning's amusement; cold provisions were to be taken,

open carriages only to be employed, and every thing

conducted in the usual style of a complete party of pleasure.

To some few of the company it appeared rather

a bold undertaking, considering the time of year,

and that it had rained every day for the last fortnight;--

and Mrs. Dashwood, who had already a cold, was persuaded

by Elinor to stay at home.

CHAPTER 13

Their intended excursion to Whitwell turned out

very different from what Elinor had expected. She was

prepared to be wet through, fatigued, and frightened;

but the event was still more unfortunate, for they did

not go at all.

By ten o'clock the whole party was assembled at

the park, where they were to breakfast. The morning

was rather favourable, though it had rained all night,

as the clouds were then dispersing across the sky,

and the sun frequently appeared. They were all in high

spirits and good humour, eager to be happy, and determined

to submit to the greatest inconveniences and hardships

rather than be otherwise.

While they were at breakfast the letters were brought in.

Among the rest there was one for Colonel Brandon;--he

took it, looked at the direction, changed colour,

and immediately left the room.

"What is the matter with Brandon?" said Sir John.

Nobody could tell.

"I hope he has had no bad news," said Lady Middleton.

"It must be something extraordinary that could make Colonel

Brandon leave my breakfast table so suddenly."

In about five minutes he returned.

"No bad news, Colonel, I hope;" said Mrs. Jennings,

as soon as he entered the room.

"None at all, ma'am, I thank you."

"Was it from Avignon? I hope it is not to say

that your sister is worse."

"No, ma'am. It came from town, and is merely

a letter of business."

"But how came the hand to discompose you so much,

if it was only a letter of business? Come, come,

this won't do, Colonel; so let us hear the truth of it."

"My dear madam," said Lady Middleton, "recollect what

you are saying."

"Perhaps it is to tell you that your cousin Fanny

is married?" said Mrs. Jennings, without attending

to her daughter's reproof.

"No, indeed, it is not."

"Well, then, I know who it is from, Colonel. And I

hope she is well."

"Whom do you mean, ma'am?" said he, colouring a little.

"Oh! you know who I mean."

"I am particularly sorry, ma'am," said he,

addressing Lady Middleton, "that I should receive this

letter today, for it is on business which requires

my immediate attendance in town."

"In town!" cried Mrs. Jennings. "What can you

have to do in town at this time of year?"

"My own loss is great," he continued, "in being obliged

to leave so agreeable a party; but I am the more concerned,

as I fear my presence is necessary to gain your admittance

at Whitwell."

What a blow upon them all was this!

"But if you write a note to the housekeeper, Mr. Brandon,"

said Marianne, eagerly, "will it not be sufficient?"

He shook his head.

"We must go," said Sir John.--"It shall not be put

off when we are so near it. You cannot go to town till

tomorrow, Brandon, that is all."

"I wish it could be so easily settled. But it

is not in my power to delay my journey for one day!"

"If you would but let us know what your business is,"

said Mrs. Jennings, "we might see whether it could be put

off or not."

"You would not be six hours later," said Willoughby,

"if you were to defer your journey till our return."

"I cannot afford to lose ONE hour."--

Elinor then heard Willoughby say, in a low voice to Marianne,

"There are some people who cannot bear a party of pleasure.

Brandon is one of them. He was afraid of catching cold

I dare say, and invented this trick for getting out of it.

I would lay fifty guineas the letter was of his own writing."

"I have no doubt of it," replied Marianne.

"There is no persuading you to change your mind,

Brandon, I know of old," said Sir John, "when once you

are determined on anything. But, however, I hope you

will think better of it. Consider, here are the two Miss

Careys come over from Newton, the three Miss Dashwoods

walked up from the cottage, and Mr. Willoughby got up

two hours before his usual time, on purpose to go to Whitwell."

Colonel Brandon again repeated his sorrow at being

the cause of disappointing the party; but at the same

time declared it to be unavoidable.

"Well, then, when will you come back again?"

"I hope we shall see you at Barton," added her ladyship,

"as soon as you can conveniently leave town; and we must

put off the party to Whitwell till you return."

"You are very obliging. But it is so uncertain,

when I may have it in my power to return, that I dare

not engage for it at all."

"Oh! he must and shall come back," cried Sir John.

"If he is not here by the end of the week, I shall go

after him."

"Ay, so do, Sir John," cried Mrs. Jennings, "and then

perhaps you may find out what his business is."

"I do not want to pry into other men's concerns.

I suppose it is something he is ashamed of."

Colonel Brandon's horses were announced.

"You do not go to town on horseback, do you?"

added Sir John.

"No. Only to Honiton. I shall then go post."

"Well, as you are resolved to go, I wish you

a good journey. But you had better change your mind."

"I assure you it is not in my power."

He then took leave of the whole party.

"Is there no chance of my seeing you and your sisters

in town this winter, Miss Dashwood?"

"I am afraid, none at all."

"Then I must bid you farewell for a longer time

than I should wish to do."

To Marianne, he merely bowed and said nothing.

"Come Colonel," said Mrs. Jennings, "before you go,

do let us know what you are going about."

He wished her a good morning, and, attended by Sir John,

left the room.

The complaints and lamentations which politeness

had hitherto restrained, now burst forth universally;

and they all agreed again and again how provoking it was

to be so disappointed.

"I can guess what his business is, however,"

said Mrs. Jennings exultingly.

"Can you, ma'am?" said almost every body.

"Yes; it is about Miss Williams, I am sure."

"And who is Miss Williams?" asked Marianne.

"What! do not you know who Miss Williams is? I am

sure you must have heard of her before. She is a relation

of the Colonel's, my dear; a very near relation. We will

not say how near, for fear of shocking the young ladies."

Then, lowering her voice a little, she said to Elinor,

"She is his natural daughter."

"Indeed!"

"Oh, yes; and as like him as she can stare.

I dare say the Colonel will leave her all his fortune."

When Sir John returned, he joined most heartily

in the general regret on so unfortunate an event;

concluding however by observing, that as they were

all got together, they must do something by way of

being happy; and after some consultation it was agreed,

that although happiness could only be enjoyed at Whitwell,

they might procure a tolerable composure of mind by driving

about the country. The carriages were then ordered;

Willoughby's was first, and Marianne never looked

happier than when she got into it. He drove through

the park very fast, and they were soon out of sight;

and nothing more of them was seen till their return,

which did not happen till after the return of all the rest.

They both seemed delighted with their drive; but said

only in general terms that they had kept in the lanes,

while the others went on the downs.

It was settled that there should be a dance in the evening,

and that every body should be extremely merry all day long.

Some more of the Careys came to dinner, and they had the

pleasure of sitting down nearly twenty to table, which Sir

John observed with great contentment. Willoughby took

his usual place between the two elder Miss Dashwoods.

Mrs. Jennings sat on Elinor's right hand; and they had not

been long seated, before she leant behind her and Willoughby,

and said to Marianne, loud enough for them both to hear,

"I have found you out in spite of all your tricks.

I know where you spent the morning."

Marianne coloured, and replied very hastily,

"Where, pray?"--

"Did not you know," said Willoughby, "that we had

been out in my curricle?"

"Yes, yes, Mr. Impudence, I know that very well,

and I was determined to find out WHERE you had been to.--

I hope you like your house, Miss Marianne. It is a very

large one, I know; and when I come to see you, I hope you

will have new-furnished it, for it wanted it very much

when I was there six years ago."

Marianne turned away in great confusion.

Mrs. Jennings laughed heartily; and Elinor found that in her

resolution to know where they had been, she had actually

made her own woman enquire of Mr. Willoughby's groom;

and that she had by that method been informed that they

had gone to Allenham, and spent a considerable time there

in walking about the garden and going all over the house.

Elinor could hardly believe this to be true,

as it seemed very unlikely that Willoughby should propose,

or Marianne consent, to enter the house while Mrs. Smith was

in it, with whom Marianne had not the smallest acquaintance.

As soon as they left the dining-room, Elinor enquired

of her about it; and great was her surprise when she

found that every circumstance related by Mrs. Jennings

was perfectly true. Marianne was quite angry with her

for doubting it.

"Why should you imagine, Elinor, that we did not

go there, or that we did not see the house? Is not it

what you have often wished to do yourself?"

"Yes, Marianne, but I would not go while Mrs. Smith

was there, and with no other companion than Mr. Willoughby."

"Mr. Willoughby however is the only person who can

have a right to shew that house; and as he went in an open

carriage, it was impossible to have any other companion.

I never spent a pleasanter morning in my life."

"I am afraid," replied Elinor, "that the pleasantness

of an employment does not always evince its propriety."

"On the contrary, nothing can be a stronger proof

of it, Elinor; for if there had been any real impropriety

in what I did, I should have been sensible of it at

the time, for we always know when we are acting wrong,

and with such a conviction I could have had no pleasure."

"But, my dear Marianne, as it has already exposed you

to some very impertinent remarks, do you not now begin

to doubt the discretion of your own conduct?"

"If the impertinent remarks of Mrs. Jennings are

to be the proof of impropriety in conduct, we are all

offending every moment of our lives. I value not her

censure any more than I should do her commendation.

I am not sensible of having done anything wrong in walking

over Mrs. Smith's grounds, or in seeing her house.

They will one day be Mr. Willoughby's, and--"

"If they were one day to be your own, Marianne,

you would not be justified in what you have done."

She blushed at this hint; but it was even visibly

gratifying to her; and after a ten minutes' interval of

earnest thought, she came to her sister again, and said

with great good humour, "Perhaps, Elinor, it WAS rather

ill-judged in me to go to Allenham; but Mr. Willoughby wanted

particularly to shew me the place; and it is a charming house,

I assure you.--There is one remarkably pretty sitting room

up stairs; of a nice comfortable size for constant use,

and with modern furniture it would be delightful.

It is a corner room, and has windows on two sides.

On one side you look across the bowling-green, behind

the house, to a beautiful hanging wood, and on the other you

have a view of the church and village, and, beyond them,

of those fine bold hills that we have so often admired.

I did not see it to advantage, for nothing could be

more forlorn than the furniture,--but if it were newly

fitted up--a couple of hundred pounds, Willoughby says,

would make it one of the pleasantest summer-rooms

in England."

Could Elinor have listened to her without interruption

from the others, she would have described every room

in the house with equal delight.

CHAPTER 14

The sudden termination of Colonel Brandon's visit

at the park, with his steadiness in concealing its cause,

filled the mind, and raised the wonder of Mrs. Jennings

for two or three days; she was a great wonderer, as every

one must be who takes a very lively interest in all the

comings and goings of all their acquaintance. She wondered,

with little intermission what could be the reason of it;

was sure there must be some bad news, and thought over

every kind of distress that could have befallen him,

with a fixed determination that he should not escape

them all.

"Something very melancholy must be the matter,

I am sure," said she. "I could see it in his face.

Poor man! I am afraid his circumstances may be bad.

The estate at Delaford was never reckoned more than two thousand

a year, and his brother left everything sadly involved.

I do think he must have been sent for about money matters,

for what else can it be? I wonder whether it is so.

I would give anything to know the truth of it. Perhaps it

is about Miss Williams and, by the bye, I dare say it is,

because he looked so conscious when I mentioned her.

May be she is ill in town; nothing in the world more likely,

for I have a notion she is always rather sickly.

I would lay any wager it is about Miss Williams.

It is not so very likely he should be distressed in

his circumstances NOW, for he is a very prudent man,

and to be sure must have cleared the estate by this time.

I wonder what it can be! May be his sister is worse

at Avignon, and has sent for him over. His setting off

in such a hurry seems very like it. Well, I wish him out

of all his trouble with all my heart, and a good wife into

the bargain."

So wondered, so talked Mrs. Jennings. Her opinion

varying with every fresh conjecture, and all seeming

equally probable as they arose. Elinor, though she felt

really interested in the welfare of Colonel Brandon,

could not bestow all the wonder on his going so suddenly

away, which Mrs. Jennings was desirous of her feeling;

for besides that the circumstance did not in her opinion

justify such lasting amazement or variety of speculation,

her wonder was otherwise disposed of. It was engrossed

by the extraordinary silence of her sister and Willoughby

on the subject, which they must know to be peculiarly

interesting to them all. As this silence continued,

every day made it appear more strange and more incompatible

with the disposition of both. Why they should not openly

acknowledge to her mother and herself, what their constant

behaviour to each other declared to have taken place,

Elinor could not imagine.

She could easily conceive that marriage might not

be immediately in their power; for though Willoughby

was independent, there was no reason to believe him rich.

His estate had been rated by Sir John at about six or seven

hundred a year; but he lived at an expense to which that income

could hardly be equal, and he had himself often complained

of his poverty. But for this strange kind of secrecy

maintained by them relative to their engagement, which

in fact concealed nothing at all, she could not account;

and it was so wholly contradictory to their general

opinions and practice, that a doubt sometimes entered

her mind of their being really engaged, and this doubt

was enough to prevent her making any inquiry of Marianne.

Nothing could be more expressive of attachment

to them all, than Willoughby's behaviour. To Marianne

it had all the distinguishing tenderness which a lover's

heart could give, and to the rest of the family it was the

affectionate attention of a son and a brother. The cottage

seemed to be considered and loved by him as his home;

many more of his hours were spent there than at Allenham;

and if no general engagement collected them at the park,

the exercise which called him out in the morning was

almost certain of ending there, where the rest of the day

was spent by himself at the side of Marianne, and by his

favourite pointer at her feet.

One evening in particular, about a week after

Colonel Brandon left the country, his heart seemed

more than usually open to every feeling of attachment

to the objects around him; and on Mrs. Dashwood's

happening to mention her design of improving the cottage

in the spring, he warmly opposed every alteration

of a place which affection had established as perfect with him.

"What!" he exclaimed--"Improve this dear cottage!

No. THAT I will never consent to. Not a stone must

be added to its walls, not an inch to its size,

if my feelings are regarded."

"Do not be alarmed," said Miss Dashwood,

"nothing of the kind will be done; for my mother

will never have money enough to attempt it."

"I am heartily glad of it," he cried. "May she

always be poor, if she can employ her riches no better."

"Thank you, Willoughby. But you may be assured that I

would not sacrifice one sentiment of local attachment

of yours, or of any one whom I loved, for all the improvements

in the world. Depend upon it that whatever unemployed

sum may remain, when I make up my accounts in the spring,

I would even rather lay it uselessly by than dispose

of it in a manner so painful to you. But are you really

so attached to this place as to see no defect in it?"

"I am," said he. "To me it is faultless. Nay, more,

I consider it as the only form of building in which happiness

is attainable, and were I rich enough I would instantly pull

Combe down, and build it up again in the exact plan of this

cottage."

"With dark narrow stairs and a kitchen that smokes,

I suppose," said Elinor.

"Yes," cried he in the same eager tone, "with all

and every thing belonging to it;--in no one convenience

or INconvenience about it, should the least variation

be perceptible. Then, and then only, under such a roof, I

might perhaps be as happy at Combe as I have been at Barton."

"I flatter myself," replied Elinor, "that even under

the disadvantage of better rooms and a broader staircase,

you will hereafter find your own house as faultless as you

now do this."

"There certainly are circumstances," said Willoughby,

"which might greatly endear it to me; but this place will

always have one claim of my affection, which no other can

possibly share."

Mrs. Dashwood looked with pleasure at Marianne,

whose fine eyes were fixed so expressively on Willoughby,

as plainly denoted how well she understood him.

"How often did I wish," added he, "when I was at

Allenham this time twelvemonth, that Barton cottage were

inhabited! I never passed within view of it without admiring

its situation, and grieving that no one should live in it.

How little did I then think that the very first news

I should hear from Mrs. Smith, when I next came into

the country, would be that Barton cottage was taken: and I

felt an immediate satisfaction and interest in the event,

which nothing but a kind of prescience of what happiness I

should experience from it, can account for. Must it not have

been so, Marianne?" speaking to her in a lowered voice.

Then continuing his former tone, he said, "And yet this

house you would spoil, Mrs. Dashwood? You would rob it

of its simplicity by imaginary improvement! and this dear

parlour in which our acquaintance first began, and in which

so many happy hours have been since spent by us together,

you would degrade to the condition of a common entrance,

and every body would be eager to pass through the room

which has hitherto contained within itself more real

accommodation and comfort than any other apartment of

the handsomest dimensions in the world could possibly afford."

Mrs. Dashwood again assured him that no alteration

of the kind should be attempted.

"You are a good woman," he warmly replied.

"Your promise makes me easy. Extend it a little farther,

and it will make me happy. Tell me that not only your

house will remain the same, but that I shall ever find

you and yours as unchanged as your dwelling; and that you

will always consider me with the kindness which has made

everything belonging to you so dear to me."

The promise was readily given, and Willoughby's

behaviour during the whole of the evening declared

at once his affection and happiness.

"Shall we see you tomorrow to dinner?" said Mrs. Dashwood,

when he was leaving them. "I do not ask you to come in

the morning, for we must walk to the park, to call on Lady

Middleton."

He engaged to be with them by four o'clock.

CHAPTER 15

Mrs. Dashwood's visit to Lady Middleton took place

the next day, and two of her daughters went with her;

but Marianne excused herself from being of the party,

under some trifling pretext of employment; and her mother,

who concluded that a promise had been made by Willoughby

the night before of calling on her while they were absent,

was perfectly satisfied with her remaining at home.

On their return from the park they found Willoughby's

curricle and servant in waiting at the cottage,

and Mrs. Dashwood was convinced that her conjecture

had been just. So far it was all as she had foreseen;

but on entering the house she beheld what no foresight

had taught her to expect. They were no sooner in the

passage than Marianne came hastily out of the parlour

apparently in violent affliction, with her handkerchief

at her eyes; and without noticing them ran up stairs.

Surprised and alarmed they proceeded directly into the room

she had just quitted, where they found only Willoughby,

who was leaning against the mantel-piece with his back

towards them. He turned round on their coming in,

and his countenance shewed that he strongly partook

of the emotion which over-powered Marianne.

"Is anything the matter with her?" cried Mrs. Dashwood

as she entered--"is she ill?"

"I hope not," he replied, trying to look cheerful;

and with a forced smile presently added, "It is I who may

rather expect to be ill--for I am now suffering under a

very heavy disappointment!"

"Disappointment?"

"Yes, for I am unable to keep my engagement with you.

Mrs. Smith has this morning exercised the privilege

of riches upon a poor dependent cousin, by sending me on

business to London. I have just received my dispatches,

and taken my farewell of Allenham; and by way of exhilaration

I am now come to take my farewell of you."

"To London!--and are you going this morning?"

"Almost this moment."

"This is very unfortunate. But Mrs. Smith must

be obliged;--and her business will not detain you from

us long I hope."

He coloured as he replied, "You are very kind, but I

have no idea of returning into Devonshire immediately.

My visits to Mrs. Smith are never repeated within

the twelvemonth."

"And is Mrs. Smith your only friend? Is Allenham the only

house in the neighbourhood to which you will be welcome?

For shame, Willoughby, can you wait for an invitation here?"

His colour increased; and with his eyes fixed

on the ground he only replied, "You are too good."

Mrs. Dashwood looked at Elinor with surprise.

Elinor felt equal amazement. For a few moments every one

was silent. Mrs. Dashwood first spoke.

"I have only to add, my dear Willoughby, that at

Barton cottage you will always be welcome; for I will not

press you to return here immediately, because you only

can judge how far THAT might be pleasing to Mrs. Smith;

and on this head I shall be no more disposed to question

your judgment than to doubt your inclination."

"My engagements at present," replied Willoughby,

confusedly, "are of such a nature--that--I dare not flatter

myself"--

He stopt. Mrs. Dashwood was too much astonished

to speak, and another pause succeeded. This was broken

by Willoughby, who said with a faint smile, "It is folly

to linger in this manner. I will not torment myself

any longer by remaining among friends whose society

it is impossible for me now to enjoy."

He then hastily took leave of them all and left

the room. They saw him step into his carriage,

and in a minute it was out of sight.

Mrs. Dashwood felt too much for speech, and instantly

quitted the parlour to give way in solitude to the concern

and alarm which this sudden departure occasioned.

Elinor's uneasiness was at least equal to her mother's.

She thought of what had just passed with anxiety and distrust.

Willoughby's behaviour in taking leave of them, his

embarrassment,

and affectation of cheerfulness, and, above all, his

unwillingness

to accept her mother's invitation, a backwardness so unlike a

lover,

so unlike himself, greatly disturbed her. One moment she feared

that no serious design had ever been formed on his side; and the

next that some unfortunate quarrel had taken place between him

and

her sister;--the distress in which Marianne had quitted the room

was such as a serious quarrel could most reasonably account for,

though when she considered what Marianne's love for him was,

a quarrel seemed almost impossible.

But whatever might be the particulars of their separation,

her sister's affliction was indubitable; and she thought

with the tenderest compassion of that violent sorrow

which Marianne was in all probability not merely giving

way to as a relief, but feeding and encouraging as a duty.

In about half an hour her mother returned, and though

her eyes were red, her countenance was not uncheerful.

"Our dear Willoughby is now some miles from Barton, Elinor,"

said she, as she sat down to work, "and with how heavy a heart

does he travel?"

"It is all very strange. So suddenly to be gone! It

seems but the work of a moment. And last night he was

with us so happy, so cheerful, so affectionate? And now,

after only ten minutes notice--Gone too without intending

to return!--Something more than what he owned to us must

have happened. He did not speak, he did not behave

like himself. YOU must have seen the difference as well as I.

What can it be? Can they have quarrelled? Why else should he

have shewn such unwillingness to accept your invitation here?"--

"It was not inclination that he wanted, Elinor; I could

plainly see THAT. He had not the power of accepting it.

I have thought it all over I assure you, and I can

perfectly account for every thing that at first seemed

strange to me as well as to you."

"Can you, indeed!"

"Yes. I have explained it to myself in the most

satisfactory way;--but you, Elinor, who love to doubt

where you can--it will not satisfy YOU, I know; but you

shall not talk ME out of my trust in it. I am persuaded

that Mrs. Smith suspects his regard for Marianne,

disapproves of it, (perhaps because she has other views

for him,) and on that account is eager to get him away;--

and that the business which she sends him off to transact

is invented as an excuse to dismiss him. This is what I

believe to have happened. He is, moreover, aware that she

DOES disapprove the connection, he dares not therefore

at present confess to her his engagement with Marianne,

and he feels himself obliged, from his dependent situation,

to give into her schemes, and absent himself from

Devonshire for a while. You will tell me, I know,

that this may or may NOT have happened; but I will listen

to no cavil, unless you can point out any other method

of understanding the affair as satisfactory at this.

And now, Elinor, what have you to say?"

"Nothing, for you have anticipated my answer."

"Then you would have told me, that it might or might not

have happened. Oh, Elinor, how incomprehensible are your

feelings! You had rather take evil upon credit than good.

You had rather look out for misery for Marianne, and guilt

for poor Willoughby, than an apology for the latter.

You are resolved to think him blameable, because he took

leave of us with less affection than his usual behaviour

has shewn. And is no allowance to be made for inadvertence,

or for spirits depressed by recent disappointment? Are

no probabilities to be accepted, merely because they

are not certainties? Is nothing due to the man whom we

have all such reason to love, and no reason in the world

to think ill of? To the possibility of motives unanswerable

in themselves, though unavoidably secret for a while? And,

after all, what is it you suspect him of?"

"I can hardly tell myself. But suspicion of

something unpleasant is the inevitable consequence

of such an alteration as we just witnessed in him.

There is great truth, however, in what you have now urged

of the allowances which ought to be made for him, and it

is my wish to be candid in my judgment of every body.

Willoughby may undoubtedly have very sufficient

reasons for his conduct, and I will hope that he has.

But it would have been more like Willoughby to acknowledge

them at once. Secrecy may be advisable; but still I

cannot help wondering at its being practiced by him."

"Do not blame him, however, for departing from

his character, where the deviation is necessary.

But you really do admit the justice of what I have said

in his defence?--I am happy--and he is acquitted."

"Not entirely. It may be proper to conceal their

engagement (if they ARE engaged) from Mrs. Smith--

and if that is the case, it must be highly expedient

for Willoughby to be but little in Devonshire at present.

But this is no excuse for their concealing it from us."

"Concealing it from us! my dear child, do you accuse

Willoughby and Marianne of concealment? This is strange

indeed, when your eyes have been reproaching them every day

for incautiousness."

"I want no proof of their affection," said Elinor;

"but of their engagement I do."

"I am perfectly satisfied of both."

"Yet not a syllable has been said to you on the

subject, by either of them."

"I have not wanted syllables where actions have

spoken so plainly. Has not his behaviour to Marianne

and to all of us, for at least the last fortnight,

declared that he loved and considered her as his future wife,

and that he felt for us the attachment of the nearest

relation? Have we not perfectly understood each other?

Has not my consent been daily asked by his looks, his manner,

his attentive and affectionate respect? My Elinor,

is it possible to doubt their engagement? How could

such a thought occur to you? How is it to be supposed

that Willoughby, persuaded as he must be of your

sister's love, should leave her, and leave her perhaps

for months, without telling her of his affection;--that

they should part without a mutual exchange of confidence?"

"I confess," replied Elinor, "that every circumstance

except ONE is in favour of their engagement;

but that ONE is the total silence of both on the subject,

and with me it almost outweighs every other."

"How strange this is! You must think wretchedly indeed

of Willoughby, if, after all that has openly passed between them,

you can doubt the nature of the terms on which they are together.

Has he been acting a part in his behaviour to your sister

all this time? Do you suppose him really indifferent to her?"

"No, I cannot think that. He must and does love her

I am sure."

"But with a strange kind of tenderness, if he can

leave her with such indifference, such carelessness

of the future, as you attribute to him."

"You must remember, my dear mother, that I have never

considered this matter as certain. I have had my doubts,

I confess; but they are fainter than they were, and they

may soon be entirely done away. If we find they correspond,

every fear of mine will be removed."

"A mighty concession indeed! If you were to see

them at the altar, you would suppose they were going to

be married. Ungracious girl! But I require no such proof.

Nothing in my opinion has ever passed to justify doubt;

no secrecy has been attempted; all has been uniformly open

and unreserved. You cannot doubt your sister's wishes.

It must be Willoughby therefore whom you suspect. But why?

Is he not a man of honour and feeling? Has there been any

inconsistency on his side to create alarm? can he be deceitful?"

"I hope not, I believe not," cried Elinor.

"I love Willoughby, sincerely love him; and suspicion of his

integrity cannot be more painful to yourself than to me.

It has been involuntary, and I will not encourage it.

I was startled, I confess, by the alteration in his

manners this morning;--he did not speak like himself,

and did not return your kindness with any cordiality.

But all this may be explained by such a situation of his

affairs as you have supposed. He had just parted from

my sister, had seen her leave him in the greatest affliction;

and if he felt obliged, from a fear of offending Mrs. Smith,

to resist the temptation of returning here soon, and yet

aware that by declining your invitation, by saying

that he was going away for some time, he should seem

to act an ungenerous, a suspicious part by our family,

he might well be embarrassed and disturbed. In such a case,

a plain and open avowal of his difficulties would have been

more to his honour I think, as well as more consistent

with his general character;--but I will not raise objections

against any one's conduct on so illiberal a foundation,

as a difference in judgment from myself, or a deviation from

what I may think right and consistent."

"You speak very properly. Willoughby certainly does

not deserve to be suspected. Though WE have not known

him long, he is no stranger in this part of the world;

and who has ever spoken to his disadvantage? Had he been

in a situation to act independently and marry immediately,

it might have been odd that he should leave us without

acknowledging everything to me at once: but this is not the case.

It is an engagement in some respects not prosperously begun,

for their marriage must be at a very uncertain distance;

and even secrecy, as far as it can be observed, may now

be very advisable."

They were interrupted by the entrance of Margaret;

and Elinor was then at liberty to think over the representations

of her mother, to acknowledge the probability of many,

and hope for the justice of all.

They saw nothing of Marianne till dinner time,

when she entered the room and took her place at the table

without saying a word. Her eyes were red and swollen;

and it seemed as if her tears were even then restrained

with difficulty. She avoided the looks of them all,

could neither eat nor speak, and after some time, on her

mother's silently pressing her hand with tender compassion,

her small degree of fortitude was quite overcome, she burst

into tears and left the room.

This violent oppression of spirits continued the

whole evening. She was without any power, because she

was without any desire of command over herself.

The slightest mention of anything relative to Willoughby

overpowered her in an instant; and though her family

were most anxiously attentive to her comfort, it was

impossible for them, if they spoke at all, to keep clear

of every subject which her feelings connected with him.

CHAPTER 16

Marianne would have thought herself very inexcusable

had she been able to sleep at all the first night

after parting from Willoughby. She would have been

ashamed to look her family in the face the next morning,

had she not risen from her bed in more need of repose

than when she lay down in it. But the feelings which

made such composure a disgrace, left her in no danger

of incurring it. She was awake the whole night, and she

wept the greatest part of it. She got up with a headache,

was unable to talk, and unwilling to take any nourishment;

giving pain every moment to her mother and sisters,

and forbidding all attempt at consolation from either.

Her sensibility was potent enough!

When breakfast was over she walked out by herself,

and wandered about the village of Allenham, indulging the

recollection of past enjoyment and crying over the present

reverse for the chief of the morning.

The evening passed off in the equal indulgence of feeling.

She played over every favourite song that she had been used

to play to Willoughby, every air in which their voices

had been oftenest joined, and sat at the instrument gazing

on every line of music that he had written out for her,

till her heart was so heavy that no farther sadness

could be gained; and this nourishment of grief was every

day applied. She spent whole hours at the pianoforte

alternately singing and crying; her voice often totally

suspended by her tears. In books too, as well as in music,

she courted the misery which a contrast between the past

and present was certain of giving. She read nothing

but what they had been used to read together.

Such violence of affliction indeed could not be supported

for ever; it sunk within a few days into a calmer melancholy;

but these employments, to which she daily recurred,

her solitary walks and silent meditations, still produced

occasional effusions of sorrow as lively as ever.

No letter from Willoughby came; and none seemed expected

by Marianne. Her mother was surprised, and Elinor again

became uneasy. But Mrs. Dashwood could find explanations

whenever she wanted them, which at least satisfied herself.

"Remember, Elinor," said she, "how very often Sir John

fetches our letters himself from the post, and carries them

to it. We have already agreed that secrecy may be necessary,

and we must acknowledge that it could not be maintained if

their correspondence were to pass through Sir John's hands."

Elinor could not deny the truth of this, and she tried

to find in it a motive sufficient for their silence.

But there was one method so direct, so simple, and in

her opinion so eligible of knowing the real state

of the affair, and of instantly removing all mystery,

that she could not help suggesting it to her mother.

"Why do you not ask Marianne at once," said she,

"whether she is or she is not engaged to Willoughby? From you,

her mother, and so kind, so indulgent a mother, the question

could not give offence. It would be the natural result

of your affection for her. She used to be all unreserve,

and to you more especially."

"I would not ask such a question for the world.

Supposing it possible that they are not engaged,

what distress would not such an enquiry inflict! At any

rate it would be most ungenerous. I should never deserve

her confidence again, after forcing from her a confession

of what is meant at present to be unacknowledged to any one.

I know Marianne's heart: I know that she dearly loves me,

and that I shall not be the last to whom the affair is made

known,

when circumstances make the revealment of it eligible.

I would not attempt to force the confidence of any one;

of a child much less; because a sense of duty would prevent

the denial which her wishes might direct."

Elinor thought this generosity overstrained,

considering her sister's youth, and urged the matter farther,

but in vain; common sense, common care, common prudence,

were all sunk in Mrs. Dashwood's romantic delicacy.

It was several days before Willoughby's name

was mentioned before Marianne by any of her family;

Sir John and Mrs. Jennings, indeed, were not so nice;

their witticisms added pain to many a painful hour;--

but one evening, Mrs. Dashwood, accidentally taking up a

volume of Shakespeare, exclaimed,

"We have never finished Hamlet, Marianne; our dear

Willoughby went away before we could get through it.

We will put it by, that when he comes again...But it may

be months, perhaps, before THAT happens."

"Months!" cried Marianne, with strong surprise.

"No--nor many weeks."

Mrs. Dashwood was sorry for what she had said;

but it gave Elinor pleasure, as it produced a reply

from Marianne so expressive of confidence in Willoughby

and knowledge of his intentions.

One morning, about a week after his leaving the country,

Marianne was prevailed on to join her sisters in their

usual walk, instead of wandering away by herself.

Hitherto she had carefully avoided every companion in

her rambles. If her sisters intended to walk on the downs,

she directly stole away towards the lanes; if they talked

of the valley, she was as speedy in climbing the hills,

and could never be found when the others set off.

But at length she was secured by the exertions of Elinor,

who greatly disapproved such continual seclusion. They walked

along the road through the valley, and chiefly in silence,

for Marianne's MIND could not be controlled, and Elinor,

satisfied with gaining one point, would not then attempt more.

Beyond the entrance of the valley, where the country,

though still rich, was less wild and more open, a long

stretch of the road which they had travelled on first coming

to Barton, lay before them; and on reaching that point,

they stopped to look around them, and examine a prospect

which formed the distance of their view from the cottage,

from a spot which they had never happened to reach in any

of their walks before.

Amongst the objects in the scene, they soon discovered

an animated one; it was a man on horseback riding towards them.

In a few minutes they could distinguish him to be a gentleman;

and in a moment afterwards Marianne rapturously exclaimed,

"It is he; it is indeed;--I know it is!"--and was

hastening to meet him, when Elinor cried out,

"Indeed, Marianne, I think you are mistaken. It is

not Willoughby. The person is not tall enough for him,

and has not his air."

"He has, he has," cried Marianne, "I am sure he has.

His air, his coat, his horse. I knew how soon he would come."

She walked eagerly on as she spoke; and Elinor,

to screen Marianne from particularity, as she felt almost

certain of its not being Willoughby, quickened her

pace and kept up with her. They were soon within

thirty yards of the gentleman. Marianne looked again;

her heart sunk within her; and abruptly turning round,

she was hurrying back, when the voices of both her sisters

were raised to detain her; a third, almost as well known

as Willoughby's, joined them in begging her to stop,

and she turned round with surprise to see and welcome

Edward Ferrars.

He was the only person in the world who could

at that moment be forgiven for not being Willoughby;

the only one who could have gained a smile from her;

but she dispersed her tears to smile on HIM, and in her

sister's happiness forgot for a time her own disappointment.

He dismounted, and giving his horse to his servant,

walked back with them to Barton, whither he was purposely

coming to visit them.

He was welcomed by them all with great cordiality,

but especially by Marianne, who showed more warmth of

regard in her reception of him than even Elinor herself.

To Marianne, indeed, the meeting between Edward and her sister

was but a continuation of that unaccountable coldness which she

had often observed at Norland in their mutual behaviour.

On Edward's side, more particularly, there was a deficiency

of all that a lover ought to look and say on such an occasion.

He was confused, seemed scarcely sensible of pleasure

in seeing them, looked neither rapturous nor gay,

said little but what was forced from him by questions,

and distinguished Elinor by no mark of affection.

Marianne saw and listened with increasing surprise.

She began almost to feel a dislike of Edward; and it ended,

as every feeling must end with her, by carrying back her

thoughts to Willoughby, whose manners formed a contrast

sufficiently striking to those of his brother elect.

After a short silence which succeeded the first

surprise and enquiries of meeting, Marianne asked

Edward if he came directly from London. No, he had

been in Devonshire a fortnight.

"A fortnight!" she repeated, surprised at his being

so long in the same county with Elinor without seeing

her before.

He looked rather distressed as he added, that he

had been staying with some friends near Plymouth.

"Have you been lately in Sussex?" said Elinor.

"I was at Norland about a month ago."

"And how does dear, dear Norland look?" cried Marianne.

"Dear, dear Norland," said Elinor, "probably looks

much as it always does at this time of the year.

The woods and walks thickly covered with dead leaves."

"Oh," cried Marianne, "with what transporting sensation

have I formerly seen them fall! How have I delighted,

as I walked, to see them driven in showers about me

by the wind! What feelings have they, the season, the air

altogether inspired! Now there is no one to regard them.

They are seen only as a nuisance, swept hastily off,

and driven as much as possible from the sight."

"It is not every one," said Elinor, "who has your

passion for dead leaves."

"No; my feelings are not often shared, not often

understood. But SOMETIMES they are."--As she said this,

she sunk into a reverie for a few moments;--but rousing

herself again, "Now, Edward," said she, calling his attention

to the prospect, "here is Barton valley. Look up to it,

and be tranquil if you can. Look at those hills!

Did you ever see their equals? To the left is Barton park,

amongst those woods and plantations. You may see the end

of the house. And there, beneath that farthest hill,

which rises with such grandeur, is our cottage."

"It is a beautiful country," he replied; "but these

bottoms must be dirty in winter."

"How can you think of dirt, with such objects before you?"

"Because," replied he, smiling, "among the rest of the

objects before me, I see a very dirty lane."

"How strange!" said Marianne to herself as she walked on.

"Have you an agreeable neighbourhood here? Are the

Middletons pleasant people?"

"No, not all," answered Marianne; "we could not

be more unfortunately situated."

"Marianne," cried her sister, "how can you say so? How can

you be so unjust? They are a very respectable family, Mr.

Ferrars;

and towards us have behaved in the friendliest manner. Have you

forgot, Marianne, how many pleasant days we have owed to them?"

"No," said Marianne, in a low voice, "nor how many

painful moments."

Elinor took no notice of this; and directing

her attention to their visitor, endeavoured to support

something like discourse with him, by talking of their

present residence, its conveniences, &c. extorting from him

occasional questions and remarks. His coldness and reserve

mortified her severely; she was vexed and half angry;

but resolving to regulate her behaviour to him by the past

rather than the present, she avoided every appearance

of resentment or displeasure, and treated him as she

thought he ought to be treated from the family connection.

CHAPTER 17

Mrs. Dashwood was surprised only for a moment at

seeing him; for his coming to Barton was, in her opinion,

of all things the most natural. Her joy and expression

of regard long outlived her wonder. He received the kindest

welcome from her; and shyness, coldness, reserve could not

stand against such a reception. They had begun to fail him

before he entered the house, and they were quite overcome

by the captivating manners of Mrs. Dashwood. Indeed a man

could not very well be in love with either of her daughters,

without extending the passion to her; and Elinor had the

satisfaction of seeing him soon become more like himself.

His affections seemed to reanimate towards them all,

and his interest in their welfare again became perceptible.

He was not in spirits, however; he praised their house,

admired its prospect, was attentive, and kind; but still

he was not in spirits. The whole family perceived it,

and Mrs. Dashwood, attributing it to some want of liberality

in his mother, sat down to table indignant against all

selfish parents.

"What are Mrs. Ferrars's views for you at present, Edward?"

said she, when dinner was over and they had drawn round

the fire; "are you still to be a great orator in spite of

yourself?"

"No. I hope my mother is now convinced that I have

no more talents than inclination for a public life!"

"But how is your fame to be established? for famous you

must be to satisfy all your family; and with no inclination

for expense, no affection for strangers, no profession,

and no assurance, you may find it a difficult matter."

"I shall not attempt it. I have no wish to be

distinguished; and have every reason to hope I never shall.

Thank Heaven! I cannot be forced into genius and eloquence."

"You have no ambition, I well know. Your wishes

are all moderate."

"As moderate as those of the rest of the world,

I believe. I wish as well as every body else to be

perfectly happy; but, like every body else it must be

in my own way. Greatness will not make me so."

"Strange that it would!" cried Marianne. "What have

wealth or grandeur to do with happiness?"

"Grandeur has but little," said Elinor, "but wealth

has much to do with it."

"Elinor, for shame!" said Marianne, "money can only

give happiness where there is nothing else to give it.

Beyond a competence, it can afford no real satisfaction,

as far as mere self is concerned."

"Perhaps," said Elinor, smiling, "we may come

to the same point. YOUR competence and MY wealth

are very much alike, I dare say; and without them,

as the world goes now, we shall both agree that every

kind of external comfort must be wanting. Your ideas

are only more noble than mine. Come, what is your competence?"

"About eighteen hundred or two thousand a year;

not more than THAT."

Elinor laughed. "TWO thousand a year! ONE is my

wealth! I guessed how it would end."

"And yet two thousand a-year is a very moderate income,"

said Marianne. "A family cannot well be maintained on

a smaller. I am sure I am not extravagant in my demands.

A proper establishment of servants, a carriage, perhaps two,

and hunters, cannot be supported on less."

Elinor smiled again, to hear her sister describing

so accurately their future expenses at Combe Magna.

"Hunters!" repeated Edward--"but why must you have

hunters? Every body does not hunt."

Marianne coloured as she replied, "But most people do."

"I wish," said Margaret, striking out a novel thought,

"that somebody would give us all a large fortune apiece!"

"Oh that they would!" cried Marianne, her eyes

sparkling with animation, and her cheeks glowing

with the delight of such imaginary happiness.

"We are all unanimous in that wish, I suppose,"

said Elinor, "in spite of the insufficiency of wealth."

"Oh dear!" cried Margaret, "how happy I should be!

I wonder what I should do with it!"

Marianne looked as if she had no doubt on that point.

"I should be puzzled to spend so large a fortune myself,"

said Mrs. Dashwood, "if my children were all to be rich

my help."

"You must begin your improvements on this house,"

observed Elinor, "and your difficulties will soon vanish."

"What magnificent orders would travel from this family

to London," said Edward, "in such an event! What a happy

day for booksellers, music-sellers, and print-shops! You,

Miss Dashwood, would give a general commission for every

new print of merit to be sent you--and as for Marianne,

I know her greatness of soul, there would not be music enough

in London to content her. And books!--Thomson, Cowper,

Scott--she would buy them all over and over again: she

would buy up every copy, I believe, to prevent their

falling into unworthy hands; and she would have every

book that tells her how to admire an old twisted tree.

Should not you, Marianne? Forgive me, if I am very saucy.

But I was willing to shew you that I had not forgot our

old disputes."

"I love to be reminded of the past, Edward--whether it

be melancholy or gay, I love to recall it--and you

will never offend me by talking of former times.

You are very right in supposing how my money would be

spent--some of it, at least--my loose cash would certainly

be employed in improving my collection of music and books."

"And the bulk of your fortune would be laid out

in annuities on the authors or their heirs."

"No, Edward, I should have something else to do

with it."

"Perhaps, then, you would bestow it as a reward on that

person who wrote the ablest defence of your favourite maxim,

that no one can ever be in love more than once in their

life--your opinion on that point is unchanged, I presume?"

"Undoubtedly. At my time of life opinions are tolerably fixed.

It is not likely that I should now see or hear any thing to

change them."

"Marianne is as steadfast as ever, you see," said Elinor,

"she is not at all altered."

"She is only grown a little more grave than she was."

"Nay, Edward," said Marianne, "you need not reproach me.

You are not very gay yourself."

"Why should you think so!" replied he, with a sigh.

"But gaiety never was a part of MY character."

"Nor do I think it a part of Marianne's," said Elinor;

"I should hardly call her a lively girl--she is very earnest,

very eager in all she does--sometimes talks a great deal

and always with animation--but she is not often really merry."

"I believe you are right," he replied, "and yet I

have always set her down as a lively girl."

"I have frequently detected myself in such kind of mistakes,"

said Elinor, "in a total misapprehension of character in some

point or other: fancying people so much more gay or grave,

or ingenious or stupid than they really are, and I can

hardly tell why or in what the deception originated.

Sometimes one is guided by what they say of themselves,

and very frequently by what other people say of them,

without giving oneself time to deliberate and judge."

"But I thought it was right, Elinor," said Marianne,

"to be guided wholly by the opinion of other people.

I thought our judgments were given us merely to be subservient

to those of neighbours. This has always been your doctrine,

I am sure."

"No, Marianne, never. My doctrine has never aimed

at the subjection of the understanding. All I have

ever attempted to influence has been the behaviour.

You must not confound my meaning. I am guilty, I confess,

of having often wished you to treat our acquaintance

in general with greater attention; but when have I advised

you to adopt their sentiments or to conform to their

judgment in serious matters?"

"You have not been able to bring your sister over to your

plan of general civility," said Edward to Elinor, "Do you gain

no ground?"

"Quite the contrary," replied Elinor,

looking expressively at Marianne.

"My judgment," he returned, "is all on your side

of the question; but I am afraid my practice is much

more on your sister's. I never wish to offend, but I

am so foolishly shy, that I often seem negligent,

when I am only kept back by my natural awkwardness.

I have frequently thought that I must have been intended

by nature to be fond of low company, I am so little at

my ease among strangers of gentility!"

"Marianne has not shyness to excuse any inattention

of hers," said Elinor.

"She knows her own worth too well for false shame,"

replied Edward. "Shyness is only the effect of a sense

of inferiority in some way or other. If I could persuade

myself that my manners were perfectly easy and graceful,

I should not be shy."

"But you would still be reserved," said Marianne,

"and that is worse."

Edward started--"Reserved! Am I reserved, Marianne?"

"Yes, very."

"I do not understand you," replied he, colouring.

"Reserved!--how, in what manner? What am I to tell you?

What can you suppose?"

Elinor looked surprised at his emotion; but trying

to laugh off the subject, she said to him, "Do not you

know my sister well enough to understand what she means?

Do not you know she calls every one reserved who does not

talk as fast, and admire what she admires as rapturously

as herself?"

Edward made no answer. His gravity and thoughtfulness

returned on him in their fullest extent--and he sat

for some time silent and dull.

CHAPTER 18

Elinor saw, with great uneasiness the low spirits

of her friend. His visit afforded her but a very

partial satisfaction, while his own enjoyment in it

appeared so imperfect. It was evident that he was unhappy;

she wished it were equally evident that he still

distinguished her by the same affection which once

she had felt no doubt of inspiring; but hitherto the

continuance of his preference seemed very uncertain;

and the reservedness of his manner towards her contradicted

one moment what a more animated look had intimated the preceding

one.

He joined her and Marianne in the breakfast-room

the next morning before the others were down; and Marianne,

who was always eager to promote their happiness as far

as she could, soon left them to themselves. But before she

was half way upstairs she heard the parlour door open, and,

turning round, was astonished to see Edward himself come out.

"I am going into the village to see my horses,"

said he, "as you are not yet ready for breakfast; I shall

be back again presently."

***

Edward returned to them with fresh admiration

of the surrounding country; in his walk to the village,

he had seen many parts of the valley to advantage;

and the village itself, in a much higher situation than

the cottage, afforded a general view of the whole, which had

exceedingly pleased him. This was a subject which ensured

Marianne's attention, and she was beginning to describe

her own admiration of these scenes, and to question him more

minutely on the objects that had particularly struck him,

when Edward interrupted her by saying, "You must not

enquire too far, Marianne--remember I have no knowledge

in the picturesque, and I shall offend you by my ignorance

and want of taste if we come to particulars. I shall call

hills steep, which ought to be bold; surfaces strange

and uncouth, which ought to be irregular and rugged;

and distant objects out of sight, which ought only to be

indistinct through the soft medium of a hazy atmosphere.

You must be satisfied with such admiration as I can

honestly give. I call it a very fine country--the

hills are steep, the woods seem full of fine timber,

and the valley looks comfortable and snug--with rich

meadows and several neat farm houses scattered here

and there. It exactly answers my idea of a fine country,

because it unites beauty with utility--and I dare say it

is a picturesque one too, because you admire it; I can

easily believe it to be full of rocks and promontories,

grey moss and brush wood, but these are all lost on me.

I know nothing of the picturesque."

"I am afraid it is but too true," said Marianne;

"but why should you boast of it?"

"I suspect," said Elinor, "that to avoid one kind

of affectation, Edward here falls into another. Because he

believes many people pretend to more admiration of the beauties

of nature than they really feel, and is disgusted with

such pretensions, he affects greater indifference and less

discrimination in viewing them himself than he possesses.

He is fastidious and will have an affectation of his own."

"It is very true," said Marianne, "that admiration

of landscape scenery is become a mere jargon.

Every body pretends to feel and tries to describe with

the taste and elegance of him who first defined what

picturesque beauty was. I detest jargon of every kind,

and sometimes I have kept my feelings to myself,

because I could find no language to describe them

in but what was worn and hackneyed out of all sense and meaning."

"I am convinced," said Edward, "that you really feel

all the delight in a fine prospect which you profess

to feel. But, in return, your sister must allow me

to feel no more than I profess. I like a fine prospect,

but not on picturesque principles. I do not like crooked,

twisted, blasted trees. I admire them much more if they

are tall, straight, and flourishing. I do not like ruined,

tattered cottages. I am not fond of nettles or thistles,

or heath blossoms. I have more pleasure in a snug

farm-house than a watch-tower--and a troop of tidy,

happy villages please me better than the finest banditti

in the world."

Marianne looked with amazement at Edward,

with compassion at her sister. Elinor only laughed.

The subject was continued no farther; and Marianne

remained thoughtfully silent, till a new object suddenly

engaged her attention. She was sitting by Edward, and

in taking his tea from Mrs. Dashwood, his hand passed

so directly before her, as to make a ring, with a plait

of hair in the centre, very conspicuous on one of his fingers.

"I never saw you wear a ring before, Edward," she cried.

"Is that Fanny's hair? I remember her promising to give

you some. But I should have thought her hair had been darker."

Marianne spoke inconsiderately what she really felt--

but when she saw how much she had pained Edward, her own

vexation at her want of thought could not be surpassed

by his. He coloured very deeply, and giving a momentary

glance at Elinor, replied, "Yes; it is my sister's hair.

The setting always casts a different shade on it,

you know."

Elinor had met his eye, and looked conscious likewise.

That the hair was her own, she instantaneously felt as

well satisfied as Marianne; the only difference in their

conclusions was, that what Marianne considered as a free

gift from her sister, Elinor was conscious must have been

procured by some theft or contrivance unknown to herself.

She was not in a humour, however, to regard it as an affront,

and affecting to take no notice of what passed,

by instantly talking of something else, she internally

resolved henceforward to catch every opportunity of eyeing

the hair and of satisfying herself, beyond all doubt,

that it was exactly the shade of her own.

Edward's embarrassment lasted some time, and it

ended in an absence of mind still more settled.

He was particularly grave the whole morning.

Marianne severely censured herself for what she had said;

but her own forgiveness might have been more speedy,

had she known how little offence it had given her sister.

Before the middle of the day, they were visited by Sir

John and Mrs. Jennings, who, having heard of the arrival

of a gentleman at the cottage, came to take a survey

of the guest. With the assistance of his mother-in-law,

Sir John was not long in discovering that the name of

Ferrars began with an F. and this prepared a future mine

of raillery against the devoted Elinor, which nothing but

the newness of their acquaintance with Edward could have

prevented from being immediately sprung. But, as it was,

she only learned, from some very significant looks, how far

their penetration, founded on Margaret's instructions, extended.

Sir John never came to the Dashwoods without either

inviting them to dine at the park the next day, or to drink

tea with them that evening. On the present occasion,

for the better entertainment of their visitor, towards

whose amusement he felt himself bound to contribute,

he wished to engage them for both.

"You MUST drink tea with us to night," said he,

"for we shall be quite alone--and tomorrow you must

absolutely dine with us, for we shall be a large party."

Mrs. Jennings enforced the necessity. "And who knows

but you may raise a dance," said she. "And that will

tempt YOU, Miss Marianne."

"A dance!" cried Marianne. "Impossible! Who is to dance?"

"Who! why yourselves, and the Careys, and Whitakers

to be sure.--What! you thought nobody could dance

because a certain person that shall be nameless is gone!"

"I wish with all my soul," cried Sir John,

"that Willoughby were among us again."

This, and Marianne's blushing, gave new suspicions

to Edward. "And who is Willoughby?" said he, in a low voice,

to Miss Dashwood, by whom he was sitting.

She gave him a brief reply. Marianne's countenance

was more communicative. Edward saw enough to comprehend,

not only the meaning of others, but such of Marianne's

expressions as had puzzled him before; and when their

visitors left them, he went immediately round her, and said,

in a whisper, "I have been guessing. Shall I tell you

my guess?"

"What do you mean?"

"Shall I tell you."

"Certainly."

"Well then; I guess that Mr. Willoughby hunts."

Marianne was surprised and confused, yet she could

not help smiling at the quiet archness of his manner,

and after a moment's silence, said,

"Oh, Edward! How can you?--But the time will come

I hope...I am sure you will like him."

"I do not doubt it," replied he, rather astonished

at her earnestness and warmth; for had he not imagined it

to be a joke for the good of her acquaintance in general,

founded only on a something or a nothing between Mr. Willoughby

and herself, he would not have ventured to mention it.

CHAPTER 19

Edward remained a week at the cottage; he was earnestly

pressed by Mrs. Dashwood to stay longer; but, as if he

were bent only on self-mortification, he seemed resolved

to be gone when his enjoyment among his friends was at

the height. His spirits, during the last two or three days,

though still very unequal, were greatly improved--he grew

more and more partial to the house and environs--never

spoke of going away without a sigh--declared his time

to be wholly disengaged--even doubted to what place he

should go when he left them--but still, go he must.

Never had any week passed so quickly--he could hardly

believe it to be gone. He said so repeatedly; other things

he said too, which marked the turn of his feelings and gave

the lie to his actions. He had no pleasure at Norland;

he detested being in town; but either to Norland or London,

he must go. He valued their kindness beyond any thing,

and his greatest happiness was in being with them.

Yet, he must leave them at the end of a week, in spite

of their wishes and his own, and without any restraint

on his time.

Elinor placed all that was astonishing in this

way of acting to his mother's account; and it was

happy for her that he had a mother whose character

was so imperfectly known to her, as to be the general

excuse for every thing strange on the part of her son.

Disappointed, however, and vexed as she was, and sometimes

displeased with his uncertain behaviour to herself,

she was very well disposed on the whole to regard his actions

with all the candid allowances and generous qualifications,

which had been rather more painfully extorted from her,

for Willoughby's service, by her mother. His want of spirits,

of openness, and of consistency, were most usually

attributed to his want of independence, and his better

knowledge of Mrs. Ferrars's disposition and designs.

The shortness of his visit, the steadiness of his purpose

in leaving them, originated in the same fettered inclination,

the same inevitable necessity of temporizing with his mother.

The old well-established grievance of duty against will,

parent against child, was the cause of all. She would have

been glad to know when these difficulties were to cease,

this opposition was to yield,--when Mrs. Ferrars would

be reformed, and her son be at liberty to be happy.

But from such vain wishes she was forced to turn for comfort

to the renewal of her confidence in Edward's affection,

to the remembrance of every mark of regard in look or word

which fell from him while at Barton, and above all

to that flattering proof of it which he constantly wore

round his finger.

"I think, Edward," said Mrs. Dashwood, as they were

at breakfast the last morning, "you would be a happier man

if you had any profession to engage your time and give

an interest to your plans and actions. Some inconvenience

to your friends, indeed, might result from it--you

would not be able to give them so much of your time.

But (with a smile) you would be materially benefited

in one particular at least--you would know where to go

when you left them."

"I do assure you," he replied, "that I have long

thought on this point, as you think now. It has been,

and is, and probably will always be a heavy misfortune

to me, that I have had no necessary business to engage me,

no profession to give me employment, or afford me any

thing like independence. But unfortunately my own nicety,

and the nicety of my friends, have made me what I am,

an idle, helpless being. We never could agree in our

choice of a profession. I always preferred the church,

as I still do. But that was not smart enough for my family.

They recommended the army. That was a great deal

too smart for me. The law was allowed to be genteel

enough; many young men, who had chambers in the Temple,

made a very good appearance in the first circles,

and drove about town in very knowing gigs. But I had

no inclination for the law, even in this less abstruse

study of it, which my family approved. As for the navy,

it had fashion on its side, but I was too old when the

subject was first started to enter it--and, at length,

as there was no necessity for my having any profession

at all, as I might be as dashing and expensive without

a red coat on my back as with one, idleness was pronounced

on the whole to be most advantageous and honourable,

and a young man of eighteen is not in general so earnestly

bent on being busy as to resist the solicitations of his

friends to do nothing. I was therefore entered at Oxford

and have been properly idle ever since."

"The consequence of which, I suppose, will be,"

said Mrs. Dashwood, "since leisure has not promoted

your own happiness, that your sons will be brought up

to as many pursuits, employments, professions, and trades

as Columella's."

"They will be brought up," said he, in a serious accent,

"to be as unlike myself as is possible. In feeling,

in action, in condition, in every thing."

"Come, come; this is all an effusion of immediate

want of spirits, Edward. You are in a melancholy humour,

and fancy that any one unlike yourself must be happy.

But remember that the pain of parting from friends

will be felt by every body at times, whatever be their

education or state. Know your own happiness. You want

nothing but patience--or give it a more fascinating name,

call it hope. Your mother will secure to you, in time,

that independence you are so anxious for; it is her duty,

and it will, it must ere long become her happiness to

prevent your whole youth from being wasted in discontent.

How much may not a few months do?"

"I think," replied Edward, "that I may defy many

months to produce any good to me."

This desponding turn of mind, though it could not

be communicated to Mrs. Dashwood, gave additional pain

to them all in the parting, which shortly took place,

and left an uncomfortable impression on Elinor's

feelings especially, which required some trouble and time

to subdue. But as it was her determination to subdue it,

and to prevent herself from appearing to suffer more than

what all her family suffered on his going away, she did

not adopt the method so judiciously employed by Marianne,

on a similar occasion, to augment and fix her sorrow,

by seeking silence, solitude and idleness. Their means

were as different as their objects, and equally suited

to the advancement of each.

Elinor sat down to her drawing-table as soon as he

was out of the house, busily employed herself the whole day,

neither sought nor avoided the mention of his name,

appeared to interest herself almost as much as ever in the

general concerns of the family, and if, by this conduct,

she did not lessen her own grief, it was at least prevented

from unnecessary increase, and her mother and sisters

were spared much solicitude on her account.

Such behaviour as this, so exactly the reverse

of her own, appeared no more meritorious to Marianne,

than her own had seemed faulty to her. The business

of self-command she settled very easily;--with strong

affections it was impossible, with calm ones it could

have no merit. That her sister's affections WERE calm,

she dared not deny, though she blushed to acknowledge it;

and of the strength of her own, she gave a very striking proof,

by still loving and respecting that sister, in spite

of this mortifying conviction.

Without shutting herself up from her family,

or leaving the house in determined solitude to avoid them,

or lying awake the whole night to indulge meditation,

Elinor found every day afforded her leisure enough

to think of Edward, and of Edward's behaviour, in every

possible variety which the different state of her spirits

at different times could produce,--with tenderness,

pity, approbation, censure, and doubt. There were moments

in abundance, when, if not by the absence of her mother

and sisters, at least by the nature of their employments,

conversation was forbidden among them, and every effect

of solitude was produced. Her mind was inevitably

at liberty; her thoughts could not be chained elsewhere;

and the past and the future, on a subject so interesting,

must be before her, must force her attention, and engross

her memory, her reflection, and her fancy.

From a reverie of this kind, as she sat at her

drawing-table, she was roused one morning, soon after

Edward's leaving them, by the arrival of company.

She happened to be quite alone. The closing of the

little gate, at the entrance of the green court in front

of the house, drew her eyes to the window, and she saw

a large party walking up to the door. Amongst them

were Sir John and Lady Middleton and Mrs. Jennings,

but there were two others, a gentleman and lady, who were

quite unknown to her. She was sitting near the window,

and as soon as Sir John perceived her, he left the rest

of the party to the ceremony of knocking at the door,

and stepping across the turf, obliged her to open the

casement to speak to him, though the space was so short

between the door and the window, as to make it hardly

possible to speak at one without being heard at the other.

"Well," said he, "we have brought you some strangers.

How do you like them?"

"Hush! they will hear you."

"Never mind if they do. It is only the Palmers.

Charlotte is very pretty, I can tell you. You may see her

if you look this way."

As Elinor was certain of seeing her in a couple

of minutes, without taking that liberty, she begged

to be excused.

"Where is Marianne? Has she run away because we

are come? I see her instrument is open."

"She is walking, I believe."

They were now joined by Mrs. Jennings, who had not

patience enough to wait till the door was opened before

she told HER story. She came hallooing to the window,

"How do you do, my dear? How does Mrs. Dashwood do?

And where are your sisters? What! all alone! you

will be glad of a little company to sit with you.

I have brought my other son and daughter to see you.

Only think of their coming so suddenly! I thought I heard

a carriage last night, while we were drinking our tea,

but it never entered my head that it could be them.

I thought of nothing but whether it might not be Colonel

Brandon come back again; so I said to Sir John, I do think

I hear a carriage; perhaps it is Colonel Brandon come

back again"--

Elinor was obliged to turn from her, in the middle

of her story, to receive the rest of the party; Lady

Middleton introduced the two strangers; Mrs. Dashwood

and Margaret came down stairs at the same time, and they

all sat down to look at one another, while Mrs. Jennings

continued her story as she walked through the passage

into the parlour, attended by Sir John.

Mrs. Palmer was several years younger than Lady

Middleton, and totally unlike her in every respect.

She was short and plump, had a very pretty face,

and the finest expression of good humour in it that could

possibly be. Her manners were by no means so elegant

as her sister's, but they were much more prepossessing.

She came in with a smile, smiled all the time of her visit,

except when she laughed, and smiled when she went away.

Her husband was a grave looking young man of five or six

and twenty, with an air of more fashion and sense than

his wife, but of less willingness to please or be pleased.

He entered the room with a look of self-consequence,

slightly bowed to the ladies, without speaking a word,

and, after briefly surveying them and their apartments,

took up a newspaper from the table, and continued to read it

as long as he staid.

Mrs. Palmer, on the contrary, who was strongly endowed

by nature with a turn for being uniformly civil and happy,

was hardly seated before her admiration of the parlour

and every thing in it burst forth.

"Well! what a delightful room this is! I never

saw anything so charming! Only think, Mamma, how it

is improved since I was here last! I always thought it

such a sweet place, ma'am! (turning to Mrs. Dashwood)

but you have made it so charming! Only look, sister,

how delightful every thing is! How I should like such

a house for myself! Should not you, Mr. Palmer?"

Mr. Palmer made her no answer, and did not even raise

his eyes from the newspaper.

"Mr. Palmer does not hear me," said she, laughing;

"he never does sometimes. It is so ridiculous!"

This was quite a new idea to Mrs. Dashwood; she had

never been used to find wit in the inattention of any one,

and could not help looking with surprise at them both.

Mrs. Jennings, in the meantime, talked on as loud

as she could, and continued her account of their surprise,

the evening before, on seeing their friends, without

ceasing till every thing was told. Mrs. Palmer laughed

heartily at the recollection of their astonishment,

and every body agreed, two or three times over, that it

had been quite an agreeable surprise.

"You may believe how glad we all were to see them,"

added Mrs. Jennings, leaning forward towards Elinor,

and speaking in a low voice as if she meant to be heard

by no one else, though they were seated on different sides

of the room; "but, however, I can't help wishing they had

not travelled quite so fast, nor made such a long journey

of it, for they came all round by London upon account

of some business, for you know (nodding significantly and

pointing to her daughter) it was wrong in her situation.

I wanted her to stay at home and rest this morning,

but she would come with us; she longed so much to see

you all!"

Mrs. Palmer laughed, and said it would not do her

any harm.

"She expects to be confined in February,"

continued Mrs. Jennings.

Lady Middleton could no longer endure such a conversation,

and therefore exerted herself to ask Mr. Palmer if there

was any news in the paper.

"No, none at all," he replied, and read on.

"Here comes Marianne," cried Sir John. "Now, Palmer,

you shall see a monstrous pretty girl."

He immediately went into the passage, opened the front door,

and ushered her in himself. Mrs. Jennings asked her,

as soon as she appeared, if she had not been to Allenham;

and Mrs. Palmer laughed so heartily at the question,

as to show she understood it. Mr. Palmer looked up

on her entering the room, stared at her some minutes,

and then returned to his newspaper. Mrs. Palmer's eye

was now caught by the drawings which hung round the room.

She got up to examine them.

"Oh! dear, how beautiful these are! Well! how delightful!

Do but look, mama, how sweet! I declare they are quite charming;

I could look at them for ever." And then sitting down again,

she very soon forgot that there were any such things in the room.

When Lady Middleton rose to go away, Mr. Palmer

rose also, laid down the newspaper, stretched himself

and looked at them all around.

"My love, have you been asleep?" said his wife, laughing.

He made her no answer; and only observed, after again

examining the room, that it was very low pitched,

and that the ceiling was crooked. He then made his bow,

and departed with the rest.

Sir John had been very urgent with them all to

spend the next day at the park. Mrs. Dashwood, who did

not chuse to dine with them oftener than they dined

at the cottage, absolutely refused on her own account;

her daughters might do as they pleased. But they had no

curiosity to see how Mr. and Mrs. Palmer ate their dinner,

and no expectation of pleasure from them in any other way.

They attempted, therefore, likewise, to excuse themselves;

the weather was uncertain, and not likely to be good.

But Sir John would not be satisfied--the carriage should

be sent for them and they must come. Lady Middleton too,

though she did not press their mother, pressed them.

Mrs. Jennings and Mrs. Palmer joined their entreaties, all

seemed equally anxious to avoid a family party; and the young

ladies were obliged to yield.

"Why should they ask us?" said Marianne, as soon as they

were gone. "The rent of this cottage is said to be low;

but we have it on very hard terms, if we are to dine

at the park whenever any one is staying either with them,

or with us."

"They mean no less to be civil and kind to us now,"

said Elinor, "by these frequent invitations, than by

those which we received from them a few weeks ago.

The alteration is not in them, if their parties are grown

tedious and dull. We must look for the change elsewhere."

CHAPTER 20

As the Miss Dashwoods entered the drawing-room of the park

the next day, at one door, Mrs. Palmer came running in at

the other, looking as good humoured and merry as before.

She took them all most affectionately by the hand,

and expressed great delight in seeing them again.

"I am so glad to see you!" said she, seating herself

between Elinor and Marianne, "for it is so bad a day I was

afraid you might not come, which would be a shocking thing,

as we go away again tomorrow. We must go, for the Westons

come to us next week you know. It was quite a sudden thing

our coming at all, and I knew nothing of it till the carriage

was coming to the door, and then Mr. Palmer asked me if I

would go with him to Barton. He is so droll! He never

tells me any thing! I am so sorry we cannot stay longer;

however we shall meet again in town very soon, I hope."

They were obliged to put an end to such an expectation.

"Not go to town!" cried Mrs. Palmer, with a laugh,

"I shall be quite disappointed if you do not. I could

get the nicest house in world for you, next door to ours,

in Hanover-square. You must come, indeed. I am sure

I shall be very happy to chaperon you at any time till

I am confined, if Mrs. Dashwood should not like to go

into public."

They thanked her; but were obliged to resist all

her entreaties.

"Oh, my love," cried Mrs. Palmer to her husband,

who just then entered the room--"you must help me to

persuade the Miss Dashwoods to go to town this winter."

Her love made no answer; and after slightly bowing

to the ladies, began complaining of the weather.

"How horrid all this is!" said he. "Such weather

makes every thing and every body disgusting. Dullness

is as much produced within doors as without, by rain.

It makes one detest all one's acquaintance. What the

devil does Sir John mean by not having a billiard room

in his house? How few people know what comfort is! Sir

John is as stupid as the weather."

The rest of the company soon dropt in.

"I am afraid, Miss Marianne," said Sir John, "you have

not been able to take your usual walk to Allenham today."

Marianne looked very grave and said nothing.

"Oh, don't be so sly before us," said Mrs. Palmer;

"for we know all about it, I assure you; and I admire your

taste very much, for I think he is extremely handsome.

We do not live a great way from him in the country, you know.

Not above ten miles, I dare say."

"Much nearer thirty," said her husband.

"Ah, well! there is not much difference.

I never was at his house; but they say it is a sweet

pretty place."

"As vile a spot as I ever saw in my life,"

said Mr. Palmer.

Marianne remained perfectly silent, though her

countenance betrayed her interest in what was said.

"Is it very ugly?" continued Mrs. Palmer--"then it

must be some other place that is so pretty I suppose."

When they were seated in the dining room, Sir John

observed with regret that they were only eight all together.

"My dear," said he to his lady, "it is very provoking

that we should be so few. Why did not you ask the Gilberts

to come to us today?"

"Did not I tell you, Sir John, when you spoke to me

about it before, that it could not be done? They dined

with us last."

"You and I, Sir John," said Mrs. Jennings,

"should not stand upon such ceremony."

"Then you would be very ill-bred," cried Mr. Palmer.

"My love you contradict every body," said his wife

with her usual laugh. "Do you know that you are quite rude?"

"I did not know I contradicted any body in calling

your mother ill-bred."

"Ay, you may abuse me as you please," said the good-natured

old lady, "you have taken Charlotte off my hands, and cannot

give her back again. So there I have the whip hand of you."

Charlotte laughed heartily to think that her

husband could not get rid of her; and exultingly said,

she did not care how cross he was to her, as they must

live together. It was impossible for any one to be more

thoroughly good-natured, or more determined to be happy

than Mrs. Palmer. The studied indifference, insolence,

and discontent of her husband gave her no pain;

and when he scolded or abused her, she was highly diverted.

"Mr. Palmer is so droll!" said she, in a whisper,

to Elinor. "He is always out of humour."

Elinor was not inclined, after a little observation,

to give him credit for being so genuinely and unaffectedly

ill-natured or ill-bred as he wished to appear.

His temper might perhaps be a little soured by finding,

like many others of his sex, that through some unaccountable

bias in favour of beauty, he was the husband of a very silly

woman,--but she knew that this kind of blunder was too

common for any sensible man to be lastingly hurt by it.--

It was rather a wish of distinction, she believed,

which produced his contemptuous treatment of every body,

and his general abuse of every thing before him.

It was the desire of appearing superior to other people.

The motive was too common to be wondered at; but the means,

however they might succeed by establishing his superiority

in ill-breeding, were not likely to attach any one to him

except his wife.

"Oh, my dear Miss Dashwood," said Mrs. Palmer soon afterwards,

"I have got such a favour to ask of you and your sister.

Will you come and spend some time at Cleveland this

Christmas? Now, pray do,--and come while the Westons are

with us. You cannot think how happy I shall be! It will

be quite delightful!--My love," applying to her husband,

"don't you long to have the Miss Dashwoods come to Cleveland?"

"Certainly," he replied, with a sneer--"I came

into Devonshire with no other view."

"There now,"--said his lady, "you see Mr. Palmer

expects you; so you cannot refuse to come."

They both eagerly and resolutely declined her invitation.

"But indeed you must and shall come. I am sure you

will like it of all things. The Westons will be with us,

and it will be quite delightful. You cannot think

what a sweet place Cleveland is; and we are so gay now,

for Mr. Palmer is always going about the country canvassing

against the election; and so many people came to dine

with us that I never saw before, it is quite charming! But,

poor fellow! it is very fatiguing to him! for he is forced

to make every body like him."

Elinor could hardly keep her countenance as she

assented to the hardship of such an obligation.

"How charming it will be," said Charlotte, "when he

is in Parliament!--won't it? How I shall laugh! It will

be so ridiculous to see all his letters directed to him

with an M.P.--But do you know, he says, he will never frank

for me? He declares he won't. Don't you, Mr. Palmer?"

Mr. Palmer took no notice of her.

"He cannot bear writing, you know," she continued--

"he says it is quite shocking."

"No," said he, "I never said any thing so irrational.

Don't palm all your abuses of languages upon me."

"There now; you see how droll he is. This is always

the way with him! Sometimes he won't speak to me for half

a day together, and then he comes out with something

so droll--all about any thing in the world."

She surprised Elinor very much as they returned

into the drawing-room, by asking her whether she did

not like Mr. Palmer excessively.

"Certainly," said Elinor; "he seems very agreeable."

"Well--I am so glad you do. I thought you would,

he is so pleasant; and Mr. Palmer is excessively pleased

with you and your sisters I can tell you, and you can't

think how disappointed he will be if you don't come

to Cleveland.--I can't imagine why you should object

to it."

Elinor was again obliged to decline her invitation;

and by changing the subject, put a stop to her entreaties.

She thought it probable that as they lived in the

same county, Mrs. Palmer might be able to give some

more particular account of Willoughby's general

character, than could be gathered from the Middletons'

partial acquaintance with him; and she was eager to gain

from any one, such a confirmation of his merits as might

remove the possibility of fear from Marianne. She began

by inquiring if they saw much of Mr. Willoughby at Cleveland,

and whether they were intimately acquainted with him.

"Oh dear, yes; I know him extremely well,"

replied Mrs. Palmer;--"Not that I ever spoke

to him, indeed; but I have seen him for ever in town.

Somehow or other I never happened to be staying at Barton

while he was at Allenham. Mama saw him here once before;--

but I was with my uncle at Weymouth. However, I dare say

we should have seen a great deal of him in Somersetshire,

if it had not happened very unluckily that we should never

have been in the country together. He is very little

at Combe, I believe; but if he were ever so much there,

I do not think Mr. Palmer would visit him, for he is

in the opposition, you know, and besides it is such a

way off. I know why you inquire about him, very well;

your sister is to marry him. I am monstrous glad of it,

for then I shall have her for a neighbour you know."

"Upon my word," replied Elinor, "you know much

more of the matter than I do, if you have any reason

to expect such a match."

"Don't pretend to deny it, because you know it is

what every body talks of. I assure you I heard of it

in my way through town."

"My dear Mrs. Palmer!"

"Upon my honour I did.--I met Colonel Brandon

Monday morning in Bond-street, just before we left town,

and he told me of it directly."

"You surprise me very much. Colonel Brandon tell

you of it! Surely you must be mistaken. To give such

intelligence to a person who could not be interested in it,

even if it were true, is not what I should expect Colonel

Brandon to do."

"But I do assure you it was so, for all that,

and I will tell you how it happened. When we met him,

he turned back and walked with us; and so we began talking

of my brother and sister, and one thing and another,

and I said to him, 'So, Colonel, there is a new family

come to Barton cottage, I hear, and mama sends me word

they are very pretty, and that one of them is going to be

married to Mr. Willoughby of Combe Magna. Is it true,

pray? for of course you must know, as you have been in

Devonshire so lately.'"

"And what did the Colonel say?"

"Oh--he did not say much; but he looked as if he

knew it to be true, so from that moment I set it down

as certain. It will be quite delightful, I declare!

When is it to take place?"

"Mr. Brandon was very well I hope?"

"Oh! yes, quite well; and so full of your praises,

he did nothing but say fine things of you."

"I am flattered by his commendation. He seems

an excellent man; and I think him uncommonly pleasing."

"So do I.--He is such a charming man, that it

is quite a pity he should be so grave and so dull.

Mamma says HE was in love with your sister too.--

I assure you it was a great compliment if he was, for he

hardly ever falls in love with any body."

"Is Mr. Willoughby much known in your part

of Somersetshire?" said Elinor.

"Oh! yes, extremely well; that is, I do not believe

many people are acquainted with him, because Combe Magna

is so far off; but they all think him extremely agreeable

I assure you. Nobody is more liked than Mr. Willoughby

wherever he goes, and so you may tell your sister.

She is a monstrous lucky girl to get him, upon my honour;

not but that he is much more lucky in getting her,

because she is so very handsome and agreeable, that nothing

can be good enough for her. However, I don't think

her hardly at all handsomer than you, I assure you;

for I think you both excessively pretty, and so does

Mr. Palmer too I am sure, though we could not get him

to own it last night."

Mrs. Palmer's information respecting Willoughby

was not very material; but any testimony in his favour,

however small, was pleasing to her.

"I am so glad we are got acquainted at last,"

continued Charlotte.--"And now I hope we shall always be

great friends. You can't think how much I longed to see you!

It is so delightful that you should live at the cottage!

Nothing can be like it, to be sure! And I am so glad

your sister is going to be well married! I hope you will

be a great deal at Combe Magna. It is a sweet place,

by all accounts."

"You have been long acquainted with Colonel Brandon,

have not you?"

"Yes, a great while; ever since my sister married.--

He was a particular friend of Sir John's. I believe,"

she added in a low voice, "he would have been very

glad to have had me, if he could. Sir John and Lady

Middleton wished it very much. But mama did not think

the match good enough for me, otherwise Sir John would

have mentioned it to the Colonel, and we should have been

married immediately."

"Did not Colonel Brandon know of Sir John's proposal

to your mother before it was made? Had he never owned

his affection to yourself?"

"Oh, no; but if mama had not objected to it,

I dare say he would have liked it of all things.

He had not seen me then above twice, for it was before

I left school. However, I am much happier as I am.

Mr. Palmer is the kind of man I like."

CHAPTER 21

The Palmers returned to Cleveland the next day,

and the two families at Barton were again left to entertain

each other. But this did not last long; Elinor had hardly

got their last visitors out of her head, had hardly done

wondering at Charlotte's being so happy without a cause,

at Mr. Palmer's acting so simply, with good abilities,

and at the strange unsuitableness which often existed between

husband and wife, before Sir John's and Mrs. Jennings's

active zeal in the cause of society, procured her some

other new acquaintance to see and observe.

In a morning's excursion to Exeter, they had met with

two young ladies, whom Mrs. Jennings had the satisfaction

of discovering to be her relations, and this was enough

for Sir John to invite them directly to the park,

as soon as their present engagements at Exeter were over.

Their engagements at Exeter instantly gave way before

such an invitation, and Lady Middleton was thrown into

no little alarm on the return of Sir John, by hearing

that she was very soon to receive a visit from two girls

whom she had never seen in her life, and of whose elegance,--

whose tolerable gentility even, she could have no proof;

for the assurances of her husband and mother on that subject

went for nothing at all. Their being her relations too

made it so much the worse; and Mrs. Jennings's attempts

at consolation were therefore unfortunately founded,

when she advised her daughter not to care about their being

so fashionable; because they were all cousins and must put

up with one another. As it was impossible, however, now to

prevent their coming, Lady Middleton resigned herself to the

idea of it, with all the philosophy of a well-bred woman,

contenting herself with merely giving her husband a gentle

reprimand on the subject five or six times every day.

The young ladies arrived: their appearance was by

no means ungenteel or unfashionable. Their dress was

very smart, their manners very civil, they were delighted

with the house, and in raptures with the furniture,

and they happened to be so doatingly fond of children

that Lady Middleton's good opinion was engaged in their

favour before they had been an hour at the Park.

She declared them to be very agreeable girls indeed,

which for her ladyship was enthusiastic admiration.

Sir John's confidence in his own judgment rose with this

animated praise, and he set off directly for the cottage

to tell the Miss Dashwoods of the Miss Steeles' arrival,

and to assure them of their being the sweetest girls

in the world. From such commendation as this, however,

there was not much to be learned; Elinor well knew

that the sweetest girls in the world were to be met

with in every part of England, under every possible

variation of form, face, temper and understanding.

Sir John wanted the whole family to walk to the Park directly

and look at his guests. Benevolent, philanthropic man! It

was painful to him even to keep a third cousin to himself.

"Do come now," said he--"pray come--you must come--I

declare you shall come--You can't think how you will

like them. Lucy is monstrous pretty, and so good humoured

and agreeable! The children are all hanging about her already,

as if she was an old acquaintance. And they both long

to see you of all things, for they have heard at Exeter

that you are the most beautiful creatures in the world;

and I have told them it is all very true, and a great

deal more. You will be delighted with them I am sure.

They have brought the whole coach full of playthings

for the children. How can you be so cross as not to come?

Why they are your cousins, you know, after a fashion.

YOU are my cousins, and they are my wife's, so you must

be related."

But Sir John could not prevail. He could only obtain

a promise of their calling at the Park within a day or two,

and then left them in amazement at their indifference,

to walk home and boast anew of their attractions to the

Miss Steeles, as he had been already boasting of the Miss

Steeles to them.

When their promised visit to the Park and consequent

introduction to these young ladies took place, they found

in the appearance of the eldest, who was nearly thirty,

with a very plain and not a sensible face, nothing to admire;

but in the other, who was not more than two or three

and twenty, they acknowledged considerable beauty; her

features were pretty, and she had a sharp quick eye,

and a smartness of air, which though it did not give

actual elegance or grace, gave distinction to her person.--

Their manners were particularly civil, and Elinor soon

allowed them credit for some kind of sense, when she

saw with what constant and judicious attention they

were making themselves agreeable to Lady Middleton.

With her children they were in continual raptures,

extolling their beauty, courting their notice, and humouring

their whims; and such of their time as could be spared from

the importunate demands which this politeness made on it,

was spent in admiration of whatever her ladyship was doing,

if she happened to be doing any thing, or in taking patterns

of some elegant new dress, in which her appearance

the day before had thrown them into unceasing delight.

Fortunately for those who pay their court through

such foibles, a fond mother, though, in pursuit of praise

for her children, the most rapacious of human beings,

is likewise the most credulous; her demands are exorbitant;

but she will swallow any thing; and the excessive

affection and endurance of the Miss Steeles towards

her offspring were viewed therefore by Lady Middleton

without the smallest surprise or distrust. She saw with

maternal complacency all the impertinent encroachments

and mischievous tricks to which her cousins submitted.

She saw their sashes untied, their hair pulled about

their ears, their work-bags searched, and their knives

and scissors stolen away, and felt no doubt of its being

a reciprocal enjoyment. It suggested no other surprise

than that Elinor and Marianne should sit so composedly by,

without claiming a share in what was passing.

"John is in such spirits today!" said she, on his

taking Miss Steeles's pocket handkerchief, and throwing

it out of window--"He is full of monkey tricks."

And soon afterwards, on the second boy's violently

pinching one of the same lady's fingers, she fondly observed,

"How playful William is!"

"And here is my sweet little Annamaria," she added,

tenderly caressing a little girl of three years old,

who had not made a noise for the last two minutes;

"And she is always so gentle and quiet--Never was there

such a quiet little thing!"

But unfortunately in bestowing these embraces,

a pin in her ladyship's head dress slightly scratching

the child's neck, produced from this pattern of gentleness

such violent screams, as could hardly be outdone by any

creature professedly noisy. The mother's consternation

was excessive; but it could not surpass the alarm of the

Miss Steeles, and every thing was done by all three,

in so critical an emergency, which affection could suggest

as likely to assuage the agonies of the little sufferer.

She was seated in her mother's lap, covered with kisses,

her wound bathed with lavender-water, by one of the

Miss Steeles, who was on her knees to attend her,

and her mouth stuffed with sugar plums by the other.

With such a reward for her tears, the child was too wise

to cease crying. She still screamed and sobbed lustily,

kicked her two brothers for offering to touch her, and all

their united soothings were ineffectual till Lady Middleton

luckily remembering that in a scene of similar distress

last week, some apricot marmalade had been successfully

applied for a bruised temple, the same remedy was eagerly

proposed for this unfortunate scratch, and a slight

intermission of screams in the young lady on hearing it,

gave them reason to hope that it would not be rejected.--

She was carried out of the room therefore in her

mother's arms, in quest of this medicine, and as the

two boys chose to follow, though earnestly entreated

by their mother to stay behind, the four young ladies

were left in a quietness which the room had not known for

many hours.

"Poor little creatures!" said Miss Steele, as soon

as they were gone. "It might have been a very sad accident."

"Yet I hardly know how," cried Marianne, "unless it

had been under totally different circumstances.

But this is the usual way of heightening alarm, where there

is nothing to be alarmed at in reality."

"What a sweet woman Lady Middleton is!" said Lucy Steele.

Marianne was silent; it was impossible for her to say

what she did not feel, however trivial the occasion;

and upon Elinor therefore the whole task of telling lies

when politeness required it, always fell. She did her

best when thus called on, by speaking of Lady Middleton

with more warmth than she felt, though with far less than

Miss Lucy.

"And Sir John too," cried the elder sister,

"what a charming man he is!"

Here too, Miss Dashwood's commendation, being only

simple and just, came in without any eclat. She merely

observed that he was perfectly good humoured and friendly.

"And what a charming little family they have! I

never saw such fine children in my life.--I declare I

quite doat upon them already, and indeed I am always

distractedly fond of children."

"I should guess so," said Elinor, with a smile,

"from what I have witnessed this morning."

"I have a notion," said Lucy, "you think the little

Middletons rather too much indulged; perhaps they may be the

outside of enough; but it is so natural in Lady Middleton;

and for my part, I love to see children full of life

and spirits; I cannot bear them if they are tame and quiet."

"I confess," replied Elinor, "that while I am at

Barton Park, I never think of tame and quiet children

with any abhorrence."

A short pause succeeded this speech, which was first

broken by Miss Steele, who seemed very much disposed

for conversation, and who now said rather abruptly,

"And how do you like Devonshire, Miss Dashwood? I suppose

you were very sorry to leave Sussex."

In some surprise at the familiarity of this question,

or at least of the manner in which it was spoken,

Elinor replied that she was.

"Norland is a prodigious beautiful place, is not it?"

added Miss Steele.

"We have heard Sir John admire it excessively,"

said Lucy, who seemed to think some apology necessary

for the freedom of her sister.

"I think every one MUST admire it," replied Elinor,

"who ever saw the place; though it is not to be supposed

that any one can estimate its beauties as we do."

"And had you a great many smart beaux there? I

suppose you have not so many in this part of the world;

for my part, I think they are a vast addition always."

"But why should you think," said Lucy, looking ashamed

of her sister, "that there are not as many genteel young

men in Devonshire as Sussex?"

"Nay, my dear, I'm sure I don't pretend to say that there

an't. I'm sure there's a vast many smart beaux in Exeter;

but you know, how could I tell what smart beaux there

might be about Norland; and I was only afraid the Miss

Dashwoods might find it dull at Barton, if they had not

so many as they used to have. But perhaps you young ladies

may not care about the beaux, and had as lief be without

them as with them. For my part, I think they are vastly

agreeable, provided they dress smart and behave civil.

But I can't bear to see them dirty and nasty. Now there's

Mr. Rose at Exeter, a prodigious smart young man,

quite a beau, clerk to Mr. Simpson, you know, and yet if you

do but meet him of a morning, he is not fit to be seen.--

I suppose your brother was quite a beau, Miss Dashwood,

before he married, as he was so rich?"

"Upon my word," replied Elinor, "I cannot tell you,

for I do not perfectly comprehend the meaning of the word.

But this I can say, that if he ever was a beau before

he married, he is one still for there is not the smallest

alteration in him."

"Oh! dear! one never thinks of married men's being

beaux--they have something else to do."

"Lord! Anne," cried her sister, "you can talk of

nothing but beaux;--you will make Miss Dashwood believe you

think of nothing else." And then to turn the discourse,

she began admiring the house and the furniture.

This specimen of the Miss Steeles was enough.

The vulgar freedom and folly of the eldest left

her no recommendation, and as Elinor was not blinded

by the beauty, or the shrewd look of the youngest,

to her want of real elegance and artlessness, she left

the house without any wish of knowing them better.

Not so the Miss Steeles.--They came from Exeter, well

provided with admiration for the use of Sir John Middleton,

his family, and all his relations, and no niggardly

proportion was now dealt out to his fair cousins, whom they

declared to be the most beautiful, elegant, accomplished,

and agreeable girls they had ever beheld, and with whom

they were particularly anxious to be better acquainted.--

And to be better acquainted therefore, Elinor soon found

was their inevitable lot, for as Sir John was entirely

on the side of the Miss Steeles, their party would be

too strong for opposition, and that kind of intimacy

must be submitted to, which consists of sitting an hour

or two together in the same room almost every day.

Sir John could do no more; but he did not know that any

more was required: to be together was, in his opinion,

to be intimate, and while his continual schemes for their

meeting were effectual, he had not a doubt of their being

established friends.

To do him justice, he did every thing in his power

to promote their unreserve, by making the Miss Steeles

acquainted with whatever he knew or supposed of his cousins'

situations in the most delicate particulars,--and Elinor

had not seen them more than twice, before the eldest of

them wished her joy on her sister's having been so lucky

as to make a conquest of a very smart beau since she

came to Barton.

"'Twill be a fine thing to have her married so young

to be sure," said she, "and I hear he is quite a beau,

and prodigious handsome. And I hope you may have as good

luck yourself soon,--but perhaps you may have a friend

in the corner already."

Elinor could not suppose that Sir John would be more

nice in proclaiming his suspicions of her regard for Edward,

than he had been with respect to Marianne; indeed it was

rather his favourite joke of the two, as being somewhat

newer and more conjectural; and since Edward's visit,

they had never dined together without his drinking to her

best affections with so much significancy and so many nods

and winks, as to excite general attention. The letter F--

had been likewise invariably brought forward, and found

productive of such countless jokes, that its character

as the wittiest letter in the alphabet had been long

established with Elinor.

The Miss Steeles, as she expected, had now all the

benefit of these jokes, and in the eldest of them they

raised a curiosity to know the name of the gentleman

alluded to, which, though often impertinently expressed,

was perfectly of a piece with her general inquisitiveness

into the concerns of their family. But Sir John did not

sport long with the curiosity which he delighted to raise,

for he had at least as much pleasure in telling the name,

as Miss Steele had in hearing it.

"His name is Ferrars," said he, in a very audible whisper;

"but pray do not tell it, for it's a great secret."

"Ferrars!" repeated Miss Steele; "Mr. Ferrars is

the happy man, is he? What! your sister-in-law's brother,

Miss Dashwood? a very agreeable young man to be sure;

I know him very well."

"How can you say so, Anne?" cried Lucy, who generally

made an amendment to all her sister's assertions.

"Though we have seen him once or twice at my uncle's, it

is rather too much to pretend to know him very well."

Elinor heard all this with attention and surprise.

"And who was this uncle? Where did he live? How came

they acquainted?" She wished very much to have the subject

continued, though she did not chuse to join in it herself;

but nothing more of it was said, and for the first time

in her life, she thought Mrs. Jennings deficient either

in curiosity after petty information, or in a disposition

to communicate it. The manner in which Miss Steele had

spoken of Edward, increased her curiosity; for it struck

her as being rather ill-natured, and suggested the suspicion

of that lady's knowing, or fancying herself to know something

to his disadvantage.--But her curiosity was unavailing,

for no farther notice was taken of Mr. Ferrars's name by

Miss Steele when alluded to, or even openly mentioned by Sir

John.

CHAPTER 22

Marianne, who had never much toleration for any

thing like impertinence, vulgarity, inferiority of parts,

or even difference of taste from herself, was at

this time particularly ill-disposed, from the state

of her spirits, to be pleased with the Miss Steeles,

or to encourage their advances; and to the invariable

coldness of her behaviour towards them, which checked every

endeavour at intimacy on their side, Elinor principally

attributed that preference of herself which soon became

evident in the manners of both, but especially of Lucy,

who missed no opportunity of engaging her in conversation,

or of striving to improve their acquaintance by an easy

and frank communication of her sentiments.

Lucy was naturally clever; her remarks were often

just and amusing; and as a companion for half an hour

Elinor frequently found her agreeable; but her powers

had received no aid from education: she was ignorant

and illiterate; and her deficiency of all mental improvement,

her want of information in the most common particulars,

could not be concealed from Miss Dashwood, in spite of her

constant endeavour to appear to advantage. Elinor saw,

and pitied her for, the neglect of abilities which education

might have rendered so respectable; but she saw, with less

tenderness of feeling, the thorough want of delicacy,

of rectitude, and integrity of mind, which her attentions,

her assiduities, her flatteries at the Park betrayed;

and she could have no lasting satisfaction in the company

of a person who joined insincerity with ignorance;

whose want of instruction prevented their meeting

in conversation on terms of equality, and whose conduct

toward others made every shew of attention and deference

towards herself perfectly valueless.

"You will think my question an odd one, I dare say,"

said Lucy to her one day, as they were walking together

from the park to the cottage--"but pray, are you

personally acquainted with your sister-in-law's mother,

Mrs. Ferrars?"

Elinor DID think the question a very odd one,

and her countenance expressed it, as she answered that she

had never seen Mrs. Ferrars.

"Indeed!" replied Lucy; "I wonder at that, for I

thought you must have seen her at Norland sometimes.

Then, perhaps, you cannot tell me what sort of a woman

she is?"

"No," returned Elinor, cautious of giving her real

opinion of Edward's mother, and not very desirous

of satisfying what seemed impertinent curiosity--

"I know nothing of her."

"I am sure you think me very strange, for enquiring

about her in such a way," said Lucy, eyeing Elinor attentively

as she spoke; "but perhaps there may be reasons--I wish

I might venture; but however I hope you will do me the justice

of believing that I do not mean to be impertinent."

Elinor made her a civil reply, and they walked on

for a few minutes in silence. It was broken by Lucy,

who renewed the subject again by saying, with some

hesitation,

"I cannot bear to have you think me impertinently curious.

I am sure I would rather do any thing in the world than be

thought so by a person whose good opinion is so well worth

having as yours. And I am sure I should not have the smallest

fear of trusting YOU; indeed, I should be very glad of your

advice how to manage in such and uncomfortable situation

as I am; but, however, there is no occasion to trouble YOU.

I am sorry you do not happen to know Mrs. Ferrars."

"I am sorry I do NOT," said Elinor, in great astonishment,

"if it could be of any use to YOU to know my opinion of her.

But really I never understood that you were at all connected

with that family, and therefore I am a little surprised,

I confess, at so serious an inquiry into her character."

"I dare say you are, and I am sure I do not at all

wonder at it. But if I dared tell you all, you would not be

so much surprised. Mrs. Ferrars is certainly nothing to me

at present--but the time MAY come--how soon it will come

must depend upon herself--when we may be very intimately

connected."

She looked down as she said this, amiably bashful,

with only one side glance at her companion to observe its

effect on her.

"Good heavens!" cried Elinor, "what do you mean?

Are you acquainted with Mr. Robert Ferrars? Can you be?"

And she did not feel much delighted with the idea of such

a sister-in-law.

"No," replied Lucy, "not to Mr. ROBERT Ferrars--I

never saw him in my life; but," fixing her eyes upon Elinor,

"to his eldest brother."

What felt Elinor at that moment? Astonishment,

that would have been as painful as it was strong, had not

an immediate disbelief of the assertion attended it.

She turned towards Lucy in silent amazement, unable to divine

the reason or object of such a declaration; and though

her complexion varied, she stood firm in incredulity,

and felt in no danger of an hysterical fit, or a swoon.

"You may well be surprised," continued Lucy;

"for to be sure you could have had no idea of it before;

for I dare say he never dropped the smallest hint of it

to you or any of your family; because it was always meant

to be a great secret, and I am sure has been faithfully

kept so by me to this hour. Not a soul of all my relations

know of it but Anne, and I never should have mentioned

it to you, if I had not felt the greatest dependence

in the world upon your secrecy; and I really thought my

behaviour in asking so many questions about Mrs. Ferrars

must seem so odd, that it ought to be explained.

And I do not think Mr. Ferrars can be displeased,

when he knows I have trusted you, because I know he has

the highest opinion in the world of all your family,

and looks upon yourself and the other Miss Dashwoods quite

as his own sisters."--She paused.

Elinor for a few moments remained silent.

Her astonishment at what she heard was at first too

great for words; but at length forcing herself to speak,

and to speak cautiously, she said, with calmness of manner,

which tolerably well concealed her surprise and solicitude--

"May I ask if your engagement is of long standing?"

"We have been engaged these four years."

"Four years!"

"Yes."

Elinor, though greatly shocked, still felt unable

to believe it.

"I did not know," said she, "that you were even

acquainted till the other day."

"Our acquaintance, however, is of many years date.

He was under my uncle's care, you know, a considerable while."

"Your uncle!"

"Yes; Mr. Pratt. Did you never hear him talk

of Mr. Pratt?"

"I think I have," replied Elinor, with an exertion

of spirits, which increased with her increase of emotion.

"He was four years with my uncle, who lives at Longstaple,

near Plymouth. It was there our acquaintance begun,

for my sister and me was often staying with my uncle,

and it was there our engagement was formed, though not till

a year after he had quitted as a pupil; but he was almost

always with us afterwards. I was very unwilling to enter

into it, as you may imagine, without the knowledge and

approbation of his mother; but I was too young, and loved

him too well, to be so prudent as I ought to have been.--

Though you do not know him so well as me, Miss Dashwood,

you must have seen enough of him to be sensible he is

very capable of making a woman sincerely attached to him."

"Certainly," answered Elinor, without knowing what

she said; but after a moment's reflection, she added,

with revived security of Edward's honour and love,

and her companion's falsehood--"Engaged to Mr. Edward

Ferrars!--I confess myself so totally surprised at

what you tell me, that really--I beg your pardon;

but surely there must be some mistake of person or name.

We cannot mean the same Mr. Ferrars."

"We can mean no other," cried Lucy, smiling. "Mr. Edward

Ferrars, the eldest son of Mrs. Ferrars, of Park Street,

and brother of your sister-in-law, Mrs. John Dashwood,

is the person I mean; you must allow that I am not likely

to be deceived as to the name of the man on who all my happiness

depends."

"It is strange," replied Elinor, in a most painful perplexity,

"that I should never have heard him even mention your name."

"No; considering our situation, it was not strange.

Our first care has been to keep the matter secret.--

You knew nothing of me, or my family, and, therefore,

there could be no OCCASION for ever mentioning my name

to you; and, as he was always particularly afraid of his

sister's suspecting any thing, THAT was reason enough

for his not mentioning it."

She was silent.--Elinor's security sunk; but her

self-command did not sink with it.

"Four years you have been engaged," said she

with a firm voice.

"Yes; and heaven knows how much longer we may have

to wait. Poor Edward! It puts him quite out of heart."

Then taking a small miniature from her pocket, she added,

"To prevent the possibility of mistake, be so good as to look

at this face. It does not do him justice, to be sure,

but yet I think you cannot be deceived as to the person

it was drew for.--I have had it above these three years."

She put it into her hands as she spoke; and when Elinor

saw the painting, whatever other doubts her fear of a

too hasty decision, or her wish of detecting falsehood

might suffer to linger in her mind, she could have none of

its being Edward's face. She returned it almost instantly,

acknowledging the likeness.

"I have never been able," continued Lucy, "to give

him my picture in return, which I am very much vexed at,

for he has been always so anxious to get it! But I am

determined to set for it the very first opportunity."

"You are quite in the right," replied Elinor calmly.

They then proceeded a few paces in silence. Lucy spoke first.

"I am sure," said she, "I have no doubt in the world

of your faithfully keeping this secret, because you must

know of what importance it is to us, not to have it reach

his mother; for she would never approve of it, I dare say.

I shall have no fortune, and I fancy she is an exceeding

proud woman."

"I certainly did not seek your confidence," said Elinor;

"but you do me no more than justice in imagining that I

may be depended on. Your secret is safe with me;

but pardon me if I express some surprise at so unnecessary

a communication. You must at least have felt that my

being acquainted with it could not add to its safety."

As she said this, she looked earnestly at Lucy,

hoping to discover something in her countenance; perhaps the

falsehood of the greatest part of what she had been saying;

but Lucy's countenance suffered no change.

"I was afraid you would think I was taking a great

liberty with you," said she, "in telling you all this.

I have not known you long to be sure, personally at least,

but I have known you and all your family by description

a great while; and as soon as I saw you, I felt almost as if

you was an old acquaintance. Besides in the present case,

I really thought some explanation was due to you after my

making such particular inquiries about Edward's mother;

and I am so unfortunate, that I have not a creature whose

advice I can ask. Anne is the only person that knows of it,

and she has no judgment at all; indeed, she does me a great

deal more harm than good, for I am in constant fear of her

betraying me. She does not know how to hold her tongue,

as you must perceive, and I am sure I was in the greatest

fright in the world t'other day, when Edward's name was

mentioned by Sir John, lest she should out with it all.

You can't think how much I go through in my mind from

it altogether. I only wonder that I am alive after what

I have suffered for Edward's sake these last four years.

Every thing in such suspense and uncertainty; and seeing

him so seldom--we can hardly meet above twice a-year.

I am sure I wonder my heart is not quite broke."

Here she took out her handkerchief; but Elinor did

not feel very compassionate.

"Sometimes." continued Lucy, after wiping her eyes,

"I think whether it would not be better for us both

to break off the matter entirely." As she said this,

she looked directly at her companion. "But then

at other times I have not resolution enough for it.--

I cannot bear the thoughts of making him so miserable,

as I know the very mention of such a thing would do.

And on my own account too--so dear as he is to me--I don't

think I could be equal to it. What would you advise

me to do in such a case, Miss Dashwood? What would you

do yourself?"

"Pardon me," replied Elinor, startled by the question;

"but I can give you no advice under such circumstances.

Your own judgment must direct you."

"To be sure," continued Lucy, after a few minutes

silence on both sides, "his mother must provide for him

sometime or other; but poor Edward is so cast down by it!

Did you not think him dreadful low-spirited when he was at

Barton? He was so miserable when he left us at Longstaple,

to go to you, that I was afraid you would think him quite ill."

"Did he come from your uncle's, then, when he visited us?"

"Oh, yes; he had been staying a fortnight with us.

Did you think he came directly from town?"

"No," replied Elinor, most feelingly sensible of

every fresh circumstance in favour of Lucy's veracity;

"I remember he told us, that he had been staying

a fortnight with some friends near Plymouth."

She remembered too, her own surprise at the time,

at his mentioning nothing farther of those friends,

at his total silence with respect even to their names.

"Did not you think him sadly out of spirits?"

repeated Lucy.

"We did, indeed, particularly so when he first arrived."

"I begged him to exert himself for fear you

should suspect what was the matter; but it made him

so melancholy, not being able to stay more than a

fortnight with us, and seeing me so much affected.--

Poor fellow!--I am afraid it is just the same with him now;

for he writes in wretched spirits. I heard from him just

before I left Exeter;" taking a letter from her pocket

and carelessly showing the direction to Elinor.

"You know his hand, I dare say, a charming one it is;

but that is not written so well as usual.--He was tired,

I dare say, for he had just filled the sheet to me as full

as possible."

Elinor saw that it WAS his hand, and she could doubt

no longer. This picture, she had allowed herself to believe,

might have been accidentally obtained; it might not have

been Edward's gift; but a correspondence between them

by letter, could subsist only under a positive engagement,

could be authorised by nothing else; for a few moments, she

was almost overcome--her heart sunk within her, and she could

hardly stand; but exertion was indispensably necessary;

and she struggled so resolutely against the oppression

of her feelings, that her success was speedy, and for

the time complete.

"Writing to each other," said Lucy, returning the

letter into her pocket, "is the only comfort we have

in such long separations. Yes, I have one other comfort

in his picture, but poor Edward has not even THAT.

If he had but my picture, he says he should be easy.

I gave him a lock of my hair set in a ring when he was at

Longstaple last, and that was some comfort to him, he said,

but not equal to a picture. Perhaps you might notice

the ring when you saw him?"

"I did," said Elinor, with a composure of voice,

under which was concealed an emotion and distress beyond

any thing she had ever felt before. She was mortified,

shocked, confounded.

Fortunately for her, they had now reached the cottage,

and the conversation could be continued no farther.

After sitting with them a few minutes, the Miss Steeles

returned to the Park, and Elinor was then at liberty

to think and be wretched.

[At this point in the first and second editions, Volume 1 ends.]

CHAPTER 23

However small Elinor's general dependence on

Lucy's veracity might be, it was impossible for her

on serious reflection to suspect it in the present case,

where no temptation could be answerable to the folly

of inventing a falsehood of such a description. What Lucy

had asserted to be true, therefore, Elinor could not,

dared not longer doubt; supported as it was too on every

side by such probabilities and proofs, and contradicted

by nothing but her own wishes. Their opportunity of

acquaintance in the house of Mr. Pratt was a foundation

for the rest, at once indisputable and alarming; and Edward's

visit near Plymouth, his melancholy state of mind,

his dissatisfaction at his own prospects, his uncertain

behaviour towards herself, the intimate knowledge of the

Miss Steeles as to Norland and their family connections,

which had often surprised her, the picture, the letter,

the ring, formed altogether such a body of evidence,

as overcame every fear of condemning him unfairly,

and established as a fact, which no partiality could

set aside, his ill-treatment of herself.--Her resentment

of such behaviour, her indignation at having been its dupe,

for a short time made her feel only for herself;

but other ideas, other considerations, soon arose.

Had Edward been intentionally deceiving her? Had he feigned

a regard for her which he did not feel? Was his engagement

to Lucy an engagement of the heart? No; whatever it might

once have been, she could not believe it such at present.

His affection was all her own. She could not be deceived

in that. Her mother, sisters, Fanny, all had been

conscious of his regard for her at Norland; it was not

an illusion of her own vanity. He certainly loved her.

What a softener of the heart was this persuasion! How much

could it not tempt her to forgive! He had been blamable,

highly blamable, in remaining at Norland after he first

felt her influence over him to be more than it ought

to be. In that, he could not be defended; but if he

had injured her, how much more had he injured himself;

if her case were pitiable, his was hopeless.

His imprudence had made her miserable for a while; but it

seemed to have deprived himself of all chance of ever

being otherwise. She might in time regain tranquillity;

but HE, what had he to look forward to? Could he

ever be tolerably happy with Lucy Steele; could he,

were his affection for herself out of the question,

with his integrity, his delicacy, and well-informed mind,

be satisfied with a wife like her--illiterate, artful,

and selfish?

The youthful infatuation of nineteen would naturally

blind him to every thing but her beauty and good nature;

but the four succeeding years--years, which if rationally

spent, give such improvement to the understanding, must

have opened his eyes to her defects of education,

while the same period of time, spent on her side

in inferior society and more frivolous pursuits,

had perhaps robbed her of that simplicity which might

once have given an interesting character to her beauty.

If in the supposition of his seeking to marry herself,

his difficulties from his mother had seemed great,

how much greater were they now likely to be, when

the object of his engagement was undoubtedly inferior

in connections, and probably inferior in fortune to herself.

These difficulties, indeed, with a heart so alienated

from Lucy, might not press very hard upon his patience;

but melancholy was the state of the person by whom the

expectation of family opposition and unkindness, could

be felt as a relief!

As these considerations occurred to her in painful

succession, she wept for him, more than for herself.

Supported by the conviction of having done nothing to

merit her present unhappiness, and consoled by the belief

that Edward had done nothing to forfeit her esteem,

she thought she could even now, under the first smart

of the heavy blow, command herself enough to guard every

suspicion of the truth from her mother and sisters.

And so well was she able to answer her own expectations,

that when she joined them at dinner only two hours

after she had first suffered the extinction of all her

dearest hopes, no one would have supposed from the

appearance of the sisters, that Elinor was mourning

in secret over obstacles which must divide her for ever

from the object of her love, and that Marianne was

internally dwelling on the perfections of a man, of whose

whole heart she felt thoroughly possessed, and whom she

expected to see in every carriage which drove near their house.

The necessity of concealing from her mother and

Marianne, what had been entrusted in confidence to herself,

though it obliged her to unceasing exertion, was no

aggravation of Elinor's distress. On the contrary

it was a relief to her, to be spared the communication

of what would give such affliction to them, and to be

saved likewise from hearing that condemnation of Edward,

which would probably flow from the excess of their partial

affection for herself, and which was more than she felt

equal to support.

From their counsel, or their conversation, she knew

she could receive no assistance, their tenderness and

sorrow must add to her distress, while her self-command

would neither receive encouragement from their example

nor from their praise. She was stronger alone,

and her own good sense so well supported her, that her

firmness was as unshaken, her appearance of cheerfulness

as invariable, as with regrets so poignant and so fresh,

it was possible for them to be.

Much as she had suffered from her first conversation

with Lucy on the subject, she soon felt an earnest wish

of renewing it; and this for more reasons than one.

She wanted to hear many particulars of their engagement

repeated again, she wanted more clearly to understand

what Lucy really felt for Edward, whether there were any

sincerity in her declaration of tender regard for him,

and she particularly wanted to convince Lucy, by her

readiness to enter on the matter again, and her calmness

in conversing on it, that she was no otherwise interested

in it than as a friend, which she very much feared

her involuntary agitation, in their morning discourse,

must have left at least doubtful. That Lucy was disposed

to be jealous of her appeared very probable: it was plain

that Edward had always spoken highly in her praise,

not merely from Lucy's assertion, but from her venturing

to trust her on so short a personal acquaintance,

with a secret so confessedly and evidently important.

And even Sir John's joking intelligence must have had

some weight. But indeed, while Elinor remained so well

assured within herself of being really beloved by Edward,

it required no other consideration of probabilities

to make it natural that Lucy should be jealous;

and that she was so, her very confidence was a proof.

What other reason for the disclosure of the affair could

there be, but that Elinor might be informed by it of Lucy's

superior claims on Edward, and be taught to avoid him

in future? She had little difficulty in understanding thus

much of her rival's intentions, and while she was firmly

resolved to act by her as every principle of honour and

honesty directed, to combat her own affection for Edward

and to see him as little as possible; she could not deny

herself the comfort of endeavouring to convince Lucy

that her heart was unwounded. And as she could now have

nothing more painful to hear on the subject than had already

been told, she did not mistrust her own ability of going

through a repetition of particulars with composure.

But it was not immediately that an opportunity

of doing so could be commanded, though Lucy was as well

disposed as herself to take advantage of any that occurred;

for the weather was not often fine enough to allow

of their joining in a walk, where they might most easily

separate themselves from the others; and though they

met at least every other evening either at the park

or cottage, and chiefly at the former, they could

not be supposed to meet for the sake of conversation.

Such a thought would never enter either Sir John or Lady

Middleton's head; and therefore very little leisure

was ever given for a general chat, and none at all for

particular discourse. They met for the sake of eating,

drinking, and laughing together, playing at cards,

or consequences, or any other game that was sufficiently noisy.

One or two meetings of this kind had taken place,

without affording Elinor any chance of engaging Lucy

in private, when Sir John called at the cottage one morning,

to beg, in the name of charity, that they would all

dine with Lady Middleton that day, as he was obliged

to attend the club at Exeter, and she would otherwise be

quite alone, except her mother and the two Miss Steeles.

Elinor, who foresaw a fairer opening for the point she

had in view, in such a party as this was likely to be,

more at liberty among themselves under the tranquil

and well-bred direction of Lady Middleton than when

her husband united them together in one noisy purpose,

immediately accepted the invitation; Margaret, with her

mother's permission, was equally compliant, and Marianne,

though always unwilling to join any of their parties,

was persuaded by her mother, who could not bear to have her

seclude herself from any chance of amusement, to go likewise.

The young ladies went, and Lady Middleton was happily

preserved from the frightful solitude which had threatened her.

The insipidity of the meeting was exactly such as Elinor

had expected; it produced not one novelty of thought

or expression, and nothing could be less interesting

than the whole of their discourse both in the dining

parlour and drawing room: to the latter, the children

accompanied them, and while they remained there, she was

too well convinced of the impossibility of engaging Lucy's

attention to attempt it. They quitted it only with the

removal of the tea-things. The card-table was then placed,

and Elinor began to wonder at herself for having ever

entertained a hope of finding time for conversation

at the park. They all rose up in preparation for a round game.

"I am glad," said Lady Middleton to Lucy,

"you are not going to finish poor little Annamaria's

basket this evening; for I am sure it must hurt your

eyes to work filigree by candlelight. And we will make

the dear little love some amends for her disappointment

to-morrow, and then I hope she will not much mind it."

This hint was enough, Lucy recollected herself instantly

and replied, "Indeed you are very much mistaken,

Lady Middleton; I am only waiting to know whether you can

make your party without me, or I should have been at my

filigree already. I would not disappoint the little angel

for all the world: and if you want me at the card-table now,

I am resolved to finish the basket after supper."

"You are very good, I hope it won't hurt your eyes--

will you ring the bell for some working candles?

My poor little girl would be sadly disappointed, I know,

if the basket was not finished tomorrow, for though I

told her it certainly would not, I am sure she depends

upon having it done."

Lucy directly drew her work table near her

and reseated herself with an alacrity and cheerfulness

which seemed to infer that she could taste no greater

delight than in making a filigree basket for a spoilt child.

Lady Middleton proposed a rubber of Casino to the others.

No one made any objection but Marianne, who with her usual

inattention to the forms of general civility, exclaimed,

"Your Ladyship will have the goodness to excuse ME--you

know I detest cards. I shall go to the piano-forte;

I have not touched it since it was tuned." And without

farther ceremony, she turned away and walked to the instrument.

Lady Middleton looked as if she thanked heaven

that SHE had never made so rude a speech.

"Marianne can never keep long from that instrument

you know, ma'am," said Elinor, endeavouring to smooth

away the offence; "and I do not much wonder at it; for it

is the very best toned piano-forte I ever heard."

The remaining five were now to draw their cards.

"Perhaps," continued Elinor, "if I should happen

to cut out, I may be of some use to Miss Lucy Steele,

in rolling her papers for her; and there is so much still

to be done to the basket, that it must be impossible

I think for her labour singly, to finish it this evening.

I should like the work exceedingly, if she would allow

me a share in it."

"Indeed I shall be very much obliged to you

for your help," cried Lucy, "for I find there is more

to be done to it than I thought there was; and it would

be a shocking thing to disappoint dear Annamaria after all."

"Oh! that would be terrible, indeed," said Miss Steele--

"Dear little soul, how I do love her!"

"You are very kind," said Lady Middleton to Elinor;

"and as you really like the work, perhaps you will be

as well pleased not to cut in till another rubber,

or will you take your chance now?"

Elinor joyfully profited by the first of these proposals,

and thus by a little of that address which Marianne

could never condescend to practise, gained her own end,

and pleased Lady Middleton at the same time. Lucy made room

for her with ready attention, and the two fair rivals were

thus seated side by side at the same table, and, with the

utmost harmony, engaged in forwarding the same work.

The pianoforte at which Marianne, wrapped up in her own

music and her own thoughts, had by this time forgotten

that any body was in the room besides herself, was luckily

so near them that Miss Dashwood now judged she might safely,

under the shelter of its noise, introduce the interesting

subject, without any risk of being heard at the card-table.

CHAPTER 24

In a firm, though cautious tone, Elinor thus began.

"I should be undeserving of the confidence you have

honoured me with, if I felt no desire for its continuance,

or no farther curiosity on its subject. I will

not apologize therefore for bringing it forward again."

"Thank you," cried Lucy warmly, "for breaking

the ice; you have set my heart at ease by it; for I was

somehow or other afraid I had offended you by what I

told you that Monday."

"Offended me! How could you suppose so? Believe me,"

and Elinor spoke it with the truest sincerity,

"nothing could be farther from my intention than to give

you such an idea. Could you have a motive for the trust,

that was not honourable and flattering to me?"

"And yet I do assure you," replied Lucy, her little

sharp eyes full of meaning, "there seemed to me to be

a coldness and displeasure in your manner that made me

quite uncomfortable. I felt sure that you was angry with me;

and have been quarrelling with myself ever since, for having

took such a liberty as to trouble you with my affairs.

But I am very glad to find it was only my own fancy,

and that you really do not blame me. If you knew what a

consolation it was to me to relieve my heart speaking to you

of what I am always thinking of every moment of my life,

your compassion would make you overlook every thing else

I am sure."

"Indeed, I can easily believe that it was a very great

relief to you, to acknowledge your situation to me, and be

assured that you shall never have reason to repent it.

Your case is a very unfortunate one; you seem to me to

be surrounded with difficulties, and you will have need

of all your mutual affection to support you under them.

Mr. Ferrars, I believe, is entirely dependent on his mother."

"He has only two thousand pounds of his own; it would

be madness to marry upon that, though for my own part,

I could give up every prospect of more without a sigh.

I have been always used to a very small income, and could

struggle with any poverty for him; but I love him too well

to be the selfish means of robbing him, perhaps, of all that

his mother might give him if he married to please her.

We must wait, it may be for many years. With almost every

other man in the world, it would be an alarming prospect;

but Edward's affection and constancy nothing can deprive me of

I know."

"That conviction must be every thing to you;

and he is undoubtedly supported by the same trust in your's.

If the strength of your reciprocal attachment had failed,

as between many people, and under many circumstances

it naturally would during a four years' engagement,

your situation would have been pitiable, indeed."

Lucy here looked up; but Elinor was careful

in guarding her countenance from every expression

that could give her words a suspicious tendency.

"Edward's love for me," said Lucy, "has been pretty

well put to the test, by our long, very long absence

since we were first engaged, and it has stood the trial

so well, that I should be unpardonable to doubt it now.

I can safely say that he has never gave me one moment's

alarm on that account from the first."

Elinor hardly knew whether to smile or sigh

at this assertion.

Lucy went on. "I am rather of a jealous temper too

by nature, and from our different situations in life,

from his being so much more in the world than me, and our

continual separation, I was enough inclined for suspicion,

to have found out the truth in an instant, if there had been

the slightest alteration in his behaviour to me when we met,

or any lowness of spirits that I could not account for,

or if he had talked more of one lady than another,

or seemed in any respect less happy at Longstaple than he

used to be. I do not mean to say that I am particularly

observant or quick-sighted in general, but in such a case

I am sure I could not be deceived."

"All this," thought Elinor, "is very pretty;

but it can impose upon neither of us."

"But what," said she after a short silence,

"are your views? or have you none but that of waiting for

Mrs. Ferrars's death, which is a melancholy and shocking

extremity?--Is her son determined to submit to this,

and to all the tediousness of the many years of suspense

in which it may involve you, rather than run the risk

of her displeasure for a while by owning the truth?"

"If we could be certain that it would be only

for a while! But Mrs. Ferrars is a very headstrong

proud woman, and in her first fit of anger upon hearing

it, would very likely secure every thing to Robert,

and the idea of that, for Edward's sake, frightens away

all my inclination for hasty measures."

"And for your own sake too, or you are carrying

your disinterestedness beyond reason."

Lucy looked at Elinor again, and was silent.

"Do you know Mr. Robert Ferrars?" asked Elinor.

"Not at all--I never saw him; but I fancy he

is very unlike his brother--silly and a great coxcomb."

"A great coxcomb!" repeated Miss Steele, whose ear had

caught those words by a sudden pause in Marianne's music.--

"Oh, they are talking of their favourite beaux, I dare say."

"No sister," cried Lucy, "you are mistaken there, our

favourite beaux are NOT great coxcombs."

"I can answer for it that Miss Dashwood's is not,"

said Mrs. Jennings, laughing heartily; "for he is one

of the modestest, prettiest behaved young men I ever saw;

but as for Lucy, she is such a sly little creature,

there is no finding out who SHE likes."

"Oh," cried Miss Steele, looking significantly round

at them, "I dare say Lucy's beau is quite as modest

and pretty behaved as Miss Dashwood's."

Elinor blushed in spite of herself. Lucy bit her lip,

and looked angrily at her sister. A mutual silence took

place for some time. Lucy first put an end to it by saying

in a lower tone, though Marianne was then giving them

the powerful protection of a very magnificent concerto--

"I will honestly tell you of one scheme which has

lately come into my head, for bringing matters to bear;

indeed I am bound to let you into the secret, for you

are a party concerned. I dare say you have seen enough

of Edward to know that he would prefer the church to every

other profession; now my plan is that he should take

orders as soon as he can, and then through your interest,

which I am sure you would be kind enough to use out of

friendship for him, and I hope out of some regard to me,

your brother might be persuaded to give him Norland living;

which I understand is a very good one, and the present

incumbent not likely to live a great while. That would

be enough for us to marry upon, and we might trust to time

and chance for the rest."

"I should always be happy," replied Elinor, "to show

any mark of my esteem and friendship for Mr. Ferrars;

but do you not perceive that my interest on such an

occasion would be perfectly unnecessary? He is brother

to Mrs. John Dashwood--THAT must be recommendation enough

to her husband."

"But Mrs. John Dashwood would not much approve

of Edward's going into orders."

"Then I rather suspect that my interest would

do very little."

They were again silent for many minutes. At length

Lucy exclaimed with a deep sigh,

"I believe it would be the wisest way to put an end

to the business at once by dissolving the engagement.

We seem so beset with difficulties on every side,

that though it would make us miserable for a time,

we should be happier perhaps in the end. But you will

not give me your advice, Miss Dashwood?"

"No," answered Elinor, with a smile, which concealed

very agitated feelings, "on such a subject I certainly

will not. You know very well that my opinion would have

no weight with you, unless it were on the side of your wishes."

"Indeed you wrong me," replied Lucy, with great

solemnity; "I know nobody of whose judgment I think

so highly as I do of yours; and I do really believe,

that if you was to say to me, 'I advise you by all means

to put an end to your engagement with Edward Ferrars,

it will be more for the happiness of both of you,'

I should resolve upon doing it immediately."

Elinor blushed for the insincerity of Edward's

future wife, and replied, "This compliment would effectually

frighten me from giving any opinion on the subject

had I formed one. It raises my influence much too high;

the power of dividing two people so tenderly attached

is too much for an indifferent person."

"'Tis because you are an indifferent person," said Lucy,

with some pique, and laying a particular stress on those words,

"that your judgment might justly have such weight with me.

If you could be supposed to be biased in any respect

by your own feelings, your opinion would not be worth having."

Elinor thought it wisest to make no answer to this,

lest they might provoke each other to an unsuitable increase

of ease and unreserve; and was even partly determined

never to mention the subject again. Another pause

therefore of many minutes' duration, succeeded this speech,

and Lucy was still the first to end it.

"Shall you be in town this winter, Miss Dashwood?"

said she with all her accustomary complacency.

"Certainly not."

"I am sorry for that," returned the other,

while her eyes brightened at the information,

"it would have gave me such pleasure to meet you there!

But I dare say you will go for all that. To be sure,

your brother and sister will ask you to come to them."

"It will not be in my power to accept their invitation

if they do."

"How unlucky that is! I had quite depended upon

meeting you there. Anne and me are to go the latter end

of January to some relations who have been wanting us to

visit them these several years! But I only go for the sake

of seeing Edward. He will be there in February, otherwise

London would have no charms for me; I have not spirits for it."

Elinor was soon called to the card-table by the

conclusion of the first rubber, and the confidential

discourse of the two ladies was therefore at an end,

to which both of them submitted without any reluctance,

for nothing had been said on either side to make them

dislike each other less than they had done before;

and Elinor sat down to the card table with the melancholy

persuasion that Edward was not only without affection

for the person who was to be his wife; but that he had

not even the chance of being tolerably happy in marriage,

which sincere affection on HER side would have given,

for self-interest alone could induce a woman to keep a man

to an engagement, of which she seemed so thoroughly aware

that he was weary.

From this time the subject was never revived by Elinor,

and when entered on by Lucy, who seldom missed an opportunity

of introducing it, and was particularly careful to inform

her confidante, of her happiness whenever she received a letter

from Edward, it was treated by the former with calmness

and caution, and dismissed as soon as civility would allow;

for she felt such conversations to be an indulgence which

Lucy did not deserve, and which were dangerous to herself.

The visit of the Miss Steeles at Barton Park was

lengthened far beyond what the first invitation implied.

Their favour increased; they could not be spared;

Sir John would not hear of their going; and in spite

of their numerous and long arranged engagements in Exeter,

in spite of the absolute necessity of returning to fulfill

them immediately, which was in full force at the end

of every week, they were prevailed on to stay nearly two

months at the park, and to assist in the due celebration

of that festival which requires a more than ordinary

share of private balls and large dinners to proclaim

its importance.

CHAPTER 25

Though Mrs. Jennings was in the habit of spending a large

portion of the year at the houses of her children and friends,

she was not without a settled habitation of her own.

Since the death of her husband, who had traded with success

in a less elegant part of the town, she had resided every

winter in a house in one of the streets near Portman Square.

Towards this home, she began on the approach of January

to turn her thoughts, and thither she one day abruptly,

and very unexpectedly by them, asked the elder Misses

Dashwood to accompany her. Elinor, without observing

the varying complexion of her sister, and the animated look

which spoke no indifference to the plan, immediately gave

a grateful but absolute denial for both, in which she

believed herself to be speaking their united inclinations.

The reason alleged was their determined resolution

of not leaving their mother at that time of the year.

Mrs. Jennings received the refusal with some surprise,

and repeated her invitation immediately.

"Oh, Lord! I am sure your mother can spare you

very well, and I DO beg you will favour me with

your company, for I've quite set my heart upon it.

Don't fancy that you will be any inconvenience to me,

for I shan't put myself at all out of my way for you.

It will only be sending Betty by the coach, and I

hope I can afford THAT. We three shall be able to go

very well in my chaise; and when we are in town,

if you do not like to go wherever I do, well and good,

you may always go with one of my daughters. I am sure

your mother will not object to it; for I have had such

good luck in getting my own children off my hands that she

will think me a very fit person to have the charge of you;

and if I don't get one of you at least well married

before I have done with you, it shall not be my fault.

I shall speak a good word for you to all the young men,

you may depend upon it."

"I have a notion," said Sir John, "that Miss Marianne

would not object to such a scheme, if her elder sister

would come into it. It is very hard indeed that she

should not have a little pleasure, because Miss Dashwood

does not wish it. So I would advise you two, to set off

for town, when you are tired of Barton, without saying

a word to Miss Dashwood about it."

"Nay," cried Mrs. Jennings, "I am sure I shall be

monstrous glad of Miss Marianne's company, whether Miss

Dashwood will go or not, only the more the merrier say I,

and I thought it would be more comfortable for them to

be together; because, if they got tired of me, they might talk

to one another, and laugh at my old ways behind my back.

But one or the other, if not both of them, I must have.

Lord bless me! how do you think I can live poking by myself,

I who have been always used till this winter to have

Charlotte with me. Come, Miss Marianne, let us strike

hands upon the bargain, and if Miss Dashwood will change

her mind by and bye, why so much the better."

"I thank you, ma'am, sincerely thank you," said Marianne,

with warmth: "your invitation has insured my gratitude for ever,

and it would give me such happiness, yes, almost the greatest

happiness I am capable of, to be able to accept it.

But my mother, my dearest, kindest mother,--I feel the

justice of what Elinor has urged, and if she were to be

made less happy, less comfortable by our absence--Oh! no,

nothing should tempt me to leave her. It should not,

must not be a struggle."

Mrs. Jennings repeated her assurance that Mrs. Dashwood

could spare them perfectly well; and Elinor, who now

understood her sister, and saw to what indifference to

almost every thing else she was carried by her eagerness

to be with Willoughby again, made no farther direct

opposition to the plan, and merely referred it to her

mother's decision, from whom however she scarcely expected

to receive any support in her endeavour to prevent a visit,

which she could not approve of for Marianne, and which

on her own account she had particular reasons to avoid.

Whatever Marianne was desirous of, her mother would be eager

to promote--she could not expect to influence the latter

to cautiousness of conduct in an affair respecting which she

had never been able to inspire her with distrust; and she

dared not explain the motive of her own disinclination

for going to London. That Marianne, fastidious as she was,

thoroughly acquainted with Mrs. Jennings' manners,

and invariably disgusted by them, should overlook every

inconvenience of that kind, should disregard whatever

must be most wounding to her irritable feelings, in her

pursuit of one object, was such a proof, so strong,

so full, of the importance of that object to her, as Elinor,

in spite of all that had passed, was not prepared to witness.

On being informed of the invitation, Mrs. Dashwood,

persuaded that such an excursion would be productive

of much amusement to both her daughters, and perceiving

through all her affectionate attention to herself,

how much the heart of Marianne was in it, would not hear

of their declining the offer upon HER account; insisted on

their both accepting it directly; and then began to foresee,

with her usual cheerfulness, a variety of advantages that

would accrue to them all, from this separation.

"I am delighted with the plan," she cried,

"it is exactly what I could wish. Margaret and I shall

be as much benefited by it as yourselves. When you

and the Middletons are gone, we shall go on so quietly

and happily together with our books and our music! You

will find Margaret so improved when you come back again!

I have a little plan of alteration for your bedrooms too,

which may now be performed without any inconvenience

to any one. It is very right that you SHOULD go to town;

I would have every young woman of your condition in life

acquainted with the manners and amusements of London.

You will be under the care of a motherly good sort

of woman, of whose kindness to you I can have no doubt.

And in all probability you will see your brother,

and whatever may be his faults, or the faults of his wife,

when I consider whose son he is, I cannot bear to have you so

wholly estranged from each other."

"Though with your usual anxiety for our happiness,"

said Elinor, "you have been obviating every impediment

to the present scheme which occurred to you, there is

still one objection which, in my opinion, cannot be so

easily removed."

Marianne's countenance sunk.

"And what," said Mrs. Dashwood, "is my dear prudent

Elinor going to suggest? What formidable obstacle is she

now to bring forward? Do let me hear a word about the

expense of it."

"My objection is this; though I think very well of

Mrs. Jennings's heart, she is not a woman whose society

can afford us pleasure, or whose protection will give

us consequence."

"That is very true," replied her mother, "but of

her society, separately from that of other people,

you will scarcely have any thing at all, and you will

almost always appear in public with Lady Middleton."

"If Elinor is frightened away by her dislike of

Mrs. Jennings," said Marianne, "at least it need not prevent

MY accepting her invitation. I have no such scruples,

and I am sure I could put up with every unpleasantness

of that kind with very little effort."

Elinor could not help smiling at this display of

indifference towards the manners of a person, to whom she

had often had difficulty in persuading Marianne to behave

with tolerable politeness; and resolved within herself,

that if her sister persisted in going, she would

go likewise, as she did not think it proper that Marianne

should be left to the sole guidance of her own judgment,

or that Mrs. Jennings should be abandoned to the mercy

of Marianne for all the comfort of her domestic hours.

To this determination she was the more easily reconciled,

by recollecting that Edward Ferrars, by Lucy's account,

was not to be in town before February; and that

their visit, without any unreasonable abridgement,

might be previously finished.

"I will have you BOTH go," said Mrs. Dashwood;

"these objections are nonsensical. You will have much

pleasure in being in London, and especially in being together;

and if Elinor would ever condescend to anticipate enjoyment,

she would foresee it there from a variety of sources;

she would, perhaps, expect some from improving her

acquaintance with her sister-in-law's family."

Elinor had often wished for an opportunity of

attempting to weaken her mother's dependence on the

attachment of Edward and herself, that the shock might

be less when the whole truth were revealed, and now

on this attack, though almost hopeless of success,

she forced herself to begin her design by saying,

as calmly as she could, "I like Edward Ferrars very much,

and shall always be glad to see him; but as to the rest

of the family, it is a matter of perfect indifference

to me, whether I am ever known to them or not."

Mrs. Dashwood smiled, and said nothing.

Marianne lifted up her eyes in astonishment, and Elinor

conjectured that she might as well have held her tongue.

After very little farther discourse, it was finally

settled that the invitation should be fully accepted.

Mrs. Jennings received the information with a great

deal of joy, and many assurances of kindness and care;

nor was it a matter of pleasure merely to her. Sir John

was delighted; for to a man, whose prevailing anxiety

was the dread of being alone, the acquisition of two,

to the number of inhabitants in London, was something.

Even Lady Middleton took the trouble of being delighted,

which was putting herself rather out of her way;

and as for the Miss Steeles, especially Lucy, they had

never been so happy in their lives as this intelligence

made them.

Elinor submitted to the arrangement which counteracted

her wishes with less reluctance than she had expected

to feel. With regard to herself, it was now a matter

of unconcern whether she went to town or not, and when

she saw her mother so thoroughly pleased with the plan,

and her sister exhilarated by it in look, voice, and manner,

restored to all her usual animation, and elevated to more

than her usual gaiety, she could not be dissatisfied

with the cause, and would hardly allow herself to distrust

the consequence.

Marianne's joy was almost a degree beyond happiness,

so great was the perturbation of her spirits and her

impatience to be gone. Her unwillingness to quit her

mother was her only restorative to calmness; and at the

moment of parting her grief on that score was excessive.

Her mother's affliction was hardly less, and Elinor

was the only one of the three, who seemed to consider

the separation as any thing short of eternal.

Their departure took place in the first week in January.

The Middletons were to follow in about a week. The Miss

Steeles kept their station at the park, and were to quit

it only with the rest of the family.

CHAPTER 26

Elinor could not find herself in the carriage with Mrs. Jennings,

and beginning a journey to London under her protection,

and as her guest, without wondering at her own situation,

so short had their acquaintance with that lady been,

so wholly unsuited were they in age and disposition,

and so many had been her objections against such a measure

only a few days before! But these objections had all,

with that happy ardour of youth which Marianne and her mother

equally shared, been overcome or overlooked; and Elinor,

in spite of every occasional doubt of Willoughby's constancy,

could not witness the rapture of delightful expectation

which filled the whole soul and beamed in the eyes

of Marianne, without feeling how blank was her own prospect,

how cheerless her own state of mind in the comparison,

and how gladly she would engage in the solicitude of

Marianne's situation to have the same animating object

in view, the same possibility of hope. A short, a very

short time however must now decide what Willoughby's

intentions were; in all probability he was already in town.

Marianne's eagerness to be gone declared her dependence

on finding him there; and Elinor was resolved not only upon

gaining every new light as to his character which her

own observation or the intelligence of others could give her,

but likewise upon watching his behaviour to her sister

with such zealous attention, as to ascertain what he was

and what he meant, before many meetings had taken place.

Should the result of her observations be unfavourable,

she was determined at all events to open the eyes

of her sister; should it be otherwise, her exertions

would be of a different nature--she must then learn

to avoid every selfish comparison, and banish every regret

which might lessen her satisfaction in the happiness of Marianne.

They were three days on their journey, and Marianne's

behaviour as they travelled was a happy specimen of what

future complaisance and companionableness to Mrs. Jennings

might be expected to be. She sat in silence almost all

the way, wrapt in her own meditations, and scarcely ever

voluntarily speaking, except when any object of picturesque

beauty within their view drew from her an exclamation

of delight exclusively addressed to her sister. To atone

for this conduct therefore, Elinor took immediate possession

of the post of civility which she had assigned herself,

behaved with the greatest attention to Mrs. Jennings,

talked with her, laughed with her, and listened to her

whenever she could; and Mrs. Jennings on her side

treated them both with all possible kindness, was solicitous

on every occasion for their ease and enjoyment, and only

disturbed that she could not make them choose their own

dinners at the inn, nor extort a confession of their

preferring salmon to cod, or boiled fowls to veal cutlets.

They reached town by three o'clock the third day, glad to

be released, after such a journey, from the confinement

of a carriage, and ready to enjoy all the luxury of a good fire.

The house was handsome, and handsomely fitted up,

and the young ladies were immediately put in possession

of a very comfortable apartment. It had formerly

been Charlotte's, and over the mantelpiece still hung

a landscape in coloured silks of her performance,

in proof of her having spent seven years at a great school

in town to some effect.

As dinner was not to be ready in less than two

hours from their arrival, Elinor determined to employ

the interval in writing to her mother, and sat down for

that purpose. In a few moments Marianne did the same.

"I am writing home, Marianne," said Elinor; "had not you

better defer your letter for a day or two?"

"I am NOT going to write to my mother,"

replied Marianne, hastily, and as if wishing to avoid

any farther inquiry. Elinor said no more; it immediately

struck her that she must then be writing to Willoughby;

and the conclusion which as instantly followed was,

that, however mysteriously they might wish to conduct

the affair, they must be engaged. This conviction,

though not entirely satisfactory, gave her pleasure,

and she continued her letter with greater alacrity.

Marianne's was finished in a very few minutes;

in length it could be no more than a note; it was then

folded up, sealed, and directed with eager rapidity.

Elinor thought she could distinguish a large W in

the direction; and no sooner was it complete than Marianne,

ringing the bell, requested the footman who answered it

to get that letter conveyed for her to the two-penny post.

This decided the matter at once.

Her spirits still continued very high; but there

was a flutter in them which prevented their giving much

pleasure to her sister, and this agitation increased as

the evening drew on. She could scarcely eat any dinner,

and when they afterwards returned to the drawing room,

seemed anxiously listening to the sound of every carriage.

It was a great satisfaction to Elinor that Mrs. Jennings,

by being much engaged in her own room, could see little

of what was passing. The tea things were brought in,

and already had Marianne been disappointed more than once

by a rap at a neighbouring door, when a loud one was suddenly

heard which could not be mistaken for one at any other house,

Elinor felt secure of its announcing Willoughby's approach,

and Marianne, starting up, moved towards the door.

Every thing was silent; this could not be borne many seconds;

she opened the door, advanced a few steps towards the stairs,

and after listening half a minute, returned into the room

in all the agitation which a conviction of having heard

him would naturally produce; in the ecstasy of her

feelings at that instant she could not help exclaiming,

"Oh, Elinor, it is Willoughby, indeed it is!" and seemed

almost ready to throw herself into his arms, when Colonel

Brandon appeared.

It was too great a shock to be borne with calmness,

and she immediately left the room. Elinor was disappointed too;

but at the same time her regard for Colonel Brandon ensured

his welcome with her; and she felt particularly hurt that

a man so partial to her sister should perceive that she

experienced nothing but grief and disappointment in seeing him.

She instantly saw that it was not unnoticed by him,

that he even observed Marianne as she quitted the room,

with such astonishment and concern, as hardly left him

the recollection of what civility demanded towards herself.

"Is your sister ill?" said he.

Elinor answered in some distress that she was,

and then talked of head-aches, low spirits, and over fatigues;

and of every thing to which she could decently attribute

her sister's behaviour.

He heard her with the most earnest attention,

but seeming to recollect himself, said no more on the subject,

and began directly to speak of his pleasure at seeing them

in London, making the usual inquiries about their journey,

and the friends they had left behind.

In this calm kind of way, with very little interest

on either side, they continued to talk, both of them out

of spirits, and the thoughts of both engaged elsewhere.

Elinor wished very much to ask whether Willoughby were

then in town, but she was afraid of giving him pain

by any enquiry after his rival; and at length, by way

of saying something, she asked if he had been in London

ever since she had seen him last. "Yes," he replied,

with some embarrassment, "almost ever since; I have been

once or twice at Delaford for a few days, but it has never

been in my power to return to Barton."

This, and the manner in which it was said,

immediately brought back to her remembrance all the

circumstances of his quitting that place, with the

uneasiness and suspicions they had caused to Mrs. Jennings,

and she was fearful that her question had implied

much more curiosity on the subject than she had ever felt.

Mrs. Jennings soon came in. "Oh! Colonel," said she,

with her usual noisy cheerfulness, "I am monstrous glad

to see you--sorry I could not come before--beg your

pardon, but I have been forced to look about me a little,

and settle my matters; for it is a long while since I

have been at home, and you know one has always a world

of little odd things to do after one has been away for

any time; and then I have had Cartwright to settle with--

Lord, I have been as busy as a bee ever since dinner!

But pray, Colonel, how came you to conjure out that I should

be in town today?"

"I had the pleasure of hearing it at Mr. Palmer's,

where I have been dining."

"Oh, you did; well, and how do they all do at their

house? How does Charlotte do? I warrant you she is a fine

size by this time."

"Mrs. Palmer appeared quite well, and I am commissioned

to tell you, that you will certainly see her to-morrow."

"Ay, to be sure, I thought as much. Well, Colonel,

I have brought two young ladies with me, you see--that is,

you see but one of them now, but there is another somewhere.

Your friend, Miss Marianne, too--which you will not be

sorry to hear. I do not know what you and Mr. Willoughby

will do between you about her. Ay, it is a fine thing

to be young and handsome. Well! I was young once, but I

never was very handsome--worse luck for me. However, I got

a very good husband, and I don't know what the greatest

beauty can do more. Ah! poor man! he has been dead

these eight years and better. But Colonel, where have

you been to since we parted? And how does your business

go on? Come, come, let's have no secrets among friends."

He replied with his accustomary mildness to all

her inquiries, but without satisfying her in any.

Elinor now began to make the tea, and Marianne was

obliged to appear again.

After her entrance, Colonel Brandon became

more thoughtful and silent than he had been before,

and Mrs. Jennings could not prevail on him to stay long.

No other visitor appeared that evening, and the ladies

were unanimous in agreeing to go early to bed.

Marianne rose the next morning with recovered spirits

and happy looks. The disappointment of the evening before

seemed forgotten in the expectation of what was to happen

that day. They had not long finished their breakfast before

Mrs. Palmer's barouche stopped at the door, and in a few

minutes she came laughing into the room: so delighted

to see them all, that it was hard to say whether she

received most pleasure from meeting her mother or the Miss

Dashwoods again. So surprised at their coming to town,

though it was what she had rather expected all along;

so angry at their accepting her mother's invitation

after having declined her own, though at the same time

she would never have forgiven them if they had not come!

"Mr. Palmer will be so happy to see you,"

said she; "What do you think he said when he heard

of your coming with Mamma? I forget what it was now,

but it was something so droll!"

After an hour or two spent in what her mother called

comfortable chat, or in other words, in every variety of inquiry

concerning all their acquaintance on Mrs. Jennings's side,

and in laughter without cause on Mrs. Palmer's, it was

proposed by the latter that they should all accompany

her to some shops where she had business that morning,

to which Mrs. Jennings and Elinor readily consented,

as having likewise some purchases to make themselves;

and Marianne, though declining it at first was induced

to go likewise.

Wherever they went, she was evidently always on

the watch. In Bond Street especially, where much of

their business lay, her eyes were in constant inquiry;

and in whatever shop the party were engaged, her mind was

equally abstracted from every thing actually before them,

from all that interested and occupied the others.

Restless and dissatisfied every where, her sister could

never obtain her opinion of any article of purchase,

however it might equally concern them both: she received

no pleasure from anything; was only impatient to be at

home again, and could with difficulty govern her vexation

at the tediousness of Mrs. Palmer, whose eye was caught

by every thing pretty, expensive, or new; who was wild

to buy all, could determine on none, and dawdled away her

time in rapture and indecision.

It was late in the morning before they returned home;

and no sooner had they entered the house than Marianne flew

eagerly up stairs, and when Elinor followed, she found

her turning from the table with a sorrowful countenance,

which declared that no Willoughby had been there.

"Has no letter been left here for me since we went out?"

said she to the footman who then entered with the parcels.

She was answered in the negative. "Are you quite sure

of it?" she replied. "Are you certain that no servant,

no porter has left any letter or note?"

The man replied that none had.

"How very odd!" said she, in a low and disappointed

voice, as she turned away to the window.

"How odd, indeed!" repeated Elinor within herself,

regarding her sister with uneasiness. "If she had not

known him to be in town she would not have written to him,

as she did; she would have written to Combe Magna;

and if he is in town, how odd that he should neither

come nor write! Oh! my dear mother, you must be wrong

in permitting an engagement between a daughter so young,

a man so little known, to be carried on in so doubtful,

so mysterious a manner! I long to inquire; and how will MY

interference be borne."

She determined, after some consideration, that if

appearances continued many days longer as unpleasant as they

now were, she would represent in the strongest manner

to her mother the necessity of some serious enquiry into the

affair.

Mrs. Palmer and two elderly ladies of Mrs. Jennings's

intimate acquaintance, whom she had met and invited

in the morning, dined with them. The former left them

soon after tea to fulfill her evening engagements;

and Elinor was obliged to assist in making a whist table

for the others. Marianne was of no use on these occasions,

as she would never learn the game; but though her time

was therefore at her own disposal, the evening was by no

means more productive of pleasure to her than to Elinor,

for it was spent in all the anxiety of expectation and the

pain of disappointment. She sometimes endeavoured for a

few minutes to read; but the book was soon thrown aside,

and she returned to the more interesting employment

of walking backwards and forwards across the room,

pausing for a moment whenever she came to the window,

in hopes of distinguishing the long-expected rap.

CHAPTER 27

"If this open weather holds much longer," said Mrs. Jennings,

when they met at breakfast the following morning,

"Sir John will not like leaving Barton next week;

'tis a sad thing for sportsmen to lose a day's pleasure.

Poor souls! I always pity them when they do; they seem

to take it so much to heart."

"That is true," cried Marianne, in a cheerful voice,

and walking to the window as she spoke, to examine the day.

"I had not thought of that. This weather will keep many

sportsmen in the country."

It was a lucky recollection, all her good spirits were

restored by it. "It is charming weather for THEM indeed,"

she continued, as she sat down to the breakfast table

with a happy countenance. "How much they must enjoy

it! But" (with a little return of anxiety) "it cannot

be expected to last long. At this time of the year,

and after such a series of rain, we shall certainly

have very little more of it. Frosts will soon set in,

and in all probability with severity. In another day

or two perhaps; this extreme mildness can hardly last

longer--nay, perhaps it may freeze tonight!"

"At any rate," said Elinor, wishing to prevent

Mrs. Jennings from seeing her sister's thoughts as clearly

as she did, "I dare say we shall have Sir John and Lady

Middleton in town by the end of next week."

"Ay, my dear, I'll warrant you we do. Mary always

has her own way."

"And now," silently conjectured Elinor, "she will

write to Combe by this day's post."

But if she DID, the letter was written and sent away

with a privacy which eluded all her watchfulness to ascertain

the fact. Whatever the truth of it might be, and far

as Elinor was from feeling thorough contentment about it,

yet while she saw Marianne in spirits, she could not be

very uncomfortable herself. And Marianne was in spirits;

happy in the mildness of the weather, and still happier

in her expectation of a frost.

The morning was chiefly spent in leaving cards at

the houses of Mrs. Jennings's acquaintance to inform

them of her being in town; and Marianne was all the time

busy in observing the direction of the wind, watching the

variations of the sky and imagining an alteration in the air.

"Don't you find it colder than it was in the morning,

Elinor? There seems to me a very decided difference.

I can hardly keep my hands warm even in my muff. It was

not so yesterday, I think. The clouds seem parting too,

the sun will be out in a moment, and we shall have a

clear afternoon."

Elinor was alternately diverted and pained;

but Marianne persevered, and saw every night in the

brightness of the fire, and every morning in the appearance

of the atmosphere, the certain symptoms of approaching frost.

The Miss Dashwoods had no greater reason to be

dissatisfied with Mrs. Jennings's style of living, and set

of acquaintance, than with her behaviour to themselves,

which was invariably kind. Every thing in her household

arrangements was conducted on the most liberal plan,

and excepting a few old city friends, whom, to Lady

Middleton's regret, she had never dropped, she visited

no one to whom an introduction could at all discompose

the feelings of her young companions. Pleased to find

herself more comfortably situated in that particular than

she had expected, Elinor was very willing to compound

for the want of much real enjoyment from any of their

evening parties, which, whether at home or abroad,

formed only for cards, could have little to amuse her.

Colonel Brandon, who had a general invitation

to the house, was with them almost every day; he came

to look at Marianne and talk to Elinor, who often derived

more satisfaction from conversing with him than from any

other daily occurrence, but who saw at the same time

with much concern his continued regard for her sister.

She feared it was a strengthening regard. It grieved her

to see the earnestness with which he often watched Marianne,

and his spirits were certainly worse than when at Barton.

About a week after their arrival, it became

certain that Willoughby was also arrived. His card

was on the table when they came in from the morning's drive.

"Good God!" cried Marianne, "he has been here while

we were out." Elinor, rejoiced to be assured of his

being in London, now ventured to say, "Depend upon it,

he will call again tomorrow." But Marianne seemed

hardly to hear her, and on Mrs. Jenning's entrance,

escaped with the precious card.

This event, while it raised the spirits of Elinor,

restored to those of her sister all, and more than all,

their former agitation. From this moment her mind was

never quiet; the expectation of seeing him every hour

of the day, made her unfit for any thing. She insisted

on being left behind, the next morning, when the others

went out.

Elinor's thoughts were full of what might be passing

in Berkeley Street during their absence; but a moment's

glance at her sister when they returned was enough to

inform her, that Willoughby had paid no second visit there.

A note was just then brought in, and laid on the table,

"For me!" cried Marianne, stepping hastily forward.

"No, ma'am, for my mistress."

But Marianne, not convinced, took it instantly up.

"It is indeed for Mrs. Jennings; how provoking!"

"You are expecting a letter, then?" said Elinor,

unable to be longer silent.

"Yes, a little--not much."

After a short pause. "You have no confidence

in me, Marianne."

"Nay, Elinor, this reproach from YOU--you who have

confidence in no one!"

"Me!" returned Elinor in some confusion; "indeed,

Marianne, I have nothing to tell."

"Nor I," answered Marianne with energy, "our situations

then are alike. We have neither of us any thing to tell;

you, because you do not communicate, and I, because

I conceal nothing."

Elinor, distressed by this charge of reserve in herself,

which she was not at liberty to do away, knew not how,

under such circumstances, to press for greater openness

in Marianne.

Mrs. Jennings soon appeared, and the note being

given her, she read it aloud. It was from Lady Middleton,

announcing their arrival in Conduit Street the night before,

and requesting the company of her mother and cousins

the following evening. Business on Sir John's part,

and a violent cold on her own, prevented their calling

in Berkeley Street. The invitation was accepted;

but when the hour of appointment drew near, necessary as

it was in common civility to Mrs. Jennings, that they

should both attend her on such a visit, Elinor had some

difficulty in persuading her sister to go, for still

she had seen nothing of Willoughby; and therefore was

not more indisposed for amusement abroad, than unwilling

to run the risk of his calling again in her absence.

Elinor found, when the evening was over,

that disposition is not materially altered by a change

of abode, for although scarcely settled in town,

Sir John had contrived to collect around him, nearly twenty

young people, and to amuse them with a ball. This was

an affair, however, of which Lady Middleton did not approve.

In the country, an unpremeditated dance was very allowable;

but in London, where the reputation of elegance was more

important and less easily attained, it was risking too much

for the gratification of a few girls, to have it known that

Lady Middleton had given a small dance of eight or nine couple,

with two violins, and a mere side-board collation.

Mr. and Mrs. Palmer were of the party; from the former,

whom they had not seen before since their arrival in town,

as he was careful to avoid the appearance of any attention

to his mother-in-law, and therefore never came near her,

they received no mark of recognition on their entrance.

He looked at them slightly, without seeming to know

who they were, and merely nodded to Mrs. Jennings from

the other side of the room. Marianne gave one glance

round the apartment as she entered: it was enough--HE

was not there--and she sat down, equally ill-disposed

to receive or communicate pleasure. After they had been

assembled about an hour, Mr. Palmer sauntered towards

the Miss Dashwoods to express his surprise on seeing them

in town, though Colonel Brandon had been first informed

of their arrival at his house, and he had himself said

something very droll on hearing that they were to come.

"I thought you were both in Devonshire," said he.

"Did you?" replied Elinor.

"When do you go back again?"

"I do not know." And thus ended their discourse.

Never had Marianne been so unwilling to dance

in her life, as she was that evening, and never so much

fatigued by the exercise. She complained of it

as they returned to Berkeley Street.

"Aye, aye," said Mrs. Jennings, "we know the reason

of all that very well; if a certain person who shall

be nameless, had been there, you would not have been a

bit tired: and to say the truth it was not very pretty

of him not to give you the meeting when he was invited."

"Invited!" cried Marianne.

"So my daughter Middleton told me, for it seems Sir

John met him somewhere in the street this morning."

Marianne said no more, but looked exceedingly hurt.

Impatient in this situation to be doing something

that might lead to her sister's relief, Elinor resolved

to write the next morning to her mother, and hoped

by awakening her fears for the health of Marianne,

to procure those inquiries which had been so long delayed;

and she was still more eagerly bent on this measure

by perceiving after breakfast on the morrow, that Marianne

was again writing to Willoughby, for she could not suppose

it to be to any other person.

About the middle of the day, Mrs. Jennings went out by

herself on business, and Elinor began her letter directly,

while Marianne, too restless for employment, too anxious

for conversation, walked from one window to the other,

or sat down by the fire in melancholy meditation.

Elinor was very earnest in her application to her mother,

relating all that had passed, her suspicions of

Willoughby's inconstancy, urging her by every plea

of duty and affection to demand from Marianne an account

of her real situation with respect to him.

Her letter was scarcely finished, when a rap

foretold a visitor, and Colonel Brandon was announced.

Marianne, who had seen him from the window, and who hated

company of any kind, left the room before he entered it.

He looked more than usually grave, and though expressing

satisfaction at finding Miss Dashwood alone, as if he

had somewhat in particular to tell her, sat for some

time without saying a word. Elinor, persuaded that he

had some communication to make in which her sister

was concerned, impatiently expected its opening.

It was not the first time of her feeling the same kind

of conviction; for, more than once before, beginning with

the observation of "your sister looks unwell to-day,"

or "your sister seems out of spirits," he had appeared

on the point, either of disclosing, or of inquiring,

something particular about her. After a pause of several

minutes, their silence was broken, by his asking her

in a voice of some agitation, when he was to congratulate

her on the acquisition of a brother? Elinor was not

prepared for such a question, and having no answer ready,

was obliged to adopt the simple and common expedient,

of asking what he meant? He tried to smile as he replied,

"your sister's engagement to Mr. Willoughby is very generally

known."

"It cannot be generally known," returned Elinor,

"for her own family do not know it."

He looked surprised and said, "I beg your pardon,

I am afraid my inquiry has been impertinent; but I had not

supposed any secrecy intended, as they openly correspond,

and their marriage is universally talked of."

"How can that be? By whom can you have heard

it mentioned?"

"By many--by some of whom you know nothing, by others

with whom you are most intimate, Mrs. Jennings, Mrs. Palmer,

and the Middletons. But still I might not have believed it,

for where the mind is perhaps rather unwilling to

be convinced, it will always find something to support

its doubts, if I had not, when the servant let me in today,

accidentally seen a letter in his hand, directed to

Mr. Willoughby in your sister's writing. I came to inquire,

but I was convinced before I could ask the question.

Is every thing finally settled? Is it impossible to-?

But I have no right, and I could have no chance of succeeding.

Excuse me, Miss Dashwood. I believe I have been wrong

in saying so much, but I hardly know what to do, and on

your prudence I have the strongest dependence. Tell me

that it is all absolutely resolved on, that any attempt,

that in short concealment, if concealment be possible,

is all that remains."

These words, which conveyed to Elinor a direct avowal

of his love for her sister, affected her very much.

She was not immediately able to say anything, and even

when her spirits were recovered, she debated for a short

time, on the answer it would be most proper to give.

The real state of things between Willoughby and her sister

was so little known to herself, that in endeavouring

to explain it, she might be as liable to say too much

as too little. Yet as she was convinced that Marianne's

affection for Willoughby, could leave no hope of Colonel

Brandon's success, whatever the event of that affection

might be, and at the same time wished to shield her conduct

from censure, she thought it most prudent and kind,

after some consideration, to say more than she really knew

or believed. She acknowledged, therefore, that though

she had never been informed by themselves of the terms

on which they stood with each other, of their mutual

affection she had no doubt, and of their correspondence

she was not astonished to hear.

He listened to her with silent attention, and on

her ceasing to speak, rose directly from his seat,

and after saying in a voice of emotion, "to your sister

I wish all imaginable happiness; to Willoughby that he

may endeavour to deserve her,"--took leave, and went away.

Elinor derived no comfortable feelings from this

conversation, to lessen the uneasiness of her mind on

other points; she was left, on the contrary, with a

melancholy impression of Colonel Brandon's unhappiness,

and was prevented even from wishing it removed,

by her anxiety for the very event that must confirm it.

CHAPTER 28

Nothing occurred during the next three or four days,

to make Elinor regret what she had done, in applying

to her mother; for Willoughby neither came nor wrote.

They were engaged about the end of that time to attend

Lady Middleton to a party, from which Mrs. Jennings was

kept away by the indisposition of her youngest daughter;

and for this party, Marianne, wholly dispirited,

careless of her appearance, and seeming equally indifferent

whether she went or staid, prepared, without one look

of hope or one expression of pleasure. She sat by the

drawing-room fire after tea, till the moment of Lady

Middleton's arrival, without once stirring from her seat,

or altering her attitude, lost in her own thoughts,

and insensible of her sister's presence; and when at

last they were told that Lady Middleton waited for them

at the door, she started as if she had forgotten that

any one was expected.

They arrived in due time at the place of destination,

and as soon as the string of carriages before them

would allow, alighted, ascended the stairs, heard their

names announced from one landing-place to another in an

audible voice, and entered a room splendidly lit up,

quite full of company, and insufferably hot. When they had

paid their tribute of politeness by curtsying to the lady

of the house, they were permitted to mingle in the crowd,

and take their share of the heat and inconvenience, to

which their arrival must necessarily add. After some time

spent in saying little or doing less, Lady Middleton sat

down to Cassino, and as Marianne was not in spirits for

moving about, she and Elinor luckily succeeding to chairs,

placed themselves at no great distance from the table.

They had not remained in this manner long, before Elinor

perceived Willoughby, standing within a few yards

of them, in earnest conversation with a very fashionable

looking young woman. She soon caught his eye, and he

immediately bowed, but without attempting to speak to her,

or to approach Marianne, though he could not but see her;

and then continued his discourse with the same lady.

Elinor turned involuntarily to Marianne, to see whether

it could be unobserved by her. At that moment she first

perceived him, and her whole countenance glowing with

sudden delight, she would have moved towards him instantly,

had not her sister caught hold of her.

"Good heavens!" she exclaimed, "he is there--he

is there--Oh! why does he not look at me? why cannot

I speak to him?"

"Pray, pray be composed," cried Elinor, "and do

not betray what you feel to every body present.

Perhaps he has not observed you yet."

This however was more than she could believe herself;

and to be composed at such a moment was not only beyond

the reach of Marianne, it was beyond her wish. She sat

in an agony of impatience which affected every feature.

At last he turned round again, and regarded them both;

she started up, and pronouncing his name in a tone

of affection, held out her hand to him. He approached,

and addressing himself rather to Elinor than Marianne,

as if wishing to avoid her eye, and determined not to

observe her attitude, inquired in a hurried manner after

Mrs. Dashwood, and asked how long they had been in town.

Elinor was robbed of all presence of mind by such an address,

and was unable to say a word. But the feelings of her sister

were instantly expressed. Her face was crimsoned over,

and she exclaimed, in a voice of the greatest emotion,

"Good God! Willoughby, what is the meaning of this?

Have you not received my letters? Will you not shake

hands with me?"

He could not then avoid it, but her touch seemed

painful to him, and he held her hand only for a moment.

During all this time he was evidently struggling for composure.

Elinor watched his countenance and saw its expression

becoming more tranquil. After a moment's pause, he spoke

with calmness.

"I did myself the honour of calling in Berkeley

Street last Tuesday, and very much regretted that I was

not fortunate enough to find yourselves and Mrs. Jennings

at home. My card was not lost, I hope."

"But have you not received my notes?" cried Marianne

in the wildest anxiety. "Here is some mistake I am

sure--some dreadful mistake. What can be the meaning

of it? Tell me, Willoughby; for heaven's sake tell me,

what is the matter?"

He made no reply; his complexion changed and all his

embarrassment returned; but as if, on catching the eye

of the young lady with whom he had been previously talking,

he felt the necessity of instant exertion, he recovered

himself again, and after saying, "Yes, I had the pleasure

of receiving the information of your arrival in town,

which you were so good as to send me," turned hastily away

with a slight bow and joined his friend.

Marianne, now looking dreadfully white, and unable

to stand, sunk into her chair, and Elinor, expecting every

moment to see her faint, tried to screen her from the

observation of others, while reviving her with lavender water.

"Go to him, Elinor," she cried, as soon as she

could speak, "and force him to come to me. Tell him

I must see him again--must speak to him instantly.--

I cannot rest--I shall not have a moment's peace till this

is explained--some dreadful misapprehension or other.--

Oh go to him this moment."

"How can that be done? No, my dearest Marianne,

you must wait. This is not the place for explanations.

Wait only till tomorrow."

With difficulty however could she prevent her

from following him herself; and to persuade her to check

her agitation, to wait, at least, with the appearance

of composure, till she might speak to him with more privacy

and more effect, was impossible; for Marianne continued

incessantly to give way in a low voice to the misery

of her feelings, by exclamations of wretchedness.

In a short time Elinor saw Willoughby quit the room by the

door towards the staircase, and telling Marianne that he

was gone, urged the impossibility of speaking to him again

that evening, as a fresh argument for her to be calm.

She instantly begged her sister would entreat Lady

Middleton to take them home, as she was too miserable

to stay a minute longer.

Lady Middleton, though in the middle of a rubber,

on being informed that Marianne was unwell, was too

polite to object for a moment to her wish of going away,

and making over her cards to a friend, they departed

as soon the carriage could be found. Scarcely a word

was spoken during their return to Berkeley Street.

Marianne was in a silent agony, too much oppressed even

for tears; but as Mrs. Jennings was luckily not come home,

they could go directly to their own room, where hartshorn

restored her a little to herself. She was soon undressed

and in bed, and as she seemed desirous of being alone,

her sister then left her, and while she waited the return

of Mrs. Jennings, had leisure enough for thinking over

the past.

That some kind of engagement had subsisted

between Willoughby and Marianne she could not doubt,

and that Willoughby was weary of it, seemed equally clear;

for however Marianne might still feed her own wishes,

SHE could not attribute such behaviour to mistake

or misapprehension of any kind. Nothing but a thorough

change of sentiment could account for it. Her indignation

would have been still stronger than it was, had she

not witnessed that embarrassment which seemed to speak

a consciousness of his own misconduct, and prevented

her from believing him so unprincipled as to have been

sporting with the affections of her sister from the first,

without any design that would bear investigation.

Absence might have weakened his regard, and convenience

might have determined him to overcome it, but that such

a regard had formerly existed she could not bring herself

to doubt.

As for Marianne, on the pangs which so unhappy a meeting

must already have given her, and on those still more

severe which might await her in its probable consequence,

she could not reflect without the deepest concern.

Her own situation gained in the comparison; for while she

could ESTEEM Edward as much as ever, however they might be

divided in future, her mind might be always supported.

But every circumstance that could embitter such an evil

seemed uniting to heighten the misery of Marianne

in a final separation from Willoughby--in an immediate

and irreconcilable rupture with him.

CHAPTER 29

Before the house-maid had lit their fire the next day,

or the sun gained any power over a cold, gloomy morning

in January, Marianne, only half dressed, was kneeling

against one of the window-seats for the sake of all

the little light she could command from it, and writing

as fast as a continual flow of tears would permit her.

In this situation, Elinor, roused from sleep by her agitation

and sobs, first perceived her; and after observing her

for a few moments with silent anxiety, said, in a tone

of the most considerate gentleness,

"Marianne, may I ask-?"

"No, Elinor," she replied, "ask nothing; you will

soon know all."

The sort of desperate calmness with which this was said,

lasted no longer than while she spoke, and was immediately

followed by a return of the same excessive affliction.

It was some minutes before she could go on with her letter,

and the frequent bursts of grief which still obliged her,

at intervals, to withhold her pen, were proofs enough of her

feeling how more than probable it was that she was writing

for the last time to Willoughby.

Elinor paid her every quiet and unobtrusive attention

in her power; and she would have tried to sooth and

tranquilize her still more, had not Marianne entreated her,

with all the eagerness of the most nervous irritability,

not to speak to her for the world. In such circumstances,

it was better for both that they should not be long together;

and the restless state of Marianne's mind not only prevented

her from remaining in the room a moment after she was dressed,

but requiring at once solitude and continual change of place,

made her wander about the house till breakfast time, avoiding

the sight of every body.

At breakfast she neither ate, nor attempted to eat

any thing; and Elinor's attention was then all employed,

not in urging her, not in pitying her, nor in appearing

to regard her, but in endeavouring to engage Mrs. Jenning's

notice entirely to herself.

As this was a favourite meal with Mrs. Jennings,

it lasted a considerable time, and they were just setting

themselves, after it, round the common working table, when a

letter was delivered to Marianne, which she eagerly caught

from the servant, and, turning of a death-like paleness,

instantly ran out of the room. Elinor, who saw as plainly

by this, as if she had seen the direction, that it must

come from Willoughby, felt immediately such a sickness

at heart as made her hardly able to hold up her head,

and sat in such a general tremour as made her fear it

impossible to escape Mrs. Jenning's notice. That good lady,

however, saw only that Marianne had received a letter

from Willoughby, which appeared to her a very good joke,

and which she treated accordingly, by hoping, with a laugh,

that she would find it to her liking. Of Elinor's distress,

she was too busily employed in measuring lengths of worsted

for her rug, to see any thing at all; and calmly continuing

her talk, as soon as Marianne disappeared, she said,

"Upon my word, I never saw a young woman so

desperately in love in my life! MY girls were nothing

to her, and yet they used to be foolish enough; but as

for Miss Marianne, she is quite an altered creature.

I hope, from the bottom of my heart, he won't keep her

waiting much longer, for it is quite grievous to see her

look so ill and forlorn. Pray, when are they to be married?"

Elinor, though never less disposed to speak than at

that moment, obliged herself to answer such an attack

as this, and, therefore, trying to smile, replied, "And have

you really, Ma'am, talked yourself into a persuasion

of my sister's being engaged to Mr. Willoughby? I thought

it had been only a joke, but so serious a question seems

to imply more; and I must beg, therefore, that you will not

deceive yourself any longer. I do assure you that nothing

would surprise me more than to hear of their being going

to be married."

"For shame, for shame, Miss Dashwood! how can you

talk so? Don't we all know that it must be a match, that

they were over head and ears in love with each other from

the first moment they met? Did not I see them together

in Devonshire every day, and all day long; and did not I

know that your sister came to town with me on purpose

to buy wedding clothes? Come, come, this won't do.

Because you are so sly about it yourself, you think nobody

else has any senses; but it is no such thing, I can tell you,

for it has been known all over town this ever so long.

I tell every body of it and so does Charlotte."

"Indeed, Ma'am," said Elinor, very seriously,

"you are mistaken. Indeed, you are doing a very unkind thing

in spreading the report, and you will find that you have

though you will not believe me now."

Mrs. Jennings laughed again, but Elinor had not

spirits to say more, and eager at all events to know

what Willoughby had written, hurried away to their room,

where, on opening the door, she saw Marianne stretched on

the bed, almost choked by grief, one letter in her hand,

and two or three others laying by her. Elinor drew near,

but without saying a word; and seating herself on the bed,

took her hand, kissed her affectionately several times,

and then gave way to a burst of tears, which at first

was scarcely less violent than Marianne's. The latter,

though unable to speak, seemed to feel all the tenderness

of this behaviour, and after some time thus spent in

joint affliction, she put all the letters into Elinor's hands;

and then covering her face with her handkerchief,

almost screamed with agony. Elinor, who knew that such grief,

shocking as it was to witness it, must have its course,

watched by her till this excess of suffering had somewhat

spent itself, and then turning eagerly to Willoughby's letter,

read as follows:

"Bond Street, January.

"MY DEAR MADAM,

"I have just had the honour of receiving your

letter, for which I beg to return my sincere

acknowledgments. I am much concerned to find there

was anything in my behaviour last night that did

not meet your approbation; and though I am quite at

a loss to discover in what point I could be so

unfortunate as to offend you, I entreat your

forgiveness of what I can assure you to have been

perfectly unintentional. I shall never reflect on

my former acquaintance with your family in Devonshire

without the most grateful pleasure, and flatter

myself it will not be broken by any mistake or

misapprehension of my actions. My esteem for your

whole family is very sincere; but if I have been so

unfortunate as to give rise to a belief of more than

I felt, or meant to express, I shall reproach myself

for not having been more guarded in my professions

of that esteem. That I should ever have meant more

you will allow to be impossible, when you understand

that my affections have been long engaged elsewhere,

and it will not be many weeks, I believe, before

this engagement is fulfilled. It is with great

regret that I obey your commands in returning the

letters with which I have been honoured from you,

and the lock of hair, which you so obligingly bestowed

on me.

"I am, dear Madam,

"Your most obedient

"humble servant,

"JOHN WILLOUGHBY."

With what indignation such a letter as this must

be read by Miss Dashwood, may be imagined. Though aware,

before she began it, that it must bring a confession

of his inconstancy, and confirm their separation for ever,

she was not aware that such language could be suffered

to announce it; nor could she have supposed Willoughby

capable of departing so far from the appearance of every

honourable and delicate feeling--so far from the common

decorum of a gentleman, as to send a letter so impudently

cruel: a letter which, instead of bringing with his desire

of a release any professions of regret, acknowledged no

breach of faith, denied all peculiar affection whatever--

a letter of which every line was an insult, and which

proclaimed its writer to be deep in hardened villainy.

She paused over it for some time with indignant

astonishment; then read it again and again; but every

perusal only served to increase her abhorrence of the man,

and so bitter were her feelings against him, that she

dared not trust herself to speak, lest she might wound

Marianne still deeper by treating their disengagement,

not as a loss to her of any possible good but as an

escape from the worst and most irremediable of all

evils, a connection, for life, with an unprincipled man,

as a deliverance the most real, a blessing the most important.

In her earnest meditations on the contents of the letter,

on the depravity of that mind which could dictate it,

and probably, on the very different mind of a very different

person, who had no other connection whatever with the affair

than what her heart gave him with every thing that passed,

Elinor forgot the immediate distress of her sister,

forgot that she had three letters on her lap yet unread,

and so entirely forgot how long she had been in the room,

that when on hearing a carriage drive up to the door,

she went to the window to see who could be coming so

unreasonably early, she was all astonishment to perceive

Mrs. Jennings's chariot, which she knew had not been

ordered till one. Determined not to quit Marianne,

though hopeless of contributing, at present, to her ease,

she hurried away to excuse herself from attending

Mrs. Jennings, on account of her sister being indisposed.

Mrs. Jennings, with a thoroughly good-humoured concern

for its cause, admitted the excuse most readily, and Elinor,

after seeing her safe off, returned to Marianne, whom she

found attempting to rise from the bed, and whom she reached

just in time to prevent her from falling on the floor,

faint and giddy from a long want of proper rest and food;

for it was many days since she had any appetite, and many

nights since she had really slept; and now, when her

mind was no longer supported by the fever of suspense,

the consequence of all this was felt in an aching head,

a weakened stomach, and a general nervous faintness.

A glass of wine, which Elinor procured for her directly,

made her more comfortable, and she was at last able to express

some sense of her kindness, by saying,

"Poor Elinor! how unhappy I make you!"

"I only wish," replied her sister, "there were

any thing I COULD do, which might be of comfort to you."

This, as every thing else would have been,

was too much for Marianne, who could only exclaim,

in the anguish of her heart, "Oh! Elinor, I am miserable,

indeed," before her voice was entirely lost in sobs.

Elinor could no longer witness this torrent

of unresisted grief in silence.

"Exert yourself, dear Marianne," she cried,

"if you would not kill yourself and all who love you.

Think of your mother; think of her misery while YOU suffer:

for her sake you must exert yourself."

"I cannot, I cannot," cried Marianne; "leave me,

leave me, if I distress you; leave me, hate me, forget me!

but do not torture me so. Oh! how easy for those,

who have no sorrow of their own to talk of exertion! Happy,

happy Elinor, YOU cannot have an idea of what I suffer."

"Do you call ME happy, Marianne? Ah! if you knew!--And

can you believe me to be so, while I see you so wretched!"

"Forgive me, forgive me," throwing her arms round

her sister's neck; "I know you feel for me; I know what

a heart you have; but yet you are--you must be happy;

Edward loves you--what, oh what, can do away such happiness

as that?"

"Many, many circumstances," said Elinor, solemnly.

"No, no, no," cried Marianne wildly, "he loves you,

and only you. You CAN have no grief."

"I can have no pleasure while I see you in this state."

"And you will never see me otherwise. Mine is

a misery which nothing can do away."

"You must not talk so, Marianne. Have you no

comforts? no friends? Is your loss such as leaves

no opening for consolation? Much as you suffer now,

think of what you would have suffered if the discovery

of his character had been delayed to a later period--

if your engagement had been carried on for months and months,

as it might have been, before he chose to put an end to it.

Every additional day of unhappy confidence, on your side,

would have made the blow more dreadful."

"Engagement!" cried Marianne, "there has been

no engagement."

"No engagement!"

"No, he is not so unworthy as you believe him.

He has broken no faith with me."

"But he told you that he loved you."

"Yes--no--never absolutely. It was every day implied,

but never professedly declared. Sometimes I thought it

had been--but it never was."

"Yet you wrote to him?"--

"Yes--could that be wrong after all that had passed?--

But I cannot talk."

Elinor said no more, and turning again to the three

letters which now raised a much stronger curiosity

than before, directly ran over the contents of all.

The first, which was what her sister had sent him

on their arrival in town, was to this effect.

Berkeley Street, January.

"How surprised you will be, Willoughby, on

receiving this; and I think you will feel something

more than surprise, when you know that I am in town.

An opportunity of coming hither, though with Mrs.

Jennings, was a temptation we could not resist.

I wish you may receive this in time to come here

to-night, but I will not depend on it. At any rate

I shall expect you to-morrow. For the present, adieu.

"M.D."

Her second note, which had been written on the morning

after the dance at the Middletons', was in these words:--

"I cannot express my disappointment in having

missed you the day before yesterday, nor my astonishment

at not having received any answer to a note which

I sent you above a week ago. I have been expecting

to hear from you, and still more to see you, every

hour of the day. Pray call again as soon as possible,

and explain the reason of my having expected this

in vain. You had better come earlier another time,

because we are generally out by one. We were last

night at Lady Middleton's, where there was a dance.

I have been told that you were asked to be of the

party. But could it be so? You must be very much

altered indeed since we parted, if that could be

the case, and you not there. But I will not suppose

this possible, and I hope very soon to receive your

personal assurance of its being otherwise.

"M.D."

The contents of her last note to him were these:--

"What am I to imagine, Willoughby, by your

behaviour last night? Again I demand an explanation

of it. I was prepared to meet you with the pleasure

which our separation naturally produced, with the

familiarity which our intimacy at Barton appeared

to me to justify. I was repulsed indeed! I have

passed a wretched night in endeavouring to excuse

a conduct which can scarcely be called less than

insulting; but though I have not yet been able to

form any reasonable apology for your behaviour,

I am perfectly ready to hear your justification of

it. You have perhaps been misinformed, or purposely

deceived, in something concerning me, which may have

lowered me in your opinion. Tell me what it is,

explain the grounds on which you acted, and I shall

be satisfied, in being able to satisfy you. It

would grieve me indeed to be obliged to think ill

of you; but if I am to do it, if I am to learn that

you are not what we have hitherto believed you, that

your regard for us all was insincere, that your

behaviour to me was intended only to deceive, let

it be told as soon as possible. My feelings are at

present in a state of dreadful indecision; I wish

to acquit you, but certainty on either side will be

ease to what I now suffer. If your sentiments are

no longer what they were, you will return my notes,

and the lock of my hair which is in your possession.

"M.D."

That such letters, so full of affection and confidence,

could have been so answered, Elinor, for Willoughby's sake,

would have been unwilling to believe. But her condemnation

of him did not blind her to the impropriety of their

having been written at all; and she was silently grieving

over the imprudence which had hazarded such unsolicited

proofs of tenderness, not warranted by anything preceding,

and most severely condemned by the event, when Marianne,

perceiving that she had finished the letters, observed to

her that they contained nothing but what any one would

have written in the same situation.

"I felt myself," she added, "to be as solemnly

engaged to him, as if the strictest legal covenant

had bound us to each other."

"I can believe it," said Elinor; "but unfortunately

he did not feel the same."

"He DID feel the same, Elinor--for weeks and weeks he

felt it. I know he did. Whatever may have changed him now, (and

nothing but the blackest art employed against me can have done

it), I was once as dear to him as my own soul could wish.

This lock of hair, which now he can so readily give up,

was begged of me with the most earnest supplication.

Had you seen his look, his manner, had you heard his voice

at that moment! Have you forgot the last evening of our

being together at Barton? The morning that we parted

too! When he told me that it might be many weeks before

we met again--his distress--can I ever forget his distress?"

For a moment or two she could say no more;

but when this emotion had passed away, she added,

in a firmer tone,

"Elinor, I have been cruelly used; but not by Willoughby."

"Dearest Marianne, who but himself? By whom can he

have been instigated?"

"By all the world, rather than by his own heart.

I could rather believe every creature of my acquaintance

leagued together to ruin me in his opinion, than believe

his nature capable of such cruelty. This woman of whom he

writes--whoever she be--or any one, in short, but your own

dear self, mama, and Edward, may have been so barbarous

to bely me. Beyond you three, is there a creature

in the world whom I would not rather suspect of evil

than Willoughby, whose heart I know so well?"

Elinor would not contend, and only replied,

"Whoever may have been so detestably your enemy, let them

be cheated of their malignant triumph, my dear sister,

by seeing how nobly the consciousness of your own

innocence and good intentions supports your spirits.

It is a reasonable and laudable pride which resists

such malevolence."

"No, no," cried Marianne, "misery such as mine has

no pride. I care not who knows that I am wretched.

The triumph of seeing me so may be open to all the world.

Elinor, Elinor, they who suffer little may be proud and

independent as they like--may resist insult, or return

mortification--but I cannot. I must feel--I must be

wretched--and they are welcome to enjoy the consciousness

of it that can."

"But for my mother's sake and mine--"

"I would do more than for my own. But to appear

happy when I am so miserable--Oh! who can require it?"

Again they were both silent. Elinor was employed

in walking thoughtfully from the fire to the window,

from the window to the fire, without knowing that she

received warmth from one, or discerning objects through

the other; and Marianne, seated at the foot of the bed,

with her head leaning against one of its posts,

again took up Willoughby's letter, and, after shuddering

over every sentence, exclaimed--

"It is too much! Oh, Willoughby, Willoughby, could this

be yours! Cruel, cruel--nothing can acquit you. Elinor,

nothing can. Whatever he might have heard against me--

ought he not to have suspended his belief? ought he not to

have told me of it, to have given me the power of clearing

myself? 'The lock of hair, (repeating it from the letter,)

which you so obligingly bestowed on me'--That is unpardonable.

Willoughby, where was your heart when you wrote those words?

Oh, barbarously insolent!--Elinor, can he be justified?"

"No, Marianne, in no possible way."

"And yet this woman--who knows what her art may

have been?--how long it may have been premeditated,

and how deeply contrived by her!--Who is she?--Who can

she be?--Whom did I ever hear him talk of as young and

attractive among his female acquaintance?--Oh! no one,

no one--he talked to me only of myself."

Another pause ensued; Marianne was greatly agitated,

and it ended thus.

"Elinor, I must go home. I must go and comfort mama.

Can not we be gone to-morrow?"

"To-morrow, Marianne!"

"Yes, why should I stay here? I came only for

Willoughby's sake--and now who cares for me? Who regards me?"

"It would be impossible to go to-morrow. We owe

Mrs. Jennings much more than civility; and civility of

the commonest kind must prevent such a hasty removal as that."

"Well then, another day or two, perhaps; but I cannot

stay here long, I cannot stay to endure the questions

and remarks of all these people. The Middletons and

Palmers--how am I to bear their pity? The pity of such

a woman as Lady Middleton! Oh, what would HE say to that!"

Elinor advised her to lie down again, and for a

moment she did so; but no attitude could give her ease;

and in restless pain of mind and body she moved from one

posture to another, till growing more and more hysterical,

her sister could with difficulty keep her on the bed at all,

and for some time was fearful of being constrained to call

for assistance. Some lavender drops, however, which she

was at length persuaded to take, were of use; and from

that time till Mrs. Jennings returned, she continued

on the bed quiet and motionless.

CHAPTER 30

Mrs. Jennings came immediately to their room on her return,

and without waiting to have her request of admittance answered,

opened the door and walked in with a look of real concern.

"How do you do my dear?"--said she in a voice of great

compassion to Marianne, who turned away her face without

attempting to answer.

"How is she, Miss Dashwood?--Poor thing! she looks very bad.--

No wonder. Ay, it is but too true. He is to be married

very soon--a good-for-nothing fellow! I have no patience

with him. Mrs. Taylor told me of it half an hour ago,

and she was told it by a particular friend of Miss

Grey herself, else I am sure I should not have believed it;

and I was almost ready to sink as it was. Well, said I,

all I can say is, that if this be true, he has used

a young lady of my acquaintance abominably ill, and I

wish with all my soul his wife may plague his heart out.

And so I shall always say, my dear, you may depend on it.

I have no notion of men's going on in this way; and if ever

I meet him again, I will give him such a dressing as he

has not had this many a day. But there is one comfort,

my dear Miss Marianne; he is not the only young man

in the world worth having; and with your pretty face

you will never want admirers. Well, poor thing! I won't

disturb her any longer, for she had better have her cry

out at once and have done with. The Parrys and Sandersons

luckily are coming tonight you know, and that will amuse her."

She then went away, walking on tiptoe out of the room,

as if she supposed her young friend's affliction could

be increased by noise.

Marianne, to the surprise of her sister,

determined on dining with them. Elinor even advised

her against it. But "no, she would go down; she could

bear it very well, and the bustle about her would

be less." Elinor, pleased to have her governed for a

moment by such a motive, though believing it hardly

possible that she could sit out the dinner, said no more;

and adjusting her dress for her as well as she could,

while Marianne still remained on the bed, was ready

to assist her into the dining room as soon as they were

summoned to it.

When there, though looking most wretchedly,

she ate more and was calmer than her sister had expected.

Had she tried to speak, or had she been conscious of half

Mrs. Jennings's well-meant but ill-judged attentions

to her, this calmness could not have been maintained;

but not a syllable escaped her lips; and the abstraction

of her thoughts preserved her in ignorance of every thing

that was passing before her.

Elinor, who did justice to Mrs. Jennings's kindness,

though its effusions were often distressing, and sometimes

almost ridiculous, made her those acknowledgments,

and returned her those civilities, which her sister could

not make or return for herself. Their good friend saw

that Marianne was unhappy, and felt that every thing

was due to her which might make her at all less so.

She treated her therefore, with all the indulgent fondness

of a parent towards a favourite child on the last day of

its holidays. Marianne was to have the best place by the fire,

was to be tempted to eat by every delicacy in the house,

and to be amused by the relation of all the news of the day.

Had not Elinor, in the sad countenance of her sister,

seen a check to all mirth, she could have been entertained

by Mrs. Jennings's endeavours to cure a disappointment in love,

by a variety of sweetmeats and olives, and a good fire.

As soon, however, as the consciousness of all this was

forced by continual repetition on Marianne, she could

stay no longer. With a hasty exclamation of Misery,

and a sign to her sister not to follow her, she directly got

up and hurried out of the room.

"Poor soul!" cried Mrs. Jennings, as soon as she was gone,

"how it grieves me to see her! And I declare if she is

not gone away without finishing her wine! And the dried

cherries too! Lord! nothing seems to do her any good.

I am sure if I knew of any thing she would like, I would

send all over the town for it. Well, it is the oddest

thing to me, that a man should use such a pretty girl

so ill! But when there is plenty of money on one side,

and next to none on the other, Lord bless you! they care

no more about such things!--"

"The lady then--Miss Grey I think you called her--

is very rich?"

"Fifty thousand pounds, my dear. Did you ever see

her? a smart, stylish girl they say, but not handsome.

I remember her aunt very well, Biddy Henshawe; she married

a very wealthy man. But the family are all rich together.

Fifty thousand pounds! and by all accounts, it won't come

before it's wanted; for they say he is all to pieces.

No wonder! dashing about with his curricle and hunters!

Well, it don't signify talking; but when a young man,

be who he will, comes and makes love to a pretty girl,

and promises marriage, he has no business to fly off

from his word only because he grows poor, and a richer

girl is ready to have him. Why don't he, in such a case,

sell his horses, let his house, turn off his servants,

and make a thorough reform at once? I warrant you,

Miss Marianne would have been ready to wait till matters

came round. But that won't do now-a-days; nothing in the

way of pleasure can ever be given up by the young men of

this age."

"Do you know what kind of a girl Miss Grey is?

Is she said to be amiable?"

"I never heard any harm of her; indeed I hardly ever

heard her mentioned; except that Mrs. Taylor did say

this morning, that one day Miss Walker hinted to her,

that she believed Mr. and Mrs. Ellison would not be sorry

to have Miss Grey married, for she and Mrs. Ellison could

never agree."--

"And who are the Ellisons?"

"Her guardians, my dear. But now she is of age

and may choose for herself; and a pretty choice she has

made!--What now," after pausing a moment--"your poor sister

is gone to her own room, I suppose, to moan by herself.

Is there nothing one can get to comfort her? Poor dear,

it seems quite cruel to let her be alone. Well, by-and-by we

shall have a few friends, and that will amuse her a little.

What shall we play at? She hates whist I know; but is there

no round game she cares for?"

"Dear ma'am, this kindness is quite unnecessary.

Marianne, I dare say, will not leave her room again

this evening. I shall persuade her if I can to go

early to bed, for I am sure she wants rest."

"Aye, I believe that will be best for her. Let her name

her own supper, and go to bed. Lord! no wonder she has

been looking so bad and so cast down this last week or two,

for this matter I suppose has been hanging over her head as

long as that. And so the letter that came today finished it!

Poor soul! I am sure if I had had a notion of it,

I would not have joked her about it for all my money.

But then you know, how should I guess such a thing? I made

sure of its being nothing but a common love letter, and

you know young people like to be laughed at about them. Lord!

how concerned Sir John and my daughters will be when they

hear it! If I had my senses about me I might have called

in Conduit Street in my way home, and told them of it.

But I shall see them tomorrow."

"It would be unnecessary I am sure, for you to caution

Mrs. Palmer and Sir John against ever naming Mr. Willoughby,

or making the slightest allusion to what has passed,

before my sister. Their own good-nature must point out

to them the real cruelty of appearing to know any thing

about it when she is present; and the less that may ever

be said to myself on the subject, the more my feelings

will be spared, as you my dear madam will easily believe."

"Oh! Lord! yes, that I do indeed. It must be terrible

for you to hear it talked of; and as for your sister,

I am sure I would not mention a word about it to her

for the world. You saw I did not all dinner time.

No more would Sir John, nor my daughters, for they are

all very thoughtful and considerate; especially if I

give them a hint, as I certainly will. For my part,

I think the less that is said about such things, the better,

the sooner 'tis blown over and forgot. And what does

talking ever do you know?"

"In this affair it can only do harm; more so

perhaps than in many cases of a similar kind, for it

has been attended by circumstances which, for the sake

of every one concerned in it, make it unfit to become

the public conversation. I must do THIS justice to

Mr. Willoughby--he has broken no positive engagement

with my sister."

"Law, my dear! Don't pretend to defend him.

No positive engagement indeed! after taking her all

over Allenham House, and fixing on the very rooms they

were to live in hereafter!"

Elinor, for her sister's sake, could not press the

subject farther, and she hoped it was not required of her

for Willoughby's; since, though Marianne might lose much,

he could gain very little by the enforcement of the real truth.

After a short silence on both sides, Mrs. Jennings,

with all her natural hilarity, burst forth again.

"Well, my dear, 'tis a true saying about an ill-wind,

for it will be all the better for Colonel Brandon.

He will have her at last; aye, that he will. Mind me,

now, if they an't married by Mid-summer. Lord! how he'll

chuckle over this news! I hope he will come tonight.

It will be all to one a better match for your sister.

Two thousand a year without debt or drawback--except

the little love-child, indeed; aye, I had forgot her;

but she may be 'prenticed out at a small cost, and then

what does it signify? Delaford is a nice place, I can

tell you; exactly what I call a nice old fashioned place,

full of comforts and conveniences; quite shut in with great

garden walls that are covered with the best fruit-trees

in the country; and such a mulberry tree in one corner!

Lord! how Charlotte and I did stuff the only time we

were there! Then, there is a dove-cote, some delightful

stew-ponds, and a very pretty canal; and every thing,

in short, that one could wish for; and, moreover, it is

close to the church, and only a quarter of a mile from

the turnpike-road, so 'tis never dull, for if you only

go and sit up in an old yew arbour behind the house,

you may see all the carriages that pass along.

Oh! 'tis a nice place! A butcher hard by in the village,

and the parsonage-house within a stone's throw.

To my fancy, a thousand times prettier than Barton Park,

where they are forced to send three miles for their meat,

and have not a neighbour nearer than your mother.

Well, I shall spirit up the Colonel as soon as I can.

One shoulder of mutton, you know, drives another down.

If we CAN but put Willoughby out of her head!"

"Ay, if we can do THAT, Ma'am," said Elinor,

"we shall do very well with or without Colonel Brandon."

And then rising, she went away to join Marianne,

whom she found, as she expected, in her own room, leaning,

in silent misery, over the small remains of a fire,

which, till Elinor's entrance, had been her only light.

"You had better leave me," was all the notice

that her sister received from her.

"I will leave you," said Elinor, "if you will go

to bed." But this, from the momentary perverseness

of impatient suffering, she at first refused to do.

Her sister's earnest, though gentle persuasion, however,

soon softened her to compliance, and Elinor saw her

lay her aching head on the pillow, and as she hoped,

in a way to get some quiet rest before she left her.

In the drawing-room, whither she then repaired,

she was soon joined by Mrs. Jennings, with a wine-glass,

full of something, in her hand.

"My dear," said she, entering, "I have just recollected

that I have some of the finest old Constantia wine in the

house that ever was tasted, so I have brought a glass of it

for your sister. My poor husband! how fond he was of it!

Whenever he had a touch of his old colicky gout, he said

it did him more good than any thing else in the world.

Do take it to your sister."

"Dear Ma'am," replied Elinor, smiling at the difference

of the complaints for which it was recommended, "how good

you are! But I have just left Marianne in bed, and, I hope,

almost asleep; and as I think nothing will be of so much

service to her as rest, if you will give me leave,

I will drink the wine myself."

Mrs. Jennings, though regretting that she had not been

five minutes earlier, was satisfied with the compromise;

and Elinor, as she swallowed the chief of it, reflected,

that though its effects on a colicky gout were, at present,

of little importance to her, its healing powers,

on a disappointed heart might be as reasonably tried

on herself as on her sister.

Colonel Brandon came in while the party were at tea,

and by his manner of looking round the room for Marianne,

Elinor immediately fancied that he neither expected

nor wished to see her there, and, in short, that he

was already aware of what occasioned her absence.

Mrs. Jennings was not struck by the same thought;

for soon after his entrance, she walked across the room

to the tea-table where Elinor presided, and whispered--

"The Colonel looks as grave as ever you see. He knows

nothing of it; do tell him, my dear."

He shortly afterwards drew a chair close to her's,

and, with a look which perfectly assured her of his

good information, inquired after her sister.

"Marianne is not well," said she. "She has been

indisposed all day, and we have persuaded her to go to bed."

"Perhaps, then," he hesitatingly replied, "what I

heard this morning may be--there may be more truth in it

than I could believe possible at first."

"What did you hear?"

"That a gentleman, whom I had reason to think--in short,

that a man, whom I KNEW to be engaged--but how shall I

tell you? If you know it already, as surely you must,

I may be spared."

"You mean," answered Elinor, with forced calmness,

"Mr. Willoughby's marriage with Miss Grey. Yes, we DO

know it all. This seems to have been a day of general

elucidation, for this very morning first unfolded it to us.

Mr. Willoughby is unfathomable! Where did you hear it?"

"In a stationer's shop in Pall Mall, where I

had business. Two ladies were waiting for their carriage,

and one of them was giving the other an account of the

intended match, in a voice so little attempting concealment,

that it was impossible for me not to hear all. The name

of Willoughby, John Willoughby, frequently repeated,

first caught my attention; and what followed was a positive

assertion that every thing was now finally settled

respecting his marriage with Miss Grey--it was no longer

to be a secret--it would take place even within a few weeks,

with many particulars of preparations and other matters.

One thing, especially, I remember, because it served

to identify the man still more:--as soon as the ceremony

was over, they were to go to Combe Magna, his seat

in Somersetshire. My astonishment!--but it would be

impossible to describe what I felt. The communicative

lady I learnt, on inquiry, for I stayed in the shop

till they were gone, was a Mrs. Ellison, and that, as I

have been since informed, is the name of Miss Grey's guardian."

"It is. But have you likewise heard that Miss Grey

has fifty thousand pounds? In that, if in any thing,

we may find an explanation."

"It may be so; but Willoughby is capable--at least

I think"--he stopped a moment; then added in a voice

which seemed to distrust itself, "And your sister--

how did she--"

"Her sufferings have been very severe. I have

only to hope that they may be proportionately short.

It has been, it is a most cruel affliction. Till yesterday,

I believe, she never doubted his regard; and even now,

perhaps--but I am almost convinced that he never was

really attached to her. He has been very deceitful! and,

in some points, there seems a hardness of heart about him."

"Ah!" said Colonel Brandon, "there is, indeed! But

your sister does not--I think you said so--she does

not consider quite as you do?"

"You know her disposition, and may believe how eagerly

she would still justify him if she could."

He made no answer; and soon afterwards, by the removal

of the tea-things, and the arrangement of the card parties,

the subject was necessarily dropped. Mrs. Jennings, who had

watched them with pleasure while they were talking, and who

expected to see the effect of Miss Dashwood's communication,

in such an instantaneous gaiety on Colonel Brandon's side,

as might have become a man in the bloom of youth, of hope

and happiness, saw him, with amazement, remain the whole

evening more serious and thoughtful than usual.

CHAPTER 31

From a night of more sleep than she had expected,

Marianne awoke the next morning to the same consciousness

of misery in which she had closed her eyes.

Elinor encouraged her as much as possible to talk

of what she felt; and before breakfast was ready, they had

gone through the subject again and again; and with the same

steady conviction and affectionate counsel on Elinor's side,

the same impetuous feelings and varying opinions on

Marianne's, as before. Sometimes she could believe

Willoughby to be as unfortunate and as innocent as herself,

and at others, lost every consolation in the impossibility

of acquitting him. At one moment she was absolutely

indifferent to the observation of all the world, at another

she would seclude herself from it for ever, and at a third

could resist it with energy. In one thing, however,

she was uniform, when it came to the point, in avoiding,

where it was possible, the presence of Mrs. Jennings,

and in a determined silence when obliged to endure it.

Her heart was hardened against the belief of Mrs. Jennings's

entering into her sorrows with any compassion.

"No, no, no, it cannot be," she cried;

"she cannot feel. Her kindness is not sympathy;

her good-nature is not tenderness. All that she wants

is gossip, and she only likes me now because I supply it."

Elinor had not needed this to be assured of the injustice

to which her sister was often led in her opinion of others,

by the irritable refinement of her own mind, and the too

great importance placed by her on the delicacies of a

strong sensibility, and the graces of a polished manner.

Like half the rest of the world, if more than half there

be that are clever and good, Marianne, with excellent

abilities and an excellent disposition, was neither

reasonable nor candid. She expected from other people

the same opinions and feelings as her own, and she judged

of their motives by the immediate effect of their actions

on herself. Thus a circumstance occurred, while the

sisters were together in their own room after breakfast,

which sunk the heart of Mrs. Jennings still lower

in her estimation; because, through her own weakness,

it chanced to prove a source of fresh pain to herself,

though Mrs. Jennings was governed in it by an impulse

of the utmost goodwill.

With a letter in her outstretched hand, and countenance

gaily smiling, from the persuasion of bringing comfort,

she entered their room, saying,

"Now, my dear, I bring you something that I am sure

will do you good."

Marianne heard enough. In one moment her imagination

placed before her a letter from Willoughby, full of tenderness

and contrition, explanatory of all that had passed, satisfactory,

convincing; and instantly followed by Willoughby himself,

rushing eagerly into the room to inforce, at her feet,

by the eloquence of his eyes, the assurances of his letter.

The work of one moment was destroyed by the next.

The hand writing of her mother, never till then unwelcome,

was before her; and, in the acuteness of the disappointment

which followed such an ecstasy of more than hope,

she felt as if, till that instant, she had never suffered.

The cruelty of Mrs. Jennings no language, within

her reach in her moments of happiest eloquence,

could have expressed; and now she could reproach her

only by the tears which streamed from her eyes with

passionate violence--a reproach, however, so entirely

lost on its object, that after many expressions of pity,

she withdrew, still referring her to the letter of comfort.

But the letter, when she was calm enough to read it,

brought little comfort. Willoughby filled every page.

Her mother, still confident of their engagement, and relying

as warmly as ever on his constancy, had only been roused

by Elinor's application, to intreat from Marianne greater

openness towards them both; and this, with such tenderness

towards her, such affection for Willoughby, and such

a conviction of their future happiness in each other,

that she wept with agony through the whole of it.

All her impatience to be at home again now returned;

her mother was dearer to her than ever; dearer through

the very excess of her mistaken confidence in Willoughby,

and she was wildly urgent to be gone. Elinor, unable herself

to determine whether it were better for Marianne to be

in London or at Barton, offered no counsel of her own

except of patience till their mother's wishes could be known;

and at length she obtained her sister's consent to wait

for that knowledge.

Mrs. Jennings left them earlier than usual; for she

could not be easy till the Middletons and Palmers were able

to grieve as much as herself; and positively refusing

Elinor's offered attendance, went out alone for the rest

of the morning. Elinor, with a very heavy heart, aware of

the pain she was going to communicate, and perceiving,

by Marianne's letter, how ill she had succeeded in laying

any foundation for it, then sat down to write her mother

an account of what had passed, and entreat her directions

for the future; while Marianne, who came into the drawing-room

on Mrs. Jennings's going away, remained fixed at the table

where Elinor wrote, watching the advancement of her pen,

grieving over her for the hardship of such a task,

and grieving still more fondly over its effect on her mother.

In this manner they had continued about a quarter

of an hour, when Marianne, whose nerves could not then

bear any sudden noise, was startled by a rap at the door.

"Who can this be?" cried Elinor. "So early too! I

thought we HAD been safe."

Marianne moved to the window--

"It is Colonel Brandon!" said she, with vexation.

"We are never safe from HIM."

"He will not come in, as Mrs. Jennings is from home."

"I will not trust to THAT," retreating to her own room.

"A man who has nothing to do with his own time has no

conscience in his intrusion on that of others."

The event proved her conjecture right, though it

was founded on injustice and error; for Colonel Brandon

DID come in; and Elinor, who was convinced that

solicitude for Marianne brought him thither, and who saw

THAT solicitude in his disturbed and melancholy look,

and in his anxious though brief inquiry after her,

could not forgive her sister for esteeming him so lightly.

"I met Mrs. Jennings in Bond Street," said he,

after the first salutation, "and she encouraged me

to come on; and I was the more easily encouraged,

because I thought it probable that I might find you alone,

which I was very desirous of doing. My object--my

wish--my sole wish in desiring it--I hope, I believe

it is--is to be a means of giving comfort;--no, I must

not say comfort--not present comfort--but conviction,

lasting conviction to your sister's mind. My regard for her,

for yourself, for your mother--will you allow me to prove it,

by relating some circumstances which nothing but a VERY

sincere regard--nothing but an earnest desire of being

useful--I think I am justified--though where so many hours

have been spent in convincing myself that I am right,

is there not some reason to fear I may be wrong?"

He stopped.

"I understand you," said Elinor. "You have something

to tell me of Mr. Willoughby, that will open his character

farther. Your telling it will be the greatest act of friendship

that can be shewn Marianne. MY gratitude will be insured

immediately by any information tending to that end, and HERS

must be gained by it in time. Pray, pray let me hear it."

"You shall; and, to be brief, when I quitted Barton

last October,--but this will give you no idea--I must go

farther back. You will find me a very awkward narrator,

Miss Dashwood; I hardly know where to begin. A short

account of myself, I believe, will be necessary, and it

SHALL be a short one. On such a subject," sighing heavily,

"can I have little temptation to be diffuse."

He stopt a moment for recollection, and then,

with another sigh, went on.

"You have probably entirely forgotten a conversation--

(it is not to be supposed that it could make any impression

on you)--a conversation between us one evening at Barton

Park--it was the evening of a dance--in which I alluded

to a lady I had once known, as resembling, in some measure,

your sister Marianne."

"Indeed," answered Elinor, "I have NOT forgotten it."

He looked pleased by this remembrance, and added,

"If I am not deceived by the uncertainty, the partiality

of tender recollection, there is a very strong resemblance

between them, as well in mind as person. The same warmth

of heart, the same eagerness of fancy and spirits.

This lady was one of my nearest relations, an orphan from

her infancy, and under the guardianship of my father.

Our ages were nearly the same, and from our earliest years

we were playfellows and friends. I cannot remember the

time when I did not love Eliza; and my affection for her,

as we grew up, was such, as perhaps, judging from my

present forlorn and cheerless gravity, you might think me

incapable of having ever felt. Her's, for me, was, I believe,

fervent as the attachment of your sister to Mr. Willoughby

and it was, though from a different cause, no less unfortunate.

At seventeen she was lost to me for ever. She was

married--married against her inclination to my brother.

Her fortune was large, and our family estate much encumbered.

And this, I fear, is all that can be said for the

conduct of one, who was at once her uncle and guardian.

My brother did not deserve her; he did not even love her.

I had hoped that her regard for me would support her

under any difficulty, and for some time it did; but at

last the misery of her situation, for she experienced

great unkindness, overcame all her resolution, and though

she had promised me that nothing--but how blindly I

relate! I have never told you how this was brought on.

We were within a few hours of eloping together for Scotland.

The treachery, or the folly, of my cousin's maid betrayed us.

I was banished to the house of a relation far distant,

and she was allowed no liberty, no society, no amusement,

till my father's point was gained. I had depended on her

fortitude too far, and the blow was a severe one--

but had her marriage been happy, so young as I then was,

a few months must have reconciled me to it, or at least

I should not have now to lament it. This however

was not the case. My brother had no regard for her;

his pleasures were not what they ought to have been,

and from the first he treated her unkindly. The consequence

of this, upon a mind so young, so lively, so inexperienced

as Mrs. Brandon's, was but too natural. She resigned

herself at first to all the misery of her situation;

and happy had it been if she had not lived to overcome those

regrets which the remembrance of me occasioned. But can we

wonder that, with such a husband to provoke inconstancy,

and without a friend to advise or restrain her (for

my father lived only a few months after their marriage,

and I was with my regiment in the East Indies) she

should fall? Had I remained in England, perhaps--but I

meant to promote the happiness of both by removing

from her for years, and for that purpose had procured

my exchange. The shock which her marriage had given me,"

he continued, in a voice of great agitation, "was of

trifling weight--was nothing to what I felt when I heard,

about two years afterwards, of her divorce. It was

THAT which threw this gloom,--even now the recollection

of what I suffered--"

He could say no more, and rising hastily walked for a few

minutes about the room. Elinor, affected by his relation,

and still more by his distress, could not speak. He saw

her concern, and coming to her, took her hand, pressed it,

and kissed it with grateful respect. A few minutes more

of silent exertion enabled him to proceed with composure.

"It was nearly three years after this unhappy

period before I returned to England. My first care,

when I DID arrive, was of course to seek for her;

but the search was as fruitless as it was melancholy.

I could not trace her beyond her first seducer, and there

was every reason to fear that she had removed from him

only to sink deeper in a life of sin. Her legal allowance

was not adequate to her fortune, nor sufficient for her

comfortable maintenance, and I learnt from my brother that

the power of receiving it had been made over some months

before to another person. He imagined, and calmly could he

imagine it, that her extravagance, and consequent distress,

had obliged her to dispose of it for some immediate relief.

At last, however, and after I had been six months in England,

I DID find her. Regard for a former servant of my own,

who had since fallen into misfortune, carried me to visit

him in a spunging-house, where he was confined for debt;

and there, the same house, under a similar confinement,

was my unfortunate sister. So altered--so faded--worn

down by acute suffering of every kind! hardly could I

believe the melancholy and sickly figure before me,

to be the remains of the lovely, blooming, healthful girl,

on whom I had once doted. What I endured in so beholding

her--but I have no right to wound your feelings by attempting

to describe it--I have pained you too much already.

That she was, to all appearance, in the last stage

of a consumption, was--yes, in such a situation it was

my greatest comfort. Life could do nothing for her,

beyond giving time for a better preparation for death;

and that was given. I saw her placed in comfortable lodgings,

and under proper attendants; I visited her every day

during the rest of her short life: I was with her in her

last moments."

Again he stopped to recover himself; and Elinor

spoke her feelings in an exclamation of tender concern,

at the fate of his unfortunate friend.

"Your sister, I hope, cannot be offended," said he,

"by the resemblance I have fancied between her and my

poor disgraced relation. Their fates, their fortunes,

cannot be the same; and had the natural sweet

disposition of the one been guarded by a firmer mind,

or a happier marriage, she might have been all that you

will live to see the other be. But to what does all this

lead? I seem to have been distressing you for nothing.

Ah! Miss Dashwood--a subject such as this--untouched

for fourteen years--it is dangerous to handle it at all!

I WILL be more collected--more concise. She left to my care

her only child, a little girl, the offspring of her first

guilty connection, who was then about three years old.

She loved the child, and had always kept it with her.

It was a valued, a precious trust to me; and gladly

would I have discharged it in the strictest sense,

by watching over her education myself, had the nature

of our situations allowed it; but I had no family, no home;

and my little Eliza was therefore placed at school.

I saw her there whenever I could, and after the death of my

brother, (which happened about five years ago, and which

left to me the possession of the family property,) she

visited me at Delaford. I called her a distant relation;

but I am well aware that I have in general been suspected

of a much nearer connection with her. It is now three

years ago (she had just reached her fourteenth year,)

that I removed her from school, to place her under the care

of a very respectable woman, residing in Dorsetshire,

who had the charge of four or five other girls of about

the same time of life; and for two years I had every reason

to be pleased with her situation. But last February,

almost a twelvemonth back, she suddenly disappeared.

I had allowed her, (imprudently, as it has since turned

out,) at her earnest desire, to go to Bath with one of

her young friends, who was attending her father there

for his health. I knew him to be a very good sort of man,

and I thought well of his daughter--better than she deserved,

for, with a most obstinate and ill-judged secrecy,

she would tell nothing, would give no clue, though she

certainly knew all. He, her father, a well-meaning,

but not a quick-sighted man, could really, I believe,

give no information; for he had been generally confined

to the house, while the girls were ranging over the town

and making what acquaintance they chose; and he tried

to convince me, as thoroughly as he was convinced himself,

of his daughter's being entirely unconcerned in the business.

In short, I could learn nothing but that she was gone;

all the rest, for eight long months, was left to conjecture.

What I thought, what I feared, may be imagined; and what I

suffered too."

"Good heavens!" cried Elinor, "could it be--could

Willoughby!"--

"The first news that reached me of her," he continued,

"came in a letter from herself, last October.

It was forwarded to me from Delaford, and I received it

on the very morning of our intended party to Whitwell;

and this was the reason of my leaving Barton so suddenly,

which I am sure must at the time have appeared strange

to every body, and which I believe gave offence to some.

Little did Mr. Willoughby imagine, I suppose, when his

looks censured me for incivility in breaking up the party,

that I was called away to the relief of one whom he

had made poor and miserable; but HAD he known it,

what would it have availed? Would he have been less

gay or less happy in the smiles of your sister? No,

he had already done that, which no man who CAN feel

for another would do. He had left the girl whose

youth and innocence he had seduced, in a situation of

the utmost distress, with no creditable home, no help,

no friends, ignorant of his address! He had left her,

promising to return; he neither returned, nor wrote,

nor relieved her."

"This is beyond every thing!" exclaimed Elinor.

"His character is now before you; expensive, dissipated,

and worse than both. Knowing all this, as I have now

known it many weeks, guess what I must have felt on seeing

your sister as fond of him as ever, and on being assured

that she was to marry him: guess what I must have felt

for all your sakes. When I came to you last week and

found you alone, I came determined to know the truth;

though irresolute what to do when it WAS known.

My behaviour must have seemed strange to you then;

but now you will comprehend it. To suffer you all to be

so deceived; to see your sister--but what could I do?

I had no hope of interfering with success; and sometimes

I thought your sister's influence might yet reclaim him.

But now, after such dishonorable usage, who can tell what

were his designs on her. Whatever they may have been,

however, she may now, and hereafter doubtless WILL

turn with gratitude towards her own condition, when she

compares it with that of my poor Eliza, when she considers

the wretched and hopeless situation of this poor girl,

and pictures her to herself, with an affection for him so strong,

still as strong as her own, and with a mind tormented

by self-reproach, which must attend her through life.

Surely this comparison must have its use with her.

She will feel her own sufferings to be nothing. They

proceed from no misconduct, and can bring no disgrace.

On the contrary, every friend must be made still more

her friend by them. Concern for her unhappiness,

and respect for her fortitude under it, must strengthen

every attachment. Use your own discretion, however,

in communicating to her what I have told you. You must

know best what will be its effect; but had I not seriously,

and from my heart believed it might be of service,

might lessen her regrets, I would not have suffered

myself to trouble you with this account of my family

afflictions, with a recital which may seem to have been

intended to raise myself at the expense of others."

Elinor's thanks followed this speech with grateful

earnestness; attended too with the assurance of her

expecting material advantage to Marianne, from the

communication of what had passed.

"I have been more pained," said she, "by her

endeavors to acquit him than by all the rest; for it

irritates her mind more than the most perfect conviction

of his unworthiness can do. Now, though at first she

will suffer much, I am sure she will soon become easier.

Have you," she continued, after a short silence,

"ever seen Mr. Willoughby since you left him at Barton?"

"Yes," he replied gravely, "once I have. One meeting

was unavoidable."

Elinor, startled by his manner, looked at him anxiously,

saying,

"What? have you met him to--"

"I could meet him no other way. Eliza had confessed

to me, though most reluctantly, the name of her lover;

and when he returned to town, which was within a fortnight

after myself, we met by appointment, he to defend,

I to punish his conduct. We returned unwounded,

and the meeting, therefore, never got abroad."

Elinor sighed over the fancied necessity of this;

but to a man and a soldier she presumed not to censure it.

"Such," said Colonel Brandon, after a pause,

"has been the unhappy resemblance between the fate of mother

and daughter! and so imperfectly have I discharged my trust!"

"Is she still in town?"

"No; as soon as she recovered from her lying-in,

for I found her near her delivery, I removed her and her

child into the country, and there she remains."

Recollecting, soon afterwards, that he was probably

dividing Elinor from her sister, he put an end to his visit,

receiving from her again the same grateful acknowledgments,

and leaving her full of compassion and esteem for him.

CHAPTER 32

When the particulars of this conversation were repeated

by Miss Dashwood to her sister, as they very soon were,

the effect on her was not entirely such as the former

had hoped to see. Not that Marianne appeared to distrust

the truth of any part of it, for she listened to it all

with the most steady and submissive attention, made neither

objection nor remark, attempted no vindication of Willoughby,

and seemed to shew by her tears that she felt it to

be impossible. But though this behaviour assured Elinor

that the conviction of this guilt WAS carried home to

her mind, though she saw with satisfaction the effect of it,

in her no longer avoiding Colonel Brandon when he called,

in her speaking to him, even voluntarily speaking,

with a kind of compassionate respect, and though she

saw her spirits less violently irritated than before,

she did not see her less wretched. Her mind did become

settled, but it was settled in a gloomy dejection.

She felt the loss of Willoughby's character yet more heavily

than she had felt the loss of his heart; his seduction and

desertion of Miss Williams, the misery of that poor girl,

and the doubt of what his designs might ONCE have been

on herself, preyed altogether so much on her spirits,

that she could not bring herself to speak of what she felt

even to Elinor; and, brooding over her sorrows in silence,

gave more pain to her sister than could have been communicated

by the most open and most frequent confession of them.

To give the feelings or the language of Mrs. Dashwood

on receiving and answering Elinor's letter would be only

to give a repetition of what her daughters had already felt

and said; of a disappointment hardly less painful than

Marianne's, and an indignation even greater than Elinor's.

Long letters from her, quickly succeeding each other,

arrived to tell all that she suffered and thought;

to express her anxious solicitude for Marianne, and entreat

she would bear up with fortitude under this misfortune.

Bad indeed must the nature of Marianne's affliction be,

when her mother could talk of fortitude! mortifying

and humiliating must be the origin of those regrets,

which SHE could wish her not to indulge!

Against the interest of her own individual comfort,

Mrs. Dashwood had determined that it would be better for

Marianne to be any where, at that time, than at Barton,

where every thing within her view would be bringing back

the past in the strongest and most afflicting manner,

by constantly placing Willoughby before her, such as

she had always seen him there. She recommended it to

her daughters, therefore, by all means not to shorten their

visit to Mrs. Jennings; the length of which, though never

exactly fixed, had been expected by all to comprise at least

five or six weeks. A variety of occupations, of objects,

and of company, which could not be procured at Barton,

would be inevitable there, and might yet, she hoped,

cheat Marianne, at times, into some interest beyond herself,

and even into some amusement, much as the ideas of both

might now be spurned by her.

From all danger of seeing Willoughby again,

her mother considered her to be at least equally safe

in town as in the country, since his acquaintance must

now be dropped by all who called themselves her friends.

Design could never bring them in each other's way:

negligence could never leave them exposed to a surprise;

and chance had less in its favour in the crowd of London

than even in the retirement of Barton, where it might

force him before her while paying that visit at Allenham

on his marriage, which Mrs. Dashwood, from foreseeing at

first as a probable event, had brought herself to expect

as a certain one.

She had yet another reason for wishing her children

to remain where they were; a letter from her son-in-law

had told her that he and his wife were to be in town

before the middle of February, and she judged it right

that they should sometimes see their brother.

Marianne had promised to be guided by her mother's opinion,

and she submitted to it therefore without opposition,

though it proved perfectly different from what she wished

and expected, though she felt it to be entirely wrong,

formed on mistaken grounds, and that by requiring her

longer continuance in London it deprived her of the only

possible alleviation of her wretchedness, the personal

sympathy of her mother, and doomed her to such society and

such scenes as must prevent her ever knowing a moment's rest.

But it was a matter of great consolation to her,

that what brought evil to herself would bring good to

her sister; and Elinor, on the other hand, suspecting that

it would not be in her power to avoid Edward entirely,

comforted herself by thinking, that though their longer

stay would therefore militate against her own happiness,

it would be better for Marianne than an immediate return

into Devonshire.

Her carefulness in guarding her sister from ever

hearing Willoughby's name mentioned, was not thrown away.

Marianne, though without knowing it herself, reaped all

its advantage; for neither Mrs. Jennings, nor Sir John,

nor even Mrs. Palmer herself, ever spoke of him before her.

Elinor wished that the same forbearance could have extended

towards herself, but that was impossible, and she was

obliged to listen day after day to the indignation of them all.

Sir John, could not have thought it possible.

"A man of whom he had always had such reason to think well!

Such a good-natured fellow! He did not believe there was a

bolder rider in England! It was an unaccountable business.

He wished him at the devil with all his heart. He would

not speak another word to him, meet him where he might,

for all the world! No, not if it were to be by the side

of Barton covert, and they were kept watching for two

hours together. Such a scoundrel of a fellow! such

a deceitful dog! It was only the last time they met

that he had offered him one of Folly's puppies! and this

was the end of it!"

Mrs. Palmer, in her way, was equally angry.

"She was determined to drop his acquaintance immediately,

and she was very thankful that she had never been acquainted

with him at all. She wished with all her heart Combe

Magna was not so near Cleveland; but it did not signify,

for it was a great deal too far off to visit; she hated

him so much that she was resolved never to mention

his name again, and she should tell everybody she saw,

how good-for-nothing he was."

The rest of Mrs. Palmer's sympathy was shewn in procuring

all the particulars in her power of the approaching marriage,

and communicating them to Elinor. She could soon tell

at what coachmaker's the new carriage was building,

by what painter Mr. Willoughby's portrait was drawn,

and at what warehouse Miss Grey's clothes might be seen.

The calm and polite unconcern of Lady Middleton

on the occasion was a happy relief to Elinor's spirits,

oppressed as they often were by the clamorous kindness

of the others. It was a great comfort to her to be sure

of exciting no interest in ONE person at least among their

circle of friends: a great comfort to know that there

was ONE who would meet her without feeling any curiosity

after particulars, or any anxiety for her sister's health.

Every qualification is raised at times, by the

circumstances of the moment, to more than its real value;

and she was sometimes worried down by officious condolence

to rate good-breeding as more indispensable to comfort

than good-nature.

Lady Middleton expressed her sense of the affair

about once every day, or twice, if the subject occurred

very often, by saying, "It is very shocking, indeed!"

and by the means of this continual though gentle vent,

was able not only to see the Miss Dashwoods from the

first without the smallest emotion, but very soon

to see them without recollecting a word of the matter;

and having thus supported the dignity of her own sex,

and spoken her decided censure of what was wrong

in the other, she thought herself at liberty to attend

to the interest of her own assemblies, and therefore

determined (though rather against the opinion of Sir John)

that as Mrs. Willoughby would at once be a woman of elegance

and fortune, to leave her card with her as soon as she married.

Colonel Brandon's delicate, unobtrusive enquiries

were never unwelcome to Miss Dashwood. He had abundantly

earned the privilege of intimate discussion of her

sister's disappointment, by the friendly zeal with

which he had endeavoured to soften it, and they always

conversed with confidence. His chief reward for the

painful exertion of disclosing past sorrows and present

humiliations, was given in the pitying eye with which

Marianne sometimes observed him, and the gentleness

of her voice whenever (though it did not often happen)

she was obliged, or could oblige herself to speak to him.

THESE assured him that his exertion had produced an

increase of good-will towards himself, and THESE gave

Elinor hopes of its being farther augmented hereafter;

but Mrs. Jennings, who knew nothing of all this, who knew

only that the Colonel continued as grave as ever, and that

she could neither prevail on him to make the offer himself,

nor commission her to make it for him, began, at the

end of two days, to think that, instead of Midsummer,

they would not be married till Michaelmas, and by the

end of a week that it would not be a match at all.

The good understanding between the Colonel and Miss

Dashwood seemed rather to declare that the honours

of the mulberry-tree, the canal, and the yew arbour,

would all be made over to HER; and Mrs. Jennings had,

for some time ceased to think at all of Mrs. Ferrars.

Early in February, within a fortnight from the

receipt of Willoughby's letter, Elinor had the painful

office of informing her sister that he was married.

She had taken care to have the intelligence conveyed

to herself, as soon as it was known that the ceremony

was over, as she was desirous that Marianne should not

receive the first notice of it from the public papers,

which she saw her eagerly examining every morning.

She received the news with resolute composure;

made no observation on it, and at first shed no tears;

but after a short time they would burst out, and for the

rest of the day, she was in a state hardly less pitiable

than when she first learnt to expect the event.

The Willoughbys left town as soon as they were married;

and Elinor now hoped, as there could be no danger

of her seeing either of them, to prevail on her sister,

who had never yet left the house since the blow first fell,

to go out again by degrees as she had done before.

About this time the two Miss Steeles, lately arrived

at their cousin's house in Bartlett's Buildings,

Holburn, presented themselves again before their more

grand relations in Conduit and Berkeley Streets;

and were welcomed by them all with great cordiality.

Elinor only was sorry to see them. Their presence

always gave her pain, and she hardly knew how to make

a very gracious return to the overpowering delight of Lucy

in finding her STILL in town.

"I should have been quite disappointed if I had not

found you here STILL," said she repeatedly, with a strong

emphasis on the word. "But I always thought I SHOULD.

I was almost sure you would not leave London yet awhile;

though you TOLD me, you know, at Barton, that you should

not stay above a MONTH. But I thought, at the time,

that you would most likely change your mind when it came

to the point. It would have been such a great pity

to have went away before your brother and sister came.

And now to be sure you will be in no hurry to be gone.

I am amazingly glad you did not keep to YOUR WORD."

Elinor perfectly understood her, and was forced

to use all her self-command to make it appear that she

did NOT.

"Well, my dear," said Mrs. Jennings, "and how did

you travel?"

"Not in the stage, I assure you," replied Miss Steele,

with quick exultation; "we came post all the way, and had

a very smart beau to attend us. Dr. Davies was coming

to town, and so we thought we'd join him in a post-chaise;

and he behaved very genteelly, and paid ten or twelve

shillings more than we did."

"Oh, oh!" cried Mrs. Jennings; "very pretty,

indeed! and the Doctor is a single man, I warrant you."

"There now," said Miss Steele, affectedly simpering,

"everybody laughs at me so about the Doctor, and I

cannot think why. My cousins say they are sure I have

made a conquest; but for my part I declare I never think

about him from one hour's end to another. 'Lord! here

comes your beau, Nancy,' my cousin said t'other day,

when she saw him crossing the street to the house.

My beau, indeed! said I--I cannot think who you mean.

The Doctor is no beau of mine."

"Aye, aye, that is very pretty talking--but it won't do--

the Doctor is the man, I see."

"No, indeed!" replied her cousin, with affected earnestness,

"and I beg you will contradict it, if you ever hear it talked

of."

Mrs. Jennings directly gave her the gratifying

assurance that she certainly would NOT, and Miss Steele

was made completely happy.

"I suppose you will go and stay with your brother

and sister, Miss Dashwood, when they come to town,"

said Lucy, returning, after a cessation of hostile hints,

to the charge.

"No, I do not think we shall."

"Oh, yes, I dare say you will."

Elinor would not humour her by farther opposition.

"What a charming thing it is that Mrs. Dashwood can

spare you both for so long a time together!"

"Long a time, indeed!" interposed Mrs. Jennings.

"Why, their visit is but just begun!"

Lucy was silenced.

"I am sorry we cannot see your sister, Miss Dashwood,"

said Miss Steele. "I am sorry she is not well--"

for Marianne had left the room on their arrival.

"You are very good. My sister will be equally

sorry to miss the pleasure of seeing you; but she has

been very much plagued lately with nervous head-aches,

which make her unfit for company or conversation."

"Oh, dear, that is a great pity! but such old

friends as Lucy and me!--I think she might see US;

and I am sure we would not speak a word."

Elinor, with great civility, declined the proposal.

Her sister was perhaps laid down upon the bed, or in her

dressing gown, and therefore not able to come to them.

"Oh, if that's all," cried Miss Steele, "we can

just as well go and see HER."

Elinor began to find this impertinence too much for

her temper; but she was saved the trouble of checking it,

by Lucy's sharp reprimand, which now, as on many occasions,

though it did not give much sweetness to the manners

of one sister, was of advantage in governing those of

the other.

CHAPTER 33

After some opposition, Marianne yielded to her

sister's entreaties, and consented to go out with her

and Mrs. Jennings one morning for half an hour. She

expressly conditioned, however, for paying no visits,

and would do no more than accompany them to Gray's in

Sackville Street, where Elinor was carrying on a negotiation

for the exchange of a few old-fashioned jewels of her mother.

When they stopped at the door, Mrs. Jennings recollected

that there was a lady at the other end of the street

on whom she ought to call; and as she had no business

at Gray's, it was resolved, that while her young friends

transacted their's, she should pay her visit and

return for them.

On ascending the stairs, the Miss Dashwoods found

so many people before them in the room, that there was

not a person at liberty to tend to their orders; and they

were obliged to wait. All that could be done was, to sit

down at that end of the counter which seemed to promise the

quickest succession; one gentleman only was standing there,

and it is probable that Elinor was not without hope

of exciting his politeness to a quicker despatch.

But the correctness of his eye, and the delicacy

of his taste, proved to be beyond his politeness.

He was giving orders for a toothpick-case for himself,

and till its size, shape, and ornaments were determined,

all of which, after examining and debating for a quarter

of an hour over every toothpick-case in the shop,

were finally arranged by his own inventive fancy, he had

no leisure to bestow any other attention on the two ladies,

than what was comprised in three or four very broad stares;

a kind of notice which served to imprint on Elinor

the remembrance of a person and face, of strong,

natural, sterling insignificance, though adorned in

the first style of fashion.

Marianne was spared from the troublesome feelings

of contempt and resentment, on this impertinent examination

of their features, and on the puppyism of his manner

in deciding on all the different horrors of the different

toothpick-cases presented to his inspection, by remaining

unconscious of it all; for she was as well able to collect

her thoughts within herself, and be as ignorant of what was

passing around her, in Mr. Gray's shop, as in her own bedroom.

At last the affair was decided. The ivory,

the gold, and the pearls, all received their appointment,

and the gentleman having named the last day on which his

existence could be continued without the possession of the

toothpick-case, drew on his gloves with leisurely care,

and bestowing another glance on the Miss Dashwoods, but such

a one as seemed rather to demand than express admiration,

walked off with a happy air of real conceit and affected

indifference.

Elinor lost no time in bringing her business forward,

was on the point of concluding it, when another gentleman

presented himself at her side. She turned her eyes towards

his face, and found him with some surprise to be her brother.

Their affection and pleasure in meeting was just enough

to make a very creditable appearance in Mr. Gray's shop.

John Dashwood was really far from being sorry to see

his sisters again; it rather gave them satisfaction;

and his inquiries after their mother were respectful

and attentive.

Elinor found that he and Fanny had been in town

two days.

"I wished very much to call upon you yesterday,"

said he, "but it was impossible, for we were obliged

to take Harry to see the wild beasts at Exeter Exchange;

and we spent the rest of the day with Mrs. Ferrars.

Harry was vastly pleased. THIS morning I had fully intended

to call on you, if I could possibly find a spare half hour,

but one has always so much to do on first coming to town.

I am come here to bespeak Fanny a seal. But tomorrow I

think I shall certainly be able to call in Berkeley Street,

and be introduced to your friend Mrs. Jennings.

I understand she is a woman of very good fortune.

And the Middletons too, you must introduce me to THEM.

As my mother-in-law's relations, I shall be happy to show

them every respect. They are excellent neighbours to you in

the country, I understand."

"Excellent indeed. Their attention to our comfort,

their friendliness in every particular, is more than I

can express."

"I am extremely glad to hear it, upon my word;

extremely glad indeed. But so it ought to be; they are

people of large fortune, they are related to you, and

every civility and accommodation that can serve to make

your situation pleasant might be reasonably expected.

And so you are most comfortably settled in your little cottage

and want for nothing! Edward brought us a most charming

account of the place: the most complete thing of its kind,

he said, that ever was, and you all seemed to enjoy it beyond

any thing. It was a great satisfaction to us to hear it,

I assure you."

Elinor did feel a little ashamed of her brother;

and was not sorry to be spared the necessity of answering him,

by the arrival of Mrs. Jennings's servant, who came to tell

her that his mistress waited for them at the door.

Mr. Dashwood attended them down stairs, was introduced

to Mrs. Jennings at the door of her carriage, and repeating

his hope of being able to call on them the next day,

took leave.

His visit was duly paid. He came with a pretence at

an apology from their sister-in-law, for not coming too;

"but she was so much engaged with her mother, that really

she had no leisure for going any where." Mrs. Jennings,

however, assured him directly, that she should not stand

upon ceremony, for they were all cousins, or something

like it, and she should certainly wait on Mrs. John

Dashwood very soon, and bring her sisters to see her.

His manners to THEM, though calm, were perfectly kind;

to Mrs. Jennings, most attentively civil; and on Colonel

Brandon's coming in soon after himself, he eyed him with a

curiosity which seemed to say, that he only wanted to know

him to be rich, to be equally civil to HIM.

After staying with them half an hour, he asked

Elinor to walk with him to Conduit Street, and introduce

him to Sir John and Lady Middleton. The weather was

remarkably fine, and she readily consented. As soon

as they were out of the house, his enquiries began.

"Who is Colonel Brandon? Is he a man of fortune?"

"Yes; he has very good property in Dorsetshire."

"I am glad of it. He seems a most gentlemanlike man;

and I think, Elinor, I may congratulate you on the prospect

of a very respectable establishment in life."

"Me, brother! what do you mean?"

"He likes you. I observed him narrowly, and am

convinced of it. What is the amount of his fortune?"

"I believe about two thousand a year."

"Two thousand a-year;" and then working himself

up to a pitch of enthusiastic generosity, he added,

"Elinor, I wish with all my heart it were TWICE as much,

for your sake."

"Indeed I believe you," replied Elinor; "but I am

very sure that Colonel Brandon has not the smallest wish

of marrying ME."

"You are mistaken, Elinor; you are very much mistaken.

A very little trouble on your side secures him.

Perhaps just at present he may be undecided; the smallness

of your fortune may make him hang back; his friends

may all advise him against it. But some of those little

attentions and encouragements which ladies can so easily

give will fix him, in spite of himself. And there can be

no reason why you should not try for him. It is not to be

supposed that any prior attachment on your side--in short,

you know as to an attachment of that kind, it is quite

out of the question, the objections are insurmountable--

you have too much sense not to see all that. Colonel Brandon

must be the man; and no civility shall be wanting on

my part to make him pleased with you and your family.

It is a match that must give universal satisfaction.

In short, it is a kind of thing that"--lowering his voice

to an important whisper--"will be exceedingly welcome

to ALL PARTIES." Recollecting himself, however, he added,

"That is, I mean to say--your friends are all truly

anxious to see you well settled; Fanny particularly,

for she has your interest very much at heart, I assure you.

And her mother too, Mrs. Ferrars, a very good-natured woman,

I am sure it would give her great pleasure; she said as much

the other day."

Elinor would not vouchsafe any answer.

"It would be something remarkable, now," he continued,

"something droll, if Fanny should have a brother and I

a sister settling at the same time. And yet it is not

very unlikely."

"Is Mr. Edward Ferrars," said Elinor, with resolution,

"going to be married?"

"It is not actually settled, but there is such

a thing in agitation. He has a most excellent mother.

Mrs. Ferrars, with the utmost liberality, will come forward,

and settle on him a thousand a year, if the match

takes place. The lady is the Hon. Miss Morton, only daughter

of the late Lord Morton, with thirty thousand pounds.

A very desirable connection on both sides, and I have not

a doubt of its taking place in time. A thousand a-year

is a great deal for a mother to give away, to make over

for ever; but Mrs. Ferrars has a noble spirit. To give

you another instance of her liberality:--The other day,

as soon as we came to town, aware that money could

not be very plenty with us just now, she put bank-notes

into Fanny's hands to the amount of two hundred pounds.

And extremely acceptable it is, for we must live at a great

expense while we are here."

He paused for her assent and compassion; and she

forced herself to say,

"Your expenses both in town and country must certainly

be considerable; but your income is a large one."

"Not so large, I dare say, as many people suppose.

I do not mean to complain, however; it is undoubtedly

a comfortable one, and I hope will in time be better.

The enclosure of Norland Common, now carrying on,

is a most serious drain. And then I have made a little

purchase within this half year; East Kingham Farm,

you must remember the place, where old Gibson used to live.

The land was so very desirable for me in every respect,

so immediately adjoining my own property, that I felt it

my duty to buy it. I could not have answered it to my

conscience to let it fall into any other hands. A man must

pay for his convenience; and it HAS cost me a vast deal

of money."

"More than you think it really and intrinsically worth."

"Why, I hope not that. I might have sold it again,

the next day, for more than I gave: but, with regard to the

purchase-money, I might have been very unfortunate indeed;

for the stocks were at that time so low, that if I had not

happened to have the necessary sum in my banker's hands,

I must have sold out to very great loss."

Elinor could only smile.

"Other great and inevitable expenses too we have

had on first coming to Norland. Our respected father,

as you well know, bequeathed all the Stanhill effects

that remained at Norland (and very valuable they were)

to your mother. Far be it from me to repine at his

doing so; he had an undoubted right to dispose of his

own property as he chose, but, in consequence of it,

we have been obliged to make large purchases of linen,

china, &c. to supply the place of what was taken away.

You may guess, after all these expenses, how very far we

must be from being rich, and how acceptable Mrs. Ferrars's

kindness is."

"Certainly," said Elinor; "and assisted by her liberality,

I hope you may yet live to be in easy circumstances."

"Another year or two may do much towards it,"

he gravely replied; "but however there is still a great

deal to be done. There is not a stone laid of Fanny's

green-house, and nothing but the plan of the flower-garden

marked out."

"Where is the green-house to be?"

"Upon the knoll behind the house. The old

walnut trees are all come down to make room for it.

It will be a very fine object from many parts of the park,

and the flower-garden will slope down just before it,

and be exceedingly pretty. We have cleared away all the old

thorns that grew in patches over the brow."

Elinor kept her concern and her censure to herself;

and was very thankful that Marianne was not present,

to share the provocation.

Having now said enough to make his poverty clear,

and to do away the necessity of buying a pair of ear-rings

for each of his sisters, in his next visit at Gray's

his thoughts took a cheerfuller turn, and he began to

congratulate Elinor on having such a friend as Mrs. Jennings.

"She seems a most valuable woman indeed--Her house,

her style of living, all bespeak an exceeding good income;

and it is an acquaintance that has not only been

of great use to you hitherto, but in the end may prove

materially advantageous.--Her inviting you to town is

certainly a vast thing in your favour; and indeed, it

speaks altogether so great a regard for you, that in all

probability when she dies you will not be forgotten.--

She must have a great deal to leave."

"Nothing at all, I should rather suppose; for she has

only her jointure, which will descend to her children."

"But it is not to be imagined that she lives up to

her income. Few people of common prudence will do THAT;

and whatever she saves, she will be able to dispose of."

"And do you not think it more likely that she

should leave it to her daughters, than to us?"

"Her daughters are both exceedingly well married,

and therefore I cannot perceive the necessity of her

remembering them farther. Whereas, in my opinion, by her

taking so much notice of you, and treating you in this

kind of way, she has given you a sort of claim on her

future consideration, which a conscientious woman would

not disregard. Nothing can be kinder than her behaviour;

and she can hardly do all this, without being aware

of the expectation it raises."

"But she raises none in those most concerned.

Indeed, brother, your anxiety for our welfare and prosperity

carries you too far."

"Why, to be sure," said he, seeming to recollect himself,

"people have little, have very little in their power.

But, my dear Elinor, what is the matter with Marianne?--

she looks very unwell, has lost her colour, and is grown

quite thin. Is she ill?"

"She is not well, she has had a nervous complaint

on her for several weeks."

"I am sorry for that. At her time of life,

any thing of an illness destroys the bloom for ever!

Her's has been a very short one! She was as handsome a girl

last September, as I ever saw; and as likely to attract

the man. There was something in her style of beauty,

to please them particularly. I remember Fanny used to say

that she would marry sooner and better than you did;

not but what she is exceedingly fond of YOU, but so it

happened to strike her. She will be mistaken, however.

I question whether Marianne NOW, will marry a man worth

more than five or six hundred a-year, at the utmost,

and I am very much deceived if YOU do not do better.

Dorsetshire! I know very little of Dorsetshire; but, my dear

Elinor, I shall be exceedingly glad to know more of it;

and I think I can answer for your having Fanny and myself

among the earliest and best pleased of your visitors."

Elinor tried very seriously to convince him that

there was no likelihood of her marrying Colonel Brandon;

but it was an expectation of too much pleasure to himself

to be relinquished, and he was really resolved on seeking

an intimacy with that gentleman, and promoting the marriage

by every possible attention. He had just compunction

enough for having done nothing for his sisters himself,

to be exceedingly anxious that everybody else should

do a great deal; and an offer from Colonel Brandon,

or a legacy from Mrs. Jennings, was the easiest means

of atoning for his own neglect.

They were lucky enough to find Lady Middleton

at home, and Sir John came in before their visit ended.

Abundance of civilities passed on all sides. Sir John

was ready to like anybody, and though Mr. Dashwood did

not seem to know much about horses, he soon set him

down as a very good-natured fellow: while Lady Middleton

saw enough of fashion in his appearance to think his

acquaintance worth having; and Mr. Dashwood went away

delighted with both.

"I shall have a charming account to carry

to Fanny," said he, as he walked back with his sister.

"Lady Middleton is really a most elegant woman! Such

a woman as I am sure Fanny will be glad to know.

And Mrs. Jennings too, an exceedingly well-behaved woman,

though not so elegant as her daughter. Your sister need

not have any scruple even of visiting HER, which, to say

the truth, has been a little the case, and very naturally;

for we only knew that Mrs. Jennings was the widow of a man

who had got all his money in a low way; and Fanny and

Mrs. Ferrars were both strongly prepossessed, that neither

she nor her daughters were such kind of women as Fanny

would like to associate with. But now I can carry her

a most satisfactory account of both."

CHAPTER 34

Mrs. John Dashwood had so much confidence in her

husband's judgment, that she waited the very next day

both on Mrs. Jennings and her daughter; and her

confidence was rewarded by finding even the former,

even the woman with whom her sisters were staying,

by no means unworthy her notice; and as for Lady Middleton,

she found her one of the most charming women in the world!

Lady Middleton was equally pleased with Mrs. Dashwood.

There was a kind of cold hearted selfishness on both sides,

which mutually attracted them; and they sympathised

with each other in an insipid propriety of demeanor,

and a general want of understanding.

The same manners, however, which recommended Mrs. John

Dashwood to the good opinion of Lady Middleton did not suit

the fancy of Mrs. Jennings, and to HER she appeared nothing

more than a little proud-looking woman of uncordial address,

who met her husband's sisters without any affection,

and almost without having anything to say to them;

for of the quarter of an hour bestowed on Berkeley Street,

she sat at least seven minutes and a half in silence.

Elinor wanted very much to know, though she did

not chuse to ask, whether Edward was then in town;

but nothing would have induced Fanny voluntarily

to mention his name before her, till able to tell her

that his marriage with Miss Morton was resolved on,

or till her husband's expectations on Colonel Brandon

were answered; because she believed them still so very

much attached to each other, that they could not be too

sedulously divided in word and deed on every occasion.

The intelligence however, which SHE would not give,

soon flowed from another quarter. Lucy came very shortly

to claim Elinor's compassion on being unable to see Edward,

though he had arrived in town with Mr. and Mrs. Dashwood.

He dared not come to Bartlett's Buildings for fear

of detection, and though their mutual impatience to meet,

was not to be told, they could do nothing at present

but write.

Edward assured them himself of his being in town,

within a very short time, by twice calling in Berkeley Street.

Twice was his card found on the table, when they returned

from their morning's engagements. Elinor was pleased

that he had called; and still more pleased that she had

missed him.

The Dashwoods were so prodigiously delighted

with the Middletons, that, though not much in the habit

of giving anything, they determined to give them--

a dinner; and soon after their acquaintance began,

invited them to dine in Harley Street, where they had

taken a very good house for three months. Their sisters

and Mrs. Jennings were invited likewise, and John Dashwood

was careful to secure Colonel Brandon, who, always glad

to be where the Miss Dashwoods were, received his eager

civilities with some surprise, but much more pleasure.

They were to meet Mrs. Ferrars; but Elinor could not learn

whether her sons were to be of the party. The expectation

of seeing HER, however, was enough to make her interested

in the engagement; for though she could now meet Edward's

mother without that strong anxiety which had once promised

to attend such an introduction, though she could now see

her with perfect indifference as to her opinion of herself,

her desire of being in company with Mrs. Ferrars,

her curiosity to know what she was like, was as lively as ever.

The interest with which she thus anticipated the

party, was soon afterwards increased, more powerfully

than pleasantly, by her hearing that the Miss Steeles

were also to be at it.

So well had they recommended themselves to Lady Middleton,

so agreeable had their assiduities made them to her,

that though Lucy was certainly not so elegant, and her

sister not even genteel, she was as ready as Sir John

to ask them to spend a week or two in Conduit Street;

and it happened to be particularly convenient to the Miss

Steeles, as soon as the Dashwoods' invitation was known,

that their visit should begin a few days before the party

took place.

Their claims to the notice of Mrs. John Dashwood,

as the nieces of the gentleman who for many years had

had the care of her brother, might not have done much,

however, towards procuring them seats at her table;

but as Lady Middleton's guests they must be welcome; and Lucy,

who had long wanted to be personally known to the family,

to have a nearer view of their characters and her own

difficulties, and to have an opportunity of endeavouring

to please them, had seldom been happier in her life,

than she was on receiving Mrs. John Dashwood's card.

On Elinor its effect was very different. She began

immediately to determine, that Edward who lived with

his mother, must be asked as his mother was, to a party

given by his sister; and to see him for the first time,

after all that passed, in the company of Lucy!--she hardly

knew how she could bear it!

These apprehensions, perhaps, were not founded

entirely on reason, and certainly not at all on truth.

They were relieved however, not by her own recollection,

but by the good will of Lucy, who believed herself to be

inflicting a severe disappointment when she told her

that Edward certainly would not be in Harley Street on Tuesday,

and even hoped to be carrying the pain still farther

by persuading her that he was kept away by the extreme

affection for herself, which he could not conceal when they

were together.

The important Tuesday came that was to introduce

the two young ladies to this formidable mother-in-law.

"Pity me, dear Miss Dashwood!" said Lucy, as they

walked up the stairs together--for the Middletons arrived

so directly after Mrs. Jennings, that they all followed

the servant at the same time--"There is nobody here but

you, that can feel for me.--I declare I can hardly stand.

Good gracious!--In a moment I shall see the person that all

my happiness depends on--that is to be my mother!"--

Elinor could have given her immediate relief

by suggesting the possibility of its being Miss Morton's mother,

rather than her own, whom they were about to behold;

but instead of doing that, she assured her, and with

great sincerity, that she did pity her--to the utter

amazement of Lucy, who, though really uncomfortable herself,

hoped at least to be an object of irrepressible envy to Elinor.

Mrs. Ferrars was a little, thin woman, upright,

even to formality, in her figure, and serious,

even to sourness, in her aspect. Her complexion was sallow;

and her features small, without beauty, and naturally

without expression; but a lucky contraction of the brow

had rescued her countenance from the disgrace of insipidity,

by giving it the strong characters of pride and ill nature.

She was not a woman of many words; for, unlike people

in general, she proportioned them to the number of

her ideas; and of the few syllables that did escape her,

not one fell to the share of Miss Dashwood, whom she eyed

with the spirited determination of disliking her at all events.

Elinor could not NOW be made unhappy by this behaviour.--

A few months ago it would have hurt her exceedingly; but it

was not in Mrs. Ferrars' power to distress her by it now;--

and the difference of her manners to the Miss Steeles,

a difference which seemed purposely made to humble her more,

only amused her. She could not but smile to see the graciousness

of both mother and daughter towards the very person--

for Lucy was particularly distinguished--whom of all others,

had they known as much as she did, they would have been most

anxious to mortify; while she herself, who had comparatively

no power to wound them, sat pointedly slighted by both.

But while she smiled at a graciousness so misapplied,

she could not reflect on the mean-spirited folly from

which it sprung, nor observe the studied attentions

with which the Miss Steeles courted its continuance,

without thoroughly despising them all four.

Lucy was all exultation on being so honorably

distinguished; and Miss Steele wanted only to be teazed

about Dr. Davies to be perfectly happy.

The dinner was a grand one, the servants were numerous,

and every thing bespoke the Mistress's inclination

for show, and the Master's ability to support it.

In spite of the improvements and additions which were

making to the Norland estate, and in spite of its owner

having once been within some thousand pounds of being

obliged to sell out at a loss, nothing gave any symptom

of that indigence which he had tried to infer from it;--

no poverty of any kind, except of conversation, appeared--

but there, the deficiency was considerable. John Dashwood

had not much to say for himself that was worth hearing,

and his wife had still less. But there was no peculiar

disgrace in this; for it was very much the case with

the chief of their visitors, who almost all laboured

under one or other of these disqualifications for being

agreeable--Want of sense, either natural or improved--want

of elegance--want of spirits--or want of temper.

When the ladies withdrew to the drawing-room

after dinner, this poverty was particularly evident,

for the gentlemen HAD supplied the discourse with some

variety--the variety of politics, inclosing land,

and breaking horses--but then it was all over; and one

subject only engaged the ladies till coffee came in,

which was the comparative heights of Harry Dashwood,

and Lady Middleton's second son William, who were nearly

of the same age.

Had both the children been there, the affair might

have been determined too easily by measuring them at once;

but as Harry only was present, it was all conjectural

assertion on both sides; and every body had a right to

be equally positive in their opinion, and to repeat it

over and over again as often as they liked.

The parties stood thus:

The two mothers, though each really convinced that

her own son was the tallest, politely decided in favour

of the other.

The two grandmothers, with not less partiality,

but more sincerity, were equally earnest in support

of their own descendant.

Lucy, who was hardly less anxious to please one parent

than the other, thought the boys were both remarkably tall

for their age, and could not conceive that there could

be the smallest difference in the world between them;

and Miss Steele, with yet greater address gave it,

as fast as she could, in favour of each.

Elinor, having once delivered her opinion on

William's side, by which she offended Mrs. Ferrars and

Fanny still more, did not see the necessity of enforcing

it by any farther assertion; and Marianne, when called

on for her's, offended them all, by declaring that she

had no opinion to give, as she had never thought about it.

Before her removing from Norland, Elinor had painted

a very pretty pair of screens for her sister-in-law,

which being now just mounted and brought home,

ornamented her present drawing room; and these screens,

catching the eye of John Dashwood on his following

the other gentlemen into the room, were officiously

handed by him to Colonel Brandon for his admiration.

"These are done by my eldest sister," said he; "and you,

as a man of taste, will, I dare say, be pleased with them.

I do not know whether you have ever happened to see any

of her performances before, but she is in general reckoned

to draw extremely well."

The Colonel, though disclaiming all pretensions

to connoisseurship, warmly admired the screens, as he

would have done any thing painted by Miss Dashwood;

and on the curiosity of the others being of course excited,

they were handed round for general inspection.

Mrs. Ferrars, not aware of their being Elinor's work,

particularly requested to look at them; and after they had

received gratifying testimony of Lady Middletons's approbation,

Fanny presented them to her mother, considerately informing

her, at the same time, that they were done by Miss Dashwood.

"Hum"--said Mrs. Ferrars--"very pretty,"--and without

regarding them at all, returned them to her daughter.

Perhaps Fanny thought for a moment that her mother

had been quite rude enough,--for, colouring a little,

she immediately said,

"They are very pretty, ma'am--an't they?" But then again,

the dread of having been too civil, too encouraging herself,

probably came over her, for she presently added,

"Do you not think they are something in Miss

Morton's style of painting, Ma'am?--She DOES paint most

delightfully!--How beautifully her last landscape is done!"

"Beautifully indeed! But SHE does every thing well."

Marianne could not bear this.--She was already

greatly displeased with Mrs. Ferrars; and such ill-timed

praise of another, at Elinor's expense, though she

had not any notion of what was principally meant by it,

provoked her immediately to say with warmth,

"This is admiration of a very particular kind!--

what is Miss Morton to us?--who knows, or who cares,

for her?--it is Elinor of whom WE think and speak."

And so saying, she took the screens out of her

sister-in-law's hands, to admire them herself as they

ought to be admired.

Mrs. Ferrars looked exceedingly angry, and drawing

herself up more stiffly than ever, pronounced in retort

this bitter philippic, "Miss Morton is Lord Morton's daughter."

Fanny looked very angry too, and her husband was

all in a fright at his sister's audacity. Elinor was

much more hurt by Marianne's warmth than she had been

by what produced it; but Colonel Brandon's eyes, as they

were fixed on Marianne, declared that he noticed only

what was amiable in it, the affectionate heart which could

not bear to see a sister slighted in the smallest point.

Marianne's feelings did not stop here. The cold

insolence of Mrs. Ferrars's general behaviour to her sister,

seemed, to her, to foretell such difficulties and distresses

to Elinor, as her own wounded heart taught her to think

of with horror; and urged by a strong impulse of

affectionate sensibility, she moved after a moment,

to her sister's chair, and putting one arm round her neck,

and one cheek close to hers, said in a low, but eager,

voice,

"Dear, dear Elinor, don't mind them. Don't let them

make YOU unhappy."

She could say no more; her spirits were quite overcome,

and hiding her face on Elinor's shoulder, she burst

into tears. Every body's attention was called, and almost

every body was concerned.--Colonel Brandon rose up and went

to them without knowing what he did.--Mrs. Jennings,

with a very intelligent "Ah! poor dear," immediately gave

her her salts; and Sir John felt so desperately enraged

against the author of this nervous distress, that he

instantly changed his seat to one close by Lucy Steele,

and gave her, in a whisper, a brief account of the whole

shocking affair.

In a few minutes, however, Marianne was recovered

enough to put an end to the bustle, and sit down among

the rest; though her spirits retained the impression

of what had passed, the whole evening.

"Poor Marianne!" said her brother to Colonel Brandon,

in a low voice, as soon as he could secure his attention,--

"She has not such good health as her sister,--she is very

nervous,--she has not Elinor's constitution;--and one must

allow that there is something very trying to a young woman

who HAS BEEN a beauty in the loss of her personal attractions.

You would not think it perhaps, but Marianne WAS remarkably

handsome a few months ago; quite as handsome as Elinor.--

Now you see it is all gone."

CHAPTER 35

Elinor's curiosity to see Mrs. Ferrars was satisfied.--

She had found in her every thing that could tend to make

a farther connection between the families undesirable.--

She had seen enough of her pride, her meanness, and her

determined prejudice against herself, to comprehend all

the difficulties that must have perplexed the engagement,

and retarded the marriage, of Edward and herself, had he been

otherwise free;--and she had seen almost enough to be thankful

for her OWN sake, that one greater obstacle preserved her

from suffering under any other of Mrs. Ferrars's creation,

preserved her from all dependence upon her caprice, or any

solicitude for her good opinion. Or at least, if she did not

bring herself quite to rejoice in Edward's being fettered

to Lucy, she determined, that had Lucy been more amiable,

she OUGHT to have rejoiced.

She wondered that Lucy's spirits could be so very much

elevated by the civility of Mrs. Ferrars;--that her interest

and her vanity should so very much blind her as to make

the attention which seemed only paid her because she was

NOT ELINOR, appear a compliment to herself--or to allow

her to derive encouragement from a preference only given her,

because her real situation was unknown. But that it was so,

had not only been declared by Lucy's eyes at the time,

but was declared over again the next morning more openly,

for at her particular desire, Lady Middleton set her down

in Berkeley Street on the chance of seeing Elinor alone,

to tell her how happy she was.

The chance proved a lucky one, for a message from

Mrs. Palmer soon after she arrived, carried Mrs. Jennings away.

"My dear friend," cried Lucy, as soon as they were

by themselves, "I come to talk to you of my happiness.

Could anything be so flattering as Mrs. Ferrars's way

of treating me yesterday? So exceeding affable as she

was!--You know how I dreaded the thoughts of seeing her;--

but the very moment I was introduced, there was such an

affability in her behaviour as really should seem to say,

she had quite took a fancy to me. Now was not it so?--

You saw it all; and was not you quite struck with it?"

"She was certainly very civil to you."

"Civil!--Did you see nothing but only civility?--

I saw a vast deal more. Such kindness as fell to the share

of nobody but me!--No pride, no hauteur, and your sister

just the same--all sweetness and affability!"

Elinor wished to talk of something else, but Lucy still

pressed her to own that she had reason for her happiness;

and Elinor was obliged to go on.--

"Undoubtedly, if they had known your engagement,"

said she, "nothing could be more flattering than their

treatment of you;--but as that was not the case"--

"I guessed you would say so"--replied Lucy

quickly--"but there was no reason in the world why

Mrs. Ferrars should seem to like me, if she did not,

and her liking me is every thing. You shan't talk me

out of my satisfaction. I am sure it will all end well,

and there will be no difficulties at all, to what I

used to think. Mrs. Ferrars is a charming woman,

and so is your sister. They are both delightful women,

indeed!--I wonder I should never hear you say how agreeable

Mrs. Dashwood was!"

To this Elinor had no answer to make, and did not

attempt any.

"Are you ill, Miss Dashwood?--you seem low--you

don't speak;--sure you an't well."

"I never was in better health."

"I am glad of it with all my heart; but really you did

not look it. I should be sorry to have YOU ill; you, that have

been the greatest comfort to me in the world!--Heaven

knows what I should have done without your friendship."--

Elinor tried to make a civil answer, though doubting

her own success. But it seemed to satisfy Lucy, for she

directly replied,

"Indeed I am perfectly convinced of your regard

for me, and next to Edward's love, it is the greatest

comfort I have.--Poor Edward!--But now there is one

good thing, we shall be able to meet, and meet pretty often,

for Lady Middleton's delighted with Mrs. Dashwood,

so we shall be a good deal in Harley Street, I dare say,

and Edward spends half his time with his sister--besides,

Lady Middleton and Mrs. Ferrars will visit now;--

and Mrs. Ferrars and your sister were both so good to say

more than once, they should always be glad to see me.--

They are such charming women!--I am sure if ever you

tell your sister what I think of her, you cannot speak

too high."

But Elinor would not give her any encouragement

to hope that she SHOULD tell her sister. Lucy continued.

"I am sure I should have seen it in a moment,

if Mrs. Ferrars had took a dislike to me. If she had only

made me a formal courtesy, for instance, without saying

a word, and never after had took any notice of me,

and never looked at me in a pleasant way--you know

what I mean--if I had been treated in that forbidding

sort of way, I should have gave it all up in despair.

I could not have stood it. For where she DOES dislike,

I know it is most violent."

Elinor was prevented from making any reply to this

civil triumph, by the door's being thrown open, the servant's

announcing Mr. Ferrars, and Edward's immediately walking in.

It was a very awkward moment; and the countenance of each

shewed that it was so. They all looked exceedingly foolish;

and Edward seemed to have as great an inclination to walk

out of the room again, as to advance farther into it.

The very circumstance, in its unpleasantest form,

which they would each have been most anxious to avoid,

had fallen on them.--They were not only all three together,

but were together without the relief of any other person.

The ladies recovered themselves first. It was not Lucy's

business to put herself forward, and the appearance of

secrecy must still be kept up. She could therefore only

LOOK her tenderness, and after slightly addressing him,

said no more.

But Elinor had more to do; and so anxious was she,

for his sake and her own, to do it well, that she

forced herself, after a moment's recollection,

to welcome him, with a look and manner that were almost easy,

and almost open; and another struggle, another effort still

improved them. She would not allow the presence of Lucy,

nor the consciousness of some injustice towards herself,

to deter her from saying that she was happy to see him,

and that she had very much regretted being from home,

when he called before in Berkeley Street. She would

not be frightened from paying him those attentions which,

as a friend and almost a relation, were his due, by the

observant eyes of Lucy, though she soon perceived them

to be narrowly watching her.

Her manners gave some re-assurance to Edward, and he

had courage enough to sit down; but his embarrassment still

exceeded that of the ladies in a proportion, which the case

rendered reasonable, though his sex might make it rare;

for his heart had not the indifference of Lucy's, nor

could his conscience have quite the ease of Elinor's.

Lucy, with a demure and settled air, seemed determined

to make no contribution to the comfort of the others,

and would not say a word; and almost every thing that WAS

said, proceeded from Elinor, who was obliged to volunteer

all the information about her mother's health, their coming

to town, &c. which Edward ought to have inquired about,

but never did.

Her exertions did not stop here; for she soon

afterwards felt herself so heroically disposed as

to determine, under pretence of fetching Marianne,

to leave the others by themselves; and she really did it,

and THAT in the handsomest manner, for she loitered away

several minutes on the landing-place, with the most

high-minded fortitude, before she went to her sister.

When that was once done, however, it was time for the raptures

of Edward to cease; for Marianne's joy hurried her into

the drawing-room immediately. Her pleasure in seeing him

was like every other of her feelings, strong in itself,

and strongly spoken. She met him with a hand that would

be taken, and a voice that expressed the affection of a sister.

"Dear Edward!" she cried, "this is a moment of great

happiness!--This would almost make amends for every thing?"

Edward tried to return her kindness as it deserved,

but before such witnesses he dared not say half what he

really felt. Again they all sat down, and for a moment

or two all were silent; while Marianne was looking with the

most speaking tenderness, sometimes at Edward and sometimes

at Elinor, regretting only that their delight in each

other should be checked by Lucy's unwelcome presence.

Edward was the first to speak, and it was to notice

Marianne's altered looks, and express his fear of her

not finding London agree with her.

"Oh, don't think of me!" she replied with spirited

earnestness, though her eyes were filled with tears

as she spoke, "don't think of MY health. Elinor is well,

you see. That must be enough for us both."

This remark was not calculated to make Edward or

Elinor more easy, nor to conciliate the good will of Lucy,

who looked up at Marianne with no very benignant expression.

"Do you like London?" said Edward, willing to say

any thing that might introduce another subject.

"Not at all. I expected much pleasure in it,

but I have found none. The sight of you, Edward, is the

only comfort it has afforded; and thank Heaven! you

are what you always were!"

She paused--no one spoke.

"I think, Elinor," she presently added, "we must

employ Edward to take care of us in our return to Barton.

In a week or two, I suppose, we shall be going; and, I trust,

Edward will not be very unwilling to accept the charge."

Poor Edward muttered something, but what it was,

nobody knew, not even himself. But Marianne, who saw

his agitation, and could easily trace it to whatever

cause best pleased herself, was perfectly satisfied,

and soon talked of something else.

"We spent such a day, Edward, in Harley Street

yesterday! So dull, so wretchedly dull!--But I have much

to say to you on that head, which cannot be said now."

And with this admirable discretion did she defer

the assurance of her finding their mutual relatives more

disagreeable than ever, and of her being particularly

disgusted with his mother, till they were more in private.

"But why were you not there, Edward?--Why did you

not come?"

"I was engaged elsewhere."

"Engaged! But what was that, when such friends

were to be met?"

"Perhaps, Miss Marianne," cried Lucy, eager to take

some revenge on her, "you think young men never stand

upon engagements, if they have no mind to keep them,

little as well as great."

Elinor was very angry, but Marianne seemed entirely

insensible of the sting; for she calmly replied,

"Not so, indeed; for, seriously speaking, I am very

sure that conscience only kept Edward from Harley Street.

And I really believe he HAS the most delicate conscience

in the world; the most scrupulous in performing

every engagement, however minute, and however it

may make against his interest or pleasure. He is the

most fearful of giving pain, of wounding expectation,

and the most incapable of being selfish, of any body

I ever saw. Edward, it is so, and I will say it.

What! are you never to hear yourself praised!--Then you

must be no friend of mine; for those who will accept

of my love and esteem, must submit to my open commendation."

The nature of her commendation, in the present case,

however, happened to be particularly ill-suited to the

feelings of two thirds of her auditors, and was so very

unexhilarating to Edward, that he very soon got up to go away.

"Going so soon!" said Marianne; "my dear Edward,

this must not be."

And drawing him a little aside, she whispered

her persuasion that Lucy could not stay much longer.

But even this encouragement failed, for he would go;

and Lucy, who would have outstaid him, had his visit lasted

two hours, soon afterwards went away.

"What can bring her here so often?" said Marianne,

on her leaving them. "Could not she see that we wanted

her gone!--how teazing to Edward!"

"Why so?--we were all his friends, and Lucy has been

the longest known to him of any. It is but natural

that he should like to see her as well as ourselves."

Marianne looked at her steadily, and said, "You know,

Elinor, that this is a kind of talking which I cannot bear.

If you only hope to have your assertion contradicted,

as I must suppose to be the case, you ought to recollect

that I am the last person in the world to do it.

I cannot descend to be tricked out of assurances, that are

not really wanted."

She then left the room; and Elinor dared not follow

her to say more, for bound as she was by her promise

of secrecy to Lucy, she could give no information that

would convince Marianne; and painful as the consequences

of her still continuing in an error might be, she was

obliged to submit to it. All that she could hope, was

that Edward would not often expose her or himself to the

distress of hearing Marianne's mistaken warmth, nor to the

repetition of any other part of the pain that had attended

their recent meeting--and this she had every reason to expect.

CHAPTER 36

Within a few days after this meeting, the newspapers

announced to the world, that the lady of Thomas Palmer,

Esq. was safely delivered of a son and heir; a very

interesting and satisfactory paragraph, at least to all

those intimate connections who knew it before.

This event, highly important to Mrs. Jennings's happiness,

produced a temporary alteration in the disposal of her time,

and influenced, in a like degree, the engagements

of her young friends; for as she wished to be as much

as possible with Charlotte, she went thither every morning

as soon as she was dressed, and did not return till late

in the evening; and the Miss Dashwoods, at the particular

request of the Middletons, spent the whole of every day,

in every day in Conduit Street. For their own comfort

they would much rather have remained, at least all

the morning, in Mrs. Jennings's house; but it was not

a thing to be urged against the wishes of everybody.

Their hours were therefore made over to Lady Middleton

and the two Miss Steeles, by whom their company, in fact

was as little valued, as it was professedly sought.

They had too much sense to be desirable companions

to the former; and by the latter they were considered with

a jealous eye, as intruding on THEIR ground, and sharing

the kindness which they wanted to monopolize. Though nothing

could be more polite than Lady Middleton's behaviour to

Elinor and Marianne, she did not really like them at all.

Because they neither flattered herself nor her children,

she could not believe them good-natured; and because they

were fond of reading, she fancied them satirical: perhaps

without exactly knowing what it was to be satirical;

but THAT did not signify. It was censure in common use,

and easily given.

Their presence was a restraint both on her and on Lucy.

It checked the idleness of one, and the business of the other.

Lady Middleton was ashamed of doing nothing before them,

and the flattery which Lucy was proud to think of

and administer at other times, she feared they would despise

her for offering. Miss Steele was the least discomposed

of the three, by their presence; and it was in their power

to reconcile her to it entirely. Would either of them

only have given her a full and minute account of the whole

affair between Marianne and Mr. Willoughby, she would

have thought herself amply rewarded for the sacrifice

of the best place by the fire after dinner, which their

arrival occasioned. But this conciliation was not granted;

for though she often threw out expressions of pity for her

sister to Elinor, and more than once dropt a reflection

on the inconstancy of beaux before Marianne, no effect

was produced, but a look of indifference from the former,

or of disgust in the latter. An effort even yet lighter

might have made her their friend. Would they only have

laughed at her about the Doctor! But so little were they,

anymore than the others, inclined to oblige her,

that if Sir John dined from home, she might spend a whole

day without hearing any other raillery on the subject,

than what she was kind enough to bestow on herself.

All these jealousies and discontents, however, were so

totally unsuspected by Mrs. Jennings, that she thought

it a delightful thing for the girls to be together;

and generally congratulated her young friends every night,

on having escaped the company of a stupid old woman so long.

She joined them sometimes at Sir John's, sometimes

at her own house; but wherever it was, she always came

in excellent spirits, full of delight and importance,

attributing Charlotte's well doing to her own care, and ready

to give so exact, so minute a detail of her situation,

as only Miss Steele had curiosity enough to desire.

One thing DID disturb her; and of that she made her

daily complaint. Mr. Palmer maintained the common,

but unfatherly opinion among his sex, of all infants being alike;

and though she could plainly perceive, at different times,

the most striking resemblance between this baby and every

one of his relations on both sides, there was no convincing

his father of it; no persuading him to believe that it

was not exactly like every other baby of the same age;

nor could he even be brought to acknowledge the simple

proposition of its being the finest child in the world.

I come now to the relation of a misfortune,

which about this time befell Mrs. John Dashwood.

It so happened that while her two sisters with

Mrs. Jennings were first calling on her in Harley Street,

another of her acquaintance had dropt in--a circumstance

in itself not apparently likely to produce evil to her.

But while the imaginations of other people will carry

them away to form wrong judgments of our conduct,

and to decide on it by slight appearances, one's happiness

must in some measure be always at the mercy of chance.

In the present instance, this last-arrived lady allowed

her fancy to so far outrun truth and probability,

that on merely hearing the name of the Miss Dashwoods,

and understanding them to be Mr. Dashwood's sisters,

she immediately concluded them to be staying in Harley Street;

and this misconstruction produced within a day

or two afterwards, cards of invitation for them

as well as for their brother and sister, to a small

musical party at her house. The consequence of which was,

that Mrs. John Dashwood was obliged to submit not only

to the exceedingly great inconvenience of sending her

carriage for the Miss Dashwoods, but, what was still worse,

must be subject to all the unpleasantness of appearing

to treat them with attention: and who could tell that they

might not expect to go out with her a second time? The power

of disappointing them, it was true, must always be her's.

But that was not enough; for when people are determined

on a mode of conduct which they know to be wrong, they feel

injured by the expectation of any thing better from them.

Marianne had now been brought by degrees, so much

into the habit of going out every day, that it was become

a matter of indifference to her, whether she went or not:

and she prepared quietly and mechanically for every

evening's engagement, though without expecting the smallest

amusement from any, and very often without knowing,

till the last moment, where it was to take her.

To her dress and appearance she was grown so perfectly

indifferent, as not to bestow half the consideration on it,

during the whole of her toilet, which it received from

Miss Steele in the first five minutes of their being

together, when it was finished. Nothing escaped HER minute

observation and general curiosity; she saw every thing,

and asked every thing; was never easy till she knew the price

of every part of Marianne's dress; could have guessed the

number of her gowns altogether with better judgment than

Marianne herself, and was not without hopes of finding out

before they parted, how much her washing cost per week,

and how much she had every year to spend upon herself.

The impertinence of these kind of scrutinies, moreover,

was generally concluded with a compliment, which

though meant as its douceur, was considered by Marianne

as the greatest impertinence of all; for after undergoing

an examination into the value and make of her gown,

the colour of her shoes, and the arrangement of her hair,

she was almost sure of being told that upon "her word

she looked vastly smart, and she dared to say she would

make a great many conquests."

With such encouragement as this, was she dismissed

on the present occasion, to her brother's carriage;

which they were ready to enter five minutes after it

stopped at the door, a punctuality not very agreeable

to their sister-in-law, who had preceded them to the house

of her acquaintance, and was there hoping for some delay

on their part that might inconvenience either herself

or her coachman.

The events of this evening were not very remarkable.

The party, like other musical parties, comprehended a

great many people who had real taste for the performance,

and a great many more who had none at all; and the performers

themselves were, as usual, in their own estimation,

and that of their immediate friends, the first private

performers in England.

As Elinor was neither musical, nor affecting to be so,

she made no scruple of turning her eyes from the grand

pianoforte, whenever it suited her, and unrestrained even

by the presence of a harp, and violoncello, would fix

them at pleasure on any other object in the room. In one

of these excursive glances she perceived among a group

of young men, the very he, who had given them a lecture

on toothpick-cases at Gray's. She perceived him soon

afterwards looking at herself, and speaking familiarly

to her brother; and had just determined to find out his

name from the latter, when they both came towards her,

and Mr. Dashwood introduced him to her as Mr. Robert Ferrars.

He addressed her with easy civility, and twisted

his head into a bow which assured her as plainly as

words could have done, that he was exactly the coxcomb

she had heard him described to be by Lucy. Happy had

it been for her, if her regard for Edward had depended

less on his own merit, than on the merit of his nearest

relations! For then his brother's bow must have given

the finishing stroke to what the ill-humour of his mother

and sister would have begun. But while she wondered

at the difference of the two young men, she did not find

that the emptiness of conceit of the one, put her out

of all charity with the modesty and worth of the other.

Why they WERE different, Robert exclaimed to her himself

in the course of a quarter of an hour's conversation;

for, talking of his brother, and lamenting the extreme

GAUCHERIE which he really believed kept him from mixing

in proper society, he candidly and generously attributed it

much less to any natural deficiency, than to the misfortune

of a private education; while he himself, though probably

without any particular, any material superiority

by nature, merely from the advantage of a public school,

was as well fitted to mix in the world as any other man.

"Upon my soul," he added, "I believe it is nothing more;

and so I often tell my mother, when she is grieving

about it. 'My dear Madam,' I always say to her, 'you must

make yourself easy. The evil is now irremediable,

and it has been entirely your own doing. Why would

you be persuaded by my uncle, Sir Robert, against your

own judgment, to place Edward under private tuition,

at the most critical time of his life? If you had only sent

him to Westminster as well as myself, instead of sending

him to Mr. Pratt's, all this would have been prevented.'

This is the way in which I always consider the matter,

and my mother is perfectly convinced of her error."

Elinor would not oppose his opinion, because,

whatever might be her general estimation of the advantage

of a public school, she could not think of Edward's

abode in Mr. Pratt's family, with any satisfaction.

"You reside in Devonshire, I think,"--was his

next observation, "in a cottage near Dawlish."

Elinor set him right as to its situation;

and it seemed rather surprising to him that anybody

could live in Devonshire, without living near Dawlish.

He bestowed his hearty approbation however on their

species of house.

"For my own part," said he, "I am excessively fond

of a cottage; there is always so much comfort, so much

elegance about them. And I protest, if I had any money

to spare, I should buy a little land and build one myself,

within a short distance of London, where I might drive

myself down at any time, and collect a few friends

about me, and be happy. I advise every body who is going

to build, to build a cottage. My friend Lord Courtland

came to me the other day on purpose to ask my advice,

and laid before me three different plans of Bonomi's.

I was to decide on the best of them. 'My dear Courtland,'

said I, immediately throwing them all into the fire, 'do not

adopt either of them, but by all means build a cottage.'

And that I fancy, will be the end of it.

"Some people imagine that there can be no accommodations,

no space in a cottage; but this is all a mistake.

I was last month at my friend Elliott's, near Dartford.

Lady Elliott wished to give a dance. 'But how can it

be done?' said she; 'my dear Ferrars, do tell me how it

is to be managed. There is not a room in this cottage

that will hold ten couple, and where can the supper be?'

I immediately saw that there could be no difficulty in it,

so I said, 'My dear Lady Elliott, do not be uneasy.

The dining parlour will admit eighteen couple with ease;

card-tables may be placed in the drawing-room; the library

may be open for tea and other refreshments; and let the

supper be set out in the saloon.' Lady Elliott was delighted

with the thought. We measured the dining-room, and found

it would hold exactly eighteen couple, and the affair

was arranged precisely after my plan. So that, in fact,

you see, if people do but know how to set about it,

every comfort may be as well enjoyed in a cottage

as in the most spacious dwelling."

Elinor agreed to it all, for she did not think

he deserved the compliment of rational opposition.

As John Dashwood had no more pleasure in music than his

eldest sister, his mind was equally at liberty to fix on

any thing else; and a thought struck him during the evening,

which he communicated to his wife, for her approbation,

when they got home. The consideration of Mrs. Dennison's

mistake,

in supposing his sisters their guests, had suggested the

propriety of their being really invited to become such,

while Mrs. Jenning's engagements kept her from home.

The expense would be nothing, the inconvenience not more;

and it was altogether an attention which the delicacy

of his conscience pointed out to be requisite to its

complete enfranchisement from his promise to his father.

Fanny was startled at the proposal.

"I do not see how it can be done," said she,

"without affronting Lady Middleton, for they spend every day

with her; otherwise I should be exceedingly glad to do it.

You know I am always ready to pay them any attention

in my power, as my taking them out this evening shews.

But they are Lady Middleton's visitors. How can I ask them

away from her?"

Her husband, but with great humility, did not see

the force of her objection. "They had already spent a week

in this manner in Conduit Street, and Lady Middleton

could not be displeased at their giving the same number

of days to such near relations."

Fanny paused a moment, and then, with fresh vigor, said,

"My love I would ask them with all my heart, if it

was in my power. But I had just settled within myself

to ask the Miss Steeles to spend a few days with us.

They are very well behaved, good kind of girls; and I think

the attention is due to them, as their uncle did so very

well by Edward. We can ask your sisters some other year,

you know; but the Miss Steeles may not be in town any more.

I am sure you will like them; indeed, you DO like them,

you know, very much already, and so does my mother; and they

are such favourites with Harry!"

Mr. Dashwood was convinced. He saw the necessity

of inviting the Miss Steeles immediately, and his conscience

was pacified by the resolution of inviting his sisters

another year; at the same time, however, slyly suspecting

that another year would make the invitation needless,

by bringing Elinor to town as Colonel Brandon's wife,

and Marianne as THEIR visitor.

Fanny, rejoicing in her escape, and proud of the ready

wit that had procured it, wrote the next morning to Lucy,

to request her company and her sister's, for some days,

in Harley Street, as soon as Lady Middleton could spare them.

This was enough to make Lucy really and reasonably happy.

Mrs. Dashwood seemed actually working for her, herself;

cherishing all her hopes, and promoting all her views!

Such an opportunity of being with Edward and his family was,

above all things, the most material to her interest,

and such an invitation the most gratifying to her

feelings! It was an advantage that could not be too

gratefully acknowledged, nor too speedily made use of;

and the visit to Lady Middleton, which had not before had

any precise limits, was instantly discovered to have been

always meant to end in two days' time.

When the note was shown to Elinor, as it was within ten

minutes after its arrival, it gave her, for the first time,

some share in the expectations of Lucy; for such a mark

of uncommon kindness, vouchsafed on so short an acquaintance,

seemed to declare that the good-will towards her arose

from something more than merely malice against herself;

and might be brought, by time and address, to do

every thing that Lucy wished. Her flattery had already

subdued the pride of Lady Middleton, and made an entry

into the close heart of Mrs. John Dashwood; and these

were effects that laid open the probability of greater.

The Miss Steeles removed to Harley Street, and all

that reached Elinor of their influence there, strengthened

her expectation of the event. Sir John, who called on

them more than once, brought home such accounts of the

favour they were in, as must be universally striking.

Mrs. Dashwood had never been so much pleased with any

young women in her life, as she was with them; had given

each of them a needle book made by some emigrant;

called Lucy by her Christian name; and did not know

whether she should ever be able to part with them.

[At this point in the first and second editions, Volume II ended.]

CHAPTER 37

Mrs. Palmer was so well at the end of a fortnight,

that her mother felt it no longer necessary to give up

the whole of her time to her; and, contenting herself with

visiting her once or twice a day, returned from that period

to her own home, and her own habits, in which she found

the Miss Dashwoods very ready to resume their former share.

About the third or fourth morning after their

being thus resettled in Berkeley Street, Mrs. Jennings,

on returning from her ordinary visit to Mrs. Palmer,

entered the drawing-room, where Elinor was sitting

by herself, with an air of such hurrying importance

as prepared her to hear something wonderful; and giving her

time only to form that idea, began directly to justify it,

by saying,

"Lord! my dear Miss Dashwood! have you heard the news?"

"No, ma'am. What is it?"

"Something so strange! But you shall hear it all.--

When I got to Mr. Palmer's, I found Charlotte quite

in a fuss about the child. She was sure it was very

ill--it cried, and fretted, and was all over pimples.

So I looked at it directly, and, 'Lord! my dear,'

says I, 'it is nothing in the world, but the red gum--'

and nurse said just the same. But Charlotte, she would

not be satisfied, so Mr. Donavan was sent for; and luckily

he happened to just come in from Harley Street, so he

stepped over directly, and as soon as ever he saw the child,

be said just as we did, that it was nothing in the world

but the red gum, and then Charlotte was easy. And so,

just as he was going away again, it came into my head,

I am sure I do not know how I happened to think of it,

but it came into my head to ask him if there was any news.

So upon that, he smirked, and simpered, and looked grave,

and seemed to know something or other, and at last he

said in a whisper, 'For fear any unpleasant report

should reach the young ladies under your care as to their

sister's indisposition, I think it advisable to say,

that I believe there is no great reason for alarm; I hope

Mrs. Dashwood will do very well.'"

"What! is Fanny ill?"

"That is exactly what I said, my dear. 'Lord!' says I,

'is Mrs. Dashwood ill?' So then it all came out; and the

long and the short of the matter, by all I can learn,

seems to be this. Mr. Edward Ferrars, the very young

man I used to joke with you about (but however, as it

turns out, I am monstrous glad there was never any thing

in it), Mr. Edward Ferrars, it seems, has been engaged

above this twelvemonth to my cousin Lucy!--There's for you,

my dear!--And not a creature knowing a syllable of the matter,

except Nancy!--Could you have believed such a thing possible?--

There is no great wonder in their liking one another;

but that matters should be brought so forward between them,

and nobody suspect it!--THAT is strange!--I never happened

to see them together, or I am sure I should have found it

out directly. Well, and so this was kept a great secret,

for fear of Mrs. Ferrars, and neither she nor your

brother or sister suspected a word of the matter;--

till this very morning, poor Nancy, who, you know, is a

well-meaning creature, but no conjurer, popt it all out.

'Lord!' thinks she to herself, 'they are all so fond

of Lucy, to be sure they will make no difficulty about it;'

and so, away she went to your sister, who was sitting all

alone at her carpet-work, little suspecting what was to

come--for she had just been saying to your brother, only five

minutes before, that she thought to make a match between

Edward and some Lord's daughter or other, I forget who.

So you may think what a blow it was to all her vanity

and pride. She fell into violent hysterics immediately,

with such screams as reached your brother's ears,

as he was sitting in his own dressing-room down stairs,

thinking about writing a letter to his steward in the country.

So up he flew directly, and a terrible scene took place,

for Lucy was come to them by that time, little dreaming

what was going on. Poor soul! I pity HER. And I must say,

I think she was used very hardly; for your sister scolded

like any fury, and soon drove her into a fainting fit.

Nancy, she fell upon her knees, and cried bitterly;

and your brother, he walked about the room, and said

he did not know what to do. Mrs. Dashwood declared

they should not stay a minute longer in the house,

and your brother was forced to go down upon HIS knees too,

to persuade her to let them stay till they had packed

up their clothes. THEN she fell into hysterics again,

and he was so frightened that he would send for Mr. Donavan,

and Mr. Donavan found the house in all this uproar.

The carriage was at the door ready to take my poor

cousins away, and they were just stepping in as he

came off; poor Lucy in such a condition, he says,

she could hardly walk; and Nancy, she was almost as bad.

I declare, I have no patience with your sister; and I hope,

with all my heart, it will be a match in spite of her.

Lord! what a taking poor Mr. Edward will be in when he

hears of it! To have his love used so scornfully! for

they say he is monstrous fond of her, as well he may.

I should not wonder, if he was to be in the greatest

passion!--and Mr. Donavan thinks just the same. He and I

had a great deal of talk about it; and the best of all is,

that he is gone back again to Harley Street, that he may

be within call when Mrs. Ferrars is told of it, for she

was sent for as soon as ever my cousins left the house,

for your sister was sure SHE would be in hysterics too;

and so she may, for what I care. I have no pity for

either of them. I have no notion of people's making

such a to-do about money and greatness. There is no

reason on earth why Mr. Edward and Lucy should not marry;

for I am sure Mrs. Ferrars may afford to do very well

by her son, and though Lucy has next to nothing herself,

she knows better than any body how to make the most

of every thing; I dare say, if Mrs. Ferrars would only

allow him five hundred a-year, she would make as good

an appearance with it as any body else would with eight.

Lord! how snug they might live in such another cottage

as yours--or a little bigger--with two maids, and two men;

and I believe I could help them to a housemaid, for my

Betty has a sister out of place, that would fit them

exactly."

Here Mrs. Jennings ceased, and as Elinor had had

time enough to collect her thoughts, she was able

to give such an answer, and make such observations,

as the subject might naturally be supposed to produce.

Happy to find that she was not suspected of any extraordinary

interest in it; that Mrs. Jennings (as she had of late

often hoped might be the case) had ceased to imagine her

at all attached to Edward; and happy above all the rest,

in the absence of Marianne, she felt very well able

to speak of the affair without embarrassment, and to

give her judgment, as she believed, with impartiality

on the conduct of every one concerned in it.

She could hardly determine what her own expectation

of its event really was; though she earnestly tried

to drive away the notion of its being possible to end

otherwise at last, than in the marriage of Edward and Lucy.

What Mrs. Ferrars would say and do, though there could

not be a doubt of its nature, she was anxious to hear;

and still more anxious to know how Edward would

conduct himself. For HIM she felt much compassion;--

for Lucy very little--and it cost her some pains to procure

that little;--for the rest of the party none at all.

As Mrs. Jennings could talk on no other subject,

Elinor soon saw the necessity of preparing Marianne for

its discussion. No time was to be lost in undeceiving her,

in making her acquainted with the real truth, and in

endeavouring to bring her to hear it talked of by others,

without betraying that she felt any uneasiness for her sister,

or any resentment against Edward.

Elinor's office was a painful one.--She was going

to remove what she really believed to be her sister's

chief consolation,--to give such particulars of Edward as she

feared would ruin him for ever in her good opinion,-and

to make Marianne, by a resemblance in their situations,

which to HER fancy would seem strong, feel all her own

disappointment over again. But unwelcome as such a task

must be, it was necessary to be done, and Elinor therefore

hastened to perform it.

She was very far from wishing to dwell on her own

feelings, or to represent herself as suffering much,

any otherwise than as the self-command she had practised

since her first knowledge of Edward's engagement, might

suggest a hint of what was practicable to Marianne.

Her narration was clear and simple; and though it could

not be given without emotion, it was not accompanied

by violent agitation, nor impetuous grief.--THAT belonged

rather to the hearer, for Marianne listened with horror,

and cried excessively. Elinor was to be the comforter

of others in her own distresses, no less than in theirs;

and all the comfort that could be given by assurances

of her own composure of mind, and a very earnest

vindication of Edward from every charge but of imprudence,

was readily offered.

But Marianne for some time would give credit to neither.

Edward seemed a second Willoughby; and acknowledging

as Elinor did, that she HAD loved him most sincerely,

could she feel less than herself! As for Lucy Steele,

she considered her so totally unamiable, so absolutely

incapable of attaching a sensible man, that she could

not be persuaded at first to believe, and afterwards

to pardon, any former affection of Edward for her.

She would not even admit it to have been natural;

and Elinor left her to be convinced that it was so,

by that which only could convince her, a better knowledge

of mankind.

Her first communication had reached no farther than

to state the fact of the engagement, and the length of time

it had existed.--Marianne's feelings had then broken in,

and put an end to all regularity of detail; and for some

time all that could be done was to soothe her distress,

lessen her alarms, and combat her resentment. The first

question on her side, which led to farther particulars,

was,

"How long has this been known to you, Elinor? has

he written to you?"

"I have known it these four months. When Lucy

first came to Barton Park last November, she told me

in confidence of her engagement."

At these words, Marianne's eyes expressed the astonishment

which her lips could not utter. After a pause of wonder,

she exclaimed--

"Four months!--Have you known of this four months?"

Elinor confirmed it.

"What!--while attending me in all my misery, has this

been on your heart?--And I have reproached you for being

happy!"--

"It was not fit that you should then know how much

I was the reverse!"

"Four months!"--cried Marianne again.--"So calm!--

so cheerful!--how have you been supported?"--

"By feeling that I was doing my duty.--My promise to

Lucy, obliged me to be secret. I owed it to her, therefore,

to avoid giving any hint of the truth; and I owed it to my

family and friends, not to create in them a solicitude about me,

which it could not be in my power to satisfy."

Marianne seemed much struck.

"I have very often wished to undeceive yourself and my

mother," added Elinor; "and once or twice I have attempted it;--

but without betraying my trust, I never could have convinced

you."

"Four months!--and yet you loved him!"--

"Yes. But I did not love only him;--and while the comfort

of others was dear to me, I was glad to spare them from knowing

how much I felt. Now, I can think and speak of it with

little emotion. I would not have you suffer on my account;

for I assure you I no longer suffer materially myself.

I have many things to support me. I am not conscious of having

provoked the disappointment by any imprudence of my own,

I have borne it as much as possible without spreading

it farther. I acquit Edward of essential misconduct.

I wish him very happy; and I am so sure of his always

doing his duty, that though now he may harbour some regret,

in the end he must become so. Lucy does not want sense,

and that is the foundation on which every thing good may

be built.--And after all, Marianne, after all that is

bewitching in the idea of a single and constant attachment,

and all that can be said of one's happiness depending

entirely on any particular person, it is not meant--it

is not fit--it is not possible that it should be so.--

Edward will marry Lucy; he will marry a woman superior

in person and understanding to half her sex; and time

and habit will teach him to forget that he ever thought

another superior to HER."--

"If such is your way of thinking," said Marianne,

"if the loss of what is most valued is so easily

to be made up by something else, your resolution,

your self-command, are, perhaps, a little less to be

wondered at.--They are brought more within my comprehension."

"I understand you.--You do not suppose that I have ever

felt much.--For four months, Marianne, I have had all this

hanging on my mind, without being at liberty to speak

of it to a single creature; knowing that it would make

you and my mother most unhappy whenever it were explained

to you, yet unable to prepare you for it in the least.--

It was told me,--it was in a manner forced on me by the

very person herself, whose prior engagement ruined all

my prospects; and told me, as I thought, with triumph.--

This person's suspicions, therefore, I have had to oppose,

by endeavouring to appear indifferent where I have been most

deeply interested;--and it has not been only once;--I have

had her hopes and exultation to listen to again and again.--

I have known myself to be divided from Edward for ever,

without hearing one circumstance that could make me less

desire the connection.--Nothing has proved him unworthy;

nor has anything declared him indifferent to me.--

I have had to contend against the unkindness of his sister,

and the insolence of his mother; and have suffered the

punishment of an attachment, without enjoying its advantages.--

And all this has been going on at a time, when, as you

know too well, it has not been my only unhappiness.--

If you can think me capable of ever feeling--surely you

may suppose that I have suffered NOW. The composure

of mind with which I have brought myself at present

to consider the matter, the consolation that I have been

willing to admit, have been the effect of constant and

painful exertion;--they did not spring up of themselves;--

they did not occur to relieve my spirits at first.--

No, Marianne.--THEN, if I had not been bound to silence,

perhaps nothing could have kept me entirely--not even what I

owed to my dearest friends--from openly shewing that I was

VERY unhappy."--

Marianne was quite subdued.--

"Oh! Elinor," she cried, "you have made me hate

myself for ever.--How barbarous have I been to you!--

you, who have been my only comfort, who have borne with me

in all my misery, who have seemed to be only suffering

for me!--Is this my gratitude?--Is this the only return I

can make you?--Because your merit cries out upon myself,

I have been trying to do it away."

The tenderest caresses followed this confession.

In such a frame of mind as she was now in, Elinor had

no difficulty in obtaining from her whatever promise

she required; and at her request, Marianne engaged

never to speak of the affair to any one with the least

appearance of bitterness;--to meet Lucy without betraying

the smallest increase of dislike to her;--and even to see

Edward himself, if chance should bring them together,

without any diminution of her usual cordiality.--

These were great concessions;--but where Marianne felt

that she had injured, no reparation could be too much

for her to make.

She performed her promise of being discreet,

to admiration.--She attended to all that Mrs. Jennings

had to say upon the subject, with an unchanging complexion,

dissented from her in nothing, and was heard three

times to say, "Yes, ma'am."--She listened to her praise

of Lucy with only moving from one chair to another,

and when Mrs. Jennings talked of Edward's affection,

it cost her only a spasm in her throat.--Such advances

towards heroism in her sister, made Elinor feel equal

to any thing herself.

The next morning brought a farther trial of it,

in a visit from their brother, who came with a most serious

aspect to talk over the dreadful affair, and bring them

news of his wife.

"You have heard, I suppose," said he with great solemnity,

as soon as he was seated, "of the very shocking discovery

that took place under our roof yesterday."

They all looked their assent; it seemed too awful

a moment for speech.

"Your sister," he continued, "has suffered dreadfully.

Mrs. Ferrars too--in short it has been a scene of such

complicated distress--but I will hope that the storm may

be weathered without our being any of us quite overcome.

Poor Fanny! she was in hysterics all yesterday.

But I would not alarm you too much. Donavan says there

is nothing materially to be apprehended; her constitution

is a good one, and her resolution equal to any thing.

She has borne it all, with the fortitude of an angel!

She says she never shall think well of anybody again;

and one cannot wonder at it, after being so deceived!--

meeting with such ingratitude, where so much kindness

had been shewn, so much confidence had been placed! It

was quite out of the benevolence of her heart, that she

had asked these young women to her house; merely because

she thought they deserved some attention, were harmless,

well-behaved girls, and would be pleasant companions;

for otherwise we both wished very much to have invited you

and Marianne to be with us, while your kind friend there,

was attending her daughter. And now to be so rewarded!

'I wish, with all my heart,' says poor Fanny in her

affectionate way, 'that we had asked your sisters instead

of them.'"

Here he stopped to be thanked; which being done,

he went on.

"What poor Mrs. Ferrars suffered, when first Fanny

broke it to her, is not to be described. While she with

the truest affection had been planning a most eligible

connection for him, was it to be supposed that he could

be all the time secretly engaged to another person!--such

a suspicion could never have entered her head! If she

suspected ANY prepossession elsewhere, it could not be

in THAT quarter. 'THERE, to be sure,' said she, 'I might

have thought myself safe.' She was quite in an agony.

We consulted together, however, as to what should be done,

and at last she determined to send for Edward.

He came. But I am sorry to relate what ensued.

All that Mrs. Ferrars could say to make him put an end

to the engagement, assisted too as you may well suppose

by my arguments, and Fanny's entreaties, was of

no avail. Duty, affection, every thing was disregarded.

I never thought Edward so stubborn, so unfeeling before.

His mother explained to him her liberal designs, in case

of his marrying Miss Morton; told him she would settle on

him the Norfolk estate, which, clear of land-tax, brings

in a good thousand a-year; offered even, when matters

grew desperate, to make it twelve hundred; and in opposition

to this, if he still persisted in this low connection,

represented to him the certain penury that must attend

the match. His own two thousand pounds she protested

should be his all; she would never see him again; and so far

would she be from affording him the smallest assistance,

that if he were to enter into any profession with a view

of better support, she would do all in her power to prevent

him advancing in it."

Here Marianne, in an ecstasy of indignation,

clapped her hands together, and cried, "Gracious God!

can this be possible!"

"Well may you wonder, Marianne," replied her brother,

"at the obstinacy which could resist such arguments as these.

Your exclamation is very natural."

Marianne was going to retort, but she remembered

her promises, and forbore.

"All this, however," he continued, "was urged in vain.

Edward said very little; but what he did say, was in

the most determined manner. Nothing should prevail on

him to give up his engagement. He would stand to it,

cost him what it might."

"Then," cried Mrs. Jennings with blunt sincerity,

no longer able to be silent, "he has acted like an honest

man! I beg your pardon, Mr. Dashwood, but if he had

done otherwise, I should have thought him a rascal.

I have some little concern in the business, as well

as yourself, for Lucy Steele is my cousin, and I believe

there is not a better kind of girl in the world, nor one

who more deserves a good husband."

John Dashwood was greatly astonished; but his nature

was calm, not open to provocation, and he never wished

to offend anybody, especially anybody of good fortune.

He therefore replied, without any resentment,

"I would by no means speak disrespectfully of any

relation of yours, madam. Miss Lucy Steele is, I dare say,

a very deserving young woman, but in the present case

you know, the connection must be impossible.

And to have entered into a secret engagement with a

young man under her uncle's care, the son of a woman

especially of such very large fortune as Mrs. Ferrars,

is perhaps, altogether a little extraordinary. In short,

I do not mean to reflect upon the behaviour of any person

whom you have a regard for, Mrs. Jennings. We all wish

her extremely happy; and Mrs. Ferrars's conduct throughout

the whole, has been such as every conscientious, good mother,

in like circumstances, would adopt. It has been dignified

and liberal. Edward has drawn his own lot, and I fear

it will be a bad one."

Marianne sighed out her similar apprehension;

and Elinor's heart wrung for the feelings of Edward,

while braving his mother's threats, for a woman who could

not reward him.

"Well, sir," said Mrs. Jennings, "and how did it end?"

"I am sorry to say, ma'am, in a most unhappy rupture:--

Edward is dismissed for ever from his mother's notice.

He left her house yesterday, but where he is gone, or whether

he is still in town, I do not know; for WE of course can

make no inquiry."

"Poor young man!--and what is to become of him?"

"What, indeed, ma'am! It is a melancholy consideration.

Born to the prospect of such affluence! I cannot conceive

a situation more deplorable. The interest of two thousand

pounds--how can a man live on it?--and when to that is added

the recollection, that he might, but for his own folly,

within three months have been in the receipt of two

thousand, five hundred a-year (for Miss Morton has

thirty thousand pounds,) I cannot picture to myself

a more wretched condition. We must all feel for him;

and the more so, because it is totally out of our power

to assist him."

"Poor young man!" cried Mrs. Jennings, "I am sure

he should be very welcome to bed and board at my house;

and so I would tell him if I could see him. It is not fit

that he should be living about at his own charge now,

at lodgings and taverns."

Elinor's heart thanked her for such kindness towards Edward,

though she could not forbear smiling at the form of it.

"If he would only have done as well by himself,"

said John Dashwood, "as all his friends were disposed to do

by him, he might now have been in his proper situation,

and would have wanted for nothing. But as it is, it must

be out of anybody's power to assist him. And there is one

thing more preparing against him, which must be worse than

all--his mother has determined, with a very natural kind

of spirit, to settle THAT estate upon Robert immediately,

which might have been Edward's, on proper conditions.

I left her this morning with her lawyer, talking over

the business."

"Well!" said Mrs. Jennings, "that is HER revenge.

Everybody has a way of their own. But I don't think mine

would be, to make one son independent, because another had

plagued me."

Marianne got up and walked about the room.

"Can anything be more galling to the spirit of a man,"

continued John, "than to see his younger brother in

possession of an estate which might have been his own?

Poor Edward! I feel for him sincerely."

A few minutes more spent in the same kind of effusion,

concluded his visit; and with repeated assurances to his

sisters that he really believed there was no material

danger in Fanny's indisposition, and that they need

not therefore be very uneasy about it, he went away;

leaving the three ladies unanimous in their sentiments

on the present occasion, as far at least as it regarded

Mrs. Ferrars's conduct, the Dashwoods', and Edward's.

Marianne's indignation burst forth as soon as he

quitted the room; and as her vehemence made reserve

impossible in Elinor, and unnecessary in Mrs. Jennings,

they all joined in a very spirited critique upon the party.

CHAPTER 38

Mrs. Jennings was very warm in her praise of Edward's

conduct, but only Elinor and Marianne understood its

true merit. THEY only knew how little he had had to tempt

him to be disobedient, and how small was the consolation,

beyond the consciousness of doing right, that could

remain to him in the loss of friends and fortune.

Elinor gloried in his integrity; and Marianne forgave all

his offences in compassion for his punishment. But though

confidence between them was, by this public discovery,

restored to its proper state, it was not a subject on

which either of them were fond of dwelling when alone.

Elinor avoided it upon principle, as tending to fix still

more upon her thoughts, by the too warm, too positive

assurances of Marianne, that belief of Edward's continued

affection for herself which she rather wished to do away;

and Marianne's courage soon failed her, in trying

to converse upon a topic which always left her more

dissatisfied with herself than ever, by the comparison

it necessarily produced between Elinor's conduct and her own.

She felt all the force of that comparison; but not

as her sister had hoped, to urge her to exertion now;

she felt it with all the pain of continual self-reproach,

regretted most bitterly that she had never exerted

herself before; but it brought only the torture of penitence,

without the hope of amendment. Her mind was so much weakened

that she still fancied present exertion impossible,

and therefore it only dispirited her more.

Nothing new was heard by them, for a day or two afterwards,

of affairs in Harley Street, or Bartlett's Buildings.

But though so much of the matter was known to them already,

that Mrs. Jennings might have had enough to do in spreading

that knowledge farther, without seeking after more,

she had resolved from the first to pay a visit of comfort

and inquiry to her cousins as soon as she could;

and nothing but the hindrance of more visitors than usual,

had prevented her going to them within that time.

The third day succeeding their knowledge of the

particulars, was so fine, so beautiful a Sunday as to draw

many to Kensington Gardens, though it was only the second

week in March. Mrs. Jennings and Elinor were of the number;

but Marianne, who knew that the Willoughbys were again

in town, and had a constant dread of meeting them,

chose rather to stay at home, than venture into so public

a place.

An intimate acquaintance of Mrs. Jennings joined

them soon after they entered the Gardens, and Elinor was

not sorry that by her continuing with them, and engaging

all Mrs. Jennings's conversation, she was herself left

to quiet reflection. She saw nothing of the Willoughbys,

nothing of Edward, and for some time nothing of anybody

who could by any chance whether grave or gay, be interesting

to her. But at last she found herself with some surprise,

accosted by Miss Steele, who, though looking rather shy,

expressed great satisfaction in meeting them, and on receiving

encouragement from the particular kindness of Mrs. Jennings,

left her own party for a short time, to join their's.

Mrs. Jennings immediately whispered to Elinor,

"Get it all out of her, my dear. She will tell you

any thing if you ask. You see I cannot leave Mrs. Clarke."

It was lucky, however, for Mrs. Jennings's curiosity

and Elinor's too, that she would tell any thing WITHOUT

being asked; for nothing would otherwise have been learnt.

"I am so glad to meet you;" said Miss Steele,

taking her familiarly by the arm--"for I wanted to see you

of all things in the world." And then lowering her voice,

"I suppose Mrs. Jennings has heard all about it.

Is she angry?"

"Not at all, I believe, with you."

"That is a good thing. And Lady Middleton, is SHE angry?"

"I cannot suppose it possible that she should."

"I am monstrous glad of it. Good gracious! I have

had such a time of it! I never saw Lucy in such a rage

in my life. She vowed at first she would never trim me

up a new bonnet, nor do any thing else for me again,

so long as she lived; but now she is quite come to,

and we are as good friends as ever. Look, she made me

this bow to my hat, and put in the feather last night.

There now, YOU are going to laugh at me too. But why

should not I wear pink ribbons? I do not care if it IS

the Doctor's favourite colour. I am sure, for my part,

I should never have known he DID like it better than

any other colour, if he had not happened to say so.

My cousins have been so plaguing me! I declare sometimes

I do not know which way to look before them."

She had wandered away to a subject on which Elinor

had nothing to say, and therefore soon judged it expedient

to find her way back again to the first.

"Well, but Miss Dashwood," speaking triumphantly,

"people may say what they chuse about Mr. Ferrars's

declaring he would not have Lucy, for it is no such thing

I can tell you; and it is quite a shame for such ill-natured

reports to be spread abroad. Whatever Lucy might think

about it herself, you know, it was no business of other

people to set it down for certain."

"I never heard any thing of the kind hinted at before,

I assure you," said Elinor.

"Oh, did not you? But it WAS said, I know, very well,

and by more than one; for Miss Godby told Miss Sparks,

that nobody in their senses could expect Mr. Ferrars

to give up a woman like Miss Morton, with thirty thousand

pounds to her fortune, for Lucy Steele that had

nothing at all; and I had it from Miss Sparks myself.

And besides that, my cousin Richard said himself,

that when it came to the point he was afraid Mr. Ferrars

would be off; and when Edward did not come near us

for three days, I could not tell what to think myself;

and I believe in my heart Lucy gave it up all for lost;

for we came away from your brother's Wednesday,

and we saw nothing of him not all Thursday, Friday,

and Saturday, and did not know what was become of him.

Once Lucy thought to write to him, but then her spirits

rose against that. However this morning he came just

as we came home from church; and then it all came out,

how he had been sent for Wednesday to Harley Street,

and been talked to by his mother and all of them,

and how he had declared before them all that he loved

nobody but Lucy, and nobody but Lucy would he have.

And how he had been so worried by what passed,

that as soon as he had went away from his mother's house,

he had got upon his horse, and rid into the country,

some where or other; and how he had stayed about at an inn

all Thursday and Friday, on purpose to get the better

of it. And after thinking it all over and over again,

he said, it seemed to him as if, now he had no fortune,

and no nothing at all, it would be quite unkind to keep

her on to the engagement, because it must be for her loss,

for he had nothing but two thousand pounds, and no hope

of any thing else; and if he was to go into orders,

as he had some thoughts, he could get nothing but a curacy,

and how was they to live upon that?--He could not bear

to think of her doing no better, and so he begged,

if she had the least mind for it, to put an end to the

matter directly, and leave him shift for himself.

I heard him say all this as plain as could possibly be.

And it was entirely for HER sake, and upon HER account,

that he said a word about being off, and not upon his own.

I will take my oath he never dropt a syllable of being

tired of her, or of wishing to marry Miss Morton, or any

thing like it. But, to be sure, Lucy would not give

ear to such kind of talking; so she told him directly

(with a great deal about sweet and love, you know,

and all that--Oh, la! one can't repeat such kind of things

you know)--she told him directly, she had not the least

mind in the world to be off, for she could live with him

upon a trifle, and how little so ever he might have,

she should be very glad to have it all, you know,

or something of the kind. So then he was monstrous happy,

and talked on some time about what they should do,

and they agreed he should take orders directly,

and they must wait to be married till he got a living.

And just then I could not hear any more, for my cousin

called from below to tell me Mrs. Richardson was come in

her coach, and would take one of us to Kensington Gardens;

so I was forced to go into the room and interrupt them,

to ask Lucy if she would like to go, but she did not

care to leave Edward; so I just run up stairs and put

on a pair of silk stockings and came off with the Richardsons."

"I do not understand what you mean by interrupting them,"

said Elinor; "you were all in the same room together,

were not you?"

"No, indeed, not us. La! Miss Dashwood, do you

think people make love when any body else is by? Oh,

for shame!--To be sure you must know better than that.

(Laughing affectedly.)--No, no; they were shut up in the

drawing-room together, and all I heard was only by listening

at the door."

"How!" cried Elinor; "have you been repeating to me

what you only learnt yourself by listening at the door?

I am sorry I did not know it before; for I certainly

would not have suffered you to give me particulars of a

conversation which you ought not to have known yourself.

How could you behave so unfairly by your sister?"

"Oh, la! there is nothing in THAT. I only stood at

the door, and heard what I could. And I am sure Lucy would

have done just the same by me; for a year or two back,

when Martha Sharpe and I had so many secrets together,

she never made any bones of hiding in a closet, or behind

a chimney-board, on purpose to hear what we said."

Elinor tried to talk of something else; but Miss

Steele could not be kept beyond a couple of minutes,

from what was uppermost in her mind.

"Edward talks of going to Oxford soon," said she;

"but now he is lodging at No. --, Pall Mall. What an

ill-natured woman his mother is, an't she? And your

brother and sister were not very kind! However,

I shan't say anything against them to YOU; and to be sure

they did send us home in their own chariot, which

was more than I looked for. And for my part, I was all

in a fright for fear your sister should ask us for the

huswifes she had gave us a day or two before; but, however,

nothing was said about them, and I took care to keep mine

out of sight. Edward have got some business at Oxford,

he says; so he must go there for a time; and after THAT,

as soon as he can light upon a Bishop, he will be ordained.

I wonder what curacy he will get!--Good gracious!

(giggling as she spoke) I'd lay my life I know what

my cousins will say, when they hear of it. They will

tell me I should write to the Doctor, to get Edward

the curacy of his new living. I know they will; but I am

sure I would not do such a thing for all the world.--

'La!' I shall say directly, 'I wonder how you could think

of such a thing? I write to the Doctor, indeed!'"

"Well," said Elinor, "it is a comfort to be prepared

against the worst. You have got your answer ready."

Miss Steele was going to reply on the same subject,

but the approach of her own party made another more necessary.

"Oh, la! here come the Richardsons. I had a vast deal

more to say to you, but I must not stay away from them not

any longer. I assure you they are very genteel people.

He makes a monstrous deal of money, and they keep their

own coach. I have not time to speak to Mrs. Jennings about

it myself, but pray tell her I am quite happy to hear she

is not in anger against us, and Lady Middleton the same;

and if anything should happen to take you and your

sister away, and Mrs. Jennings should want company,

I am sure we should be very glad to come and stay with her

for as long a time as she likes. I suppose Lady Middleton

won't ask us any more this bout. Good-by; I am sorry

Miss Marianne was not here. Remember me kindly to her.

La! if you have not got your spotted muslin on!--I wonder

you was not afraid of its being torn."

Such was her parting concern; for after this, she had

time only to pay her farewell compliments to Mrs. Jennings,

before her company was claimed by Mrs. Richardson;

and Elinor was left in possession of knowledge which

might feed her powers of reflection some time, though she

had learnt very little more than what had been already

foreseen and foreplanned in her own mind. Edward's marriage

with Lucy was as firmly determined on, and the time

of its taking place remained as absolutely uncertain,

as she had concluded it would be;--every thing depended,

exactly after her expectation, on his getting that preferment,

of which, at present, there seemed not the smallest chance.

As soon as they returned to the carriage,

Mrs. Jennings was eager for information; but as Elinor

wished to spread as little as possible intelligence

that had in the first place been so unfairly obtained,

she confined herself to the brief repetition of such

simple particulars, as she felt assured that Lucy,

for the sake of her own consequence, would choose

to have known. The continuance of their engagement,

and the means that were able to be taken for promoting

its end, was all her communication; and this produced

from Mrs. Jennings the following natural remark.

"Wait for his having a living!--ay, we all know how

THAT will end:--they will wait a twelvemonth, and finding

no good comes of it, will set down upon a curacy of fifty

pounds a-year, with the interest of his two thousand pounds,

and what little matter Mr. Steele and Mr. Pratt can

give her.--Then they will have a child every year! and

Lord help 'em! how poor they will be!--I must see

what I can give them towards furnishing their house.

Two maids and two men, indeed!--as I talked of t'other

day.--No, no, they must get a stout girl of all works.--

Betty's sister would never do for them NOW."

The next morning brought Elinor a letter by the

two-penny post from Lucy herself. It was as follows:

"Bartlett's Building, March.

"I hope my dear Miss Dashwood will excuse the

liberty I take of writing to her; but I know your

friendship for me will make you pleased to hear such

a good account of myself and my dear Edward, after

all the troubles we have went through lately,

therefore will make no more apologies, but proceed

to say that, thank God! though we have suffered

dreadfully, we are both quite well now, and as happy

as we must always be in one another's love. We have

had great trials, and great persecutions, but

however, at the same time, gratefully acknowledge

many friends, yourself not the least among them,

whose great kindness I shall always thankfully

remember, as will Edward too, who I have told of

it. I am sure you will be glad to hear, as likewise

dear Mrs. Jennings, I spent two happy hours with

him yesterday afternoon, he would not hear of our

parting, though earnestly did I, as I thought my

duty required, urge him to it for prudence sake,

and would have parted for ever on the spot, would

he consent to it; but he said it should never be,

he did not regard his mother's anger, while he could

have my affections; our prospects are not very

bright, to be sure, but we must wait, and hope for

the best; he will be ordained shortly; and should

it ever be in your power to recommend him to any

body that has a living to bestow, am very sure you

will not forget us, and dear Mrs. Jennings too,

trust she will speak a good word for us to Sir John,

or Mr. Palmer, or any friend that may be able to

assist us.--Poor Anne was much to blame for what

she did, but she did it for the best, so I say

nothing; hope Mrs. Jennings won't think it too much

trouble to give us a call, should she come this way

any morning, 'twould be a great kindness, and my

cousins would be proud to know her.--My paper reminds

me to conclude; and begging to be most gratefully

and respectfully remembered to her, and to Sir John,

and Lady Middleton, and the dear children, when you

chance to see them, and love to Miss Marianne,

"I am, &c."

As soon as Elinor had finished it, she performed

what she concluded to be its writer's real design,

by placing it in the hands of Mrs. Jennings, who read it

aloud with many comments of satisfaction and praise.

"Very well indeed!--how prettily she writes!--aye,

that was quite proper to let him be off if he would.

That was just like Lucy.--Poor soul! I wish I COULD get

him a living, with all my heart.--She calls me dear

Mrs. Jennings, you see. She is a good-hearted girl

as ever lived.--Very well upon my word. That sentence

is very prettily turned. Yes, yes, I will go and see her,

sure enough. How attentive she is, to think of every

body!--Thank you, my dear, for shewing it me. It is

as pretty a letter as ever I saw, and does Lucy's head

and heart great credit."

CHAPTER 39

The Miss Dashwoods had now been rather more than

two months in town, and Marianne's impatience to be gone

increased every day. She sighed for the air, the liberty,

the quiet of the country; and fancied that if any place

could give her ease, Barton must do it. Elinor was hardly

less anxious than herself for their removal, and only so much

less bent on its being effected immediately, as that she

was conscious of the difficulties of so long a journey,

which Marianne could not be brought to acknowledge.

She began, however, seriously to turn her thoughts towards

its accomplishment, and had already mentioned their wishes

to their kind hostess, who resisted them with all the

eloquence of her good-will, when a plan was suggested,

which, though detaining them from home yet a few weeks

longer, appeared to Elinor altogether much more eligible

than any other. The Palmers were to remove to Cleveland

about the end of March, for the Easter holidays;

and Mrs. Jennings, with both her friends, received a very

warm invitation from Charlotte to go with them. This would

not, in itself, have been sufficient for the delicacy of

Miss Dashwood;--but it was inforced with so much real

politeness by Mr. Palmer himself, as, joined to the very

great amendment of his manners towards them since her

sister had been known to be unhappy, induced her to accept

it with pleasure.

When she told Marianne what she had done, however,

her first reply was not very auspicious.

"Cleveland!"--she cried, with great agitation.

"No, I cannot go to Cleveland."--

"You forget," said Elinor gently, "that its situation

is not...that it is not in the neighbourhood of..."

"But it is in Somersetshire.--I cannot go

into Somersetshire.--There, where I looked forward

to going...No, Elinor, you cannot expect me to go there."

Elinor would not argue upon the propriety of overcoming

such feelings;--she only endeavoured to counteract them by

working on others;--represented it, therefore, as a measure

which would fix the time of her returning to that dear mother,

whom she so much wished to see, in a more eligible,

more comfortable manner, than any other plan could do,

and perhaps without any greater delay. From Cleveland,

which was within a few miles of Bristol, the distance to

Barton was not beyond one day, though a long day's journey;

and their mother's servant might easily come there to attend

them down; and as there could be no occasion of their

staying above a week at Cleveland, they might now be at

home in little more than three weeks' time. As Marianne's

affection for her mother was sincere, it must triumph

with little difficulty, over the imaginary evils she had started.

Mrs. Jennings was so far from being weary of her guest,

that she pressed them very earnestly to return with her again

from Cleveland. Elinor was grateful for the attention,

but it could not alter her design; and their mother's

concurrence being readily gained, every thing relative

to their return was arranged as far as it could be;--

and Marianne found some relief in drawing up a statement

of the hours that were yet to divide her from Barton.

"Ah! Colonel, I do not know what you and I shall

do without the Miss Dashwoods;"--was Mrs. Jennings's

address to him when he first called on her, after their

leaving her was settled--"for they are quite resolved

upon going home from the Palmers;--and how forlorn we

shall be, when I come back!--Lord! we shall sit and gape

at one another as dull as two cats."

Perhaps Mrs. Jennings was in hopes, by this vigorous

sketch of their future ennui, to provoke him to make

that offer, which might give himself an escape from it;--

and if so, she had soon afterwards good reason to think

her object gained; for, on Elinor's moving to the window

to take more expeditiously the dimensions of a print,

which she was going to copy for her friend, he followed

her to it with a look of particular meaning, and conversed

with her there for several minutes. The effect of his

discourse on the lady too, could not escape her observation,

for though she was too honorable to listen, and had even

changed her seat, on purpose that she might NOT hear,

to one close by the piano forte on which Marianne

was playing, she could not keep herself from seeing

that Elinor changed colour, attended with agitation,

and was too intent on what he said to pursue her employment.--

Still farther in confirmation of her hopes, in the interval

of Marianne's turning from one lesson to another,

some words of the Colonel's inevitably reached her ear,

in which he seemed to be apologising for the badness

of his house. This set the matter beyond a doubt.

She wondered, indeed, at his thinking it necessary

to do so; but supposed it to be the proper etiquette.

What Elinor said in reply she could not distinguish,

but judged from the motion of her lips, that she did

not think THAT any material objection;--and Mrs. Jennings

commended her in her heart for being so honest.

They then talked on for a few minutes longer without her

catching a syllable, when another lucky stop in Marianne's

performance brought her these words in the Colonel's calm voice,--

"I am afraid it cannot take place very soon."

Astonished and shocked at so unlover-like a speech,

she was almost ready to cry out, "Lord! what should

hinder it?"--but checking her desire, confined herself

to this silent ejaculation.

"This is very strange!--sure he need not wait to be older."

This delay on the Colonel's side, however, did not

seem to offend or mortify his fair companion in the least,

for on their breaking up the conference soon afterwards,

and moving different ways, Mrs. Jennings very plainly heard

Elinor say, and with a voice which shewed her to feel what she said,

"I shall always think myself very much obliged to you."

Mrs. Jennings was delighted with her gratitude,

and only wondered that after hearing such a sentence,

the Colonel should be able to take leave of them, as he

immediately did, with the utmost sang-froid, and go away

without making her any reply!--She had not thought her old

friend could have made so indifferent a suitor.

What had really passed between them was to this effect.

"I have heard," said he, with great compassion,

"of the injustice your friend Mr. Ferrars has suffered

from his family; for if I understand the matter right,

he has been entirely cast off by them for persevering

in his engagement with a very deserving young woman.--

Have I been rightly informed?--Is it so?--"

Elinor told him that it was.

"The cruelty, the impolitic cruelty,"--he replied,

with great feeling,--"of dividing, or attempting to divide,

two young people long attached to each other, is terrible.--

Mrs. Ferrars does not know what she may be doing--what

she may drive her son to. I have seen Mr. Ferrars two

or three times in Harley Street, and am much pleased

with him. He is not a young man with whom one can

be intimately acquainted in a short time, but I have

seen enough of him to wish him well for his own sake,

and as a friend of yours, I wish it still more.

I understand that he intends to take orders. Will you

be so good as to tell him that the living of Delaford,

now just vacant, as I am informed by this day's post,

is his, if he think it worth his acceptance--but THAT,

perhaps, so unfortunately circumstanced as he is now,

it may be nonsense to appear to doubt; I only wish it

were more valuable.-- It is a rectory, but a small one;

the late incumbent, I believe, did not make more than

200 L per annum, and though it is certainly capable

of improvement, I fear, not to such an amount as

to afford him a very comfortable income. Such as it is,

however, my pleasure in presenting him to it,

will be very great. Pray assure him of it."

Elinor's astonishment at this commission could

hardly have been greater, had the Colonel been really

making her an offer of his hand. The preferment,

which only two days before she had considered as hopeless

for Edward, was already provided to enable him to marry;--

and SHE, of all people in the world, was fixed on to

bestow it!--Her emotion was such as Mrs. Jennings had

attributed to a very different cause;--but whatever minor

feelings less pure, less pleasing, might have a share

in that emotion, her esteem for the general benevolence,

and her gratitude for the particular friendship,

which together prompted Colonel Brandon to this act,

were strongly felt, and warmly expressed. She thanked him

for it with all her heart, spoke of Edward's principles and

disposition with that praise which she knew them to deserve;

and promised to undertake the commission with pleasure,

if it were really his wish to put off so agreeable an office

to another. But at the same time, she could not help

thinking that no one could so well perform it as himself.

It was an office in short, from which, unwilling to give

Edward the pain of receiving an obligation from HER,

she would have been very glad to be spared herself;--

but Colonel Brandon, on motives of equal delicacy,

declining it likewise, still seemed so desirous of its being

given through her means, that she would not on any account

make farther opposition. Edward, she believed, was still in

town,

and fortunately she had heard his address from Miss Steele.

She could undertake therefore to inform him of it,

in the course of the day. After this had been settled,

Colonel Brandon began to talk of his own advantage

in securing so respectable and agreeable a neighbour,

and THEN it was that he mentioned with regret, that the

house was small and indifferent;--an evil which Elinor,

as Mrs. Jennings had supposed her to do, made very light of,

at least as far as regarded its size.

"The smallness of the house," said she,

"I cannot imagine any inconvenience to them,

for it will be in proportion to their family and income."

By which the Colonel was surprised to find that SHE

was considering Mr. Ferrars's marriage as the certain

consequence of the presentation; for he did not suppose it

possible that Delaford living could supply such an income,

as anybody in his style of life would venture to settle on--

and he said so.

"This little rectory CAN do no more than make Mr. Ferrars

comfortable as a bachelor; it cannot enable him to marry.

I am sorry to say that my patronage ends with this;

and my interest is hardly more extensive. If, however,

by an unforeseen chance it should be in my power to serve

him farther, I must think very differently of him

from what I now do, if I am not as ready to be useful

to him then as I sincerely wish I could be at present.

What I am now doing indeed, seems nothing at all,

since it can advance him so little towards what must

be his principal, his only object of happiness.

His marriage must still be a distant good;--at least,

I am afraid it cannot take place very soon.--"

Such was the sentence which, when misunderstood,

so justly offended the delicate feelings of Mrs. Jennings;

but after this narration of what really passed between

Colonel Brandon and Elinor, while they stood at the window,

the gratitude expressed by the latter on their parting, may

perhaps appear in general, not less reasonably excited,

nor less properly worded than if it had arisen from

an offer of marriage.

CHAPTER 40

"Well, Miss Dashwood," said Mrs. Jennings,

sagaciously smiling, as soon as the gentleman had withdrawn,

"I do not ask you what the Colonel has been saying to you;

for though, upon my honour, I TRIED to keep out of hearing,

I could not help catching enough to understand his business.

And I assure you I never was better pleased in my life,

and I wish you joy of it with all my heart."

"Thank you, ma'am," said Elinor. "It is a matter

of great joy to me; and I feel the goodness of Colonel

Brandon most sensibly. There are not many men who would

act as he has done. Few people who have so compassionate

a heart! I never was more astonished in my life."

"Lord! my dear, you are very modest. I an't the least

astonished at it in the world, for I have often thought

of late, there was nothing more likely to happen."

"You judged from your knowledge of the Colonel's

general benevolence; but at least you could not foresee

that the opportunity would so very soon occur."

"Opportunity!" repeated Mrs. Jennings--"Oh! as to that,

when a man has once made up his mind to such a thing,

somehow or other he will soon find an opportunity.

Well, my dear, I wish you joy of it again and again;

and if ever there was a happy couple in the world, I think

I shall soon know where to look for them."

"You mean to go to Delaford after them I suppose,"

said Elinor, with a faint smile.

"Aye, my dear, that I do, indeed. And as to the house

being a bad one, I do not know what the Colonel would be at,

for it is as good a one as ever I saw."

"He spoke of its being out of repair."

"Well, and whose fault is that? why don't he repair it?--

who should do it but himself?"

They were interrupted by the servant's coming in to

announce the carriage being at the door; and Mrs. Jennings

immediately preparing to go, said,--

"Well, my dear, I must be gone before I have had half

my talk out. But, however, we may have it all over in

the evening; for we shall be quite alone. I do not ask

you to go with me, for I dare say your mind is too full

of the matter to care for company; and besides, you must

long to tell your sister all about it."

Marianne had left the room before the conversation began.

"Certainly, ma'am, I shall tell Marianne of it;

but I shall not mention it at present to any body else."

"Oh! very well," said Mrs. Jennings rather disappointed.

"Then you would not have me tell it to Lucy, for I think

of going as far as Holborn to-day."

"No, ma'am, not even Lucy if you please.

One day's delay will not be very material; and till I

have written to Mr. Ferrars, I think it ought not to be

mentioned to any body else. I shall do THAT directly.

It is of importance that no time should be lost with him,

for he will of course have much to do relative to

his ordination."

This speech at first puzzled Mrs. Jennings exceedingly.

Why Mr. Ferrars was to have been written to about it

in such a hurry, she could not immediately comprehend.

A few moments' reflection, however, produced a very happy idea,

and she exclaimed;--

"Oh, ho!--I understand you. Mr. Ferrars is to be

the man. Well, so much the better for him. Ay, to be sure,

he must be ordained in readiness; and I am very glad

to find things are so forward between you. But, my dear,

is not this rather out of character? Should not the Colonel

write himself?--sure, he is the proper person."

Elinor did not quite understand the beginning of

Mrs. Jennings's speech, neither did she think it worth

inquiring into; and therefore only replied to its conclusion.

"Colonel Brandon is so delicate a man, that he rather

wished any one to announce his intentions to Mr. Ferrars

than himself."

"And so YOU are forced to do it. Well THAT is an odd

kind of delicacy! However, I will not disturb you (seeing

her preparing to write.) You know your own concerns best.

So goodby, my dear. I have not heard of any thing to

please me so well since Charlotte was brought to bed."

And away she went; but returning again in a moment,

"I have just been thinking of Betty's sister, my dear.

I should be very glad to get her so good a mistress.

But whether she would do for a lady's maid, I am sure I

can't tell. She is an excellent housemaid, and works

very well at her needle. However, you will think of all

that at your leisure."

"Certainly, ma'am," replied Elinor, not hearing

much of what she said, and more anxious to be alone,

than to be mistress of the subject.

How she should begin--how she should express

herself in her note to Edward, was now all her concern.

The particular circumstances between them made

a difficulty of that which to any other person would

have been the easiest thing in the world; but she

equally feared to say too much or too little, and sat

deliberating over her paper, with the pen in her hand,

till broken in on by the entrance of Edward himself.

He had met Mrs. Jennings at the door in her way to

the carriage, as he came to leave his farewell card; and she,

after apologising for not returning herself, had obliged

him to enter, by saying that Miss Dashwood was above,

and wanted to speak with him on very particular business.

Elinor had just been congratulating herself,

in the midst of her perplexity, that however difficult it

might be to express herself properly by letter, it was

at least preferable to giving the information by word

of mouth, when her visitor entered, to force her upon this

greatest exertion of all. Her astonishment and confusion

were very great on his so sudden appearance. She had

not seen him before since his engagement became public,

and therefore not since his knowing her to be acquainted

with it; which, with the consciousness of what she

had been thinking of, and what she had to tell him,

made her feel particularly uncomfortable for some minutes.

He too was much distressed; and they sat down together

in a most promising state of embarrassment.--Whether he

had asked her pardon for his intrusion on first coming

into the room, he could not recollect; but determining

to be on the safe side, he made his apology in form

as soon as he could say any thing, after taking a chair.

"Mrs. Jennings told me," said he, "that you wished

to speak with me, at least I understood her so--or I

certainly should not have intruded on you in such a manner;

though at the same time, I should have been extremely

sorry to leave London without seeing you and your sister;

especially as it will most likely be some time--it

is not probable that I should soon have the pleasure

of meeting you again. I go to Oxford tomorrow."

"You would not have gone, however," said Elinor,

recovering herself, and determined to get over what she

so much dreaded as soon as possible, "without receiving

our good wishes, even if we had not been able to give them

in person. Mrs. Jennings was quite right in what she said.

I have something of consequence to inform you of,

which I was on the point of communicating by paper.

I am charged with a most agreeable office (breathing

rather faster than usual as she spoke.) Colonel Brandon,

who was here only ten minutes ago, has desired me to say,

that understanding you mean to take orders, he has

great pleasure in offering you the living of Delaford

now just vacant, and only wishes it were more valuable.

Allow me to congratulate you on having so respectable

and well-judging a friend, and to join in his wish that

the living--it is about two hundred a-year--were much

more considerable, and such as might better enable you

to--as might be more than a temporary accommodation to

yourself--such, in short, as might establish all your views

of happiness."

What Edward felt, as he could not say it himself,

it cannot be expected that any one else should say for him.

He LOOKED all the astonishment which such unexpected,

such unthought-of information could not fail of exciting;

but he said only these two words,

"Colonel Brandon!"

"Yes," continued Elinor, gathering more resolution,

as some of the worst was over, "Colonel Brandon means

it as a testimony of his concern for what has lately

passed--for the cruel situation in which the unjustifiable

conduct of your family has placed you--a concern

which I am sure Marianne, myself, and all your friends,

must share; and likewise as a proof of his high esteem

for your general character, and his particular approbation

of your behaviour on the present occasion."

"Colonel Brandon give ME a living!--Can it be possible?"

"The unkindness of your own relations has made you

astonished to find friendship any where."

"No," replied be, with sudden consciousness, "not to

find it in YOU; for I cannot be ignorant that to you,

to your goodness, I owe it all.--I feel it--I would express

it if I could--but, as you well know, I am no orator."

"You are very much mistaken. I do assure you

that you owe it entirely, at least almost entirely,

to your own merit, and Colonel Brandon's discernment

of it. I have had no hand in it. I did not even know,

till I understood his design, that the living was vacant;

nor had it ever occurred to me that he might have

had such a living in his gift. As a friend of mine,

of my family, he may, perhaps--indeed I know he HAS,

still greater pleasure in bestowing it; but, upon my word,

you owe nothing to my solicitation."

Truth obliged her to acknowledge some small share

in the action, but she was at the same time so unwilling

to appear as the benefactress of Edward, that she acknowledged

it with hesitation; which probably contributed to fix

that suspicion in his mind which had recently entered it.

For a short time he sat deep in thought, after Elinor had ceased

to speak;--at last, and as if it were rather an effort, he said,

"Colonel Brandon seems a man of great worth and respectability.

I have always heard him spoken of as such, and your brother

I know esteems him highly. He is undoubtedly a sensible man,

and in his manners perfectly the gentleman."

"Indeed," replied Elinor, "I believe that you will find him,

on farther acquaintance, all that you have heard him to be,

and as you will be such very near neighbours (for I understand

the parsonage is almost close to the mansion-house,)

it is particularly important that he SHOULD be all this."

Edward made no answer; but when she had turned

away her head, gave her a look so serious, so earnest,

so uncheerful, as seemed to say, that he might hereafter wish

the distance between the parsonage and the mansion-house

much greater.

"Colonel Brandon, I think, lodges in St. James Street,"

said he, soon afterwards, rising from his chair.

Elinor told him the number of the house.

"I must hurry away then, to give him those thanks

which you will not allow me to give YOU; to assure him

that he has made me a very--an exceedingly happy man."

Elinor did not offer to detain him; and they parted,

with a very earnest assurance on HER side of her unceasing

good wishes for his happiness in every change of situation

that might befall him; on HIS, with rather an attempt to

return the same good will, than the power of expressing it.

"When I see him again," said Elinor to herself,

as the door shut him out, "I shall see him the husband

of Lucy."

And with this pleasing anticipation, she sat down

to reconsider the past, recall the words and endeavour

to comprehend all the feelings of Edward; and, of course,

to reflect on her own with discontent.

When Mrs. Jennings came home, though she returned

from seeing people whom she had never seen before,

and of whom therefore she must have a great deal to say,

her mind was so much more occupied by the important secret

in her possession, than by anything else, that she

reverted to it again as soon as Elinor appeared.

"Well, my dear," she cried, "I sent you up to the

young man. Did not I do right?--And I suppose you had

no great difficulty--You did not find him very unwilling

to accept your proposal?"

"No, ma'am; THAT was not very likely."

"Well, and how soon will he be ready?--For it seems

all to depend upon that."

"Really," said Elinor, "I know so little of these kind

of forms, that I can hardly even conjecture as to the time,

or the preparation necessary; but I suppose two or three

months will complete his ordination."

"Two or three months!" cried Mrs. Jennings; "Lord! my dear,

how calmly you talk of it; and can the Colonel wait two

or three months! Lord bless me!--I am sure it would put ME

quite out of patience!--And though one would be very glad

to do a kindness by poor Mr. Ferrars, I do think it is

not worth while to wait two or three months for him.

Sure somebody else might be found that would do as well;

somebody that is in orders already."

"My dear ma'am," said Elinor, "what can you be thinking of?--

Why, Colonel Brandon's only object is to be of use to Mr. Ferrars."

"Lord bless you, my dear!--Sure you do not mean to persuade

me that the Colonel only marries you for the sake of giving

ten guineas to Mr. Ferrars!"

The deception could not continue after this;

and an explanation immediately took place, by which both

gained considerable amusement for the moment, without any

material loss of happiness to either, for Mrs. Jennings

only exchanged one form of delight for another, and still

without forfeiting her expectation of the first.

"Aye, aye, the parsonage is but a small one," said she,

after the first ebullition of surprise and satisfaction

was over, "and very likely MAY be out of repair; but to hear

a man apologising, as I thought, for a house that to my

knowledge has five sitting rooms on the ground-floor, and I

think the housekeeper told me could make up fifteen beds!--

and to you too, that had been used to live in Barton cottage!--

It seems quite ridiculous. But, my dear, we must

touch up the Colonel to do some thing to the parsonage,

and make it comfortable for them, before Lucy goes to it."

"But Colonel Brandon does not seem to have any idea

of the living's being enough to allow them to marry."

"The Colonel is a ninny, my dear; because he has two

thousand a-year himself, he thinks that nobody else can marry

on less. Take my word for it, that, if I am alive, I shall

be paying a visit at Delaford Parsonage before Michaelmas;

and I am sure I shan't go if Lucy an't there."

Elinor was quite of her opinion, as to the probability

of their not waiting for any thing more.

CHAPTER 41

Edward, having carried his thanks to Colonel Brandon,

proceeded with his happiness to Lucy; and such was the

excess of it by the time he reached Bartlett's Buildings,

that she was able to assure Mrs. Jennings, who called

on her again the next day with her congratulations,

that she had never seen him in such spirits before

in her life.

Her own happiness, and her own spirits, were at

least very certain; and she joined Mrs. Jennings most

heartily in her expectation of their being all comfortably

together in Delaford Parsonage before Michaelmas.

So far was she, at the same time, from any backwardness

to give Elinor that credit which Edward WOULD give her,

that she spoke of her friendship for them both with the most

grateful warmth, was ready to own all their obligation

to her, and openly declared that no exertion for their

good on Miss Dashwood's part, either present or future,

would ever surprise her, for she believed her capable of

doing any thing in the world for those she really valued.

As for Colonel Brandon, she was not only ready to worship

him as a saint, but was moreover truly anxious that

he should be treated as one in all worldly concerns;

anxious that his tithes should be raised to the utmost;

and scarcely resolved to avail herself, at Delaford,

as far as she possibly could, of his servants, his carriage,

his cows, and his poultry.

It was now above a week since John Dashwood had

called in Berkeley Street, and as since that time no notice

had been taken by them of his wife's indisposition,

beyond one verbal enquiry, Elinor began to feel it

necessary to pay her a visit.--This was an obligation,

however, which not only opposed her own inclination,

but which had not the assistance of any encouragement

from her companions. Marianne, not contented with

absolutely refusing to go herself, was very urgent

to prevent her sister's going at all; and Mrs. Jennings,

though her carriage was always at Elinor's service,

so very much disliked Mrs. John Dashwood, that not even her

curiosity to see how she looked after the late discovery,

nor her strong desire to affront her by taking Edward's part,

could overcome her unwillingness to be in her company again.

The consequence was, that Elinor set out by herself

to pay a visit, for which no one could really have

less inclination, and to run the risk of a tete-a-tete

with a woman, whom neither of the others had so much

reason to dislike.

Mrs. Dashwood was denied; but before the carriage could

turn from the house, her husband accidentally came out.

He expressed great pleasure in meeting Elinor, told her

that he had been just going to call in Berkeley Street,

and, assuring her that Fanny would be very glad to see her,

invited her to come in.

They walked up stairs in to the drawing-room.--Nobody was there.

"Fanny is in her own room, I suppose," said he:--"I

will go to her presently, for I am sure she will not

have the least objection in the world to seeing YOU.--

Very far from it, indeed. NOW especially there

cannot be--but however, you and Marianne were always

great favourites.--Why would not Marianne come?"--

Elinor made what excuse she could for her.

"I am not sorry to see you alone," he replied,

"for I have a good deal to say to you. This living

of Colonel Brandon's--can it be true?--has he really given

it to Edward?--I heard it yesterday by chance, and was

coming to you on purpose to enquire farther about it."

"It is perfectly true.--Colonel Brandon has given

the living of Delaford to Edward."

"Really!--Well, this is very astonishing!--no

relationship!--no connection between them!--and now

that livings fetch such a price!--what was the value of this?"

"About two hundred a year."

"Very well--and for the next presentation to a living

of that value--supposing the late incumbent to have

been old and sickly, and likely to vacate it soon--he

might have got I dare say--fourteen hundred pounds.

And how came he not to have settled that matter before this

person's death?--NOW indeed it would be too late to sell it,

but a man of Colonel Brandon's sense!--I wonder he should

be so improvident in a point of such common, such natural,

concern!--Well, I am convinced that there is a vast deal

of inconsistency in almost every human character. I suppose,

however--on recollection--that the case may probably be THIS.

Edward is only to hold the living till the person to whom

the Colonel has really sold the presentation, is old enough

to take it.--Aye, aye, that is the fact, depend upon it."

Elinor contradicted it, however, very positively;

and by relating that she had herself been employed

in conveying the offer from Colonel Brandon to Edward,

and, therefore, must understand the terms on which it

was given, obliged him to submit to her authority.

"It is truly astonishing!"--he cried, after hearing

what she said--"what could be the Colonel's motive?"

"A very simple one--to be of use to Mr. Ferrars."

"Well, well; whatever Colonel Brandon may be,

Edward is a very lucky man.--You will not mention the matter

to Fanny, however, for though I have broke it to her,

and she bears it vastly well,--she will not like to hear

it much talked of."

Elinor had some difficulty here to refrain from observing,

that she thought Fanny might have borne with composure,

an acquisition of wealth to her brother, by which neither

she nor her child could be possibly impoverished.

"Mrs. Ferrars," added he, lowering his voice to the

tone becoming so important a subject, "knows nothing

about it at present, and I believe it will be best to

keep it entirely concealed from her as long as may be.--

When the marriage takes place, I fear she must hear

of it all."

"But why should such precaution be used?--Though

it is not to be supposed that Mrs. Ferrars can have

the smallest satisfaction in knowing that her son has

money enough to live upon,--for THAT must be quite

out of the question; yet why, upon her late behaviour,

is she supposed to feel at all?--She has done with her

son, she cast him off for ever, and has made all those

over whom she had any influence, cast him off likewise.

Surely, after doing so, she cannot be imagined liable

to any impression of sorrow or of joy on his account--

she cannot be interested in any thing that befalls him.--

She would not be so weak as to throw away the comfort

of a child, and yet retain the anxiety of a parent!"

"Ah! Elinor," said John, "your reasoning is very good,

but it is founded on ignorance of human nature.

When Edward's unhappy match takes place, depend upon it

his mother will feel as much as if she had never discarded him;

and, therefore every circumstance that may accelerate that

dreadful event, must be concealed from her as much as possible.

Mrs. Ferrars can never forget that Edward is her son."

"You surprise me; I should think it must nearly

have escaped her memory by THIS time."

"You wrong her exceedingly. Mrs. Ferrars is one

of the most affectionate mothers in the world."

Elinor was silent.

"We think NOW,"--said Mr. Dashwood, after a short pause,

"of ROBERT'S marrying Miss Morton."

Elinor, smiling at the grave and decisive importance

of her brother's tone, calmly replied,

"The lady, I suppose, has no choice in the affair."

"Choice!--how do you mean?"

"I only mean that I suppose, from your manner

of speaking, it must be the same to Miss Morton whether

she marry Edward or Robert."

"Certainly, there can be no difference; for Robert

will now to all intents and purposes be considered

as the eldest son;--and as to any thing else, they are

both very agreeable young men: I do not know that one

is superior to the other."

Elinor said no more, and John was also for a short

time silent.--His reflections ended thus.

"Of ONE thing, my dear sister," kindly taking her hand,

and speaking in an awful whisper,--"I may assure you;--

and I WILL do it, because I know it must gratify you.

I have good reason to think--indeed I have it from the

best authority, or I should not repeat it, for otherwise

it would be very wrong to say any thing about it--but

I have it from the very best authority--not that I ever

precisely heard Mrs. Ferrars say it herself--but her

daughter DID, and I have it from her--That in short,

whatever objections there might be against a certain--a

certain connection--you understand me--it would have been

far preferable to her, it would not have given her half

the vexation that THIS does. I was exceedingly pleased

to hear that Mrs. Ferrars considered it in that light--

a very gratifying circumstance you know to us all.

'It would have been beyond comparison,' she said, 'the least

evil of the two, and she would be glad to compound NOW

for nothing worse.' But however, all that is quite out

of the question--not to be thought of or mentioned--

as to any attachment you know--it never could be--all

that is gone by. But I thought I would just tell you

of this, because I knew how much it must please you.

Not that you have any reason to regret, my dear Elinor. There

is no doubt of your doing exceedingly well--quite as well,

or better, perhaps, all things considered. Has Colonel

Brandon been with you lately?"

Elinor had heard enough, if not to gratify her vanity,

and raise her self-importance, to agitate her nerves

and fill her mind;--and she was therefore glad to be

spared from the necessity of saying much in reply herself,

and from the danger of hearing any thing more from

her brother, by the entrance of Mr. Robert Ferrars.

After a few moments' chat, John Dashwood, recollecting that

Fanny was yet uninformed of her sister's being there,

quitted the room in quest of her; and Elinor was left

to improve her acquaintance with Robert, who, by the

gay unconcern, the happy self-complacency of his manner

while enjoying so unfair a division of his mother's love

and liberality, to the prejudice of his banished brother,

earned only by his own dissipated course of life, and that

brother's integrity, was confirming her most unfavourable

opinion of his head and heart.

They had scarcely been two minutes by themselves,

before he began to speak of Edward; for he, too, had heard

of the living, and was very inquisitive on the subject.

Elinor repeated the particulars of it, as she had given them

to John; and their effect on Robert, though very different,

was not less striking than it had been on HIM. He laughed

most immoderately. The idea of Edward's being a clergyman,

and living in a small parsonage-house, diverted him

beyond measure;--and when to that was added the fanciful

imagery of Edward reading prayers in a white surplice,

and publishing the banns of marriage between John Smith and

Mary Brown, he could conceive nothing more ridiculous.

Elinor, while she waited in silence and immovable

gravity, the conclusion of such folly, could not restrain

her eyes from being fixed on him with a look that spoke

all the contempt it excited. It was a look, however,

very well bestowed, for it relieved her own feelings, and gave

no intelligence to him. He was recalled from wit to wisdom,

not by any reproof of her's, but by his own sensibility.

"We may treat it as a joke," said he, at last,

recovering from the affected laugh which had considerably

lengthened out the genuine gaiety of the moment--"but, upon

my soul, it is a most serious business. Poor Edward!

he is ruined for ever. I am extremely sorry for it--

for I know him to be a very good-hearted creature; as

well-meaning a fellow perhaps, as any in the world.

You must not judge of him, Miss Dashwood, from YOUR

slight acquaintance.--Poor Edward!--His manners are certainly

not the happiest in nature.--But we are not all born,

you know, with the same powers,--the same address.--

Poor fellow!--to see him in a circle of strangers!--

to be sure it was pitiable enough!--but upon my soul,

I believe he has as good a heart as any in the kingdom;

and I declare and protest to you I never was so shocked in my

life, as when it all burst forth. I could not believe it.--

My mother was the first person who told me of it;

and I, feeling myself called on to act with resolution,

immediately said to her, 'My dear madam, I do not know

what you may intend to do on the occasion, but as for myself,

I must say, that if Edward does marry this young woman,

I never will see him again.' That was what I said immediately.--

I was most uncommonly shocked, indeed!--Poor Edward!--he has

done for himself completely--shut himself out for ever from

all decent society!--but, as I directly said to my mother,

I am not in the least surprised at it; from his style

of education, it was always to be expected. My poor mother

was half frantic."

"Have you ever seen the lady?"

"Yes; once, while she was staying in this house,

I happened to drop in for ten minutes; and I saw

quite enough of her. The merest awkward country girl,

without style, or elegance, and almost without beauty.--

I remember her perfectly. Just the kind of girl I

should suppose likely to captivate poor Edward.

I offered immediately, as soon as my mother related

the affair to me, to talk to him myself, and dissuade

him from the match; but it was too late THEN, I found,

to do any thing, for unluckily, I was not in the way

at first, and knew nothing of it till after the breach

had taken place, when it was not for me, you know,

to interfere. But had I been informed of it a few

hours earlier--I think it is most probable--that something

might have been hit on. I certainly should have represented

it to Edward in a very strong light. 'My dear fellow,'

I should have said, 'consider what you are doing.

You are making a most disgraceful connection, and such a one

as your family are unanimous in disapproving.' I cannot

help thinking, in short, that means might have been found.

But now it is all too late. He must be starved, you know;--

that is certain; absolutely starved."

He had just settled this point with great composure,

when the entrance of Mrs. John Dashwood put an end to the

subject.

But though SHE never spoke of it out of her own family,

Elinor could see its influence on her mind, in the something

like confusion of countenance with which she entered,

and an attempt at cordiality in her behaviour to herself.

She even proceeded so far as to be concerned to find

that Elinor and her sister were so soon to leave town,

as she had hoped to see more of them;--an exertion

in which her husband, who attended her into the room,

and hung enamoured over her accents, seemed to distinguish

every thing that was most affectionate and graceful.

CHAPTER 42

One other short call in Harley Street, in which Elinor

received her brother's congratulations on their travelling

so far towards Barton without any expense, and on Colonel

Brandon's being to follow them to Cleveland in a day or two,

completed the intercourse of the brother and sisters

in town;--and a faint invitation from Fanny, to come

to Norland whenever it should happen to be in their way,

which of all things was the most unlikely to occur,

with a more warm, though less public, assurance, from John

to Elinor, of the promptitude with which he should come

to see her at Delaford, was all that foretold any meeting

in the country.

It amused her to observe that all her friends seemed

determined to send her to Delaford;--a place, in which,

of all others, she would now least chuse to visit,

or wish to reside; for not only was it considered as

her future home by her brother and Mrs. Jennings, but even Lucy,

when they parted, gave her a pressing invitation to visit her there.

Very early in April, and tolerably early in the day,

the two parties from Hanover Square and Berkeley Street set

out from their respective homes, to meet, by appointment,

on the road. For the convenience of Charlotte and her child,

they were to be more than two days on their journey,

and Mr. Palmer, travelling more expeditiously with Colonel Brandon,

was to join them at Cleveland soon after their arrival.

Marianne, few as had been her hours of comfort

in London, and eager as she had long been to quit it,

could not, when it came to the point, bid adieu to

the house in which she had for the last time enjoyed

those hopes, and that confidence, in Willoughby,

which were now extinguished for ever, without great pain.

Nor could she leave the place in which Willoughby remained,

busy in new engagements, and new schemes, in which SHE

could have no share, without shedding many tears.

Elinor's satisfaction, at the moment of removal,

was more positive. She had no such object for her lingering

thoughts to fix on, she left no creature behind, from whom

it would give her a moment's regret to be divided for ever,

she was pleased to be free herself from the persecution

of Lucy's friendship, she was grateful for bringing

her sister away unseen by Willoughby since his marriage,

and she looked forward with hope to what a few months

of tranquility at Barton might do towards restoring

Marianne's peace of mind, and confirming her own.

Their journey was safely performed. The second

day brought them into the cherished, or the prohibited,

county of Somerset, for as such was it dwelt on by turns

in Marianne's imagination; and in the forenoon of the third

they drove up to Cleveland.

Cleveland was a spacious, modern-built house,

situated on a sloping lawn. It had no park, but the

pleasure-grounds were tolerably extensive; and like

every other place of the same degree of importance,

it had its open shrubbery, and closer wood walk,

a road of smooth gravel winding round a plantation,

led to the front, the lawn was dotted over with timber,

the house itself was under the guardianship of the fir,

the mountain-ash, and the acacia, and a thick screen of

them altogether, interspersed with tall Lombardy poplars,

shut out the offices.

Marianne entered the house with a heart swelling

with emotion from the consciousness of being only eighty

miles from Barton, and not thirty from Combe Magna;

and before she had been five minutes within its walls,

while the others were busily helping Charlotte to show

her child to the housekeeper, she quitted it again,

stealing away through the winding shrubberies, now just

beginning to be in beauty, to gain a distant eminence;

where, from its Grecian temple, her eye, wandering over

a wide tract of country to the south-east, could fondly

rest on the farthest ridge of hills in the horizon,

and fancy that from their summits Combe Magna might be seen.

In such moments of precious, invaluable misery,

she rejoiced in tears of agony to be at Cleveland;

and as she returned by a different circuit to the house,

feeling all the happy privilege of country liberty,

of wandering from place to place in free and luxurious solitude,

she resolved to spend almost every hour of every day

while she remained with the Palmers, in the indulgence of

such solitary rambles.

She returned just in time to join the others

as they quitted the house, on an excursion through its

more immediate premises; and the rest of the morning was

easily whiled away, in lounging round the kitchen garden,

examining the bloom upon its walls, and listening to the

gardener's lamentations upon blights, in dawdling through

the green-house, where the loss of her favourite plants,

unwarily exposed, and nipped by the lingering frost,

raised the laughter of Charlotte,--and in visiting her

poultry-yard, where, in the disappointed hopes of her

dairy-maid, by hens forsaking their nests, or being

stolen by a fox, or in the rapid decrease of a promising

young brood, she found fresh sources of merriment.

The morning was fine and dry, and Marianne,

in her plan of employment abroad, had not calculated

for any change of weather during their stay at Cleveland.

With great surprise therefore, did she find herself prevented

by a settled rain from going out again after dinner.

She had depended on a twilight walk to the Grecian temple,

and perhaps all over the grounds, and an evening merely

cold or damp would not have deterred her from it;

but a heavy and settled rain even SHE could not fancy dry

or pleasant weather for walking.

Their party was small, and the hours passed quietly away.

Mrs. Palmer had her child, and Mrs. Jennings her carpet-work;

they talked of the friends they had left behind,

arranged Lady Middleton's engagements, and wondered

whether Mr. Palmer and Colonel Brandon would get farther

than Reading that night. Elinor, however little concerned

in it, joined in their discourse; and Marianne, who had

the knack of finding her way in every house to the library,

however it might be avoided by the family in general,

soon procured herself a book.

Nothing was wanting on Mrs. Palmer's side that constant

and friendly good humour could do, to make them feel

themselves welcome. The openness and heartiness of her

manner more than atoned for that want of recollection

and elegance which made her often deficient in the forms

of politeness; her kindness, recommended by so pretty

a face, was engaging; her folly, though evident

was not disgusting, because it was not conceited;

and Elinor could have forgiven every thing but her laugh.

The two gentlemen arrived the next day to a very

late dinner, affording a pleasant enlargement of the party,

and a very welcome variety to their conversation, which a

long morning of the same continued rain had reduced very low.

Elinor had seen so little of Mr. Palmer, and in that

little had seen so much variety in his address to her

sister and herself, that she knew not what to expect

to find him in his own family. She found him, however,

perfectly the gentleman in his behaviour to all his visitors,

and only occasionally rude to his wife and her mother;

she found him very capable of being a pleasant companion,

and only prevented from being so always, by too great

an aptitude to fancy himself as much superior to people

in general, as he must feel himself to be to Mrs. Jennings

and Charlotte. For the rest of his character and habits,

they were marked, as far as Elinor could perceive,

with no traits at all unusual in his sex and time of life.

He was nice in his eating, uncertain in his hours;

fond of his child, though affecting to slight it;

and idled away the mornings at billiards, which ought

to have been devoted to business. She liked him, however,

upon the whole, much better than she had expected, and in

her heart was not sorry that she could like him no more;--

not sorry to be driven by the observation of his Epicurism,

his selfishness, and his conceit, to rest with complacency

on the remembrance of Edward's generous temper, simple taste,

and diffident feelings.

Of Edward, or at least of some of his concerns,

she now received intelligence from Colonel Brandon,

who had been into Dorsetshire lately; and who,

treating her at once as the disinterested friend

of Mr. Ferrars, and the kind of confidant of himself,

talked to her a great deal of the parsonage at Delaford,

described its deficiencies, and told her what he meant

to do himself towards removing them.--His behaviour

to her in this, as well as in every other particular,

his open pleasure in meeting her after an absence

of only ten days, his readiness to converse with her,

and his deference for her opinion, might very well

justify Mrs. Jennings's persuasion of his attachment,

and would have been enough, perhaps, had not Elinor still,

as from the first, believed Marianne his real favourite,

to make her suspect it herself. But as it was,

such a notion had scarcely ever entered her head,

except by Mrs. Jennings's suggestion; and she could

not help believing herself the nicest observer of the

two;--she watched his eyes, while Mrs. Jennings thought

only of his behaviour;--and while his looks of anxious

solicitude on Marianne's feeling, in her head and throat,

the beginning of a heavy cold, because unexpressed by words,

entirely escaped the latter lady's observation;--SHE could

discover in them the quick feelings, and needless alarm

of a lover.

Two delightful twilight walks on the third and fourth

evenings of her being there, not merely on the dry gravel

of the shrubbery, but all over the grounds, and especially

in the most distant parts of them, where there was something

more of wildness than in the rest, where the trees were

the oldest, and the grass was the longest and wettest,

had--assisted by the still greater imprudence of sitting

in her wet shoes and stockings--given Marianne a cold

so violent as, though for a day or two trifled with

or denied, would force itself by increasing ailments on

the concern of every body, and the notice of herself.

Prescriptions poured in from all quarters, and as usual,

were all declined. Though heavy and feverish, with a pain

in her limbs, and a cough, and a sore throat, a good night's

rest was to cure her entirely; and it was with difficulty

that Elinor prevailed on her, when she went to bed,

to try one or two of the simplest of the remedies.

CHAPTER 43

Marianne got up the next morning at her usual time;

to every inquiry replied that she was better, and tried to

prove herself so, by engaging in her accustomary employments.

But a day spent in sitting shivering over the fire

with a book in her hand, which she was unable to read,

or in lying, weary and languid, on a sofa, did not speak

much in favour of her amendment; and when, at last,

she went early to bed, more and more indisposed, Colonel

Brandon was only astonished at her sister's composure,

who, though attending and nursing her the whole day,

against Marianne's inclination, and forcing proper medicines

on her at night, trusted, like Marianne, to the certainty

and efficacy of sleep, and felt no real alarm.

A very restless and feverish night, however,

disappointed the expectation of both; and when Marianne,

after persisting in rising, confessed herself unable

to sit up, and returned voluntarily to her bed,

Elinor was very ready to adopt Mrs. Jennings's advice,

of sending for the Palmers' apothecary.

He came, examined his patient, and though encouraging

Miss Dashwood to expect that a very few days would restore

her sister to health, yet, by pronouncing her disorder

to have a putrid tendency, and allowing the word "infection"

to pass his lips, gave instant alarm to Mrs. Palmer,

on her baby's account. Mrs. Jennings, who had been inclined

from the first to think Marianne's complaint more serious

than Elinor, now looked very grave on Mr. Harris's report,

and confirming Charlotte's fears and caution, urged the

necessity of her immediate removal with her infant;

and Mr. Palmer, though treating their apprehensions as idle,

found the anxiety and importunity of his wife too great

to be withstood. Her departure, therefore, was fixed on;

and within an hour after Mr. Harris's arrival, she set off,

with her little boy and his nurse, for the house of a

near relation of Mr. Palmer's, who lived a few miles

on the other side of Bath; whither her husband promised,

at her earnest entreaty, to join her in a day or two;

and whither she was almost equally urgent with her

mother to accompany her. Mrs. Jennings, however, with a

kindness of heart which made Elinor really love her,

declared her resolution of not stirring from Cleveland

as long as Marianne remained ill, and of endeavouring,

by her own attentive care, to supply to her the place

of the mother she had taken her from; and Elinor found her

on every occasion a most willing and active helpmate,

desirous to share in all her fatigues, and often by her

better experience in nursing, of material use.

Poor Marianne, languid and low from the nature

of her malady, and feeling herself universally ill,

could no longer hope that tomorrow would find her recovered;

and the idea of what tomorrow would have produced,

but for this unlucky illness, made every ailment severe;

for on that day they were to have begun their journey home;

and, attended the whole way by a servant of Mrs. Jennings,

were to have taken their mother by surprise on the

following forenoon. The little she said was all in

lamentation of this inevitable delay; though Elinor tried

to raise her spirits, and make her believe, as she THEN

really believed herself, that it would be a very short one.

The next day produced little or no alteration in the

state of the patient; she certainly was not better, and,

except that there was no amendment, did not appear worse.

Their party was now farther reduced; for Mr. Palmer,

though very unwilling to go as well from real humanity

and good-nature, as from a dislike of appearing to be

frightened away by his wife, was persuaded at last

by Colonel Brandon to perform his promise of following her;

and while he was preparing to go, Colonel Brandon himself,

with a much greater exertion, began to talk of going

likewise.--Here, however, the kindness of Mrs. Jennings

interposed most acceptably; for to send the Colonel away

while his love was in so much uneasiness on her sister's

account, would be to deprive them both, she thought,

of every comfort; and therefore telling him at once

that his stay at Cleveland was necessary to herself,

that she should want him to play at piquet of an evening,

while Miss Dashwood was above with her sister, &c. she

urged him so strongly to remain, that he, who was gratifying

the first wish of his own heart by a compliance, could not

long even affect to demur; especially as Mrs. Jennings's

entreaty was warmly seconded by Mr. Palmer, who seemed

to feel a relief to himself, in leaving behind him a person

so well able to assist or advise Miss Dashwood in any emergence.

Marianne was, of course, kept in ignorance of all

these arrangements. She knew not that she had been

the means of sending the owners of Cleveland away,

in about seven days from the time of their arrival.

It gave her no surprise that she saw nothing

of Mrs. Palmer; and as it gave her likewise no concern,

she never mentioned her name.

Two days passed away from the time of Mr. Palmer's departure,

and her situation continued, with little variation,

the same. Mr. Harris, who attended her every day,

still talked boldly of a speedy recovery, and Miss Dashwood

was equally sanguine; but the expectation of the others

was by no means so cheerful. Mrs. Jennings had determined

very early in the seizure that Marianne would never

get over it, and Colonel Brandon, who was chiefly

of use in listening to Mrs. Jennings's forebodings,

was not in a state of mind to resist their influence.

He tried to reason himself out of fears, which the different

judgment of the apothecary seemed to render absurd;

but the many hours of each day in which he was left

entirely alone, were but too favourable for the admission

of every melancholy idea, and he could not expel from

his mind the persuasion that he should see Marianne no more.

On the morning of the third day however, the gloomy

anticipations of both were almost done away; for when

Mr. Harris arrived, he declared his patient materially better.

Her pulse was much stronger, and every symptom more favourable

than on the preceding visit. Elinor, confirmed in every

pleasant hope, was all cheerfulness; rejoicing that

in her letters to her mother, she had pursued her own

judgment rather than her friend's, in making very light

of the indisposition which delayed them at Cleveland;

and almost fixing on the time when Marianne would be

able to travel.

But the day did not close so auspiciously as it began.--

Towards the evening Marianne became ill again, growing

more heavy, restless, and uncomfortable than before.

Her sister, however, still sanguine, was willing to

attribute the change to nothing more than the fatigue

of having sat up to have her bed made; and carefully

administering the cordials prescribed, saw her, with

satisfaction, sink at last into a slumber, from which

she expected the most beneficial effects. Her sleep,

though not so quiet as Elinor wished to see it,

lasted a considerable time; and anxious to observe

the result of it herself, she resolved to sit with her

during the whole of it. Mrs. Jennings, knowing nothing

of any change in the patient, went unusually early to bed;

her maid, who was one of the principal nurses, was recreating

herself in the housekeeper's room, and Elinor remained

alone with Marianne.

The repose of the latter became more and more disturbed;

and her sister, who watched, with unremitting attention

her continual change of posture, and heard the frequent

but inarticulate sounds of complaint which passed her lips,

was almost wishing to rouse her from so painful a slumber,

when Marianne, suddenly awakened by some accidental noise

in the house, started hastily up, and, with feverish wildness,

cried out,--

"Is mama coming?--"

"Not yet," cried the other, concealing her terror,

and assisting Marianne to lie down again, "but she will

be here, I hope, before it is long. It is a great way,

you know, from hence to Barton."

"But she must not go round by London," cried Marianne,

in the same hurried manner. "I shall never see her,

if she goes by London."

Elinor perceived with alarm that she was not

quite herself, and, while attempting to soothe her,

eagerly felt her pulse. It was lower and quicker than ever!

and Marianne, still talking wildly of mama, her alarm

increased so rapidly, as to determine her on sending

instantly for Mr. Harris, and despatching a messenger

to Barton for her mother. To consult with Colonel Brandon

on the best means of effecting the latter, was a thought

which immediately followed the resolution of its performance;

and as soon she had rung up the maid to take her place

by her sister, she hastened down to the drawing-room,

where she knew he was generally to be found at a much

later hour than the present.

It was no time for hesitation. Her fears and her

difficulties were immediately before him. Her fears,

he had no courage, no confidence to attempt the removal of:--

he listened to them in silent despondence;--but her

difficulties were instantly obviated, for with a readiness

that seemed to speak the occasion, and the service

pre-arranged in his mind, he offered himself as the

messenger who should fetch Mrs. Dashwood. Elinor made no

resistance that was not easily overcome. She thanked him

with brief, though fervent gratitude, and while he went

to hurry off his servant with a message to Mr. Harris, and

an order for post-horses directly, she wrote a few lines

to her mother.

The comfort of such a friend at that moment as Colonel

Brandon--or such a companion for her mother,--how gratefully

was it felt!--a companion whose judgment would guide,

whose attendance must relieve, and whose friendship might

soothe her!--as far as the shock of such a summons COULD

be lessened to her, his presence, his manners, his assistance,

would lessen it.

HE, meanwhile, whatever he might feel, acted with all

the firmness of a collected mind, made every necessary

arrangement with the utmost despatch, and calculated

with exactness the time in which she might look for

his return. Not a moment was lost in delay of any kind.

The horses arrived, even before they were expected,

and Colonel Brandon only pressing her hand with a look

of solemnity, and a few words spoken too low to reach her ear,

hurried into the carriage. It was then about twelve

o'clock, and she returned to her sister's apartment to wait

for the arrival of the apothecary, and to watch by her

the rest of the night. It was a night of almost equal

suffering to both. Hour after hour passed away in sleepless

pain and delirium on Marianne's side, and in the most

cruel anxiety on Elinor's, before Mr. Harris appeared.

Her apprehensions once raised, paid by their excess for all

her former security; and the servant who sat up with her,

for she would not allow Mrs. Jennings to be called,

only tortured her more, by hints of what her mistress

had always thought.

Marianne's ideas were still, at intervals,

fixed incoherently on her mother, and whenever she

mentioned her name, it gave a pang to the heart of

poor Elinor, who, reproaching herself for having trifled

with so many days of illness, and wretched for some

immediate relief, fancied that all relief might soon

be in vain, that every thing had been delayed too long,

and pictured to herself her suffering mother arriving

too late to see this darling child, or to see her rational.

She was on the point of sending again for Mr. Harris,

or if HE could not come, for some other advice,

when the former--but not till after five o'clock--arrived.

His opinion, however, made some little amends for his delay,

for though acknowledging a very unexpected and unpleasant

alteration in his patient, he would not allow the danger

to be material, and talked of the relief which a fresh

mode of treatment must procure, with a confidence which,

in a lesser degree, was communicated to Elinor. He promised

to call again in the course of three or four hours,

and left both the patient and her anxious attendant more

composed than he had found them.

With strong concern, and with many reproaches for not

being called to their aid, did Mrs. Jennings hear in the

morning of what had passed. Her former apprehensions,

now with greater reason restored, left her no doubt of

the event; and though trying to speak comfort to Elinor,

her conviction of her sister's danger would not allow her

to offer the comfort of hope. Her heart was really grieved.

The rapid decay, the early death of a girl so young,

so lovely as Marianne, must have struck a less interested

person with concern. On Mrs. Jennings's compassion

she had other claims. She had been for three months

her companion, was still under her care, and she was

known to have been greatly injured, and long unhappy.

The distress of her sister too, particularly a favourite,

was before her;--and as for their mother, when Mrs. Jennings

considered that Marianne might probably be to HER what

Charlotte was to herself, her sympathy in HER sufferings

was very sincere.

Mr. Harris was punctual in his second visit;--

but he came to be disappointed in his hopes of what the

last would produce. His medicines had failed;--the fever

was unabated; and Marianne only more quiet--not more

herself--remained in a heavy stupor. Elinor, catching all,

and more than all, his fears in a moment, proposed to call

in further advice. But he judged it unnecessary: he had

still something more to try, some more fresh application,

of whose success he was as confident as the last, and his

visit concluded with encouraging assurances which reached

the ear, but could not enter the heart of Miss Dashwood.

She was calm, except when she thought of her mother;

but she was almost hopeless; and in this state she continued

till noon, scarcely stirring from her sister's bed,

her thoughts wandering from one image of grief,

one suffering friend to another, and her spirits oppressed

to the utmost by the conversation of Mrs. Jennings,

who scrupled not to attribute the severity and danger

of this attack to the many weeks of previous indisposition

which Marianne's disappointment had brought on.

Elinor felt all the reasonableness of the idea, and it

gave fresh misery to her reflections.

About noon, however, she began--but with a caution--a

dread of disappointment which for some time kept her silent,

even to her friend--to fancy, to hope she could perceive

a slight amendment in her sister's pulse;--she waited,

watched, and examined it again and again;--and at last,

with an agitation more difficult to bury under exterior calmness,

than all her foregoing distress, ventured to communicate

her hopes. Mrs. Jennings, though forced, on examination,

to acknowledge a temporary revival, tried to keep her

young friend from indulging a thought of its continuance;--

and Elinor, conning over every injunction of distrust,

told herself likewise not to hope. But it was too late.

Hope had already entered; and feeling all its anxious flutter,

she bent over her sister to watch--she hardly knew for what.

Half an hour passed away, and the favourable symptom

yet blessed her. Others even arose to confirm it.

Her breath, her skin, her lips, all flattered Elinor

with signs of amendment; and Marianne fixed her eyes on

her with a rational, though languid, gaze. Anxiety and

hope now oppressed her in equal degrees, and left her no

moment of tranquillity till the arrival of Mr. Harris at

four o'clock;--when his assurances, his felicitations on

a recovery in her sister even surpassing his expectation,

gave her confidence, comfort, and tears of joy.

Marianne was in every respect materially better,

and he declared her entirely out of danger. Mrs. Jennings,

perhaps satisfied with the partial justification of her

forebodings which had been found in their late alarm,

allowed herself to trust in his judgment, and admitted,

with unfeigned joy, and soon with unequivocal cheerfulness,

the probability of an entire recovery.

Elinor could not be cheerful. Her joy was of a

different kind, and led to any thing rather than to gaiety.

Marianne restored to life, health, friends, and to her

doting mother, was an idea to fill her heart with sensations

of exquisite comfort, and expand it in fervent gratitude;--

but it lead to no outward demonstrations of joy, no words,

no smiles. All within Elinor's breast was satisfaction,

silent and strong.

She continued by the side of her sister, with little

intermission the whole afternoon, calming every fear,

satisfying every inquiry of her enfeebled spirits,

supplying every succour, and watching almost every look and

every breath. The possibility of a relapse would of course,

in some moments, occur to remind her of what anxiety was--

but when she saw, on her frequent and minute examination,

that every symptom of recovery continued, and saw Marianne

at six o'clock sink into a quiet, steady, and to all

appearance comfortable, sleep, she silenced every doubt.

The time was now drawing on, when Colonel Brandon

might be expected back. At ten o'clock, she trusted,

or at least not much later her mother would be relieved

from the dreadful suspense in which she must now be

travelling towards them. The Colonel, too!--perhaps scarcely

less an object of pity!--Oh!--how slow was the progress

of time which yet kept them in ignorance!

At seven o'clock, leaving Marianne still sweetly asleep,

she joined Mrs. Jennings in the drawing-room to tea.

Of breakfast she had been kept by her fears, and of

dinner by their sudden reverse, from eating much;--

and the present refreshment, therefore, with such feelings

of content as she brought to it, was particularly welcome.

Mrs. Jennings would have persuaded her, at its conclusion,

to take some rest before her mother's arrival, and allow HER to

take her place by Marianne; but Elinor had no sense of fatigue,

no capability of sleep at that moment about her, and she was

not to be kept away from her sister an unnecessary instant.

Mrs. Jennings therefore attending her up stairs into the

sick chamber, to satisfy herself that all continued right,

left her there again to her charge and her thoughts,

and retired to her own room to write letters and sleep.

The night was cold and stormy. The wind roared

round the house, and the rain beat against the windows;

but Elinor, all happiness within, regarded it not.

Marianne slept through every blast; and the travellers--

they had a rich reward in store, for every present inconvenience.

The clock struck eight. Had it been ten,

Elinor would have been convinced that at that moment

she heard a carriage driving up to the house;

and so strong was the persuasion that she DID, in spite

of the ALMOST impossibility of their being already come,

that she moved into the adjoining dressing-closet and

opened a window shutter, to be satisfied of the truth.

She instantly saw that her ears had not deceived her.

The flaring lamps of a carriage were immediately in view.

By their uncertain light she thought she could discern it

to be drawn by four horses; and this, while it told the

excess of her poor mother's alarm, gave some explanation

to such unexpected rapidity.

Never in her life had Elinor found it so difficult

to be calm, as at that moment. The knowledge of what her

mother must be feeling as the carriage stopt at the door--

of her doubt--her dread--perhaps her despair!--and

of what SHE had to tell!--with such knowledge it was

impossible to be calm. All that remained to be done

was to be speedy; and, therefore staying only till

she could leave Mrs. Jennings's maid with her sister,

she hurried down stairs.

The bustle in the vestibule, as she passed along

an inner lobby, assured her that they were already

in the house. She rushed to the drawing-room,--she

entered it,--and saw only Willoughby.

CHAPTER 44

Elinor, starting back with a look of horror at

the sight of him, obeyed the first impulse of her heart

in turning instantly to quit the room, and her hand

was already on the lock, when its action was suspended

by his hastily advancing, and saying, in a voice rather

of command than supplication,

"Miss Dashwood, for half an hour--for ten minutes--

I entreat you to stay."

"No, sir," she replied with firmness, "I shall NOT stay.

Your business cannot be with ME. The servants, I suppose,

forgot to tell you that Mr. Palmer was not in the house."

"Had they told me," he cried with vehemence,

"that Mr. Palmer and all his relations were at the devil,

it would not have turned me from the door. My business

is with you, and only you."

"With me!"--in the utmost amazement--"well, sir,--

be quick--and if you can--less violent."

"Sit down, and I will be both."

She hesitated; she knew not what to do. The possibility

of Colonel Brandon's arriving and finding her there,

came across her. But she had promised to hear him,

and her curiosity no less than her honor was engaged.

After a moment's recollection, therefore, concluding that

prudence required dispatch, and that her acquiescence would

best promote it, she walked silently towards the table,

and sat down. He took the opposite chair, and for half

a minute not a word was said by either.

"Pray be quick, sir,"--said Elinor, impatiently;--

"I have no time to spare."

He was sitting in an attitude of deep meditation,

and seemed not to hear her.

"Your sister," said he, with abruptness, a moment

afterwards--"is out of danger. I heard it from the servant.

God be praised!--But is it true? is it really true?"

Elinor would not speak. He repeated the inquiry with

yet greater eagerness.

"For God's sake tell me, is she out of danger, or is she not?"

"We hope she is."

He rose up, and walked across the room.

"Had I known as much half an hour ago--But

since I AM here,"--speaking with a forced vivacity as he

returned to his seat--"what does it signify?--For once,

Miss Dashwood--it will be the last time, perhaps--let us

be cheerful together.--I am in a fine mood for gaiety.--

Tell me honestly"--a deeper glow overspreading his cheeks--

"do you think me most a knave or a fool?"

Elinor looked at him with greater astonishment than ever.

She began to think that he must be in liquor;--the

strangeness of such a visit, and of such manners,

seemed no otherwise intelligible; and with this impression

she immediately rose, saying,

"Mr. Willoughby, I advise you at present to return

to Combe--I am not at leisure to remain with you longer.--

Whatever your business may be with me, will it be better

recollected and explained to-morrow."

"I understand you," he replied, with an expressive smile,

and a voice perfectly calm; "yes, I am very drunk.--

A pint of porter with my cold beef at Marlborough was

enough to over-set me."

"At Marlborough!"--cried Elinor, more and more at

a loss to understand what he would be at.

"Yes,--I left London this morning at eight o'clock,

and the only ten minutes I have spent out of my chaise

since that time procured me a nuncheon at Marlborough."

The steadiness of his manner, and the intelligence

of his eye as he spoke, convincing Elinor, that whatever

other unpardonable folly might bring him to Cleveland,

he was not brought there by intoxication, she said,

after a moment's recollection,

"Mr. Willoughby, you OUGHT to feel, and I certainly

DO--that after what has passed--your coming here in

this manner, and forcing yourself upon my notice,

requires a very particular excuse.--What is it,

that you mean by it?"--

"I mean,"--said he, with serious energy--"if I can,

to make you hate me one degree less than you do NOW.

I mean to offer some kind of explanation, some kind

of apology, for the past; to open my whole heart to you,

and by convincing you, that though I have been always

a blockhead, I have not been always a rascal, to obtain

something like forgiveness from Ma--from your sister."

"Is this the real reason of your coming?"

"Upon my soul it is,"--was his answer, with a warmth

which brought all the former Willoughby to her remembrance,

and in spite of herself made her think him sincere.

"If that is all, you may be satisfied already,--

for Marianne DOES--she has LONG forgiven you."

"Has she?"--he cried, in the same eager tone.--

"Then she has forgiven me before she ought to have done it.

But she shall forgive me again, and on more reasonable

grounds.--NOW will you listen to me?"

Elinor bowed her assent.

"I do not know," said he, after a pause of expectation

on her side, and thoughtfulness on his own,--"how YOU

may have accounted for my behaviour to your sister,

or what diabolical motive you may have imputed to me.--

Perhaps you will hardly think the better of me,--it is

worth the trial however, and you shall hear every thing.

When I first became intimate in your family, I had no

other intention, no other view in the acquaintance

than to pass my time pleasantly while I was obliged to remain

in Devonshire, more pleasantly than I had ever done before.

Your sister's lovely person and interesting manners

could not but please me; and her behaviour to me almost

from the first, was of a kind--It is astonishing,

when I reflect on what it was, and what SHE was, that my

heart should have been so insensible! But at first

I must confess, my vanity only was elevated by it.

Careless of her happiness, thinking only of my own amusement,

giving way to feelings which I had always been too much

in the habit of indulging, I endeavoured, by every means

in my power, to make myself pleasing to her, without any

design of returning her affection."

Miss Dashwood, at this point, turning her eyes on him

with the most angry contempt, stopped him, by saying,

"It is hardly worth while, Mr. Willoughby,

for you to relate, or for me to listen any longer.

Such a beginning as this cannot be followed by any thing.--

Do not let me be pained by hearing any thing more on

the subject."

"I insist on you hearing the whole of it," he replied,

"My fortune was never large, and I had always been expensive,

always in the habit of associating with people of better

income than myself. Every year since my coming of age,

or even before, I believe, had added to my debts; and though

the death of my old cousin, Mrs. Smith, was to set me free;

yet that event being uncertain, and possibly far distant,

it had been for some time my intention to re-establish my

circumstances by marrying a woman of fortune. To attach

myself to your sister, therefore, was not a thing to be

thought of;--and with a meanness, selfishness, cruelty--

which no indignant, no contemptuous look, even of yours,

Miss Dashwood, can ever reprobate too much--I was acting

in this manner, trying to engage her regard, without a

thought of returning it.--But one thing may be said

for me: even in that horrid state of selfish vanity,

I did not know the extent of the injury I meditated,

because I did not THEN know what it was to love.

But have I ever known it?--Well may it be doubted; for, had I

really loved, could I have sacrificed my feelings to vanity,

to avarice?--or, what is more, could I have sacrificed hers?--

But I have done it. To avoid a comparative poverty,

which her affection and her society would have deprived

of all its horrors, I have, by raising myself to affluence,

lost every thing that could make it a blessing."

"You did then," said Elinor, a little softened,

"believe yourself at one time attached to her?"

"To have resisted such attractions, to have withstood

such tenderness!--Is there a man on earth who could have

done it?--Yes, I found myself, by insensible degrees,

sincerely fond of her; and the happiest hours of my life

were what I spent with her when I felt my intentions

were strictly honourable, and my feelings blameless.

Even THEN, however, when fully determined on paying

my addresses to her, I allowed myself most improperly

to put off, from day to day, the moment of doing it,

from an unwillingness to enter into an engagement

while my circumstances were so greatly embarrassed.

I will not reason here--nor will I stop for YOU to expatiate

on the absurdity, and the worse than absurdity, of scrupling

to engage my faith where my honour was already bound.

The event has proved, that I was a cunning fool,

providing with great circumspection for a possible

opportunity of making myself contemptible and wretched

for ever. At last, however, my resolution was taken,

and I had determined, as soon as I could engage her alone,

to justify the attentions I had so invariably paid her,

and openly assure her of an affection which I had already

taken such pains to display. But in the interim--in the

interim of the very few hours that were to pass, before I

could have an opportunity of speaking with her in private--

a circumstance occurred--an unlucky circumstance, to ruin

all my resolution, and with it all my comfort. A discovery

took place,"--here he hesitated and looked down.--"Mrs. Smith

had somehow or other been informed, I imagine by some

distant relation, whose interest it was to deprive me of

her favour, of an affair, a connection--but I need not

explain myself farther," he added, looking at her with an

heightened colour and an enquiring eye--"your particular

intimacy--you have probably heard the whole story long ago."

"I have," returned Elinor, colouring likewise,

and hardening her heart anew against any compassion for him,

"I have heard it all. And how you will explain away any

part of your guilt in that dreadful business, I confess

is beyond my comprehension."

"Remember," cried Willoughby, "from whom you received

the account. Could it be an impartial one? I acknowledge

that her situation and her character ought to have been

respected by me. I do not mean to justify myself, but at

the same time cannot leave you to suppose that I have nothing

to urge--that because she was injured she was irreproachable,

and because I was a libertine, SHE must be a saint.

If the violence of her passions, the weakness of her

understanding--I do not mean, however, to defend myself.

Her affection for me deserved better treatment, and I often,

with great self-reproach, recall the tenderness which,

for a very short time, had the power of creating any return.

I wish--I heartily wish it had never been. But I have injured

more than herself; and I have injured one, whose affection

for me--(may I say it?) was scarcely less warm than hers;

and whose mind--Oh! how infinitely superior!"--

"Your indifference, however, towards that unfortunate

girl--I must say it, unpleasant to me as the discussion

of such a subject may well be--your indifference is no

apology for your cruel neglect of her. Do not think yourself

excused by any weakness, any natural defect of understanding

on her side, in the wanton cruelty so evident on yours.

You must have known, that while you were enjoying yourself

in Devonshire pursuing fresh schemes, always gay,

always happy, she was reduced to the extremest indigence."

"But, upon my soul, I did NOT know it," he warmly

replied; "I did not recollect that I had omitted to give

her my direction; and common sense might have told her

how to find it out."

"Well, sir, and what said Mrs. Smith?"

"She taxed me with the offence at once, and my confusion

may be guessed. The purity of her life, the formality

of her notions, her ignorance of the world--every thing

was against me. The matter itself I could not deny,

and vain was every endeavour to soften it. She was

previously disposed, I believe, to doubt the morality of my

conduct in general, and was moreover discontented with

the very little attention, the very little portion of my

time that I had bestowed on her, in my present visit.

In short, it ended in a total breach. By one measure I

might have saved myself. In the height of her morality,

good woman! she offered to forgive the past, if I would

marry Eliza. That could not be--and I was formally

dismissed from her favour and her house. The night

following this affair--I was to go the next morning--

was spent by me in deliberating on what my future conduct

should be. The struggle was great--but it ended too soon.

My affection for Marianne, my thorough conviction of her

attachment to me--it was all insufficient to outweigh

that dread of poverty, or get the better of those false

ideas of the necessity of riches, which I was naturally

inclined to feel, and expensive society had increased.

I had reason to believe myself secure of my present wife,

if I chose to address her, and I persuaded myself to think

that nothing else in common prudence remained for me to do.

A heavy scene however awaited me, before I could leave

Devonshire;--I was engaged to dine with you on that very day;

some apology was therefore necessary for my breaking

this engagement. But whether I should write this apology,

or deliver it in person, was a point of long debate.

To see Marianne, I felt, would be dreadful, and I even doubted

whether I could see her again, and keep to my resolution.

In that point, however, I undervalued my own magnanimity,

as the event declared; for I went, I saw her, and saw

her miserable, and left her miserable--and left her hoping

never to see her again."

"Why did you call, Mr. Willoughby?" said Elinor,

reproachfully; "a note would have answered every purpose.--

Why was it necessary to call?"

"It was necessary to my own pride. I could not bear

to leave the country in a manner that might lead you,

or the rest of the neighbourhood, to suspect any part

of what had really passed between Mrs. Smith and myself--

and I resolved therefore on calling at the cottage,

in my way to Honiton. The sight of your dear sister,

however, was really dreadful; and, to heighten the matter,

I found her alone. You were all gone I do not know where.

I had left her only the evening before, so fully,

so firmly resolved within my self on doing right!

A few hours were to have engaged her to me for ever;

and I remember how happy, how gay were my spirits, as I

walked from the cottage to Allenham, satisfied with myself,

delighted with every body! But in this, our last interview

of friendship, I approached her with a sense of guilt

that almost took from me the power of dissembling.

Her sorrow, her disappointment, her deep regret, when I told

her that I was obliged to leave Devonshire so immediately--I

never shall forget it--united too with such reliance,

such confidence in me!--Oh, God!--what a hard-hearted

rascal I was!"

They were both silent for a few moments.

Elinor first spoke.

"Did you tell her that you should soon return?"

"I do not know what I told her," he replied, impatiently;

"less than was due to the past, beyond a doubt, and in all

likelihood much more than was justified by the future.

I cannot think of it.--It won't do.--Then came your dear mother

to torture me farther, with all her kindness and confidence.

Thank Heaven! it DID torture me. I was miserable.

Miss Dashwood, you cannot have an idea of the comfort it

gives me to look back on my own misery. I owe such a grudge

to myself for the stupid, rascally folly of my own heart,

that all my past sufferings under it are only triumph and

exultation to me now. Well, I went, left all that I loved,

and went to those to whom, at best, I was only indifferent.

My journey to town--travelling with my own horses,

and therefore so tediously--no creature to speak to--my

own reflections so cheerful--when I looked forward

every thing so inviting!--when I looked back at Barton,

the picture so soothing!--oh, it was a blessed journey!"

He stopped.

"Well, sir," said Elinor, who, though pitying him,

grew impatient for his departure, "and this is all?"

"Ah!--no,--have you forgot what passed in town?--

That infamous letter--Did she shew it you?"

"Yes, I saw every note that passed."

"When the first of hers reached me (as it immediately did,

for I was in town the whole time,) what I felt is--

in the common phrase, not to be expressed; in a more

simple one--perhaps too simple to raise any emotion--

my feelings were very, very painful.--Every line, every word

was--in the hackneyed metaphor which their dear writer,

were she here, would forbid--a dagger to my heart.

To know that Marianne was in town was--in the same language--

a thunderbolt.--Thunderbolts and daggers!--what a reproof

would she have given me!--her taste, her opinions--I believe

they are better known to me than my own,--and I am sure

they are dearer."

Elinor's heart, which had undergone many changes

in the course of this extraordinary conversation,

was now softened again;--yet she felt it her duty to check

such ideas in her companion as the last.

"This is not right, Mr. Willoughby.--Remember that

you are married. Relate only what in your conscience

you think necessary for me to hear."

"Marianne's note, by assuring me that I was still

as dear to her as in former days, that in spite of the many,

many weeks we had been separated, she was as constant

in her own feelings, and as full of faith in the constancy

of mine as ever, awakened all my remorse. I say awakened,

because time and London, business and dissipation,

had in some measure quieted it, and I had been growing

a fine hardened villain, fancying myself indifferent to her,

and chusing to fancy that she too must have become

indifferent to me; talking to myself of our past attachment

as a mere idle, trifling business, shrugging up my shoulders

in proof of its being so, and silencing every reproach,

overcoming every scruple, by secretly saying now and then,

'I shall be heartily glad to hear she is well married.'--

But this note made me know myself better. I felt that

she was infinitely dearer to me than any other woman

in the world, and that I was using her infamously.

But every thing was then just settled between Miss Grey

and me. To retreat was impossible. All that I had to do,

was to avoid you both. I sent no answer to Marianne,

intending by that to preserve myself from her farther notice;

and for some time I was even determined not to call in

Berkeley Street;--but at last, judging it wiser to affect

the air of a cool, common acquaintance than anything else,

I watched you all safely out of the house one morning,

and left my name."

"Watched us out of the house!"

"Even so. You would be surprised to hear how often

I watched you, how often I was on the point of falling

in with you. I have entered many a shop to avoid your sight,

as the carriage drove by. Lodging as I did in Bond Street,

there was hardly a day in which I did not catch a glimpse

of one or other of you; and nothing but the most constant

watchfulness on my side, a most invariably prevailing

desire to keep out of your sight, could have separated us

so long. I avoided the Middletons as much as possible,

as well as everybody else who was likely to prove

an acquaintance in common. Not aware of their being

in town, however, I blundered on Sir John, I believe,

the first day of his coming, and the day after I had called

at Mrs. Jennings's. He asked me to a party, a dance at his

house in the evening.--Had he NOT told me as an inducement

that you and your sister were to be there, I should have

felt it too certain a thing, to trust myself near him.

The next morning brought another short note from Marianne--

still affectionate, open, artless, confiding--everything

that could make MY conduct most hateful. I could not

answer it. I tried--but could not frame a sentence.

But I thought of her, I believe, every moment of the day.

If you CAN pity me, Miss Dashwood, pity my situation as it

was THEN. With my head and heart full of your sister,

I was forced to play the happy lover to another woman!--Those

three or four weeks were worse than all. Well, at last,

as I need not tell you, you were forced on me; and what a

sweet figure I cut!--what an evening of agony it was!--

Marianne, beautiful as an angel on one side, calling me

Willoughby in such a tone!--Oh, God!--holding out her hand

to me, asking me for an explanation, with those bewitching

eyes fixed in such speaking solicitude on my face!--and

Sophia, jealous as the devil on the other hand, looking

all that was--Well, it does not signify; it is over now.--

Such an evening!--I ran away from you all as soon as I could;

but not before I had seen Marianne's sweet face as white

as death.--THAT was the last, last look I ever had of her;--

the last manner in which she appeared to me. It was a horrid

sight!--yet when I thought of her to-day as really dying,

it was a kind of comfort to me to imagine that I knew

exactly how she would appear to those, who saw her last

in this world. She was before me, constantly before me,

as I travelled, in the same look and hue."

A short pause of mutual thoughtfulness succeeded.

Willoughby first rousing himself, broke it thus:

"Well, let me make haste and be gone. Your sister

is certainly better, certainly out of danger?"

"We are assured of it."

"Your poor mother, too!--doting on Marianne."

"But the letter, Mr. Willoughby, your own letter;

have you any thing to say about that?"

"Yes, yes, THAT in particular. Your sister

wrote to me again, you know, the very next morning.

You saw what she said. I was breakfasting at the

Ellisons,--and her letter, with some others, was brought

to me there from my lodgings. It happened to catch

Sophia's eye before it caught mine--and its size,

the elegance of the paper, the hand-writing altogether,

immediately gave her a suspicion. Some vague report had

reached her before of my attachment to some young lady

in Devonshire, and what had passed within her observation

the preceding evening had marked who the young lady was,

and made her more jealous than ever. Affecting that air

of playfulness, therefore, which is delightful in a woman

one loves, she opened the letter directly, and read

its contents. She was well paid for her impudence.

She read what made her wretched. Her wretchedness I could

have borne, but her passion--her malice--At all events it

must be appeased. And, in short--what do you think of my

wife's style of letter-writing?--delicate--tender--

truly feminine--was it not?"

"Your wife!--The letter was in your own hand-writing."

"Yes, but I had only the credit of servilely copying

such sentences as I was ashamed to put my name to.

The original was all her own--her own happy thoughts

and gentle diction. But what could I do!--we were engaged,

every thing in preparation, the day almost fixed--But I am

talking like a fool. Preparation!--day!--In honest words,

her money was necessary to me, and in a situation like

mine, any thing was to be done to prevent a rupture.

And after all, what did it signify to my character

in the opinion of Marianne and her friends, in what language

my answer was couched?--It must have been only to one end.

My business was to declare myself a scoundrel, and whether

I did it with a bow or a bluster was of little importance.--

'I am ruined for ever in their opinion--' said I to

myself--'I am shut out for ever from their society,

they already think me an unprincipled fellow, this letter

will only make them think me a blackguard one.' Such were

my reasonings, as, in a sort of desperate carelessness,

I copied my wife's words, and parted with the last relics

of Marianne. Her three notes--unluckily they were all

in my pocketbook, or I should have denied their existence,

and hoarded them for ever--I was forced to put them up,

and could not even kiss them. And the lock of hair--that too

I had always carried about me in the same pocket-book,

which was now searched by Madam with the most ingratiating

virulence,--the dear lock--all, every memento was torn from me."

"You are very wrong, Mr. Willoughby, very blamable,"

said Elinor, while her voice, in spite of herself,

betrayed her compassionate emotion; "you ought not to speak

in this way, either of Mrs. Willoughby or my sister.

You had made your own choice. It was not forced on you.

Your wife has a claim to your politeness, to your respect,

at least. She must be attached to you, or she would not

have married you. To treat her with unkindness, to speak

of her slightingly is no atonement to Marianne--nor can I

suppose it a relief to your own conscience."

"Do not talk to me of my wife," said he with a heavy sigh.--

"She does not deserve your compassion.--She knew I had no

regard for her when we married.--Well, married we were,

and came down to Combe Magna to be happy, and afterwards

returned to town to be gay.--And now do you pity me,

Miss Dashwood?--or have I said all this to no purpose?--

Am I--be it only one degree--am I less guilty in your opinion

than I was before?--My intentions were not always wrong.

Have I explained away any part of my guilt?"

"Yes, you have certainly removed something--a little.--

You have proved yourself, on the whole, less faulty than

I had believed you. You have proved your heart less wicked,

much less wicked. But I hardly know--the misery that

you have inflicted--I hardly know what could have made

it worse."

"Will you repeat to your sister when she is recovered,

what I have been telling you?--Let me be a little lightened

too in her opinion as well as in yours. You tell me that

she has forgiven me already. Let me be able to fancy that

a better knowledge of my heart, and of my present feelings,

will draw from her a more spontaneous, more natural, more

gentle, less dignified, forgiveness. Tell her of my misery

and my penitence--tell her that my heart was never inconstant

to her, and if you will, that at this moment she is dearer

to me than ever."

"I will tell her all that is necessary to what may

comparatively be called, your justification. But you have

not explained to me the particular reason of your coming now,

nor how you heard of her illness."

"Last night, in Drury Lane lobby, I ran against Sir

John Middleton, and when he saw who I was--for the first

time these two months--he spoke to me.--That he had cut

me ever since my marriage, I had seen without surprise

or resentment. Now, however, his good-natured, honest,

stupid soul, full of indignation against me, and concern

for your sister, could not resist the temptation of telling

me what he knew ought to--though probably he did not

think it WOULD--vex me horridly. As bluntly as he could

speak it, therefore, he told me that Marianne Dashwood

was dying of a putrid fever at Cleveland--a letter that

morning received from Mrs. Jennings declared her danger

most imminent--the Palmers are all gone off in a fright,

&c.--I was too much shocked to be able to pass myself

off as insensible even to the undiscerning Sir John.

His heart was softened in seeing mine suffer; and so much

of his ill-will was done away, that when we parted,

he almost shook me by the hand while he reminded me of an

old promise about a pointer puppy. What I felt on hearing

that your sister was dying--and dying too, believing me

the greatest villain upon earth, scorning, hating me

in her latest moments--for how could I tell what horrid

projects might not have been imputed? ONE person I

was sure would represent me as capable of any thing--

What I felt was dreadful!--My resolution was soon made,

and at eight o'clock this morning I was in my carriage.

Now you know all."

Elinor made no answer. Her thoughts were silently fixed

on the irreparable injury which too early an independence

and its consequent habits of idleness, dissipation, and luxury,

had made in the mind, the character, the happiness,

of a man who, to every advantage of person and talents,

united a disposition naturally open and honest, and a

feeling, affectionate temper. The world had made him

extravagant and vain--Extravagance and vanity had made him

cold-hearted and selfish. Vanity, while seeking its own

guilty triumph at the expense of another, had involved

him in a real attachment, which extravagance, or at least

its offspring, necessity, had required to be sacrificed.

Each faulty propensity in leading him to evil, had led

him likewise to punishment. The attachment, from which

against honour, against feeling, against every better interest

he had outwardly torn himself, now, when no longer allowable,

governed every thought; and the connection, for the sake

of which he had, with little scruple, left her sister

to misery, was likely to prove a source of unhappiness

to himself of a far more incurable nature. From a reverie

of this kind she was recalled at the end of some minutes

by Willoughby, who, rousing himself from a reverie at least

equally painful, started up in preparation for going, and said--

"There is no use in staying here; I must be off."

"Are you going back to town?"

"No--to Combe Magna. I have business there;

from thence to town in a day or two. Good bye."

He held out his hand. She could not refuse to give

him hers's;--he pressed it with affection.

"And you DO think something better of me than

you did?"--said he, letting it fall, and leaning against

the mantel-piece as if forgetting he was to go.

Elinor assured him that she did;--that she forgave,

pitied, wished him well--was even interested in his

happiness--and added some gentle counsel as to the behaviour

most likely to promote it. His answer was not very encouraging.

"As to that," said he, "I must rub through the world

as well as I can. Domestic happiness is out of the question.

If, however, I am allowed to think that you and yours feel

an interest in my fate and actions, it may be the means--it

may put me on my guard--at least, it may be something to

live for. Marianne to be sure is lost to me for ever.

Were I even by any blessed chance at liberty again--"

Elinor stopped him with a reproof.

"Well,"--he replied--"once more good bye. I shall

now go away and live in dread of one event."

"What do you mean?"

"Your sister's marriage."

"You are very wrong. She can never be more lost

to you than she is now."

"But she will be gained by some one else. And if

that some one should be the very he whom, of all others,

I could least bear--but I will not stay to rob myself

of all your compassionate goodwill, by shewing

that where I have most injured I can least forgive.

Good bye,--God bless you!"

And with these words, he almost ran out of the room.

CHAPTER 45

Elinor, for some time after he left her, for some time

even after the sound of his carriage had died away, remained

too much oppressed by a crowd of ideas, widely differing in

themselves, but of which sadness was the general result,

to think even of her sister.

Willoughby, he, whom only half an hour ago she had

abhorred as the most worthless of men, Willoughby, in spite

of all his faults, excited a degree of commiseration

for the sufferings produced by them, which made her

think of him as now separated for ever from her family,

with a tenderness, a regret, rather in proportion, as she

soon acknowledged within herself--to his wishes than to

his merits. She felt that his influence over her mind

was heightened by circumstances which ought not in reason

to have weight; by that person of uncommon attraction,

that open, affectionate, and lively manner which it

was no merit to possess; and by that still ardent love

for Marianne, which it was not even innocent to indulge.

But she felt that it was so, long, long before she could

feel his influence less.

When at last she returned to the unconscious Marianne,

she found her just awaking, refreshed by so long and sweet

a sleep to the extent of her hopes. Elinor's heart was full.

The past, the present, the future, Willoughby's visit,

Marianne's safety, and her mother's expected arrival,

threw her altogether into an agitation of spirits

which kept off every indication of fatigue, and made

her only fearful of betraying herself to her sister.

Short was the time, however, in which that fear could

affect her, for within half an hour after Willoughby's

leaving the house, she was again called down stairs

by the sound of another carriage.--Eager to save her

mother from every unnecessary moment's horrible suspense,

she ran immediately into the hall, and reached the outward

door just in time to receive and support her as she entered it.

Mrs. Dashwood, whose terror as they drew near the

house had produced almost the conviction of Marianne's

being no more, had no voice to inquire after her,

no voice even for Elinor; but SHE, waiting neither for

salutation nor inquiry, instantly gave the joyful relief;--

and her mother, catching it with all her usual warmth,

was in a moment as much overcome by her happiness, as she

had been before by her fears. She was supported into

the drawing-room between her daughter and her friend;--

and there, shedding tears of joy, though still unable

to speak, embraced Elinor again and again, turning from her

at intervals to press Colonel Brandon's hand, with a look

which spoke at once her gratitude, and her conviction

of his sharing with herself in the bliss of the moment.

He shared it, however, in a silence even greater than her own.

As soon as Mrs. Dashwood had recovered herself,

to see Marianne was her first desire; and in two minutes she

was with her beloved child, rendered dearer to her than ever

by absence, unhappiness, and danger. Elinor's delight,

as she saw what each felt in the meeting, was only checked

by an apprehension of its robbing Marianne of farther sleep;--

but Mrs. Dashwood could be calm, could be even prudent,

when the life of a child was at stake, and Marianne,

satisfied in knowing her mother was near her, and conscious

of being too weak for conversation, submitted readily to the

silence and quiet prescribed by every nurse around her.

Mrs. Dashwood WOULD sit up with her all night; and Elinor,

in compliance with her mother's entreaty, went to bed.

But the rest, which one night entirely sleepless,

and many hours of the most wearing anxiety seemed to

make requisite, was kept off by irritation of spirits.

Willoughby, "poor Willoughby," as she now allowed

herself to call him, was constantly in her thoughts; she

would not but have heard his vindication for the world,

and now blamed, now acquitted herself for having judged him

so harshly before. But her promise of relating it to her

sister was invariably painful. She dreaded the performance

of it, dreaded what its effect on Marianne might be;

doubted whether after such an explanation she could ever

be happy with another; and for a moment wished Willoughby

a widower. Then, remembering Colonel Brandon, reproved herself,

felt that to HIS sufferings and his constancy far more

than to his rival's, the reward of her sister was due,

and wished any thing rather than Mrs. Willoughby's death.

The shock of Colonel Brandon's errand at Barton had been

much softened to Mrs. Dashwood by her own previous alarm;

for so great was her uneasiness about Marianne, that she

had already determined to set out for Cleveland on that

very day, without waiting for any further intelligence,

and had so far settled her journey before his arrival,

that the Careys were then expected every moment to fetch

Margaret away, as her mother was unwilling to take her

where there might be infection.

Marianne continued to mend every day, and the brilliant

cheerfulness of Mrs. Dashwood's looks and spirits proved

her to be, as she repeatedly declared herself, one of

the happiest women in the world. Elinor could not hear

the declaration, nor witness its proofs without sometimes

wondering whether her mother ever recollected Edward.

But Mrs. Dashwood, trusting to the temperate account

of her own disappointment which Elinor had sent her,

was led away by the exuberance of her joy to think only

of what would increase it. Marianne was restored to her

from a danger in which, as she now began to feel,

her own mistaken judgment in encouraging the unfortunate

attachment to Willoughby, had contributed to place her;--

and in her recovery she had yet another source of joy

unthought of by Elinor. It was thus imparted to her,

as soon as any opportunity of private conference

between them occurred.

"At last we are alone. My Elinor, you do not yet

know all my happiness. Colonel Brandon loves Marianne.

He has told me so himself."

Her daughter, feeling by turns both pleased and pained,

surprised and not surprised, was all silent attention.

"You are never like me, dear Elinor, or I should

wonder at your composure now. Had I sat down to wish

for any possible good to my family, I should have fixed

on Colonel Brandon's marrying one of you as the object

most desirable. And I believe Marianne will be the most

happy with him of the two."

Elinor was half inclined to ask her reason for thinking so,

because satisfied that none founded on an impartial

consideration of their age, characters, or feelings,

could be given;--but her mother must always be carried

away by her imagination on any interesting subject,

and therefore instead of an inquiry, she passed it off with a

smile.

"He opened his whole heart to me yesterday as we travelled.

It came out quite unawares, quite undesignedly. I, you may

well believe, could talk of nothing but my child;--he could

not conceal his distress; I saw that it equalled my own,

and he perhaps, thinking that mere friendship, as the world

now goes, would not justify so warm a sympathy--or rather,

not thinking at all, I suppose--giving way to irresistible

feelings, made me acquainted with his earnest, tender, constant,

affection for Marianne. He has loved her, my Elinor, ever since

the first moment of seeing her."

Here, however, Elinor perceived,--not the language,

not the professions of Colonel Brandon, but the natural

embellishments of her mother's active fancy, which fashioned

every thing delightful to her as it chose.

"His regard for her, infinitely surpassing anything

that Willoughby ever felt or feigned, as much more warm,

as more sincere or constant--which ever we are to call it--

has subsisted through all the knowledge of dear Marianne's

unhappy prepossession for that worthless young man!--and

without selfishness--without encouraging a hope!--could

he have seen her happy with another--Such a noble mind!--

such openness, such sincerity!--no one can be deceived

in HIM."

"Colonel Brandon's character," said Elinor,

"as an excellent man, is well established."

"I know it is"--replied her mother seriously, "or

after such a warning, I should be the last to encourage

such affection, or even to be pleased by it. But his coming

for me as he did, with such active, such ready friendship,

is enough to prove him one of the worthiest of men."

"His character, however," answered Elinor, "does not rest

on ONE act of kindness, to which his affection for Marianne,

were humanity out of the case, would have prompted him.

To Mrs. Jennings, to the Middletons, he has been long

and intimately known; they equally love and respect him;

and even my own knowledge of him, though lately acquired,

is very considerable; and so highly do I value and esteem him,

that if Marianne can be happy with him, I shall be as ready

as yourself to think our connection the greatest blessing

to us in the world. What answer did you give him?--Did you

allow him to hope?"

"Oh! my love, I could not then talk of hope to him

or to myself. Marianne might at that moment be dying.

But he did not ask for hope or encouragement. His was

an involuntary confidence, an irrepressible effusion

to a soothing friend--not an application to a parent.

Yet after a time I DID say, for at first I was quite

overcome--that if she lived, as I trusted she might,

my greatest happiness would lie in promoting their marriage;

and since our arrival, since our delightful security,

I have repeated it to him more fully, have given him every

encouragement in my power. Time, a very little time,

I tell him, will do everything;--Marianne's heart is

not to be wasted for ever on such a man as Willoughby.--

His own merits must soon secure it."

"To judge from the Colonel's spirits, however,

you have not yet made him equally sanguine."

"No.--He thinks Marianne's affection too deeply

rooted for any change in it under a great length of time,

and even supposing her heart again free, is too diffident

of himself to believe, that with such a difference of age

and disposition he could ever attach her. There, however,

he is quite mistaken. His age is only so much beyond

hers as to be an advantage, as to make his character and

principles fixed;--and his disposition, I am well convinced,

is exactly the very one to make your sister happy.

And his person, his manners too, are all in his favour.

My partiality does not blind me; he certainly is not

so handsome as Willoughby--but at the same time,

there is something much more pleasing in his countenance.--

There was always a something,--if you remember,--in Willoughby's

eyes at times, which I did not like."

Elinor could NOT remember it;--but her mother,

without waiting for her assent, continued,

"And his manners, the Colonel's manners are not only

more pleasing to me than Willoughby's ever were, but they

are of a kind I well know to be more solidly attaching

to Marianne. Their gentleness, their genuine attention

to other people, and their manly unstudied simplicity

is much more accordant with her real disposition, than

the liveliness--often artificial, and often ill-timed

of the other. I am very sure myself, that had Willoughby

turned out as really amiable, as he has proved himself

the contrary, Marianne would yet never have been so happy

with HIM, as she will be with Colonel Brandon."

She paused.--Her daughter could not quite agree

with her, but her dissent was not heard, and therefore

gave no offence.

"At Delaford, she will be within an easy distance of me,"

added Mrs. Dashwood, "even if I remain at Barton; and in all

probability,--for I hear it is a large village,--indeed there

certainly MUST be some small house or cottage close by,

that would suit us quite as well as our present situation."

Poor Elinor!--here was a new scheme for getting

her to Delaford!--but her spirit was stubborn.

"His fortune too!--for at my time of life you know,

everybody cares about THAT;--and though I neither know

nor desire to know, what it really is, I am sure it must be

a good one."

Here they were interrupted by the entrance of a

third person, and Elinor withdrew to think it all over

in private, to wish success to her friend, and yet

in wishing it, to feel a pang for Willoughby.

CHAPTER 46

Marianne's illness, though weakening in its kind,

had not been long enough to make her recovery slow;

and with youth, natural strength, and her mother's presence

in aid, it proceeded so smoothly as to enable her to remove,

within four days after the arrival of the latter,

into Mrs. Palmer's dressing-room. When there, at her own

particular request, for she was impatient to pour forth

her thanks to him for fetching her mother, Colonel Brandon

was invited to visit her.

His emotion on entering the room, in seeing her altered

looks, and in receiving the pale hand which she immediately

held out to him, was such, as, in Elinor's conjecture,

must arise from something more than his affection for Marianne,

or the consciousness of its being known to others;

and she soon discovered in his melancholy eye and varying

complexion as he looked at her sister, the probable

recurrence of many past scenes of misery to his mind,

brought back by that resemblance between Marianne and Eliza

already acknowledged, and now strengthened by the hollow eye,

the sickly skin, the posture of reclining weakness,

and the warm acknowledgment of peculiar obligation.

Mrs. Dashwood, not less watchful of what passed than

her daughter, but with a mind very differently influenced,

and therefore watching to very different effect,

saw nothing in the Colonel's behaviour but what arose

from the most simple and self-evident sensations, while in

the actions and words of Marianne she persuaded herself

to think that something more than gratitude already dawned.

At the end of another day or two, Marianne growing

visibly stronger every twelve hours, Mrs. Dashwood,

urged equally by her own and her daughter's wishes,

began to talk of removing to Barton. On HER measures

depended those of her two friends; Mrs. Jennings could

not quit Cleveland during the Dashwoods' stay; and Colonel

Brandon was soon brought, by their united request,

to consider his own abode there as equally determinate,

if not equally indispensable. At his and Mrs. Jennings's

united request in return, Mrs. Dashwood was prevailed

on to accept the use of his carriage on her journey back,

for the better accommodation of her sick child; and the Colonel,

at the joint invitation of Mrs. Dashwood and Mrs. Jennings,

whose active good-nature made her friendly and hospitable

for other people as well as herself, engaged with pleasure

to redeem it by a visit at the cottage, in the course

of a few weeks.

The day of separation and departure arrived;

and Marianne, after taking so particular and lengthened

a leave of Mrs. Jennings, one so earnestly grateful, so full

of respect and kind wishes as seemed due to her own heart

from a secret acknowledgment of past inattention, and bidding

Colonel Brandon farewell with a cordiality of a friend,

was carefully assisted by him into the carriage, of which he

seemed anxious that she should engross at least half.

Mrs. Dashwood and Elinor then followed, and the others

were left by themselves, to talk of the travellers,

and feel their own dullness, till Mrs. Jennings was summoned

to her chaise to take comfort in the gossip of her maid

for the loss of her two young companions; and Colonel Brandon

immediately afterwards took his solitary way to Delaford.

The Dashwoods were two days on the road, and Marianne

bore her journey on both, without essential fatigue.

Every thing that the most zealous affection, the most

solicitous care could do to render her comfortable,

was the office of each watchful companion, and each

found their reward in her bodily ease, and her calmness

of spirits. To Elinor, the observation of the latter

was particularly grateful. She, who had seen her week

after week so constantly suffering, oppressed by anguish

of heart which she had neither courage to speak of,

nor fortitude to conceal, now saw with a joy, which no other

could equally share, an apparent composure of mind, which,

in being the result as she trusted of serious reflection,

must eventually lead her to contentment and cheerfulness.

As they approached Barton, indeed, and entered

on scenes of which every field and every tree brought

some peculiar, some painful recollection, she grew silent

and thoughtful, and turning away her face from their notice,

sat earnestly gazing through the window. But here,

Elinor could neither wonder nor blame; and when she saw,

as she assisted Marianne from the carriage, that she

had been crying, she saw only an emotion too natural

in itself to raise any thing less tender than pity,

and in its unobtrusiveness entitled to praise. In the

whole of her subsequent manner, she traced the direction

of a mind awakened to reasonable exertion; for no sooner

had they entered their common sitting-room, than Marianne

turned her eyes around it with a look of resolute firmness,

as if determined at once to accustom herself to the sight

of every object with which the remembrance of Willoughby could

be connected.--She said little, but every sentence aimed

at cheerfulness, and though a sigh sometimes escaped her,

it never passed away without the atonement of a smile.

After dinner she would try her piano-forte. She went to it;

but the music on which her eye first rested was an opera,

procured for her by Willoughby, containing some of their

favourite duets, and bearing on its outward leaf her own name

in his hand-writing.--That would not do.--She shook her head,

put the music aside, and after running over the keys

for a minute, complained of feebleness in her fingers,

and closed the instrument again; declaring however with firmness

as she did so, that she should in future practice much.

The next morning produced no abatement in these

happy symptoms. On the contrary, with a mind and body

alike strengthened by rest, she looked and spoke with

more genuine spirit, anticipating the pleasure of

Margaret's return, and talking of the dear family party

which would then be restored, of their mutual pursuits

and cheerful society, as the only happiness worth a wish.

"When the weather is settled, and I have recovered

my strength," said she, "we will take long walks together

every day. We will walk to the farm at the edge of the down,

and see how the children go on; we will walk to Sir John's

new plantations at Barton Cross, and the Abbeyland;

and we will often go the old ruins of the Priory,

and try to trace its foundations as far as we are told

they once reached. I know we shall be happy. I know

the summer will pass happily away. I mean never to be

later in rising than six, and from that time till dinner

I shall divide every moment between music and reading.

I have formed my plan, and am determined to enter on a course

of serious study. Our own library is too well known to me,

to be resorted to for any thing beyond mere amusement.

But there are many works well worth reading at the Park;

and there are others of more modern production which I

know I can borrow of Colonel Brandon. By reading only six

hours a-day, I shall gain in the course of a twelve-month

a great deal of instruction which I now feel myself to want."

Elinor honoured her for a plan which originated

so nobly as this; though smiling to see the same eager

fancy which had been leading her to the extreme of languid

indolence and selfish repining, now at work in introducing

excess into a scheme of such rational employment and virtuous

self-control. Her smile however changed to a sigh when she

remembered that promise to Willoughby was yet unfulfilled,

and feared she had that to communicate which might again

unsettle the mind of Marianne, and ruin at least for a time

this fair prospect of busy tranquillity. Willing therefore

to delay the evil hour, she resolved to wait till her

sister's health were more secure, before she appointed it.

But the resolution was made only to be broken.

Marianne had been two or three days at home, before

the weather was fine enough for an invalid like herself

to venture out. But at last a soft, genial morning appeared;

such as might tempt the daughter's wishes and the

mother's confidence; and Marianne, leaning on Elinor's arm,

was authorised to walk as long as she could without fatigue,

in the lane before the house.

The sisters set out at a pace, slow as the feebleness

of Marianne in an exercise hitherto untried since her

illness required;--and they had advanced only so far

beyond the house as to admit a full view of the hill,

the important hill behind, when pausing with her eyes

turned towards it, Marianne calmly said,

"There, exactly there,"--pointing with one hand,

"on that projecting mound,--there I fell; and there

I first saw Willoughby."

Her voice sunk with the word, but presently reviving she added,

"I am thankful to find that I can look with so little pain

on the spot!--shall we ever talk on that subject, Elinor?"--

hesitatingly it was said.--"Or will it be wrong?--I can talk

of it now, I hope, as I ought to do."--

Elinor tenderly invited her to be open.

"As for regret," said Marianne, "I have done with that,

as far as HE is concerned. I do not mean to talk to you

of what my feelings have been for him, but what they

are NOW.--At present, if I could be satisfied on one point,

if I could be allowed to think that he was not ALWAYS

acting a part, not ALWAYS deceiving me;--but above all,

if I could be assured that he never was so VERY wicked

as my fears have sometimes fancied him, since the story

of that unfortunate girl"--

She stopt. Elinor joyfully treasured her words

as she answered,

"If you could be assured of that, you think you

should be easy."

"Yes. My peace of mind is doubly involved in it;--

for not only is it horrible to suspect a person, who has

been what HE has been to ME, of such designs,--but what must

it make me appear to myself?--What in a situation like mine,

but a most shamefully unguarded affection could expose

me to"--

"How then," asked her sister, "would you account

for his behaviour?"

"I would suppose him,--Oh, how gladly would I suppose him,

only fickle, very, very fickle."

Elinor said no more. She was debating within herself

on the eligibility of beginning her story directly,

or postponing it till Marianne were in stronger health;--

and they crept on for a few minutes in silence.

"I am not wishing him too much good," said Marianne

at last with a sigh, "when I wish his secret reflections

may be no more unpleasant than my own. He will suffer

enough in them."

"Do you compare your conduct with his?"

"No. I compare it with what it ought to have been;

I compare it with yours."

"Our situations have borne little resemblance."

"They have borne more than our conduct.--Do not,

my dearest Elinor, let your kindness defend what I know

your judgment must censure. My illness has made me think--

It has given me leisure and calmness for serious recollection.

Long before I was enough recovered to talk, I was perfectly

able to reflect. I considered the past: I saw in my

own behaviour, since the beginning of our acquaintance

with him last autumn, nothing but a series of imprudence

towards myself, and want of kindness to others.

I saw that my own feelings had prepared my sufferings,

and that my want of fortitude under them had almost led

me to the grave. My illness, I well knew, had been

entirely brought on by myself by such negligence of my

own health, as I had felt even at the time to be wrong.

Had I died,--it would have been self-destruction. I

did not know my danger till the danger was removed;

but with such feelings as these reflections gave me,

I wonder at my recovery,--wonder that the very eagerness

of my desire to live, to have time for atonement to my God,

and to you all, did not kill me at once. Had I died,--

in what peculiar misery should I have left you, my nurse,

my friend, my sister!--You, who had seen all the fretful

selfishness of my latter days; who had known all the

murmurings of my heart!--How should I have lived in YOUR

remembrance!--My mother too! How could you have consoled

her!--I cannot express my own abhorrence of myself.

Whenever I looked towards the past, I saw some duty neglected,

or some failing indulged. Every body seemed injured by me.

The kindness, the unceasing kindness of Mrs. Jennings,

I had repaid with ungrateful contempt. To the Middletons,

to the Palmers, the Steeles, to every common acquaintance even,

I had been insolent and unjust; with a heart hardened

against their merits, and a temper irritated by their

very attention.--To John, to Fanny,--yes, even to them,

little as they deserve, I had given less than their due.

But you,--you above all, above my mother, had been wronged

by me. I, and only I, knew your heart and its sorrows;

yet to what did it influence me?--not to any compassion

that could benefit you or myself.--Your example was

before me; but to what avail?--Was I more considerate

of you and your comfort? Did I imitate your forbearance,

or lessen your restraints, by taking any part in those

offices of general complaisance or particular gratitude

which you had hitherto been left to discharge alone?--No;--

not less when I knew you to be unhappy, than when I

had believed you at ease, did I turn away from every

exertion of duty or friendship; scarcely allowing sorrow

to exist but with me, regretting only THAT heart

which had deserted and wronged me, and leaving you,

for or I professed an unbounded affection, to be miserable

for my sake."

Here ceased the rapid flow of her self-reproving spirit;

and Elinor, impatient to soothe, though too honest

to flatter, gave her instantly that praise and support

which her frankness and her contrition so well deserved.

Marianne pressed her hand and replied,

"You are very good.--The future must be my proof.

I have laid down my plan, and if I am capable of adhering

to it--my feelings shall be governed and my temper improved.

They shall no longer worry others, nor torture myself.

I shall now live solely for my family. You, my mother,

and Margaret, must henceforth be all the world to me;

you will share my affections entirely between you.

From you, from my home, I shall never again have the smallest

incitement to move; and if I do mix in other society,

it will be only to shew that my spirit is humbled,

my heart amended, and that I can practise the civilities,

the lesser duties of life, with gentleness and forbearance.

As for Willoughby--to say that I shall soon or that I shall

ever forget him, would be idle. His remembrance can be overcome

by no change of circumstances or opinions. But it shall

be regulated, it shall be checked by religion, by reason,

by constant employment."

She paused--and added in a low voice, "If I could

but know HIS heart, everything would become easy."

Elinor, who had now been for some time reflecting

on the propriety or impropriety of speedily hazarding

her narration, without feeling at all nearer decision than

at first, heard this; and perceiving that as reflection

did nothing, resolution must do all, soon found herself

leading to the fact.

She managed the recital, as she hoped, with address;

prepared her anxious listener with caution; related simply

and honestly the chief points on which Willoughby

grounded his apology; did justice to his repentance,

and softened only his protestations of present regard.

Marianne said not a word.--She trembled, her eyes

were fixed on the ground, and her lips became whiter

than even sickness had left them. A thousand inquiries

sprung up from her heart, but she dared not urge one.

She caught every syllable with panting eagerness; her hand,

unknowingly to herself, closely pressed her sister's, and

tears covered her cheeks.

Elinor, dreading her being tired, led her towards home;

and till they reached the door of the cottage,

easily conjecturing what her curiosity must be

though no question was suffered to speak it, talked of

nothing but Willoughby, and their conversation together;

and was carefully minute in every particular of speech

and look, where minuteness could be safely indulged.

As soon as they entered the house, Marianne with a kiss

of gratitude and these two words just articulate through

her tears, "Tell mama," withdrew from her sister and

walked slowly up stairs. Elinor would not attempt

to disturb a solitude so reasonable as what she now sought;

and with a mind anxiously pre-arranging its result,

and a resolution of reviving the subject again,

should Marianne fail to do it, she turned into the parlour

to fulfill her parting injunction.

CHAPTER 47

Mrs. Dashwood did not hear unmoved the vindication

of her former favourite. She rejoiced in his being

cleared from some part of his imputed guilt;--she was

sorry for him;--she wished him happy. But the feelings

of the past could not be recalled.--Nothing could restore

him with a faith unbroken--a character unblemished,

to Marianne. Nothing could do away the knowledge

of what the latter had suffered through his means,

nor remove the guilt of his conduct towards Eliza.

Nothing could replace him, therefore, in her former esteem,

nor injure the interests of Colonel Brandon.

Had Mrs. Dashwood, like her daughter, heard Willoughby's

story from himself--had she witnessed his distress,

and been under the influence of his countenance and his

manner, it is probable that her compassion would have

been greater. But it was neither in Elinor's power,

nor in her wish, to rouse such feelings in another, by her

retailed explanation, as had at first been called forth

in herself. Reflection had given calmness to her judgment,

and sobered her own opinion of Willoughby's deserts;--

she wished, therefore, to declare only the simple truth,

and lay open such facts as were really due to his character,

without any embellishment of tenderness to lead the

fancy astray.

In the evening, when they were all three together,

Marianne began voluntarily to speak of him again;--

but that it was not without an effort, the restless,

unquiet thoughtfulness in which she had been for some time

previously sitting--her rising colour, as she spoke,--

and her unsteady voice, plainly shewed.

"I wish to assure you both," said she, "that I see

every thing--as you can desire me to do."

Mrs. Dashwood would have interrupted her instantly

with soothing tenderness, had not Elinor, who really wished

to hear her sister's unbiased opinion, by an eager sign,

engaged her silence. Marianne slowly continued--

"It is a great relief to me--what Elinor told

me this morning--I have now heard exactly what I

wished to hear."--For some moments her voice was lost;

but recovering herself, she added, and with greater

calmness than before--"I am now perfectly satisfied,

I wish for no change. I never could have been happy

with him, after knowing, as sooner or later I must

have known, all this.--I should have had no confidence,

no esteem. Nothing could have done it away to my feelings."

"I know it--I know it," cried her mother.

"Happy with a man of libertine practices!--With one

who so injured the peace of the dearest of our friends,

and the best of men!--No--my Marianne has not a heart

to be made happy with such a man!--Her conscience, her

sensitive conscience, would have felt all that the

conscience of her husband ought to have felt."

Marianne sighed, and repeated, "I wish for no change."

"You consider the matter," said Elinor, "exactly as

a good mind and a sound understanding must consider it;

and I dare say you perceive, as well as myself, not only

in this, but in many other circumstances, reason enough

to be convinced that your marriage must have involved you

in many certain troubles and disappointments, in which

you would have been poorly supported by an affection,

on his side, much less certain. Had you married,

you must have been always poor. His expensiveness is

acknowledged even by himself, and his whole conduct declares

that self-denial is a word hardly understood by him.

His demands and your inexperience together, on a small,

very small income, must have brought on distresses which

would not be the LESS grievous to you, from having been

entirely unknown and unthought of before. YOUR sense

of honour and honesty would have led you, I know,

when aware of your situation, to attempt all the economy

that would appear to you possible: and, perhaps, as long

as your frugality retrenched only on your own comfort,

you might have been suffered to practice it, but beyond that--

and how little could the utmost of your single management

do to stop the ruin which had begun before your marriage?--

Beyond THAT, had you endeavoured, however reasonably,

to abridge HIS enjoyments, is it not to be feared, that instead

of prevailing on feelings so selfish to consent to it,

you would have lessened your own influence on his heart,

and made him regret the connection which had involved him

in such difficulties?"

Marianne's lips quivered, and she repeated the word

"Selfish?" in a tone that implied--"do you really think

him selfish?"

"The whole of his behaviour," replied Elinor,

"from the beginning to the end of the affair, has been

grounded on selfishness. It was selfishness which first

made him sport with your affections; which afterwards,

when his own were engaged, made him delay the confession

of it, and which finally carried him from Barton.

His own enjoyment, or his own ease, was, in every particular,

his ruling principle."

"It is very true. MY happiness never was his object."

"At present," continued Elinor, "he regrets what he

has done. And why does he regret it?--Because he finds

it has not answered towards himself. It has not made

him happy. His circumstances are now unembarrassed--he

suffers from no evil of that kind; and he thinks only

that he has married a woman of a less amiable temper

than yourself. But does it follow that had he married you,

he would have been happy?--The inconveniences would have

been different. He would then have suffered under the

pecuniary distresses which, because they are removed,

he now reckons as nothing. He would have had a wife

of whose temper he could make no complaint, but he would

have been always necessitous--always poor; and probably

would soon have learned to rank the innumerable comforts

of a clear estate and good income as of far more importance,

even to domestic happiness, than the mere temper of a wife."

"I have not a doubt of it," said Marianne; "and I

have nothing to regret--nothing but my own folly."

"Rather say your mother's imprudence, my child,"

said Mrs. Dashwood; "SHE must be answerable."

Marianne would not let her proceed;--and Elinor,

satisfied that each felt their own error, wished to avoid

any survey of the past that might weaken her sister's

spirits; she, therefore, pursuing the first subject,

immediately continued,

"One observation may, I think, be fairly drawn from

the whole of the story--that all Willoughby's difficulties

have arisen from the first offence against virtue, in his

behaviour to Eliza Williams. That crime has been the origin

of every lesser one, and of all his present discontents."

Marianne assented most feelingly to the remark;

and her mother was led by it to an enumeration of Colonel

Brandon's injuries and merits, warm as friendship

and design could unitedly dictate. Her daughter did

not look, however, as if much of it were heard by her.

Elinor, according to her expectation, saw on the two

or three following days, that Marianne did not continue

to gain strength as she had done; but while her resolution

was unsubdued, and she still tried to appear cheerful

and easy, her sister could safely trust to the effect

of time upon her health.

Margaret returned, and the family were again all

restored to each other, again quietly settled at the cottage;

and if not pursuing their usual studies with quite

so much vigour as when they first came to Barton,

at least planning a vigorous prosecution of them in future.

Elinor grew impatient for some tidings of Edward.

She had heard nothing of him since her leaving London,

nothing new of his plans, nothing certain even of his

present abode. Some letters had passed between her

and her brother, in consequence of Marianne's illness;

and in the first of John's, there had been this sentence:--

"We know nothing of our unfortunate Edward, and can make no

enquiries on so prohibited a subject, but conclude him

to be still at Oxford;" which was all the intelligence

of Edward afforded her by the correspondence, for his name

was not even mentioned in any of the succeeding letters.

She was not doomed, however, to be long in ignorance of

his measures.

Their man-servant had been sent one morning to Exeter

on business; and when, as he waited at table, he had

satisfied the inquiries of his mistress as to the event

of his errand, this was his voluntary communication--

"I suppose you know, ma'am, that Mr. Ferrars is married."

Marianne gave a violent start, fixed her eyes

upon Elinor, saw her turning pale, and fell back in her

chair in hysterics. Mrs. Dashwood, whose eyes, as she

answered the servant's inquiry, had intuitively taken

the same direction, was shocked to perceive by Elinor's

countenance how much she really suffered, and a moment

afterwards, alike distressed by Marianne's situation,

knew not on which child to bestow her principal attention.

The servant, who saw only that Miss Marianne was

taken ill, had sense enough to call one of the maids,

who, with Mrs. Dashwood's assistance, supported her into

the other room. By that time, Marianne was rather better,

and her mother leaving her to the care of Margaret

and the maid, returned to Elinor, who, though still

much disordered, had so far recovered the use of her reason

and voice as to be just beginning an inquiry of Thomas,

as to the source of his intelligence. Mrs. Dashwood

immediately took all that trouble on herself; and Elinor

had the benefit of the information without the exertion

of seeking it.

"Who told you that Mr. Ferrars was married, Thomas?"

"I see Mr. Ferrars myself, ma'am, this morning

in Exeter, and his lady too, Miss Steele as was. They was

stopping in a chaise at the door of the New London Inn,

as I went there with a message from Sally at the Park

to her brother, who is one of the post-boys. I happened

to look up as I went by the chaise, and so I see directly

it was the youngest Miss Steele; so I took off my hat,

and she knew me and called to me, and inquired after you,

ma'am, and the young ladies, especially Miss Marianne,

and bid me I should give her compliments and Mr. Ferrars's,

their best compliments and service, and how sorry they

was they had not time to come on and see you, but they was

in a great hurry to go forwards, for they was going further

down for a little while, but howsever, when they come back,

they'd make sure to come and see you."

"But did she tell you she was married, Thomas?"

"Yes, ma'am. She smiled, and said how she

had changed her name since she was in these parts.

She was always a very affable and free-spoken young lady,

and very civil behaved. So, I made free to wish her joy."

"Was Mr. Ferrars in the carriage with her?"

"Yes, ma'am, I just see him leaning back in it,

but he did not look up;--he never was a gentleman much

for talking."

Elinor's heart could easily account for his not

putting himself forward; and Mrs. Dashwood probably

found the same explanation.

"Was there no one else in the carriage?"

"No, ma'am, only they two."

"Do you know where they came from?"

"They come straight from town, as Miss Lucy--

Mrs. Ferrars told me."

"And are they going farther westward?"

"Yes, ma'am--but not to bide long. They will soon

be back again, and then they'd be sure and call here."

Mrs. Dashwood now looked at her daughter;

but Elinor knew better than to expect them.

She recognised the whole of Lucy in the message, and was

very confident that Edward would never come near them.

She observed in a low voice, to her mother, that they

were probably going down to Mr. Pratt's, near Plymouth.

Thomas's intelligence seemed over. Elinor looked

as if she wished to hear more.

"Did you see them off, before you came away?"

"No, ma'am--the horses were just coming out, but I

could not bide any longer; I was afraid of being late."

"Did Mrs. Ferrars look well?"

"Yes, ma'am, she said how she was very well;

and to my mind she was always a very handsome young

lady--and she seemed vastly contented."

Mrs. Dashwood could think of no other question,

and Thomas and the tablecloth, now alike needless,

were soon afterwards dismissed. Marianne had already sent

to say, that she should eat nothing more. Mrs. Dashwood's

and Elinor's appetites were equally lost, and Margaret

might think herself very well off, that with so much

uneasiness as both her sisters had lately experienced,

so much reason as they had often had to be careless

of their meals, she had never been obliged to go without

her dinner before.

When the dessert and the wine were arranged,

and Mrs. Dashwood and Elinor were left by themselves,

they remained long together in a similarity of thoughtfulness

and silence. Mrs. Dashwood feared to hazard any remark,

and ventured not to offer consolation. She now found

that she had erred in relying on Elinor's representation

of herself; and justly concluded that every thing

had been expressly softened at the time, to spare her

from an increase of unhappiness, suffering as she then

had suffered for Marianne. She found that she had been

misled by the careful, the considerate attention of

her daughter, to think the attachment, which once she

had so well understood, much slighter in reality, than

she had been wont to believe, or than it was now proved

to be. She feared that under this persuasion she had

been unjust, inattentive, nay, almost unkind, to her Elinor;--

that Marianne's affliction, because more acknowledged,

more immediately before her, had too much engrossed

her tenderness, and led her away to forget that in Elinor

she might have a daughter suffering almost as much,

certainly with less self-provocation, and greater fortitude.

CHAPTER 48

Elinor now found the difference between the expectation

of an unpleasant event, however certain the mind may be told

to consider it, and certainty itself. She now found, that

in spite of herself, she had always admitted a hope,

while Edward remained single, that something would occur

to prevent his marrying Lucy; that some resolution of

his own, some mediation of friends, or some more eligible

opportunity of establishment for the lady, would arise

to assist the happiness of all. But he was now married;

and she condemned her heart for the lurking flattery,

which so much heightened the pain of the intelligence.

That he should be married soon, before (as she imagined)

he could be in orders, and consequently before he could

be in possession of the living, surprised her a little

at first. But she soon saw how likely it was that Lucy,

in her self-provident care, in her haste to secure him,

should overlook every thing but the risk of delay.

They were married, married in town, and now hastening

down to her uncle's. What had Edward felt on being within

four miles from Barton, on seeing her mother's servant,

on hearing Lucy's message!

They would soon, she supposed, be settled at

Delaford.--Delaford,--that place in which so much

conspired to give her an interest; which she wished

to be acquainted with, and yet desired to avoid.

She saw them in an instant in their parsonage-house; saw

in Lucy, the active, contriving manager, uniting at once

a desire of smart appearance with the utmost frugality,

and ashamed to be suspected of half her economical practices;--

pursuing her own interest in every thought, courting the

favour of Colonel Brandon, of Mrs. Jennings, and of every

wealthy friend. In Edward--she knew not what she saw,

nor what she wished to see;--happy or unhappy,--nothing

pleased her; she turned away her head from every sketch of him.

Elinor flattered herself that some one of their

connections in London would write to them to announce

the event, and give farther particulars,--but day after

day passed off, and brought no letter, no tidings.

Though uncertain that any one were to blame, she found

fault with every absent friend. They were all thoughtless

or indolent.

"When do you write to Colonel Brandon, ma'am?"

was an inquiry which sprung from the impatience

of her mind to have something going on.

"I wrote to him, my love, last week, and rather

expect to see, than to hear from him again. I earnestly

pressed his coming to us, and should not be surprised

to see him walk in today or tomorrow, or any day."

This was gaining something, something to look forward to.

Colonel Brandon must have some information to give.

Scarcely had she so determined it, when the figure

of a man on horseback drew her eyes to the window.

He stopt at their gate. It was a gentleman, it

was Colonel Brandon himself. Now she could hear more;

and she trembled in expectation of it. But--it was

NOT Colonel Brandon--neither his air--nor his height.

Were it possible, she must say it must be Edward.

She looked again. He had just dismounted;--she could not be

mistaken,--it WAS Edward. She moved away and sat down.

"He comes from Mr. Pratt's purposely to see us. I WILL be

calm; I WILL be mistress of myself."

In a moment she perceived that the others were likewise

aware of the mistake. She saw her mother and Marianne

change colour; saw them look at herself, and whisper

a few sentences to each other. She would have given

the world to be able to speak--and to make them understand

that she hoped no coolness, no slight, would appear

in their behaviour to him;--but she had no utterance,

and was obliged to leave all to their own discretion.

Not a syllable passed aloud. They all waited

in silence for the appearance of their visitor.

His footsteps were heard along the gravel path; in a moment

he was in the passage, and in another he was before them.

His countenance, as he entered the room, was not

too happy, even for Elinor. His complexion was white

with agitation, and he looked as if fearful of his

reception, and conscious that he merited no kind one.

Mrs. Dashwood, however, conforming, as she trusted,

to the wishes of that daughter, by whom she then meant

in the warmth of her heart to be guided in every thing,

met with a look of forced complacency, gave him her hand,

and wished him joy.

He coloured, and stammered out an unintelligible reply.

Elinor's lips had moved with her mother's, and, when the

moment of action was over, she wished that she had shaken

hands with him too. But it was then too late, and with a

countenance meaning to be open, she sat down again

and talked of the weather.

Marianne had retreated as much as possible

out of sight, to conceal her distress; and Margaret,

understanding some part, but not the whole of the case,

thought it incumbent on her to be dignified, and therefore

took a seat as far from him as she could, and maintained

a strict silence.

When Elinor had ceased to rejoice in the dryness

of the season, a very awful pause took place. It was put

an end to by Mrs. Dashwood, who felt obliged to hope that he

had left Mrs. Ferrars very well. In a hurried manner,

he replied in the affirmative.

Another pause.

Elinor resolving to exert herself, though fearing

the sound of her own voice, now said,

"Is Mrs. Ferrars at Longstaple?"

"At Longstaple!" he replied, with an air of surprise.--

"No, my mother is in town."

"I meant," said Elinor, taking up some work from

the table, "to inquire for Mrs. EDWARD Ferrars."

She dared not look up;--but her mother and Marianne both

turned their eyes on him. He coloured, seemed perplexed,

looked doubtingly, and, after some hesitation, said,--

"Perhaps you mean--my brother--you mean Mrs.--Mrs.

ROBERT Ferrars."

"Mrs. Robert Ferrars!"--was repeated by Marianne and her

mother in an accent of the utmost amazement;--and though

Elinor could not speak, even HER eyes were fixed on him

with the same impatient wonder. He rose from his seat,

and walked to the window, apparently from not knowing

what to do; took up a pair of scissors that lay there,

and while spoiling both them and their sheath by cutting

the latter to pieces as he spoke, said, in a hurried voice,

"Perhaps you do not know--you may not have heard

that my brother is lately married to--to the youngest--to

Miss Lucy Steele."

His words were echoed with unspeakable astonishment

by all but Elinor, who sat with her head leaning over

her work, in a state of such agitation as made her hardly

know where she was.

"Yes," said he, "they were married last week,

and are now at Dawlish."

Elinor could sit it no longer. She almost ran

out of the room, and as soon as the door was closed,

burst into tears of joy, which at first she thought would

never cease. Edward, who had till then looked any where,

rather than at her, saw her hurry away, and perhaps saw--

or even heard, her emotion; for immediately afterwards

he fell into a reverie, which no remarks, no inquiries,

no affectionate address of Mrs. Dashwood could penetrate,

and at last, without saying a word, quitted the room,

and walked out towards the village--leaving the others

in the greatest astonishment and perplexity on a change

in his situation, so wonderful and so sudden;--a perplexity

which they had no means of lessening but by their

own conjectures.

CHAPTER 49

Unaccountable, however, as the circumstances of his

release might appear to the whole family, it was certain

that Edward was free; and to what purpose that freedom would

be employed was easily pre-determined by all;--for after

experiencing the blessings of ONE imprudent engagement,

contracted without his mother's consent, as he had already

done for more than four years, nothing less could be expected

of him in the failure of THAT, than the immediate contraction

of another.

His errand at Barton, in fact, was a simple one.

It was only to ask Elinor to marry him;--and considering

that he was not altogether inexperienced in such a question,

it might be strange that he should feel so uncomfortable

in the present case as he really did, so much in need of

encouragement and fresh air.

How soon he had walked himself into the proper

resolution, however, how soon an opportunity of exercising

it occurred, in what manner he expressed himself,

and how he was received, need not be particularly told.

This only need be said;--that when they all sat down to

table at four o'clock, about three hours after his arrival,

he had secured his lady, engaged her mother's consent,

and was not only in the rapturous profession of

the lover, but, in the reality of reason and truth,

one of the happiest of men. His situation indeed was

more than commonly joyful. He had more than the ordinary

triumph of accepted love to swell his heart, and raise

his spirits. He was released without any reproach

to himself, from an entanglement which had long formed

his misery, from a woman whom he had long ceased to love;--

and elevated at once to that security with another,

which he must have thought of almost with despair,

as soon as he had learnt to consider it with desire.

He was brought, not from doubt or suspense, but from

misery to happiness;--and the change was openly spoken

in such a genuine, flowing, grateful cheerfulness,

as his friends had never witnessed in him before.

His heart was now open to Elinor, all its weaknesses,

all its errors confessed, and his first boyish attachment

to Lucy treated with all the philosophic dignity of twenty-four.

"It was a foolish, idle inclination on my side,"

said he, "the consequence of ignorance of the world--

and want of employment. Had my brother given me

some active profession when I was removed at eighteen

from the care of Mr. Pratt, I think--nay, I am sure,

it would never have happened; for though I left Longstaple

with what I thought, at the time, a most unconquerable

preference for his niece, yet had I then had any pursuit,

any object to engage my time and keep me at a distance

from her for a few months, I should very soon have

outgrown the fancied attachment, especially by mixing

more with the world, as in such case I must have done.

But instead of having any thing to do, instead of having any

profession chosen for me, or being allowed to chuse any myself,

I returned home to be completely idle; and for the first

twelvemonth afterwards I had not even the nominal employment,

which belonging to the university would have given me;

for I was not entered at Oxford till I was nineteen.

I had therefore nothing in the world to do, but to fancy

myself in love; and as my mother did not make my home

in every respect comfortable, as I had no friend,

no companion in my brother, and disliked new acquaintance,

it was not unnatural for me to be very often at Longstaple,

where I always felt myself at home, and was always sure

of a welcome; and accordingly I spent the greatest part

of my time there from eighteen to nineteen: Lucy appeared

everything that was amiable and obliging. She was pretty

too--at least I thought so THEN; and I had seen so little

of other women, that I could make no comparisons, and see

no defects. Considering everything, therefore, I hope,

foolish as our engagement was, foolish as it has since

in every way been proved, it was not at the time an unnatural

or an inexcusable piece of folly."

The change which a few hours had wrought in the minds

and the happiness of the Dashwoods, was such--so great--as

promised them all, the satisfaction of a sleepless night.

Mrs. Dashwood, too happy to be comfortable, knew not how

to love Edward, nor praise Elinor enough, how to be enough

thankful for his release without wounding his delicacy,

nor how at once to give them leisure for unrestrained

conversation together, and yet enjoy, as she wished,

the sight and society of both.

Marianne could speak HER happiness only by tears.

Comparisons would occur--regrets would arise;--and her joy,

though sincere as her love for her sister, was of a kind to

give her neither spirits nor language.

But Elinor--how are HER feelings to be described?--From

the moment of learning that Lucy was married to another,

that Edward was free, to the moment of his justifying

the hopes which had so instantly followed, she was every

thing by turns but tranquil. But when the second moment

had passed, when she found every doubt, every solicitude

removed, compared her situation with what so lately it

had been,--saw him honourably released from his former

engagement, saw him instantly profiting by the release,

to address herself and declare an affection as tender,

as constant as she had ever supposed it to be,--she

was oppressed, she was overcome by her own felicity;--

and happily disposed as is the human mind to be easily

familiarized with any change for the better, it required

several hours to give sedateness to her spirits, or any

degree of tranquillity to her heart.

Edward was now fixed at the cottage at least for

a week;--for whatever other claims might be made on him,

it was impossible that less than a week should be given

up to the enjoyment of Elinor's company, or suffice

to say half that was to be said of the past, the present,

and the future;--for though a very few hours spent in

the hard labor of incessant talking will despatch more

subjects than can really be in common between any two

rational creatures, yet with lovers it is different.

Between THEM no subject is finished, no communication

is even made, till it has been made at least twenty

times over.

Lucy's marriage, the unceasing and reasonable wonder

among them all, formed of course one of the earliest

discussions of the lovers;--and Elinor's particular knowledge

of each party made it appear to her in every view, as one

of the most extraordinary and unaccountable circumstances

she had ever heard. How they could be thrown together,

and by what attraction Robert could be drawn on to marry

a girl, of whose beauty she had herself heard him speak

without any admiration,--a girl too already engaged

to his brother, and on whose account that brother had been

thrown off by his family--it was beyond her comprehension

to make out. To her own heart it was a delightful affair,

to her imagination it was even a ridiculous one, but

to her reason, her judgment, it was completely a puzzle.

Edward could only attempt an explanation by supposing,

that, perhaps, at first accidentally meeting, the vanity

of the one had been so worked on by the flattery

of the other, as to lead by degrees to all the rest.

Elinor remembered what Robert had told her in Harley Street,

of his opinion of what his own mediation in his brother's

affairs might have done, if applied to in time.

She repeated it to Edward.

"THAT was exactly like Robert,"--was his immediate

observation.--"And THAT," he presently added, "might

perhaps be in HIS head when the acquaintance between

them first began. And Lucy perhaps at first might

think only of procuring his good offices in my favour.

Other designs might afterward arise."

How long it had been carrying on between them,

however, he was equally at a loss with herself to make out;

for at Oxford, where he had remained for choice ever since

his quitting London, he had had no means of hearing of her

but from herself, and her letters to the very last were

neither less frequent, nor less affectionate than usual.

Not the smallest suspicion, therefore, had ever occurred

to prepare him for what followed;--and when at last it

burst on him in a letter from Lucy herself, he had been

for some time, he believed, half stupified between

the wonder, the horror, and the joy of such a deliverance.

He put the letter into Elinor's hands.

"DEAR SIR,

"Being very sure I have long lost your affections,

I have thought myself at liberty to bestow my own

on another, and have no doubt of being as happy with

him as I once used to think I might be with you;

but I scorn to accept a hand while the heart was

another's. Sincerely wish you happy in your choice,

and it shall not be my fault if we are not always

good friends, as our near relationship now makes

proper. I can safely say I owe you no ill-will,

and am sure you will be too generous to do us any

ill offices. Your brother has gained my affections

entirely, and as we could not live without one

another, we are just returned from the altar, and

are now on our way to Dawlish for a few weeks, which

place your dear brother has great curiosity to see,

but thought I would first trouble you with these

few lines, and shall always remain,

"Your sincere well-wisher, friend, and sister,

"LUCY FERRARS.

"I have burnt all your letters, and will return

your picture the first opportunity. Please to destroy

my scrawls--but the ring with my hair you are very

welcome to keep."

Elinor read and returned it without any comment.

"I will not ask your opinion of it as a composition,"

said Edward.--"For worlds would not I have had a letter

of hers seen by YOU in former days.--In a sister it

is bad enough, but in a wife!--how I have blushed over

the pages of her writing!--and I believe I may say that

since the first half year of our foolish--business--this

is the only letter I ever received from her, of which

the substance made me any amends for the defect of the style."

"However it may have come about," said Elinor,

after a pause,--"they are certainly married. And your mother

has brought on herself a most appropriate punishment.

The independence she settled on Robert, through resentment

against you, has put it in his power to make his own choice;

and she has actually been bribing one son with a thousand

a-year, to do the very deed which she disinherited the

other for intending to do. She will hardly be less hurt,

I suppose, by Robert's marrying Lucy, than she would have

been by your marrying her."

"She will be more hurt by it, for Robert always

was her favourite.--She will be more hurt by it,

and on the same principle will forgive him much sooner."

In what state the affair stood at present between them,

Edward knew not, for no communication with any of his family

had yet been attempted by him. He had quitted Oxford

within four and twenty hours after Lucy's letter arrived,

and with only one object before him, the nearest road

to Barton, had had no leisure to form any scheme of conduct,

with which that road did not hold the most intimate connection.

He could do nothing till he were assured of his fate with

Miss Dashwood; and by his rapidity in seeking THAT fate,

it is to be supposed, in spite of the jealousy with

which he had once thought of Colonel Brandon, in spite

of the modesty with which he rated his own deserts,

and the politeness with which he talked of his doubts,

he did not, upon the whole, expect a very cruel reception.

It was his business, however, to say that he DID, and he

said it very prettily. What he might say on the subject

a twelvemonth after, must be referred to the imagination

of husbands and wives.

That Lucy had certainly meant to deceive, to go off

with a flourish of malice against him in her message

by Thomas, was perfectly clear to Elinor; and Edward himself,

now thoroughly enlightened on her character, had no

scruple in believing her capable of the utmost meanness

of wanton ill-nature. Though his eyes had been long opened,

even before his acquaintance with Elinor began, to her

ignorance and a want of liberality in some of her opinions--

they had been equally imputed, by him, to her want

of education; and till her last letter reached him,

he had always believed her to be a well-disposed,

good-hearted girl, and thoroughly attached to himself.

Nothing but such a persuasion could have prevented

his putting an end to an engagement, which, long before

the discovery of it laid him open to his mother's anger,

had been a continual source of disquiet and regret to him.

"I thought it my duty," said he, "independent of my feelings,

to give her the option of continuing the engagement or not,

when I was renounced by my mother, and stood to all

appearance without a friend in the world to assist me.

In such a situation as that, where there seemed nothing

to tempt the avarice or the vanity of any living creature,

how could I suppose, when she so earnestly, so warmly insisted

on sharing my fate, whatever it might be, that any thing

but the most disinterested affection was her inducement?

And even now, I cannot comprehend on what motive she acted,

or what fancied advantage it could be to her, to be

fettered to a man for whom she had not the smallest regard,

and who had only two thousand pounds in the world.

She could not foresee that Colonel Brandon would give me a

living."

"No; but she might suppose that something would occur

in your favour; that your own family might in time relent.

And at any rate, she lost nothing by continuing the engagement,

for she has proved that it fettered neither her inclination

nor her actions. The connection was certainly a

respectable one, and probably gained her consideration among

her friends; and, if nothing more advantageous occurred,

it would be better for her to marry YOU than be single."

Edward was, of course, immediately convinced that

nothing could have been more natural than Lucy's conduct,

nor more self-evident than the motive of it.

Elinor scolded him, harshly as ladies always scold

the imprudence which compliments themselves, for having

spent so much time with them at Norland, when he must

have felt his own inconstancy.

"Your behaviour was certainly very wrong," said she;

"because--to say nothing of my own conviction, our relations

were all led away by it to fancy and expect WHAT, as you

were THEN situated, could never be."

He could only plead an ignorance of his own heart,

and a mistaken confidence in the force of his engagement.

"I was simple enough to think, that because my FAITH

was plighted to another, there could be no danger in my being

with you; and that the consciousness of my engagement was

to keep my heart as safe and sacred as my honour. I felt

that I admired you, but I told myself it was only friendship;

and till I began to make comparisons between yourself

and Lucy, I did not know how far I was got. After that,

I suppose, I WAS wrong in remaining so much in Sussex,

and the arguments with which I reconciled myself to the

expediency of it, were no better than these:--The danger

is my own; I am doing no injury to anybody but myself."

Elinor smiled, and shook her head.

Edward heard with pleasure of Colonel Brandon's

being expected at the Cottage, as he really wished

not only to be better acquainted with him, but to have an

opportunity of convincing him that he no longer resented

his giving him the living of Delaford--"Which, at present,"

said he, "after thanks so ungraciously delivered as mine

were on the occasion, he must think I have never forgiven

him for offering."

NOW he felt astonished himself that he had never yet

been to the place. But so little interest had be taken

in the matter, that he owed all his knowledge of the house,

garden, and glebe, extent of the parish, condition of

the land, and rate of the tithes, to Elinor herself,

who had heard so much of it from Colonel Brandon,

and heard it with so much attention, as to be entirely

mistress of the subject.

One question after this only remained undecided,

between them, one difficulty only was to be overcome.

They were brought together by mutual affection,

with the warmest approbation of their real friends;

their intimate knowledge of each other seemed to make

their happiness certain--and they only wanted something

to live upon. Edward had two thousand pounds, and Elinor

one, which, with Delaford living, was all that they could

call their own; for it was impossible that Mrs. Dashwood

should advance anything; and they were neither of them

quite enough in love to think that three hundred and fifty

pounds a-year would supply them with the comforts of life.

Edward was not entirely without hopes of some

favourable change in his mother towards him; and on THAT

he rested for the residue of their income. But Elinor

had no such dependence; for since Edward would still

be unable to marry Miss Morton, and his chusing herself

had been spoken of in Mrs. Ferrars's flattering language

as only a lesser evil than his chusing Lucy Steele,

she feared that Robert's offence would serve no other

purpose than to enrich Fanny.

About four days after Edward's arrival Colonel

Brandon appeared, to complete Mrs. Dashwood's satisfaction,

and to give her the dignity of having, for the first time

since her living at Barton, more company with her than

her house would hold. Edward was allowed to retain the

privilege of first comer, and Colonel Brandon therefore

walked every night to his old quarters at the Park;

from whence he usually returned in the morning, early enough

to interrupt the lovers' first tete-a-tete before breakfast.

A three weeks' residence at Delaford, where,

in his evening hours at least, he had little to do

but to calculate the disproportion between thirty-six

and seventeen, brought him to Barton in a temper of mind

which needed all the improvement in Marianne's looks,

all the kindness of her welcome, and all the encouragement

of her mother's language, to make it cheerful.

Among such friends, however, and such flattery, he did revive.

No rumour of Lucy's marriage had yet reached him:--he knew

nothing of what had passed; and the first hours of his

visit were consequently spent in hearing and in wondering.

Every thing was explained to him by Mrs. Dashwood,

and he found fresh reason to rejoice in what he had done

for Mr. Ferrars, since eventually it promoted the interest

of Elinor.

It would be needless to say, that the gentlemen advanced

in the good opinion of each other, as they advanced in each

other's acquaintance, for it could not be otherwise.

Their resemblance in good principles and good sense,

in disposition and manner of thinking, would probably

have been sufficient to unite them in friendship,

without any other attraction; but their being in love

with two sisters, and two sisters fond of each other,

made that mutual regard inevitable and immediate,

which might otherwise have waited the effect of time

and judgment.

The letters from town, which a few days before would

have made every nerve in Elinor's body thrill with transport,

now arrived to be read with less emotion that mirth.

Mrs. Jennings wrote to tell the wonderful tale, to vent her

honest indignation against the jilting girl, and pour forth

her compassion towards poor Mr. Edward, who, she was sure,

had quite doted upon the worthless hussy, and was now,

by all accounts, almost broken-hearted, at Oxford.--

"I do think," she continued, "nothing was ever carried

on so sly; for it was but two days before Lucy called

and sat a couple of hours with me. Not a soul suspected

anything of the matter, not even Nancy, who, poor soul!

came crying to me the day after, in a great fright

for fear of Mrs. Ferrars, as well as not knowing how to

get to Plymouth; for Lucy it seems borrowed all her

money before she went off to be married, on purpose

we suppose to make a show with, and poor Nancy had not

seven shillings in the world;--so I was very glad to give

her five guineas to take her down to Exeter, where she

thinks of staying three or four weeks with Mrs. Burgess,

in hopes, as I tell her, to fall in with the Doctor again.

And I must say that Lucy's crossness not to take them

along with them in the chaise is worse than all.

Poor Mr. Edward! I cannot get him out of my head, but you

must send for him to Barton, and Miss Marianne must try to

comfort him."

Mr. Dashwood's strains were more solemn.

Mrs. Ferrars was the most unfortunate of women--poor

Fanny had suffered agonies of sensibility--and he

considered the existence of each, under such a blow,

with grateful wonder. Robert's offence was unpardonable,

but Lucy's was infinitely worse. Neither of them were

ever again to be mentioned to Mrs. Ferrars; and even,

if she might hereafter be induced to forgive her son,

his wife should never be acknowledged as her daughter,

nor be permitted to appear in her presence. The secrecy

with which everything had been carried on between them,

was rationally treated as enormously heightening

the crime, because, had any suspicion of it occurred

to the others, proper measures would have been taken

to prevent the marriage; and he called on Elinor to join

with him in regretting that Lucy's engagement with Edward

had not rather been fulfilled, than that she should thus

be the means of spreading misery farther in the family.--

He thus continued:

"Mrs. Ferrars has never yet mentioned Edward's name,

which does not surprise us; but, to our great astonishment,

not a line has been received from him on the occasion.

Perhaps, however, he is kept silent by his fear of offending,

and I shall, therefore, give him a hint, by a line

to Oxford, that his sister and I both think a letter

of proper submission from him, addressed perhaps to Fanny,

and by her shewn to her mother, might not be taken amiss;

for we all know the tenderness of Mrs. Ferrars's heart,

and that she wishes for nothing so much as to be on good terms

with her children."

This paragraph was of some importance to the

prospects and conduct of Edward. It determined him

to attempt a reconciliation, though not exactly

in the manner pointed out by their brother and sister.

"A letter of proper submission!" repeated he;

"would they have me beg my mother's pardon for Robert's

ingratitude to HER, and breach of honour to ME?--I can

make no submission--I am grown neither humble nor

penitent by what has passed.--I am grown very happy;

but that would not interest.--I know of no submission

that IS proper for me to make."

"You may certainly ask to be forgiven," said Elinor,

"because you have offended;--and I should think you

might NOW venture so far as to profess some concern

for having ever formed the engagement which drew on you

your mother's anger."

He agreed that he might.

"And when she has forgiven you, perhaps a little humility

may be convenient while acknowledging a second engagement,

almost as imprudent in HER eyes as the first."

He had nothing to urge against it, but still

resisted the idea of a letter of proper submission;

and therefore, to make it easier to him, as he declared

a much greater willingness to make mean concessions

by word of mouth than on paper, it was resolved that,

instead of writing to Fanny, he should go to London,

and personally intreat her good offices in his favour.--

"And if they really DO interest themselves," said Marianne,

in her new character of candour, "in bringing about

a reconciliation, I shall think that even John and Fanny

are not entirely without merit."

After a visit on Colonel Brandon's side of only three

or four days, the two gentlemen quitted Barton together.--

They were to go immediately to Delaford, that Edward

might have some personal knowledge of his future home,

and assist his patron and friend in deciding on what

improvements were needed to it; and from thence,

after staying there a couple of nights, he was to proceed

on his journey to town.

CHAPTER 50

After a proper resistance on the part of Mrs. Ferrars,

just so violent and so steady as to preserve her from that

reproach which she always seemed fearful of incurring,

the reproach of being too amiable, Edward was admitted

to her presence, and pronounced to be again her son.

Her family had of late been exceedingly fluctuating.

For many years of her life she had had two sons;

but the crime and annihilation of Edward a few weeks ago,

had robbed her of one; the similar annihilation of Robert

had left her for a fortnight without any; and now,

by the resuscitation of Edward, she had one again.

In spite of his being allowed once more to live,

however, he did not feel the continuance of his existence

secure, till he had revealed his present engagement;

for the publication of that circumstance, he feared,

might give a sudden turn to his constitution, and carry

him off as rapidly as before. With apprehensive caution

therefore it was revealed, and he was listened to with

unexpected calmness. Mrs. Ferrars at first reasonably

endeavoured to dissuade him from marrying Miss Dashwood,

by every argument in her power;--told him, that in Miss Morton

he would have a woman of higher rank and larger fortune;--

and enforced the assertion, by observing that Miss Morton

was the daughter of a nobleman with thirty thousand pounds,

while Miss Dashwood was only the daughter of a private

gentleman with no more than THREE; but when she found that,

though perfectly admitting the truth of her representation,

he was by no means inclined to be guided by it,

she judged it wisest, from the experience of the past,

to submit--and therefore, after such an ungracious delay

as she owed to her own dignity, and as served to prevent

every suspicion of good-will, she issued her decree

of consent to the marriage of Edward and Elinor.

What she would engage to do towards augmenting

their income was next to be considered; and here it

plainly appeared, that though Edward was now her only son,

he was by no means her eldest; for while Robert was

inevitably endowed with a thousand pounds a-year,

not the smallest objection was made against Edward's taking

orders for the sake of two hundred and fifty at the utmost;

nor was anything promised either for the present or in future,

beyond the ten thousand pounds, which had been given with Fanny.

It was as much, however, as was desired,

and more than was expected, by Edward and Elinor;

and Mrs. Ferrars herself, by her shuffling excuses,

seemed the only person surprised at her not giving more.

With an income quite sufficient to their wants

thus secured to them, they had nothing to wait for

after Edward was in possession of the living, but the

readiness of the house, to which Colonel Brandon,

with an eager desire for the accommodation of Elinor,

was making considerable improvements; and after waiting

some time for their completion, after experiencing,

as usual, a thousand disappointments and delays

from the unaccountable dilatoriness of the workmen, Elinor,

as usual, broke through the first positive resolution

of not marrying till every thing was ready, and the

ceremony took place in Barton church early in the autumn.

The first month after their marriage was spent

with their friend at the Mansion-house; from whence

they could superintend the progress of the Parsonage,

and direct every thing as they liked on the spot;--

could chuse papers, project shrubberies, and invent a sweep.

Mrs. Jennings's prophecies, though rather jumbled together,

were chiefly fulfilled; for she was able to visit Edward

and his wife in their Parsonage by Michaelmas, and she

found in Elinor and her husband, as she really believed,

one of the happiest couples in the world. They had

in fact nothing to wish for, but the marriage of Colonel

Brandon and Marianne, and rather better pasturage for

their cows.

They were visited on their first settling by almost

all their relations and friends. Mrs. Ferrars came

to inspect the happiness which she was almost ashamed

of having authorised; and even the Dashwoods were at

the expense of a journey from Sussex to do them honour.

"I will not say that I am disappointed, my dear sister,"

said John, as they were walking together one morning before

the gates of Delaford House, "THAT would be saying too much,

for certainly you have been one of the most fortunate young

women in the world, as it is. But, I confess, it would

give me great pleasure to call Colonel Brandon brother.

His property here, his place, his house, every thing is in

such respectable and excellent condition!--and his woods!--I

have not seen such timber any where in Dorsetshire, as there

is now standing in Delaford Hanger!--And though, perhaps,

Marianne may not seem exactly the person to attract him--

yet I think it would altogether be advisable for you to

have them now frequently staying with you, for as Colonel

Brandon seems a great deal at home, nobody can tell what

may happen--for, when people are much thrown together,

and see little of anybody else--and it will always be

in your power to set her off to advantage, and so forth;--

in short, you may as well give her a chance--You understand

me."--

But though Mrs. Ferrars DID come to see them, and always

treated them with the make-believe of decent affection,

they were never insulted by her real favour and preference.

THAT was due to the folly of Robert, and the cunning

of his wife; and it was earned by them before many months

had passed away. The selfish sagacity of the latter,

which had at first drawn Robert into the scrape,

was the principal instrument of his deliverance from it;

for her respectful humility, assiduous attentions,

and endless flatteries, as soon as the smallest opening

was given for their exercise, reconciled Mrs. Ferrars

to his choice, and re-established him completely in

her favour.

The whole of Lucy's behaviour in the affair,

and the prosperity which crowned it, therefore, may be held

forth as a most encouraging instance of what an earnest,

an unceasing attention to self-interest, however its progress

may be apparently obstructed, will do in securing every

advantage of fortune, with no other sacrifice than that of time

and conscience. When Robert first sought her acquaintance,

and privately visited her in Bartlett's Buildings,

it was only with the view imputed to him by his brother.

He merely meant to persuade her to give up the engagement;

and as there could be nothing to overcome but the affection

of both, he naturally expected that one or two interviews

would settle the matter. In that point, however,

and that only, he erred;--for though Lucy soon gave him

hopes that his eloquence would convince her in TIME,

another visit, another conversation, was always wanted

to produce this conviction. Some doubts always lingered

in her mind when they parted, which could only be

removed by another half hour's discourse with himself.

His attendance was by this means secured, and the rest

followed in course. Instead of talking of Edward,

they came gradually to talk only of Robert,--a subject

on which he had always more to say than on any other,

and in which she soon betrayed an interest even equal

to his own; and in short, it became speedily evident

to both, that he had entirely supplanted his brother.

He was proud of his conquest, proud of tricking Edward,

and very proud of marrying privately without his

mother's consent. What immediately followed is known.

They passed some months in great happiness at Dawlish;

for she had many relations and old acquaintances to

cut--and he drew several plans for magnificent cottages;--

and from thence returning to town, procured the forgiveness

of Mrs. Ferrars, by the simple expedient of asking it,

which, at Lucy's instigation, was adopted. The forgiveness,

at first, indeed, as was reasonable, comprehended only Robert;

and Lucy, who had owed his mother no duty and therefore

could have transgressed none, still remained some weeks

longer unpardoned. But perseverance in humility of conduct

and messages, in self-condemnation for Robert's offence,

and gratitude for the unkindness she was treated with,

procured her in time the haughty notice which overcame

her by its graciousness, and led soon afterwards, by rapid

degrees, to the highest state of affection and influence.

Lucy became as necessary to Mrs. Ferrars, as either Robert

or Fanny; and while Edward was never cordially forgiven

for having once intended to marry her, and Elinor,

though superior to her in fortune and birth, was spoken

of as an intruder, SHE was in every thing considered,

and always openly acknowledged, to be a favourite child.

They settled in town, received very liberal assistance

from Mrs. Ferrars, were on the best terms imaginable

with the Dashwoods; and setting aside the jealousies

and ill-will continually subsisting between Fanny and Lucy,

in which their husbands of course took a part, as well

as the frequent domestic disagreements between Robert and

Lucy themselves, nothing could exceed the harmony in which

they all lived together.

What Edward had done to forfeit the right of eldest

son, might have puzzled many people to find out; and what

Robert had done to succeed to it, might have puzzled them

still more. It was an arrangement, however, justified in

its effects, if not in its cause; for nothing ever

appeared in Robert's style of living or of talking to give

a suspicion of his regretting the extent of his income,

as either leaving his brother too little, or bringing

himself too much;--and if Edward might be judged from

the ready discharge of his duties in every particular,

from an increasing attachment to his wife and his home,

and from the regular cheerfulness of his spirits,

he might be supposed no less contented with his lot,

no less free from every wish of an exchange.

Elinor's marriage divided her as little from her

family as could well be contrived, without rendering

the cottage at Barton entirely useless, for her mother

and sisters spent much more than half their time with her.

Mrs. Dashwood was acting on motives of policy as well

as pleasure in the frequency of her visits at Delaford;

for her wish of bringing Marianne and Colonel Brandon together

was hardly less earnest, though rather more liberal than

what John had expressed. It was now her darling object.

Precious as was the company of her daughter to her,

she desired nothing so much as to give up its constant

enjoyment to her valued friend; and to see Marianne settled at

the mansion-house was equally the wish of Edward and Elinor.

They each felt his sorrows, and their own obligations,

and Marianne, by general consent, was to be the reward

of all.

With such a confederacy against her--with a knowledge

so intimate of his goodness--with a conviction of his fond

attachment to herself, which at last, though long after it

was observable to everybody else--burst on her--what could she

do?

Marianne Dashwood was born to an extraordinary fate.

She was born to discover the falsehood of her own opinions,

and to counteract, by her conduct, her most favourite maxims.

She was born to overcome an affection formed so late

in life as at seventeen, and with no sentiment

superior to strong esteem and lively friendship,

voluntarily to give her hand to another!--and THAT other,

a man who had suffered no less than herself under the

event of a former attachment, whom, two years before,

she had considered too old to be married,--and who still

sought the constitutional safeguard of a flannel waistcoat!

But so it was. Instead of falling a sacrifice

to an irresistible passion, as once she had fondly

flattered herself with expecting,--instead of remaining

even for ever with her mother, and finding her only

pleasures in retirement and study, as afterwards in her

more calm and sober judgment she had determined on,--

she found herself at nineteen, submitting to new attachments,

entering on new duties, placed in a new home, a wife,

the mistress of a family, and the patroness of a village.

Colonel Brandon was now as happy, as all those who best

loved him, believed he deserved to be;--in Marianne he

was consoled for every past affliction;--her regard and her

society restored his mind to animation, and his spirits

to cheerfulness; and that Marianne found her own happiness

in forming his, was equally the persuasion and delight

of each observing friend. Marianne could never love

by halves; and her whole heart became, in time, as much

devoted to her husband, as it had once been to Willoughby.

Willoughby could not hear of her marriage without

a pang; and his punishment was soon afterwards complete

in the voluntary forgiveness of Mrs. Smith, who, by stating

his marriage with a woman of character, as the source

of her clemency, gave him reason for believing that had he

behaved with honour towards Marianne, he might at once have

been happy and rich. That his repentance of misconduct,

which thus brought its own punishment, was sincere,

need not be doubted;--nor that he long thought of Colonel

Brandon with envy, and of Marianne with regret. But that

he was for ever inconsolable, that he fled from society,

or contracted an habitual gloom of temper, or died of a

broken heart, must not be depended on--for he did neither.

He lived to exert, and frequently to enjoy himself.

His wife was not always out of humour, nor his home

always uncomfortable; and in his breed of horses and dogs,

and in sporting of every kind, he found no inconsiderable

degree of domestic felicity.

For Marianne, however--in spite of his incivility

in surviving her loss--he always retained that decided

regard which interested him in every thing that befell her,

and made her his secret standard of perfection in woman;--

and many a rising beauty would be slighted by him in

after-days as bearing no comparison with Mrs. Brandon.

Mrs. Dashwood was prudent enough to remain at the cottage,

without attempting a removal to Delaford; and fortunately for

Sir John and Mrs. Jennings, when Marianne was taken from them,

Margaret had reached an age highly suitable for dancing,

and not very ineligible for being supposed to have a lover.

Between Barton and Delaford, there was that constant

communication which strong family affection would

naturally dictate;--and among the merits and the happiness

of Elinor and Marianne, let it not be ranked as the least

considerable, that though sisters, and living almost within

sight of each other, they could live without disagreement

between themselves, or producing coolness between their husbands.

THE END

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